New Chapter

SO much is going on right now. My kids are growing too fast. I miss them needing me. But also love their independence. Bethy is taking 2 huge trips next year. I am excited for her but also nervous. The first one is to Vermont to see family of mine, then she gets to go to Ireland. I want her to spread her wings but am also scared of losing her.
Plus there is so much other stuff going on and some of it just has to be left inside to stew for awhile because I am not really ready to process it. I knew it was coming but am not sure exactly how to handle it or what should be done about it.
I have 4 teenages now and a 6 yr old. How??? Everyone seems to be in a different stage and it is stressing me out dealing with it all.

Preschool

I can't get Dougie to go to preschool anymore. He didn't go a week ago because he had a fever for 3 days. now this week we got him there tuesday but he kept walking out and crying. We couldn't get him to stay. Now today he absolutely refuses and any time I mention it he starts crying and hides. I am just wondering if it is too much on him and he still needs more time with mommy. Should I just let preschool go? In a couple months he will be starting Kindergarten. So does he really need preschool. Should I subject us both to the crying and bad feelings? Just not sure what to do.