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my interview was fabulous! Mikey totally loves me and my 'gayness'. so i am glad i had that to win him over. mikey for all of you who don't know yet, is this little gay guy who is the store manager of World Market. he is snazzy, and he loves my vocabulary he said. there was this other really shy girl being interviewed at the same time. angela. so the 3 of us had a super time gabbin' it up. she is so shy though, and luckily, i am not so much, so that was a plus for me. i answered all of my scenario questions correctly... because, yes, i am that fantastic. haha... not so much.
i am willing to quit this job i hold at hollywood to be able to be a stock person, because due to the fact that i work for another company, i am unable to stock in the back of another. news to me, but hey... whatever. i would have to work anytimes from 10pm to 10am. i really dont know yet if it is something i would be willing to do. but i will call Mikey today and see what he thinks. if i have a shot, because if that is the case, i will be hired in the next week... not 2 weeks. i am crossing my fingers.
gus waited for me during my interview and afterwards we went to port orchard so that he could check in. he started to make me all these cd's when really, i kinda wanted to go home. but any time spent with him is the best. we went to his mom's office to see if there was a fax, and there wasn't, then spontaniously we went bowling. second day in a row, and let me tell you... i am officially the worst. i was better the day before... not by much, but i was. gus wasnt too shabby either. but he looks like a flamingo when he bowls. the cutest, even sexiest thing ever. haha. so we went back to his house, and he gave me pants. awwww... i like being a couple that can dress one another from our own closets. after he lotioned up his bald head, we eventually left for tacoma, and his dad wanted him home as soon as possible... that was my understanding. and we left gus' at 3, got to my place around 3:50-4, put on a movie called Happiness, which i recommend to EVERYONE. the movie is about 2H and 20M long, gus didn't leave my place until about 7. which means he probably didnt get home until 8 or so. 8pm is NOT how you spell "be home as soon as possible" but i loved it. i loved the fact that i spent all day yesterday and all day the day before with him.
so far all the weekends of september involve him and i doing something. fabulous. this weekend we are doing his garage sale business, and he is spending the night on saturday with me. :):):) the weekend of the 20/21st we are going to the puyallup fair to see my art work and we are going to the pirate festival thing. then the weekend of 27/28th there is a vintage clothing expo at the tacoma dome. plus, i am going to the rocky horror show live. the musical up in seattle, and i want to see if he would like to go too. we are going to the adult one. the 9pm show. then, on the 1st... this will be three months together being we will... be... huh? so yeah. 3 months. whoo!
so i am glad that my weekends are all full of fun times. and this week too. i got to see boosh twice and i got to see gus for 2 days straight. PLUS this weekend he is all mine too. i am sooo happy.
i watched some more episodes of queer as folk, and i am just in shock to what ted is doing. i would have probably done the same thing though, because i am not a jerk... not much of one anyway. ok,i am an asshole, but this is a super long post and i totally lost my train of thought, so i am bouncing like ben affleck.
i super love penguins.
i was talking to matt earlier today and i dont know yet if he is able to come over for thanksgiving. new york is kind of far and such so it costs a bit of money to fly over here. i told him i would pay for most, he isnt having it. i dont know wat to do. i want nothing more than for him to come down. he is such a fabulous guy and i want gus to meet him. i think gus would get a kick out of my little sarcastic ex boyfriend.
for all of you who dont know who matt is entirely, let me give you the scoop:
matt and i met in june or so of 2001. online. he was in NY (the fabulous state) and i was here, in WA, (drabville) and we started to talk often, it was pretty random when one day he told me "Hey sarah, guess where i am going to college?" and i am all "Where matt?" "oh, no where... just redmond, wa. to digipen". that wasnt REALLY what was said... but you catch my drift. so i was all "super cool! We should definately hang out when you come down!" so... time passes we takl a bunch and get to know each other very well. when august comes... and well.. no matt yet. hmm... i then got an email from him, telling me that he called and that he was in town. well i missed his call and was pretty bummed, but somehow i ended up talking to him about a week later. we talked every day for 4 hours at least. and his phnoe bill can prove it. we set up a time and place for us to meet. space needle, at noon. september 8th. saturday. well, if you know me, i can never be on time places. i have to be early. always. so i got there at 11 or so...just incase he decided to get there early too. who knows. so i was sitting there watching all of the street performers. when i look up and see a confused looking guy.. i thought that it may be him, and i was very nervous. the kid started to walk towards me and i knew it was him. he came up to me.. and says, "Sarah?" i stood up and hugged him, and well... he was shaking he was so nervous. cutest thing ever. we decided to take the monorail back to westlak and he gave me a gift. a little I heart NY mug. i still have it. and i was all gushy and stuff. he made me laugh a lot though, which was fabulous. the whole day we walked around seattle. he bought strawberry milk and then littered the bottle. i made him pick it up. we went everywhere. he did a bot of shopping at overpriced hot topic. i asked him questions about ny, and we decided to sit and talk. WHAT TIME IT IS??? hahah. random people had never been more worried. i'm sure of it. murtle edwards, boardwalk. we held hands and it was nice... best date i have ever been on. he stopped me on the boardwalk and told me he liked me, just as the sun was setting. *mushy stuff* that i LOVE! i told him i felt the same, and so... 981 came to be.
we dated for a while. well over a year, almost 6 months more. and things were great between us. we were inseparable. we were the same. we got along well, and we both love affection. so we gave as much as we recieved. we gave and gave and gave. poems, little inside jokes, love. we were there for each other. then he had to move away. we had almost broken up prior to that, due to him having to possibly move back. i wasnt having it. i let him move into my dad's house with me, and well... life was fabulous. but i could tell he still wasnt happy. he wasnt home. he moved away in may. cam back for july 4th, and i went with him to NY for a long time. months. we came back here i started my senior year of high school, and he left a month later. back to NY. i came for new years after another almost break up, and i stayed there for a week. that was the last time i have gotten to see maciej. 9 months ago. we broke up in february or march...
that was matt. almost everyday i think about him, if not everyday. he, i believe is my soulmate, and i adore him greatly. i compare the way he treated me to how i am treated now. in relationships. and because of that, i expect too much. i can tell that i shouldnt do that... but when you had the best and it was taken away... you can't help but hope that you will have the best again...
i will always love matt, in that sorta... noogie giving type way. he knows i am moving to NY, in the 3 year plan i told him about... he didnt have much to comment about. the last thing i want is for him to think it is because of him. seattle or NY are my choices. and i have heard bad things about both, but i will be farther away in NY, and thats what i want. to be far away from anyone i know. except for boosh. boosh. i love him. i love my friends. the "moms" and boosh are the real friends i have, and i love it. they are what i truely care about, always.
well i think i have defiantely written enough for one month.
i get to see gus tomorrow. i am sooo excited. i love him. "i finally CAME!"
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