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GI JOES!! [15 Nov 2001|07:25pm]

guess what came in the mail today.....me and jakes GI joes. omg its like the coolest thing ever. ok were talkin 10, i ll say that again 10 old school, oringal GI JOES. ahhhh. sooo cooool. they rock my ass. so much ass kickage, cant handle. ok yeah so i went to my spanish tutor for the first time. it was ok. shes seems nice, shes this old lady who used to teach or someshit. i dunno. hopfull it will help. peace

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[14 Nov 2001|08:59pm]

i wanna find someone who plays drums and sumone that good at guitar so me and jake can start a band cuz whit and zan dont want a 2nd guitarist

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[11 Nov 2001|11:27pm]

[ mood | worthless ]

[ music | basket case ]

ugh..i dont know. i like michaela so much. but i cant get rid of this feeling that she doesnt feel the same way. i just read her journal. i wish i could do for her what jeff did for her, and i know that i am a better person than he is, but still its not enough. i dont know what it is... she tells me that she likes me, but for some reason i always feel that she doesnt, or maybe that she does like me but just not as much as she says does, or maybe that she did and her feelings are just fading. i just wish i could make her happy. i apologize for being stupid and emo-ish and bitchy, and if this makes michaela feel guilty im sorry for that too, thats not what i want.

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[11 Nov 2001|12:05am]

i did absolutly nothing today, i divided my time fairly evenly between my room, the kitchen and the tv room, i wanted michaela to come over but she was asleep when i called and then her sister told her it wasnt important. oh well that sucks, i think we are doing something tomorow. and im pissed because there was a show at the hyde center right like next door to me that i didnt know about. that sucks soo much i would have really like to go to that it was carved hope, daves band and funbox. i hear daves band sucks and funbox sucks but i like carved hope alot. dammit that sucks. how come i didnt know about it. oh well.

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[08 Nov 2001|10:20pm]

[ mood | depressed ]

wow i feel like shit...

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[07 Nov 2001|10:21pm]

[ mood | crushed ]

what the fuck?!?

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[07 Nov 2001|07:41pm]

[ mood | depressed ]

[ music | territorial pissings-nirvana ]

i dont have anything to say

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[06 Nov 2001|08:53pm]

ok so i was really bored today and i was thinking. i was thinking about if i could what time period would be the koolest to live in and i think ive decided that it would be koolest to be a native american before the white man ever got here. they were such good people. they had no word for ownership, when they killed animals they used EVERY single part of it weather it be for food or making tools and weapons. i dunno that was random, comment and give ur opinion on what time period u would like to live in

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[05 Nov 2001|08:19pm]

[ mood | melancholy ]

[ music | RANCID!!- the wars end ]

blegh, i dunno...

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[04 Nov 2001|09:54pm]

[ mood | blah ]

[ music | nofx-gin and juice cover (kicks soo much ass) ]

yesterday was fun. i went to mikkis for awhile it was fun. then i went to zans and we played guitars with whit. it was fun. then we went to elaine and there were muchas personas alli. we hung out there for awhile then went and walked around in search of food. then we loiterd outside of unos and then my parents are such assholes and wouldnt let me sleep at zans so i had to come home. mikki went to elaines later and i missed her, that sucks. ok this is why my parents wouldnt let me sleep over zans, his parents had left and it is their belief that the parents should consult just to check in and make sure it is all ok before allowing me to sleep over some where. i have it figured out, they think that i am still in middle school and they treat me like im such a little kid. i cant stand it. they are such assholes!and they think that they are in their 70s meaning they never stay out later that 9, so pathetic. my god i hate them. today sucked. i spent the morning at the laundrymat doing laundry. then i got to come home and blow leaves around and then put them into bags. then i got to do homework and babysit my bro, but jake did come over for awhile and he entertained my bro while i worked. blah. i want to move out. i cant wait till i graduate...

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[01 Nov 2001|10:33pm]

[ mood | i dunno ]

[ music | sometimes i wanna take my toaster in the bath-mms-blink 182 ]

does anyone else get bothered when their boyfriend/girlfriend talks about other who they think are hot. fuckin josh harntnet wooo. god, its just makes me feel uglier than i already think i am and like if she had the chance she would cheat on me. now i kno thats not true. but when hotness of other guys is brought up, i dunno, it just bothers me. whatever im an idiot

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[29 Oct 2001|11:14pm]

Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: High
Schizoid: High
Schizotypal: High
Antisocial: Moderate
Borderline: Moderate
Histrionic: Moderate
Narcissistic: Low
Avoidant: Very High
Dependent: Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive: Moderate

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[27 Oct 2001|11:56pm]

[ mood | blah ]

[ music | i hate you fuck you leave me alone- reel big fish ]

good charlotte show kicked ass. the movie life was wicked good, mest could come so this band vroom played instead, they kinda sucked but it was fun. went with maida, rosina, and caleb. i relized i dont really have any reason to be mad at michaela. i mean oh no she didnt say bye. w/e. it was just a bad nite. just seeing how much more tom could do for her really sucked. w/e i dunno i dont make sense. my cell phone broke at the show, im really pissed. this big fat bastard pushed me with all his might and i flew through the air and landed on my side, the side which had a pocket which was holding my cell phone so that sucks. i havent talked to mikki sinse friday that sucks giant monkey penis...

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at the emo show.... [26 Oct 2001|11:01pm]

[ mood | depressed ]

[ music | the fuck off song-reel big fish ]

went to toms show tonite. the bands werent that bad, alittle too emo for me. whatever. do you know how weird it is standing there seeing someone sing all these love songs about your girlfriend. yeah that was definitly weird. there is so much unspoken weirdness between me and tom and its getting to me. michaela just left after the show and didnt even say bye. that was really kool of her. maybe she should just go out with tom. its obvious he could do so much more for her than i could. hes perfect for her. anyone that can write all those songs about someone and be in love with them for years that must mean something. i dunno. tonite sucked. my hand hurts, i punched the pay phone a buncha times...

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[24 Oct 2001|10:25pm]

[ mood | frustrated ]

[ music | my shitty ass guitar playing... doesnt quite qualify tho ]

i would like to apologize to all who read my journal. this is my like 4th entry of the day and i get annoyed when people write like 40 entries in one day and now im doing it. but im so fucking pissed rite now. havent got to talk to mikki all day, sucks. and i am so fucking bad at guitar. ahhh i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck.

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[24 Oct 2001|07:59pm]

[ mood | pissed off ]

[ music | treble charger-favorite enemy ]

i cant even call my fucking girl friend with out her bitch sister picking up and lying to me! every single time i call: hi is michaela there, she cant come to the phone right now can i take a message, yeah could you tell her to call alex, oh i dont think she will be able to tonite but she'll talk to you in school...everysingle time! ugh what a bitch!!

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[24 Oct 2001|04:35pm]

half day today, very good. i went to zans with whit and we played. it was ok. not great. they played for like an hour and a half and i played with them for like only 45 min. whatever. im tired. dont want to do homework. im tired. blegh. sleep

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[22 Oct 2001|07:29pm]

here we come, walkin down the street, get the funniest looks from, everyone we meet, hey hey were the monkeeys, and people say we monkey around, but were too busy singing, to put anybody down,we do whatever we want to, do what we like to do, the only time to get restless theres always sumthin new, hey hey were the monkeys, people say we monkey around, but were to busy singing, to put anybody down, were just trying to be friendly, come and watch us sing and play, weer the young generation, and weve got sumthin to say, one more time,go anywhere, just look over your shoulder,yes well be standin there, hey hey were the monkeys,people say we monkey around, but were too busy singing,to put anybody down,hey hey were the monkeys, and people say we monkey around,but were to busy singing, to put anybody down, were just tryin to be friendly, come and watch us sing and play.... ah the monkeeys....

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[21 Oct 2001|10:36pm]

[ mood | quixotic ]

[ music | what does quixotic mean?? beastie boys-paul revere ]

blah yeah. so i dunno about this whole band thing. i dont really think they want me. at first they seemed all excited by the idea and now there just kinda like oh well jam summore and see. w/e maybe they just dont wanna be like yeah u suck go away, or maybe they just wanna jam some more and see. who knows. i went to mikkis on saterday, didnt make a very good impression on the mother. uh oh.today sucked i had to mow the lawn then i had a shitloada homework. so thats all i did today but at like 10 jake came down he just left. its good to see him doing better. he wont be back tomorow if anyones wondering. more partial.um...i played alotta guitar today, started writing a song, i think ill work on lyrics in a bit. watched jackass w/ jake, good stuff good stuff.

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[21 Oct 2001|12:04am]

[ mood | depressed ]

god. i have no life. the only people who hang out with me are jake, michaela, lara, and chris. im such a looser. i dont like it. people are like oh thats not true we luv u but it is true. everyone is a part of a group thing. not me. i have my few friends here and there and people act like they like me but still im not a part of anything...

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