Below are the 9 most recent journal entries recorded in Lori's LiveJournal:

Sunday, November 18th, 2001
11:05 am	I returne where to start? I'm back after being gone for ever. I only remembered I had this journal the other day when I was moving stuff around and I found my sheet with the password for this place. anyway I'm moving:-D well I don't have time to elaborate on much but I'll think of a better entry later. Current Mood: good Current Music: too early for music (Comment on this)
Friday, June 22nd, 2001
1:17 am	death why do people focus so much on death? for me it comes up in conversations once a day or every other day. why must people think more of death and less of life? it's simple live your life your time will come but till then try to experience as much as possible. to the people who read this and are like the above and only think of death try to think of life and how many odds you beat to even come into existence. it wasn't a chance happening every one is here for a reason, go out and find your reason. I only say this because who knows what will happen tomorrow. Current Mood: distressed Current Music: sunny day real estate- every shining time you arrive (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 20th, 2001
1:19 am	shampoo is better that is a truly good movie, well I mean billy madison is a good movie. well summer hasn't been that bad. but I did get stuck doing manual labor today:-( but worse then that was my job was cleaning up this one area of the back yard were I found some really cool stuff, but it was all ruined because of the snow from last winter and all the rain we had so far. on a quick side note happy birthday to mike (sorry but I don't know the exact date) *starts singing happy birthday to you*;-) well, what are some other current events.... oh yes, I've come to realize that I'm on something and don't realize it.. oh well:-D I guess there isn't much other then the prior Current Mood: bouncy Current Music: goldfinger- superman (Comment on this)
Thursday, June 14th, 2001
11:28 pm	people suck oh what to say? life's a bitch then you marry one... not really, I would hope there are some people out there that don't walk around with their heads up their asses, but that will happen when blue monkes come shooting out of my ass. it's kinda sad how may people in this world are dick heads and only do stuff to better their own situation. and when any one is nice it's for a fleeting moment or there's some motive behind it. oh well. Current Mood: angry Current Music: the end- the doors (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 12th, 2001
2:07 am	bored..... what's there to say? summer takes it up the ass... well mainly recently... I meant to watch the execution of the una-bomber dude but I fell asleep an hour too early... that was probably gonna be the high point of my summer, well not really, I guess I'll find something other then drawing to occupy me... on another note my hair amuses me yet again.... now it has this reddish tint :-D it's fun,lol... I'm gonna stop before I hurt myself.... Current Mood: bored Current Music: paranoid- black sabbath (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 5th, 2001
9:15 pm	friend? today I've come to the thought am I a good friend? I feel that I can't help my friends when they might need me and that I just add to the problem... I at times feel I can't be trusted that I accidental fuc* stuff up. Word History: A friend is a lover, literally. The relationship between Latin amcus “friend” and am “I love” is clear, as is the relationship between Greek philos “friend” and phile “I love.” In English, though, we have to go back a millennium before we see the verb related to friend. At that time, frond, the Old English word for “friend,” was simply the present participle of the verb fron, “to love.” The Germanic root behind this verb is *fr-, which meant “to like, love, be friendly to.” who knows...... maybe I'm not a lovable person:-( Current Mood: cynical Current Music: B52's- Love shack (Comment on this)
Monday, June 4th, 2001
3:01 pm	BLAGH! ah! so stressed, but hey today was the last day of school so it's not all bad. now that I think back to yesterday I've realized that I can babel like an incoherent moron more then I thought. you know what's really great? NO SCHOOL!!!!! well I'm already behind on being bored for the summer, but I'll work on it... Current Mood: anxious Current Music: tetris techno mix- DJ Venom (Comment on this)
Sunday, June 3rd, 2001
10:26 pm	What happens when you think for too long and hear sappy music.... certain music and thinking don't mix, here are my thoughts for the evening.... I have met my one true love, blind to the truth, oblivious to the reality, I regret not saying it, those three small words that make up everything many hold dear in their life. Never again will I let that happen, never again will I fear to speak my mind, never again will I fail to say I love you. Unknown to me unknown to him how I truly felt, it was like a small tickle in the bottom of my stomach, when I would see him it didn’t matter what mood I was in before, just the sight of him made me smile always the same like the first time I saw him. His voice was calming, soothing, just listening to him speak would make me forget my troubles, even if he was talking about the worst things in life I knew I was safe from the world and reality with him. It’s amazing how love or infatuation can blind people. They don’t see the imperfections in the other; to them they are perfect. The sad thing is some people don’t recognize love when it’s staring them in the face, they may think it’s just a feeling that will pass, or they may just be lying to them selves trying to find a reason to stay with some one or for an explanation for their feelings, they may be unable to accept the fact that what they really feel is just affection for another. People say love is blind and it will “conquer” all. Love cannot survive in the modern world, love is now just a myth used to people feel more secure about their feelings they use it just like any other word, to impress other not knowing what it truly means. When these people really do find love they learn it’s not like any other thing, you can’t just stop loving someone you cant turn this feeling off. It may take just moments to fall in love but it takes a lifetime to forget someone. A common Question is “Do you believe in fate?”, I honestly don’t know, I don’t like the thought that I’m not in control, but you must wonder, why are we here, are we meant to wander this planet alone not knowing the compassion of others? I only fear that there is truly no one out there for me, to share my life and experiences with, you should be able to have some one other them family to turn to in times of need. There are some things that you just can’t share with family. Or some times the conflict is within your family; it’s always comforting to know that there’s somewhere else to turn to. But still I wonder what is the point of me being here? My only real hope in life is too meet someone that I like more then friends, not just because I’m lonely but because I have some connection on another level, to be able to understand this person like no one else I know. Now my major fear is that because of past experiences that I’ll be unable to love or show love for anyone. I fear that I’ve been scared inside by peoples remarks on who I like and how different I am that I should assimilate and be the same as the majority, to go with the flow and become another faceless being walking this planet. Also the way I’ve been treated, and all the empty, false words said to me wear me down unknown to most, but their words slowly eat me away inside, now I just feel like an empty shell of a person. I’ve heard it enough I know how I’ve fucked up; I just wish people would stop pointing it out and just let me try to deal with it. It doesn’t help that every time I build my confidence up some one will come and tell me what a mess I’ve made of things, at this rate I’ll get no where. People look at me and think I want nothing out of life, the truth is I want to make something of my life, I just don’t know where to start. Another thing is how every one acts like they’re better then me just because I don’t know what I believe. Always going through my head I hear people telling me that I’m condemned to hell because I don’t know what I believe, I get the impression that they see me as less of a person because I’m unsure on my beliefs, it makes me think they see me as inferior, and that just makes me feel like the world is forcing me to choose and put my faith and trust into something I don’t understand. Current Mood: thoughtful Current Music: alkaline trio- bleeder (Comment on this)
4:38 am	HI! hey people, I'm completely new at this I saw my friend's and thought it would be something fun to try, so here I am. well I don't have anything important to say right now so... yeah Current Mood: awake Current Music: Crass- Bloody revolutions (Comment on this)