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| Friday, March 22nd, 2002 | |
| 2:30 am | I wanna stick a syringe full of maggots up his ass I finally shaved my legs today woohooo I am a girl again :giggles: gawd I am so fucking sick and tired of being sick and tired because some mother fucker is makeing me sick and tired ya know what I mean damn its like i want to take my little fist and punch until there is nothing left but a bloody pulp of what used to be a scabby human existance Im so sad I think I am gonna hang myself from the chandelier in the dinning room but this journal and my other journal they will be considered my suicide note |
| Tuesday, March 19th, 2002 | |
| 9:52 pm | stuff welp... drugs booze more drugs and even more booze sleeep and lots of it entertainment from close friends arguements with Mike I worked one day and quit I looked for another job today watched a movie slept some more yep thats about it |
| Thursday, March 14th, 2002 | |
| 11:59 pm | sins of the flesh...TV kills the BRAIN today has been absolutley awfull I woke up this mourning went into the kitchen made myself a glass of water and still in my translucent dream stage with weary eyes and yawns I look up and peer out over the bar into the computer room to see if *he* was home BIG FUCKING MISTAKE for I see *him* buck ass naked going to town beating his meat I was so disturbed by the site that I ran to the bathroom and vomitted I felt disgusted disturbed sick embarrassed sorry for the situation mistreated abused selfish so many many emotions and thoughts so I burnt the fuck off somewhere inbetween I turned around got some of my shit so I could stay gone for a few days and *he* stopped me and confronted me (for he did not know what I had seen) so I indulged him a little I told him how he made me sick for I had witnessed the most disturbing act of course like usuall I was suckered into listening to him explain himself for he did not need to I understand very well HES A FUCKING PERVERT it would have been okay if there were actuall porn pictures that he was looking at I can understand that but damn its pretty fuckn sick to see someone beating off to cybersex or some shit the more and more I think about things the more I notice exactly what kind of a person he is and I am not sure if I would like to continue to be around this sort of person granted I love him to death but it makes me sick to think how humans are so sinful and repulsive not that I am any better but still |
| Monday, March 11th, 2002 | |
| 9:35 am | nothing at all yeah yeah so Im a bitch fuckn kill me please ended up at Jhonna's house last night I think I may meet up with his wifey Theresa for a small buisness endeavor ehm MONEY is good I am suppose to be getting dressed for an interview right now but uh look like im jacking off instead damn MIke was fucked up last night he makes me want to shoot him sometimes just UGH so damn UGH......... the thoughts in my depressed little head have subsided for now which I think is a good thing....until someone reminds me of something and then Ill be pushed over the edge into that downward spiral of misery |
| Thursday, March 7th, 2002 | |
| 4:20 pm | funny fuckn ha ha BL00DY 0RB: how the fuck have you been SeverdJugular: sleeping chating still working i need money BL00DY 0RB: need money for what SeverdJugular: well go get this girl from india BL00DY 0RB: DO WHAT BL00DY 0RB: are you serious SeverdJugular: steal her away from her x ha ha BL00DY 0RB: are you going to marry her so she can get a green card SeverdJugular: for what BL00DY 0RB: a green card so she can be legal in the states SeverdJugular: well she likes me fuk it BL00DY 0RB: she is only going to use you BL00DY 0RB: LOOK rob BL00DY 0RB: NO one likes YOU SeverdJugular: shes from fuking india BL00DY 0RB: and your to fucked up to realize it BL00DY 0RB: so who fuckn cares BL00DY 0RB: she is illegal BL00DY 0RB: she needs you to pay for her visa SeverdJugular: 19 BL00DY 0RB: and then get her green card BL00DY 0RB: fuck that shit BL00DY 0RB: WHO gives a damn rob BL00DY 0RB: YOUr stupid if you do that |
| 12:42 am | if I had a son I would want him to be just like Coy evulanjal: i stayed up to like 2:30 all depressed evulanjal: because, i miss talking to your sister, and i feel like i took it for granted and shit. BL00DY 0RB: awe... BL00DY 0RB: my god Coy you are the sweetest thing in the world evulanjal: heh evulanjal: i never tend to think such things like that. evulanjal: it sounds selfish to think too highly of yourself. ;-) evulanjal: it's sad evulanjal: how selfish your parents are all of this from a sixteen year old boy who had his heart broken by my younger sister who hardly had any interaction with my parents BUT HE IS SO FUCKING RIGHT shit like this amazes me and I adore that kid |
| Sunday, February 24th, 2002 | |
| 5:03 pm | blah ha ha I got knowcked the fuck out so last night Mike and I went to my friend Larz's house where he was suppose to be haveing Tims brday party ha' did he ever have a birthday man there were the usuall familuar faces and then somehow more and more people started to show up people we did not even know within 15 mins time larz's house was so full that it took forver to squeeze from one side of the living area to the other it was horrible anyways somehow or another a fight broke out and everyone from inside ended up on the front lawn ripping there clothes off and acting wild myeslf and ashley (ashley is so cute) got knocked the fuck out by some 400 pound black dude it was bad.....the cops came...and arrested people and somehow or another Mike and I managed to escape all the drama I feel lucky for it because I have warrants :sigh: poor larz's is going to jail for giveing minors alcohol : ( and the sad thing is...hes not even 21 the laws are fucked fuck the law and now today I am in so much pain I feel like I was hit by a fuckn train men who hit women have no fuckn respect for themselves or anyone else and I think its a sad sad sad thing all in all I think its fuckn cool and in some sick way I got off to it :giggles: I suppose it was all the excitement Current Mood:  amused |
| Saturday, February 23rd, 2002 | |
| 1:59 pm | North American Warped Tour 2002 Bands *Alkaline Trio Bad Religion BigWig Bum Ruckus *The Casualties Counterfit Divit Dynamite Boy The Eye Liners (Ladies Lounge) Five Iron Frenzy Flogging Molly Good Charlotte Guttermouth HOPE Hot Water Music Lagwagon Mi6 Midtown The Mighty Mighty Bosstones *MxPx New Found Glory *NoFX No Use For A Name Over It Ozma Recover Reel Big Fish Simple Plan Smackin Isaiah Thursday Used Useless I.D. Drive Thru Records Stage Home Grown Rx Bandits The Starting Line Finch Allister The Movielife Something Corporate Punkrocks.net Stage Glasseater Stretch Arm Strong Throwdown From Autumn To Ashes Unearth |
| Wednesday, February 20th, 2002 | |
| 3:46 pm | bla ha ha what a joke  I am bad. So bad. I absolutely hate people and animals. In fact, I probably sacrifice them. No one likes me, but of course it isn't my fault. I should just go back to New York because I am a corrupt Jesus. Take the What Jesus Would You Be? Quiz |
| 3:01 pm | Urinary Tract Infections in Women Always urinate within ten minutes after intercourse if possible. Intercourse causes a slight trauma to the urethra and allows bacteria into it. Urinating helps flush these bacteria out. If this is not possible, drinking 10-12 ounces of water immediately after intercourse will cause you to urinate later and help flush the bacteria out. Visit the McKinley Health Center Web Site at: http://www.mckinley.uiuc.edu |
| 11:01 am | my nose wont stop bleeding so I figured I would write in here this mourning mike is asleep and he is hogging the bed and blankys lil son of a bitch :pouts: I wish he would wake up so we could blow this fatty anyways I want to say thankye to angel for sending me the most wonderful gift I have ever recieved :smiles: and Id like to extend my upmost sincere apologies to my dearest Travis... and I wish to hell jex would tell me when she has a day off so I can go snatch her up and we can play :sigh: by the way your lil friend robby was nice... so I should be looking for a job today and Im not :sigh: what the hell am I doing with myself what the fuck is wrong with me ya know all I want is a job that I like :sigh: that does not deal with the public scabs and I will be fine looks like it is never gonna happen Current Mood:  crushedCurrent Music: L7 me myself and I |
| Monday, February 18th, 2002 | |
| 5:54 pm | I also Forgot we went to walmart last night and bought a webcam thingy it is so tiny its cute and portable and I can take dirty picys with it muahahaha I love it oh yeah we were so stoned that we spent two hours in there and then I lost my keys hahahaha so I had to search walmart everywhere I am so stupid when IM high |
| 5:49 pm | where has my angel gone yeah well the past week I had three brief encounters with employers teehee I quit two jobs today and I was fired from one of them on friday (the one on friday I was only at for five mins not even) I am begining to wonder if I am stubborn or spoiled or do I really hate people as much as I say I do obviously there is somehting wrong for I did not even work a total of 40 hours at any of these jobs...come to think of it if I added all of the hours from all three jobs I might come out with maybe 22 hahahah such a joke mike and I went out friday was pretty funny to me all of the lil dykes were there and drunk HA" we had a good weekend lots of booze smoke and snow YAY so I should wake up tomorrow and go look for a job Teehee oh yeah and we have no hot water today so we got really stoned and took cold ass showers bahahah by the way jex cute glow stick :winks: |
| Thursday, February 14th, 2002 | |
| 5:44 am | why dont ya scratch my cunt for me huh bitch I sware to damn I hate scabs they piss me the fuck off makes me wanna scream and I get these sick visualizations of myself harming them in the most perverse manner and then I have to smile and pretend as if ....everything is fine and nothing is wrong when in reality everything is fuckn wrong GWAR>>>>>ANGER anyways I want to wish all of you pretty little flowers especially my new found friendy Jex and her friendy robby a very merry valentines day and to the rest of you scabs the same :smiles: bre sends her love oh yes yes she does Im gonna be late to work again son of a bitch |
| Wednesday, February 13th, 2002 | |
| 2:29 pm | aprils new haircut I think its cute she looks like a lil dolly  |
| 1:46 pm | yay fresh meat for me to eat make bre bre happy :grins: oh yeah hi ;) your too fucking cute man ANYWAYS I am a little bit disapointed in the way certain things are turning out...I am not sure what to think of certain individuals anymore...I guess the only thing I can say is I should have known better but I suppose I liek to go on pretending that nothing has happened...In hopes that by some magical way things will be placed back together... but then again..what is there to be put together eh' is there anything at all or is it all a figment of my fucked off imagination..I mean I know I have problems but damnit |
| Monday, February 11th, 2002 | |
| 12:27 pm | and nothing else matters where has my love gone :sigh: I miss you Angel I wish you would come back to me soon :huggles: |
| Sunday, February 10th, 2002 | |
| 2:17 pm | when I wake up I know I wanna be the one thats waking next to you I have not written in here for a few days now I suppose things have been somewhat rotten for me between mike and I..things are getting worse and that sucks cause I do really love him today my mother reported the car stolen so fucking great...two warrants and a stolen vehicle that looks superb and here i am trying to get a job :I HATE PEOPLE : anyways a few days ago Mike and I met Jex she is so fucking cool...and we had a few laughs about rob ha ha he is such a psycho we went to skumbers friday nite I had fun despite all the drama mike and I had later in the evening but I found out that someone has a lil crush on me and I think its the most adorable thing I also think that April is mad with me but oh well what can ya do : sigh : I miss Angel and I mis Travis I am a sad lil girl today I just wish I could DIE |
| Wednesday, February 6th, 2002 | |
| 10:49 pm |  |
| 3:31 am | my bo bo hurts :FROWNS: Mike just woke me up from my ever so content slumber I dont know how he managed to do it....I passed out while watching Pulp Fiction :sigh: but now hes in the kitchen and hes makeing me food YUMMY I LOVE him he is so swet when he wants to be :smiles: I might add that I am rather jelous of a certain someone for she went shrooming this mourn and I do hope she had luck yet still I am very envious indeed for shrooms have been on my mind for a few days now I suppose I have been a lil to lazy to go out and look the other day I was over at the mini dykes house and Jen's beast of a bird Matilda bit the shit out of my finger matilda isnt just any average bird she is this huge mammoth parrot bigger then the ones you see on tv or in the zoo....her beak alone is probably bigger then my damn hand :sigh: so you can imagine the pain that was inflicted Mike and I managed to apply at the local UHAul i think its kinda silly they are hiring married couples for property management and relocation around the southern states so I HOPE we gte the job :SMiles: lord knows we could use the escape Current Mood:  cheerfulCurrent Music: the hummmmm of the pc fan |