217 and walking

yesterday my friend heather and the kids and i  took a walk ( 2.5 miles) to the lake to feed the fish it was a very nice walk and not to hot outside either
then we went swimming in my freezing pool to ice our swollen feet afterwards lol
i wore my new avia toning shoes

heres a pic of all the things i love in my new healthier lifestyle

avia toning shoes zumba everyday

and beet, carrot ,and apple   juice   i make in my blender soooooo good but add a little splenda too

love them
here's some pics of the kids

start of nature walk arent they too cute soo excited to go see some fish

kids and I

running home after a long  walk

oh yea and heres my other favorite thing
having a cup a gree tea a day
yum

it really does make it all good    :-)

thanks for all the encouragement

think i walked about 3 miles today while shopping lol
been doing zumba everyday
and thats about it
hope everyone else is doing well too

great weekend 215

so i have been doing zumba for a week and a half and been feeling a lil better about life in general 
lil man had his first soccer game today
he actually scored a goal
i am sooooooooooooooooo   proud of him you cant even imagine and to think we never thought he would be doing half the things he can do thank goodness for gluten freee casein free diets and great therapy and a very cooperative strong  young boy for helping kick autism right in the butt

im going to continue zumba and see if i lose anything by the end of next week

going to see some friends from work today

hope everyone has a great weekend as well

peace out cub scoutzzzzzzzzzzzz

220 once again

220 pounds
uuuggghhhh


Almost time to go back to work and all i did this summer was gain gain gain......

came home from vacation and i am trying my best to make this last month b4 work and lil man going back to school be a good weight loss month but so far all ive done is gain gain gain gain gain.....

i have done zumba all week long but if i can not stop eating im only going to gain  gain gain gain.....

i keep thinking about what i used to do to lose weight and i realized i would not be tempted by pizza or cheese fries or wings or burger king or anything really    but i am now    and i dont know y
 i stuck to eating alot more protein to feel fuller longer   but i dont now   and i dont know y

and i never drank any sugary drinks or soda
but i do now and i dont know y

now i drink 3 a day at least

and i keep wondering why this weight is coming back sooooooooooo fast

well i know why but i cant seem to change

need some inspiration or something cuz im just exhausted by the whole trying to change my life again

it worked  for 2 years but i dont know where i went off track or y

i guess i forgot i was doing this all to be healthier

must have cuz i smoke cigarretes  again 2  and thats not healthy i can hardly breath walking up steps again
i cant do anything i could even do 6 months ago
its horrible


but i just dont know how to change my life for a second time

i have started by adding movement in with zumba

im going to have to start only drinking water again and c if my appetite changes


i hate stress
i know this is all because of stress
i let stress change who i really am on a constant basis and i cant stand it
i need to find an outlet and  let it go



if anyone has any suggestions to  help me right now

i am definately crying out for help
begging on my knees right now


HELP!!!!!!!!!