Friday, January 25th, 2002
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5:43 am - in my little world
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ive been up since 4:30 am. im tired, im sleepy, i havnt taken a shower.
its friday.
current mood:  calm
current music: 88 FINGERS LOUIE-behind bars
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(i want your skull)
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Thursday, January 24th, 2002
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9:17 pm - whoa oh oh oh
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hmm i like her.
what more is there to say.
im going to wash her car.
has she given up?
current mood:  sleepy
current music: MISFITS-earth a.d.
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(i want your skull)
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Saturday, January 19th, 2002
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1:28 pm - well aint that just peachy
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well my plans on going to janes party tonight are fucking shot!
i had been looking forward to her party for 2 whole fucking weeks! but now thatnks to certain circumstances i will no loneger be making an appearance at the party. that really sucks i was excited about going
guess ill just stay home and play the sims all night.
this blows.
i feel lower than whale shit.
current mood:  pissed off
current music: AFI-rizzo on the box
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(i want your skull)
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Monday, January 14th, 2002
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7:04 am - blahblah
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i hate mondays im sleepy and i feel schools gonna suck today
current mood:  groggy
current music: MXPX-the next big thing
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(1 regert | i want your skull)
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Sunday, January 13th, 2002
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7:38 pm - ha ha ha the black in the yard
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well i saw amali today at media tech....shes acting like i dont exist....and you know what...fuck her....i really mean that....fuck her....
i got taken advantage of yesterday by cindy while i was in my stoned state at jerys house yesterday....how odd
ok well yeah thats all i got for now.
current mood:  chipper
current music: TSUNAMI BOMB-...not forever
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(i want your skull)
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Thursday, January 10th, 2002
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9:54 pm - it opens in the front dummy
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fine dont talk to me....ive been hoping that oyu would stop talking to me eventually....how else can things move?
i hate fucking cops! i hate society right now! i might even just hate you!
im getting addicted to nyquil again.
i can sleep without it im fucking addicted to it!
plus i really hope im not but i think im going to take myself to get checked out. im starting to think that my pshcology teacher was right when she said i had a high possibility of being manic depressive.
ill look into that later.
right now all i got is big old FUCK YOU!!!!!!! TO THE WORLD!
fuck you! fuck you!
damn i fucking hate everything!
current mood:  depressed
current music: BUCCANER-bruk out
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(1 regert | i want your skull)
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Wednesday, January 9th, 2002
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9:30 pm - "jorge....im going to chop your fucking balls off!"
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i got home a while ago from media tech practice....
im going to have to do what i really dont want to....i have to choose whether or not i will be doing VICA or OAP......i really dont know what to choose.
what else is new..... cindy? well im not sure what that situation is right now
oh yeah amali finally dumped her boyfriend...to late i say....im beyond her now.
so well ill see what else i can fuck up and turn to shit....
oh yeah 'drea cheer up homie......things cant be burning up as fast for you as they are for me.
toodles world
current mood: sleepy
current music: RANCID-life wont wait
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(1 regert | i want your skull)
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Saturday, January 5th, 2002
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12:38 am - DORITOS FOR PRESIDENT!
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aww i like this song......it makes me feel like being happy.
current mood:  amused
current music: RANCID-who would've thought
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(i want your skull)
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Friday, January 4th, 2002
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12:42 am - bombshell
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hey drea i dont think its smart to be putting up your number for the world to see....there alot of sickos like me out there
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(3 regerts | i want your skull)
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Thursday, January 3rd, 2002
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10:23 pm - turning the tables for a bedside rush
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amali called my house yesterday but i wasnt home, i wonder what she wanted? oh well fuck that shit.
the troublebound cd is really fucking awsome, i heard it 2 times today,its really good and i like it. worth my 7 bucks.
i hate cops, the make me paranoid when i drive now because of that driving law. i mean yeah i dont have a license and so what if my car has an inspection sticker from the year 2000. but still it sucks for all the kids who do have legal licenses and have to deal with this shit.
wow there is actually food here at my house. but since my and my brother live here there will only be food for a good 2 days at the most.
ok thats all i got for now, sorry i suck
current mood:  hopeful
current music: TROUBLEBOUND-spraypaint
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(i want your skull)
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Tuesday, January 1st, 2002
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1:52 am - and the song for the new years is!!!!!!!!
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the vandals-what about me?
WHAT ABOUT ME?
Now the birds in the trees are deformed and diseased
and the leaves on the trees are wilting on the branch
there's no stars in the sky, cuz scars on my eyes won't heal thanks to you-
And the sun is obscured since you told me those words-that you can't be with me,
and you got to be free cuz your selfish and rude, with a bad attitude-but you can't see.
And what about me?
Oh baby don't, don't, don't, don't do what you think you should do-
Because it won't, won't, won't, won't be what I want it to be to
Repeat after me "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry"
Repeat after me "It was all my fault again"
"And I will stay, stay, stay, stay right here with you-and I will say, say, say, say whatever you tell me to."
This is me now "You are forgiven"
This is me now "Things are fine again, you see."
It wasn't that hard.
Remember, Remember, Remember, What about me?
Now the sun has arrived, and the birds that all died are alive and revived
and chirping in the branches
Cuz you made up your mind, just barley in time
Let's not take any chances-
Cuz you're restless again, and you want it to end
but I can't let you leave, cuz you promised to me
and you'd do what I say, and you said that you'd stay
You said that you'd stay
And what about me?
Oh baby don't, don't, don't, don't do what you think you should do-
Because it won't, won't, won't, won't be what I want it to be to
Repeat after me "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry"
Repeat after me "I "state your name" love you"
it's the truth you see
Remember, Remember, Remember, What about me?
What about me?
happy new fucking year everyone!
happy new year....what a great year ahead...cindys already pissed off at me
current mood:  guilty
current music: im not listening to anything
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(1 regert | i want your skull)
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Monday, December 31st, 2001
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11:32 pm - this song will become the anthem.....
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this is year 3 i do this tradition, i put on a cd with a bunch of different bands on it and whatever song is playing at midnight is the song that sets the tone for the year....first year it was misfits-dont open till doomsday and year 2 was metallica-one
i feel sad....i feel this year is going to be really bad. i now it it
current mood:  contemplative
current music: SAVES THE DAY-at your funeral
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(i want your skull)
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12:26 am - ah! surveys a wonderful way to pass the time!
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4 songs that move you:
1. 88 fingers louie-blink
2. ataris-san dimas high school football rules
3. pantera-cemetary gates
4. the who-teenage wasteland
5 things that no one or not many people know about you:
1. and why should i say here?
2. refer to above
3. refer to above
4. refer to above
5. refer to above
5 things that you wish you'd said when you had the chance
1.would you leave him for me?
2.fuck you
3.im sorry
4.goodbye
5.yes
4 things that people think about you that aren't true
1. that i only like punk music
2. that i dont care about anything
3. that i have talent
4. that im gay
5 greatest things that happened to you this year:
1.the avenue show
2.amali
3.visiting new york and finally finding where i belong
4.getting a car
5.the years not over just yet
on to part 2...
I WANT -what i cant have
I HAVE -stuff
I REGRET -so many things that i could write a 2,ooo page book on them
I WISH - that i had 3 wishes
I LOVE - fuck love
I HATE - alot of thingds
I MISS - alot of things
I FEAR - becoming my dad
I HEAR - music
I SEARCH - for meaning
LAST TIME YOU......
SMILED? -i dont know not long
LAUGHED? - memories......
CRIED? - 12-14-01
BOUGHT SOMETHING? - i bought a statue at savers on friday
DANCED? - i cant remember
GOT HAMMERED? - that day that me, jerry, michelle,
and amali got stoned
WERE SARCASTIC? - all the time
KISSED SOMEONE? - 12-14-01
HUGGED SOMEONE? - i hugged cindy yesterday
TALKED TO AN EX? - im doing that right now
HAD A NIGHTMARE? -living is a nightmare
LAST THING YOU READ -some book about crimes scenes at barnes and nobles
LAST MOVIE YOU SAW ON THE BIG SCREEN? - harry potter
LAST PHONE NUMBER YOU CALLED?- andrea (freddy had me call to see if she had pot he could buy)
LAST SHOW YOU WATCHED ON TV? - seinfeld
LAST SONG YOU HEARD? - the vandals-behind the music
LAST THING YOU HAD TO DRINK? - cherry kool-aid
YOU ATE? -cold meatballs
DO DRUGS? - some
HAVE A CRUSH? - plead the 5th
HAVE A BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND? - ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha
HAVE A DREAM THAT KEEPS COMING BACK? -snakes crawling all over my body
REMEMBER YOUR FIRST LOVE - yep
STILL LOVE HIM/HER? - to an extent
READ THE NEWSPAPER? - when its here i read it
HAVE ANY GAY, BISEXUAL OR LESBIAN FRIENDS? - yeppers
BELIEVE IN MIRACLES? -sure why not
BELIEVE IT'S POSSIBLE TO REMAIN FAITHFUL FOREVER? -i dont know....
LIKE THE TASTE OF ALCOHOL? uh well......
BELIEVE IN GOD? -yes i believe in "a" god
HAVE ANY SECRETS? -who doesnt?
HAVE ANY PETS? -i want a cat
GO TO OR PLAN TO GO TO UNIVERSITY? - ill see when the time comes
HAVE ANY PIERCINGS? -i want to pierce my nipples and my lip
HAVE ANY TATTOOS - soon i will
HAVE A BEST FRIEND? - they know who they are.
HAVE ANY BAD HABITS? - hell yes!
CARE ABOUT LOOKS? - you know its true for everyone
TRUST OTHERS EASILY? - depends
TAKE WALKS IN THE RAIN? - if it involves rain pass it to me
KISS WITH YOUR EYES CLOSED? - yes. when i kiss with my eyes open thats a sure sign i really dont want to be kissing that person.
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(i want your skull)
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Sunday, December 30th, 2001
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11:26 pm - OUT HERE IN THE FEILDS.........
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i move in 2 weeks
its not a big move just a few streets down.
i get to have my own room now! no more having to share a room with my brother.
i saw amali today.
im proud of myself becaues well....i didnt care. i saw her and just shrugged. i think that chapter could just maybe be finally closed.i mean i saw her and all the funny feelings that i used to feel for her are gone. i have cindy to thank for that.
even though all the things she told me i already knew about her. but i guess she finally rammed it down my skull.
i had alot of fun yesterday with cindy. we went to barnes and drove around and kicked back in my abandoned house with freddy and michelle.
i want to talk with cindy right now.
everyone wants to do something tomorrow and i am no exception. its the new year! NEW FUCKING BEGGININGS! i mean ill probably throw the year away. but hey i want to start it off great. i have a feeling that i want to go back with cindy.
but i know if i go back with her then my days of smoking the good herb is gone. because when i get stoned it raelly gets her mad. she downright hates to see me stoned. so thats another reason to go out tomorrow!
hell if i go back with her i want at least one more night of just being a fucking hoodlum.
i feel funny.........
current mood:  drained
current music: THE WHO-teenage wasteland
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(i want your skull)
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Saturday, December 29th, 2001
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12:01 am - THE WORLD NEEDS A FUCKING PAIR OF GLASSES!
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Thursday, December 27th, 2001
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11:58 pm - whoop whooop!
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today was a pretty fun day.....its nice being able to use my car....this past week i havnt been able to use it because all of a sudden my brother thinks its his...but today i said fuck it and took off
i played some pool at dannys house...that little bastard 8 ball just wouldnt go in!
then i went to the mall with jerry and danny we just basically bummed around the whole place for a couple of hours...and i had myself an orange julius
then we went to wherehouse music....i bought 2 cds and jerry bought this one cd which was nothing but sex sound effects....very funny it had all the weird moans and groans
then we went to irmas house
hung out there for a while made plans to go to savers tomorrow
then played some tony hawk at dannys house...it was a good day.
so now of course im going to have a raelly bad shitty and crappy day.
thats just the way things go for me. somethings going good for me then it all goes to hell.
damn
current mood:  hungry
current music: SOUL ASYLUM
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(i want your skull)
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12:43 pm - big town with small town mentality
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why the flying fuck does everything in el paso close at 10?
last night romeo and me went to best buy btu when we got there the place was closed, then we walked over to barnes but the place closed 10 minutes after we got there...then....we went to wherehouse music and guess what it was 5 minutes away from closing...then k-mart which was closed...what the fuck!@
whats with the mind games?
guess new years with jerry is the plan.....he has the good stuff....
current mood:  aggravated
current music: BAD RELIGION-do what you want
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(i want your skull)
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Wednesday, December 26th, 2001
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10:54 pm - neon peepee
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why does she keep calling me sweetie?
and why am i starting to like it?
current mood:  confused
current music: MARILYN MANSON
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(i want your skull)
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10:53 pm - neon peepee
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why does she keep calling me sweetie?
and why am i starting to like it?
current mood: confused
current music: MARILYN MANSON
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(i want your skull)
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10:28 am - Mom: "jorge go to the store!" Me:"what for?" Mom:"to get one celery"
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i just woke up, morning breath and all..yum...
im hungry but all there is to et here is popcorn and ramen.
i just realized ive been wearing the same pair of pants since i went to that show on saturday....they dont smell though...so no need to change....
current mood:  good
current music: AGNOSTIC FRONT
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(3 regerts | i want your skull)
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