11.10.2012

Halloween 2012

 HALLOWEEN!
Halloween is starting to be a more stressful holiday than Christmas. But, I am starting to love it like I do Christmas. 

Every year since Madeline was two she has come up with the best ideas for her Halloween costumes. This year the plan was a clown family. "Finally!" I thought "An easy costume to put together." 

Then one day Bradley and I were in the grocery store and the cashier asked him what he was going to be for Halloween and he answered "The Lorax." I never thought of asking him what he wanted to be. We always did what Madeline wanted. I figured if he 
wants to be the Lorax then he should get to be the Lorax.

Madeline changed her mind about being a clown a few weeks before Halloween because she wanted to be something from the Lorax too. She decided to be a Truffula tree.

Jared came up with the idea of being the UNLESS rock a few days before, so I painted the rock on a gray t-shirt for him. The easiest costume I have ever made :)

I have always said that as long as my kids wanted to be something awesome for Halloween then I will do my best to make it. When they start wanting to be regular stuff like Hannah Montana or Batman then I am out. I am always up for a challenge when it comes to Halloween Costumes. If there is no challenge then it isn't fun for me. It is my favorite part. 



We had a fun time Trick-or-Treating with Mikey and the kids in the neighborhood. They raced from one house to the next, Mikey jiggling along behind the big kids. After about an hour Bradley was very done with the door to door thing. He would even cry if someone tried to give him candy. He just wanted to go home.


(Without Bradley by her side most people thought that Madeline was a flower. Only the real die hard Dr. Seuss fans knew she was a Truffula Tree.) 

It was a really fun Halloween.

8.29.2012

1st Day of 2nd Grade

Madeline's first day of 2nd great was "GREAT!" 
Her new teach Mrs. Watkins is "WONDERFUL!"
"THANKS FOR MAKING ME GO TO SCHOOL TODAY MOM"

I am so relieved that her first day was great. Last year she loved her teacher and wanted to go to school but spent the first week crying. She didn't want to come home but she didn't want to leave me. It was  so hard. 
This year, she was nervous but very brave and as you can tell by the quotes it was a really good day.
How could it be a bad day when you start school lookin' that good?
She is starting this year with glasses. She has three pair, these are her smart pants frames.

Here is a little thing that she did at school. She had to answer these questions about her self.


What is your most treasured possession? my bunny
What word best describes your personality? sweet
What is your favorite activity to do alone? play my ipod
What is your favorite activity to do with others? play in my yard
What is your special talent? art
What career would you like to have in the future? artist
What is your favorite school subject? math
Describe your family? bossy & kind
What person do you most admire? DAD ( I would like to add that she first wrote mom but erased it.)

My favorite answers are the last two. 
I love my big girl 2nd grader. She IS sweet.

5.10.2012

The Secret to My A+ Parenting

WARNING: very long post with no pictures

So, I would like to brag about my parenting lately and I would like to share an experience with you.

Yesterday I promised Madeline at 4:30 that we would get a snow cone when she was done with her homework IF she finished before 6:00. I reminded her few times before she finally started it. She finished after 6:00. She had a royal fit to which I stayed very calm. I told her that we could get a snow cone right after school today. She continued to scream and cry and yell to the point that she had Bradley crying because he was so worried about her. After about 15 minutes of this fit I told her that if she didn't stop she would not be allowed to have a snow cone for 2 weeks. She stomped off and quickly returned to continue her fit. After a few minutes I reluctantly had to ground her from a snow cone for 2 weeks. Nothing compared to the fit that followed that decree. Throughout the whole thing I totally kept my cool. I was never mad at her, I never yelled at her. I dealt with her in a very calm manner. I think that really threw her off and she didn't know how to handle my reaction to it all.

I would like to share some of my favorite Madeline quotes from her fit.

"You should have yelled at me and made me do it... NOW IT'S TOO LATE!"

"2 weeks is a really long time! That's 14 days... that is half a month... what if it is cold in 14 days?"

"I don't know why you are being so nice to me when I am being such a butt."

"You should give me to the adoption people."

After she had calmed down and we were eating dinner she said to me, "Normally when I have a fit like that you scream at me and cry. You didn't do that this time."
I asked her if she liked it better this way, she said, "Yah, I loved it... Why didn't you cry?"

Then I told her my secret.


Let me go back about 3 1/2 years. I was pregnant with Bradley, we had some serious financial stresses coming at us every couple of months right up till I had Bradley and then he was not added to our insurance so we had to pay for all of his medical bills from birth until 5 months old. It was the most stressful year ever. When I get extremely stressed my body releases the stress through my eyes in the form of Iritis. This was the 3rd time I have had this scary condition. Being pregnant and unable to take the oral steroids that usually fix the problem made this case even more scary and it took 3 months to clear it up.

From that year on is when I started having trouble in my brain. I couldn't focus on anything. I felt overwhelmed by everything.  A thought would go into my head and dissolve before I could act on it. I would walk around my house all day and never accomplish anything. Many times I could barley have a conversation with someone because my mind would go blank as to what we were even talking about. I found myself avoiding people a lot. I felt like I was in survival mode and it was all I could do to keep me and my children alive. 

I felt so bad about myself. I kept thinking I used to be productive, I used to clean my house, play with Madeline, enjoy things. I was sure that I was just tired and when Bradley starts sleeping better then I would feel better. Bradley started to sleep better but I never felt better.

A year ago, after admitting to a few people how I felt I came to realize that I was not just tired, I was depressed and I was not alone.  It made feel better just to realize that. I started thinking that I could fix my problem by eating better, exercising, I took a bunch of vitamins and herbal stuff. I thought that I was feeling better a little at a time but I would still have breakdowns and freak out on my kids. Then one day I read an article about a mother who had depression after her 2nd child was born. She was describing the behavior issues that her children had because of her depression and it was spot on with my kids. I cried and cried at the thought of what I was doing to my kids. I decided then that I needed help.

 I made a Dr. appointment but I couldn't get in for 3 months. By the time I saw the Dr. I had been trying to fight my depression on my own for a full year. Add that to the 2 1/2 years that I thought that I was just tired and I couldn't remember feeling normal.

As I talked to my Dr. he said that I had just ran down the list of symptoms of depression word for word. Then he asked if I didn't like to be around people, did I dread going to church? I answered yes! I never thought that was one of my symptoms. I thought that I had lost my testimony and nothing I seamed to do was helping me to get it back. I really thought that I was a horrible person.

I left the Dr. office with a prescription in hand and butterflies darting around in my stomach. I was a scared to take the medication. I was afraid that it wouldn't help me... what if I couldn't be helped. I was afraid that it would help and that I couldn't be normal without it. I had worked so hard for a year trying to avoid this day and here I was.

I started taking the pills, it would take 2-3 weeks before I would notice any change. It seemed like forever  but I started to notice that I felt better. At about 3 weeks I cleaned my house without hardly trying. My every day was no longer hard to do. I was doing it without even noticing when before everything that I did took so much effort. I was pretty excited about the change. I found that I was still short with my kids but I would take what I could get a.

Well I am now 3 months on the "Happy Pills" (we like to call them). I don't feel like a wonder woman, I don't feel like I drank an energy drink, I just feel normal. I find joy in my children playing even when they are being noisy and obnoxious. I am better able to prioritize my life. I can see that having all my chores done isn't as important as playing with my kids. I am happy with my days and proud of what ever I accomplished. I am more able to feel the spirit and understand my scriptures when I read. 

Best of all I see the difference in my kids. Bradley's change was immediate. He doesn't throw fit near what he used to. He is much easier to talk to and reason with. Madeline has taken longer to change but I am starting to see it in her. Tonight with her fit, I think that she really felt that I love her no matter what and that she wasn't a bad girl for being upset. Most importantly I think that she saw that I can be the dependable and consistent mom that she needs. That makes me feel so amazing to know that I can finally be that for her.

So, what is my secret? Zoloft. 

I don't have the worries about taking a pill like I did before. I don't care about all of those things. I am in control of me for the first time in 3 1/2 years. I love and enjoy my family and my church.
I have a lot of catching up to do. I have projects to complete and kites to fly. Kids to love on and a husband to date.

I only wish that I would have gotten help sooner.

Of course I am not saying that everyone should run out and get a pill but if you don't feel right do not waist time making excuses. Get some help. I found out that it affects more people than you think.




4.28.2012

My Wild Kratt Kids


Today after the kids finished their jobs they started to play like they were Wild Kratts. I still had my sewing machine sitting out from sewing my kids quilt tops for their room and I thought I could whip up a couple of creatures suits in no time.

I found some leftover fleece in blue and green just like the, Kratt Brothers, and got them made pretty quick.


The suit was easy. I just sewed a tube that fit each kids chest. Then I cut arm holes, and a neck hole and sewed the top together like a tank top. I glued the black paw on with hot glue.

I made them little pouches out of fleece and the strap is bias tape. They needed something to keep their extra powers in.


Then they needed some creature power discs so that they could turn into different animals. This took a while. I had enough black felt to make them each 4 discs. They chose squirrel power, wolf power, kangaroo power, and shark/whale power.

They have been playing so good together. All day!
It was totally worth NOT getting my jobs done to see them have such a good time together. 
Nothing makes me happier then when my kids get along.

They are adorable!

1.18.2012


This is the email I just sent to my 1st graders Teacher. I never thought that I would be asking these questions about a rabbit.


Hi,

Madeline is very excited about her bunny being a contestant in a race against a tortoise. She doesn't seem to know many useful details so I am hoping that you can clear some things up for me.

Is this real?
Is there going to be a live tortoise to race Slippers?
Will this be an indoor race?
Is there a date and time set for the race?

If you really want me to bring Slippers to school I can. It isn't a problem.

~Liz Ward