Yes...the rumors that you all have been hearing are in fact true...I am pregnant! We were trying to wait until I was showing a little more to tell people this time around, but several "sources" (i.e. The "Relief Society gossip chain" which showed it works extremely quickly & efficiently; a certain co-anchor--lets just call him "Rissa Carnita"--who felt the need to tell the whole world on television a few weeks ago; or my bulging belly speaking for itself)...thought it would be cool to spill the beans a little early. (It's okay, I still love all of you anyway...except my growing tummy.) I am about 14 weeks along. My due date is August 24th. We are so excited and are already pretty attached to this little guy/gal (no...forget the gal part, it's most likely another boy)! Pregnancy has always been a cakewalk for me. Or at least that's what I thought...this pregnancy has been anything but! Let me tell you about the roller coaster ride we have been on the past three weeks. *Disclaimer: It's a little on the long side, so if you're not interested (or you don't want to hear about blood and "womanly parts"), skip to the end!*
Three weeks ago on Monday (February 4th--a date I will never forget), I sent Connor off to school with his carpool, vacuumed my house & then sat down on the floor to play with Aiden. We had been playing for about 3 or 4 minutes when I started to bleed...a lot! I totally freaked out! Nothing like this had ever happened to me with my other pregnancies. I ran to the phone and grabbed the phonebook to find my doctor's number. After five minutes of searching with shaky hands, a clouded mind, and tears streaming down my face, I finally found the number and called them. The nurse told me that it sounded like I was miscarrying and that she would call me back after she talked to the doctor. I hung up the phone totally in shock! I had never gone through a miscarriage before and I was totally freaked out! I tried to call Mike, but got no answer on both his cell phone and office phone. I called my mom next (she and my dad work about 15 minutes away from my house and I knew that they could get to me faster than Mike could). She said that she and my dad would be right over. At that point, the nurse called me back and confirmed that the doctor thought I was probably in the process of miscarrying. He wanted me to come down for an ultrasound to verify the miscarriage and then they would figure out if my body was going to do it on its own or if they would have to perform a D&C to clean everything out. I hung up with her and went back to trying to get a hold of Mike...still no answer! I decided to keep calling his cell phone and office phone over and over again...thinking that someone in an office nearby would hear it ringing repeatedly, figure out that someone REALLY needed to get a hold of him, and go find him. This went on for about 10 minutes before someone finally took his phone to him and said, "Don't ever leave your desk without this again...someone obviously needs to get in touch with you!" He answered the phone and I started rambling off everything that had happened in the previous 20 minutes. He said he would leave right away and meet me and my mom at the doctor's office. At this point, I just sat around and waited for my parents to get there. My mind was going a million miles a minute & I thought I might go insane. I decided to call my friend, Amanda, just to talk. She really helped to calm me down, so big "thank you's" to her for that! :) At that point, my parents arrived. My dad gave me a blessing and then my mom and I headed for the doctor's office, while my dad stayed and watched Aiden and waited for Connor to get home from school. Mike met us down there and they sent us right into the ultrasound room. My mom's friend, Robyn, was actually the tech who did it...so it was nice to have a familiar face in such a crazy time. We started the ultrasound and saw the baby right away. She looked for a minute at it and said, "There's a heartbeat...and a pretty strong one too! Your baby is alive and is doing pretty well!" I started bawling!!! It was the best news a mom could hear in that situation! Then she went on to explain that it looked like part of my placenta had ruptured...that's why I was bleeding. I was in a daze at that point, but I remember her saying that the baby had originally implanted itself too low in my uterus and that part of the placenta had grown over my cervix. When that happens, that part of the placenta can rupture very easily, and that's exactly what had happened. You can actually see the rupture in the ultrasound photos above. (It's the little tear-dropped shape area to the right of the baby's head that is a lighter than the rest of the placenta.) At that point, the doctor came to talk to us. He put me on complete bed rest for a week. He said I could sit up to eat & I could get up to walk to the bathroom, but he wanted me to lay down the rest of the time. After a week had passed, they would do another ultrasound to see if the placenta was healing & we could decide how much activity I could do from that point on.
At first, it didn't seem like it was going to be that bad! Lying around for a week actually sounded like fun! Boy was I wrong! My OCD/ADHD self needs to be doing something at all times! That week was the longest week of my life! I read the rest of the "Twilight" series & watched movies/TV. By the weekend, I was so sick of Dr. Phil, Oprah, game shows, & soap operas that I could have screamed! In fact, I did scream...quite often in fact. I was seriously losing my mind! In fact, I TOTALLY had a breakdown moment and started crying because we ran out of baby wipes! HEAVEN FORBID!!! Poor Mike! I think he thought I was seriously going crazy!
The following Monday, we went back for another ultrasound. They said that the placenta was beginning to heal itself, but that I still had to take it easy for the next few weeks or I could rupture it again. They said I could try to slowly increase my activity everyday as long as I didn't start bleeding again. The two weeks since have been full of ups & downs! It seems like I'll be doing pretty good, so I start doing more, and then I start bleeding again...so we have to go in for a heartbeat check and then it's back down for more bed rest! I do seem to be doing pretty good the past few days, so I'm hoping that is a good sign!
I have another ultrasound in two weeks, and at that point, the doctor expects the placenta to be completely healed and the rest of the pregnancy to be pretty normal. So, that's what we're hoping for!
I just have to say "thank you" to everyone who has helped us through these past few weeks! To my mom, who has been at my house almost everyday to help clean, do laundry & whatever else I needed. To my sister, Ashlee, who has come down several days to help out as well. To Mike's parents who took the kids several days & brought us dinners. To Tami & Ashley who also brought us dinners and told me not to fight them on it. To my friends who called to check on me constantly (and let me talk their ears off). To my news director & assistant news director who were totally understanding about the situation and gave me time off during February Sweeps. To Aiden for always making me laugh...even when I was crying. To Connor...who totally stepped up to the plate! The day this all happened, Mike told Connor that he was going to have to kind of be the daddy when people weren't around to help. This little five-year-old AMAZED me! He got Aiden dressed, got cereal out for breakfast, and even CHANGED DIAPERS! I was totally blown away by him and his willingness to help! He didn't even complain about it much. In fact, the only complaint I heard was about 5 days in...I asked him to do something & as he walked off to do it, I heard him mutter "I'm sick of being the dad around here!" Haha! I had to laugh! And, last but certainly not least, I need to thank Mike! If you want to know what a "knight in shining armor" looks like...just look at him! He took a lot of time off work...even though he had a huge proposal coming up which I know he was nervous about getting done on time, and he kept up on his school work too...all while trying to be both dad AND mom to our boys. This has been his schedule for the past three weeks...5:20-6:00 get up, get ready and clean the house; 6:00 leave for work; 7:00-5:00 work; 6:00-10:00 school; 11:00-Midnight get home and clean the house again. Then get up at 5:20 the next morning and do it all over again! If that isn't true love, I don't know what is! I love you more than you will ever know Mike!!! Thank you!
Anyway, so that's been our life for the past three weeks! Hopefully, all this will be resolved in another couple of weeks and life can go back to normal! I guess it's a small price to pay to have a healthy, happy baby six months from now! And, hey, at least I'm going to have a plethora of ultrasound photos to show for it all! So, there you go. You know it ALL now...and not through the rumor mill or television, but straight from the horse's mouth! --Lindsay