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Sunday, November 11th, 2001
1:29 pm	so turn off the sky... what an eventful day yesterday it started off great with trips to deja-vu and white wolf. then slowly deteriated. i'm so upset with her, i don't even know how to word it. that was the last straw she's done it too many times recently. i guess i could understand to some point, but don't avoid me and leave me to be well... what if. no! don't. i don't know how to put it in words, but it made me angry all night. so i apologise to those who i was with.. hm. i was told i look like i could be in the Makeup. oh yes. finally, i'll just have to get a keyboard and play with absoutly no expression on my face what so ever. how fun. taking over paneras and seeing mulholland drive. i'm sorry one scene reminded me of army of darkness and i just had to laugh. old people going "oogly boo, oogly boo." mabye i'm crazy, but i doubt it. i was on photographic rivalery, i wasn't going to be out photograph-ed i have to get them developed today, oh i hope one or two came out excellent. they should. welli guess i'm going to go for now, i have to run out and do a few things then make DNA later. yes... those are my plans. xoxo wendy. Current Mood: crushed Current Music: the weakerthans. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, November 4th, 2001
11:55 pm	a sweet sixteen. it was fun, i had a blast until now... i got the best stuff, a turntable, a cell phone, i will get one, a amazing cute cute mod sweater, another sweater, marley, international noise conspericy, velvet underground, radiohead import cd, makeup, books,fashion. it was great, loved it, went to wolfgangs it was fun.. but now that my table itsn't connecting i'm missing some peace, i dont know why i'm feeling this now. i don't know why it's hitting me, i hate you, i hate you, i hate you so much. you never call, you never care, you send flowers, but who knows if there really from you, i hate you i hate you, i hate you, dad. i didn't see christine, i'm a shitty friend for that, hopefully i'll get toghether with her this week. i think i just need to see some people, the'll cheer me up, i'm down now. i'm going to go and listen to something, i'm on the verge on tears. i hate this. i hate this. i hate this. but overall i had a blast today, until right now. so i'm going to go and clean and fix my room. i'm loving it. my radiohead poster is nice too. i love you all. thanks for everything, thanks to everyone who called, it cheered me up. i'll talk to you crazy kids tomorrow. love you. wendy. Current Mood: confused Current Music: i don't know what i want... mabye some... Marley. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
12:08 am	4 ballons with keys and pink flowers. dearest all well in less than 20 minutes i'll be one more year older, one more day closer.. i'll be spending part of it with my girl christine. it's been planned for weeks that her and i do something toghehter mabye brunch it or something. i'm going to go to wolfgang's with my mom, mabye walk on over to virgin and get some rare import radiohead singles, i'll be getting my table, so i want my vinyl back jimi. photos, photos, photos, will be taken tomorrow, i need some new ones of everyone and i. i've decided that i must attend RISD this summer, along with jordan and jimi. i love those boys so much. i had so much fun with them and well luke, when he wasn't lying on the floor in the bathroom, actually, i didn't like him tonight. but j-ro and jimi, i adore those two. so anywho,i will be the offical franco merch girl. who the girl with the merch, it's me it's me. that was horrible.. connie and i will take it over. i guess, i don' tknow what to say. hmm. birthday tom, having to call my dad, present, good friends, photos, music, dinner at wolfgang's it's all good. i'm gonig to do a zine with a few people it will be great. i've been wanting to do it for years, but i just haven't gotten around to it. it was odd tonight made me realise, i semi miss not having a boytoy, but i'm so much happier without having to worry about that. watched highfidely and then when i got into the car, bright eyes was playing, it threw me over. too much bitter anrgy broken hearts. mabye i'll see my mod one at death cab, oh lets hope mabye. that's all i can come up with for now. xoxo wendy. Current Mood: confused Current Music: i wish i knew what i wanted right now... do you know ? (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, October 28th, 2001
2:25 pm	this is completely creepy, i was just talking about this movie the other day, and no one seemed to remember it but me. Oh, i won't even get into my Mac and Me story. no one seemed to remember that movie with the kid in the wheel chair and the complete dance number at mcdonalds and the windmills and how he fed Mac's rent's coke. oh no.i won't start i want to order that from amazon for my b-day. which is only a week away may, i add. if you want me to love you for ever and ever, find that for me. xoxo Wen L-10. Current Mood: blank Current Music: I wish i were going out tonight. Once again where is my car? (4 Comments |Comment on this)
2:13 pm	mabye Thom will leave a message on my machine... where is jordan with the voice? I know 2 people along with Thom and Mr.peanut that would make the angry-est person in the world. lets combine them all. (Comment on this)
2:12 pm	Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: tristeza (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, October 27th, 2001
11:03 pm	my left eye is blinded now, but both of mine were for so long. word up. well i just got back from the soup. oh yes, i love to abbrevate all clusters of words. well anyways, i went to see my friend marco's band. i love him, but they were horrible. so i watched them and ate my vegan cookies with jimi and tried not to be "oh no-ing" them. i saw ilycia my very jap friend. i love her, and the stories of the irish men??? i still don't know what exacly happened. nothing too life stopping or amazing happened. jimi and i found a great escape to parking lot and just relaxed for a bit. it was so cold out, it was nice, but so cold even in my sweater. ha, only the night before.. good times good times.. i sat at the door and laughed at kids, attempting to pull that, i'm punk, i'm emo image. i've never seen 99% of those kids anywhere, but what's it of me to judge. but that's the scene that does, so then it's ok. so i just sat, tried to warm up and was singing death cab lyrics in my head, they've been stuck in there all day. oh, well there very good, so it's acceptable. we'll my eye's getting blury so i'm going to go. wen L-10 xxx (Comment on this)
2:31 pm	when we laugh indoors. the blissful tones fall off the walls and fall to the ground. Peel the hardwood back to let them loose from decades trapped and listened so still. this city is my home. construction noise all day long and gutter punks bumming change.so i breed thicker skin and let my lusterous coat fill in and i'll admit never admit i loved you, gwenivere. i've always fallen fast with too must trust in the promising that " one's ever been here, so you can qwell those wet fears". i want purity, i must have it right now, but don't you get me started right now. December's chill comes late, our days get darker and we wait for this direness to pass. there are piles on the floor on the floor of artifacts from dresser drawers that i'll help you pack. Current Mood: exhausted Current Music: death cab for cutie-it's gotten late and i want to be alone. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
2:16 pm	on a cold october night... L-10 walked the streets and fucked it up. word. well. hmm i have not lauged as hard as last night, in at least a good week. Probabley the last L-10 meeting. Con's birthday at shiki's. sushi.music from park ave- the new death cab, oh so good. walking miles in the cold in flip flops( last night, it may have actually been 70, wow). the new death cab for cutie is amazing. being with my favorite people and crying i was laughing so hard it was great. that's all i can really say. oh and " where's the dashboard, can i borrow your glasses, and my sweater.i feel so alone without them. it's so cold my lungs are freezing and shattering to the floor.. " - to those who were there. i love you all. look for L-10 bustin down your street. wen L-10 xxx (Comment on this)
Monday, October 22nd, 2001
12:37 am	snow angels and white horses on cold winters snow... if only that sentence makes me want to break, i'm watching the movie -stepmom- being there's not much on at midnight and i'm too lazy to change it. it's a sad movie. always makes me sad for the fact my ex best friends mom reminds me of susan surandon and she gets cancer in the movie and my friends mom got cancer, and well she's fine now, but still it's a throw back. so this weekend on a happier note: was such a hectic but fun one. went to zacks with connie, jordan, timmy and met some kid charlie watched army of darkness, still halirous and learned how to play radiohead's pyramid song on piano. ha. jordan and i had a jam session, but without the stickers it made it a tad harder. went to christines had to wait a half hour with her rent's until she came in with 2 who i dislike other then herself and my best friend nadia. i love her even though she knows what makes me completly angry and will do it to no end. so i had a fun night with the girls, and then the next morning: the 2 who i'm not as fond of, nor was anyone left in early and nadia, christine and i headed to pick up a few things at the mall. came back to christines house to nadia's dad waiting and he still is as creepy and somewhere disturbing as ever espically with the " give me a kiss" in his south african accent to christine and i. even odder his 2nd wife who is only 21 just had a baby this summer. and he's 46+ at least.. it's so creepy. then christine and i went to meet lauretta and diana at the movies, saw joyride laughed more than once of the fact the movie is so stupid and it was requested that i give " how to be wendy" fashion tips, no that's creepy and if your going to get into the scene do it for yourself not a boy. oh god, do i despise that even more and my vocabulary in this is so basic that i want to scream... so that leads to sunday and i had to get up early to go to the art festival and bought two excellent photographs for my walls... i saw my pieces that were in it. i didn't win anything. no one at winter park did. i thought that was odd. finished my bio project and started to decoupoge my bathroom door, with newspaper and black and white photos and pages from perks of being a wallflower and old poets. it's so nice. i'm really liking it. mod boys are even included. very very nice. so. hmm. i guess that's all i have to say as of now. i'm attempting on planning a join b-day party with connie and i. with the boys of the band playing oh fun the'll be our cover band. ok well it's so late and my news is so boaring and i'm just writing this for my mind. i'm on the prowl i've decided once again..... ROAR. haha. god, i just didn't say that. no, i didn't. i'll talk to you later xoxo Wen L-10 xxx Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: bright eyes... soon to be once again. (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 18th, 2001
11:42 pm	anthrax in the mail. yo. i'm so tired now. Eventhough i got to sleep till 11 wow. i haven't done that in forever. i got in tonight from dinner, a movie ( don't say a word) and watching connie learn to drive stick, with timmy and her. it was so fun. hmm. tonight it seems as if my plans have gone haywire... orgianlly supposed to go to friends show at stone soup and sushi which then got changed to halloween horror nights with conn and timmy then got changed to movie/ monopoly night with them. which then got changed back to going to the show and sushi. which then got changed to going to halloween horror night with christine, and NADIA, since she IS intown and the old gang. which then got changed to something else with the old gang. which is now being tentively changed to going to jordan's with conn and tim and watching cheesy japense movie and playing monopoly then getting dropped off at christines and sleeping over there. i think that may happen. then going to the maitland art festival sat morning and then to the mall afterwards. this is crazyness. i'm so thrilled i'm not grounded this weekend. oh well, i'm sure i'll be after this one. hmm. i'm having so much fun lately. weeeeeeeeeeeeeee.. i'm so glad i switched, i love everyone so much. well what else can i say. i tagged shit up at lhp. oh yeh. L-10 L-10 L-10. WEN L-10 XXX..... HAHA IT WAS GREAT, I CAN'T WAIT FOR IT TO BE QUESTIONED. oh well. i'm out for now. xxx wen L-10. Current Mood: confused Current Music: letterman theme. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 16th, 2001
10:21 pm	damn my coverless sketch book. i don't know really what i want to say, but i think i try to say something important, but i don't know what.. ok well let me think.i went to curisve, it was amazing, i love them so much, they played everyone of my favorite songs, i couldn't ask for anything more. i was so thrilled. i sang and danced my way through a few songs. yet, i did say my goodbye, i stayed away. it was hard, i wanted to scream, yell and just cry at times, the lyrics were being said at such the exact moment. it was errily odd. but i don't know i'm over that now. goodbye foreverr.... braid.. i think at least. so this week. i have things in the maitland art festival, my girl christine and i are going to go and chill see the art work and go to brunch with a best friend, i haven't talked to in ages. by the way. where is nadia? she's supposed to be here now. hmph i don't know. mabye she'll call i hope so. i dont have school thursday or friday, i need a break, just to be able to sleep, i'm so ready for that one. so my friend marco's surprise party, chilling on saturday, hopefully thur's i'll get to go do darkroom with some photos i took for my friends band. those boys are great. mabye we'll all chill this weekend, but when don't we. i had so many test today, i was gonig to break... PSAT'S. THEN SPANISH EXAM, THEN BIO EXAM, THEN SPANISH NOTEBOOK AND MATH EXAM TOM. ahhhhhhhhh. ok i 'll be fine, i can do it. ok. so hmm. yeh i was going to do a top 5 list/s. top 5 things i'm afraid of: -clowns -e.t. ( still the scariest movie ever) -alligators -being alone -silence top 5 things that make me laugh: -falling down -scene points -best friends -kids trying not to be cliche but so easily fall into the catagory -the faux ghetto fablousness of winter park - L-10 fucking shit up dawg. top 5 things that make me cry.. - silly boys and broken hearts - seperation from best friends - final goodbyes - thinking i'm not good enough - ouchie toes, i got a bug bit today and it iched, and it wouldn't stop. top 5 things i love. - black and white photography - new sketch books - new music still in the wrapping - burned secret mixes - black eyeliner/ clear lip glass top 5 things i don't understand. - any math above algebra. - those who believe religion over evolution. - people who have american flags up now, but not on the 4th. - how can people not drink coffee. - why don't i have my car yet. top 5 things in the room. - me - black and white photos of friends - the most comfy bed. - christman lights. - red roses. - collection of angels next to my rhinestone tiara from new orleans mardi gras. top 5 facts about me. - my hair is blackish,brownish, redish, but naturally is a brown tone. - my eyes are blue - i will always laugh at myself. - addiction to art.photography.hair.lipgloss.mocha lattes.modness.fashion. - i just want to drive and roadtrip now. i'll be attending RISD this summer top 5 i'd like to do before i die. - own my own shop/ venue/ record store/ boutique/ gallery/ loft. - road trip to at least d.c. - actually practice in band form. - have published photography * wait, i did. oh yeh. - go to art school, live in my loft. - travel to europe top 5 singers/ bands i love- - bright eyes. - braid. - cursive. - radiohead. - saetia. - the makeup. - modest mouse. top 5 things i don't understand. - Current Mood: artistic Current Music: soon to be bright eyes... letting off the happiness (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, October 8th, 2001
11:40 pm	yes, yes, if this was any longer, it would rival fiona apple's when the pawn... title dear friend. i don't know where to start or what to say. it's been such a long weekend. and it would take forever to type, i will say, it was amazing, and so much fun, sunday breakfast parties, time spent with good friends in shower stalls, wait that doesn't sound right. not, in a dirty way... open sky's i've seen so much this weekend, it always reminds me of gainesville fest, i'm so excited for this years, we're all going to roadtrip and camp. ha. i can only imagine how this is going to be, hopefully amazing, thursday is playing they are so good. ha. it will be fun. yes, edge vs. the non edge scene kids. woo woo.. but good music, is all that matters. i really wish it wasn't all trustkill hardcore this time last year, i would have been down with it, but now.. i think, i think.. not. hmm.. well this week, i've been trying to pull up grades, 3 a's 3b's hopfully if i can pull up bio, it will be all good. i can't believe it, in less than a month, i'll be sixteen. wow, that sounds so old, yet, it's so far from being.. shish.. wow. i wish i had a car, i wish i could drive downtown with the windows down at 2 am screaming out song lyrics and getting looks from the numerous tabu club go-ers, or just go to barbarella and bust some bad ass 80's dance moves, but i can't do that either. if only, if only, if only... school, trying to get a job, mabye powerhouse, mabye that wretched place, the gap, either one close by and fun. christine is going to put in a word for me at powerhouse, she's going to apply also she knows the owners, i really miss her. i really do. aw, tear. but i can't do anything, i'm trying to keep us tight and she is too i love her to much to fall apart, not like last year, with..... no. not, never like her..... ok. hmm.. but so sunday is cursive, i'm thrilled, my favorite band, i've been looking foward to it for months, god, i'm pathetic at times. ok. but it's a beginning and a end, an end of what could be seen as 2 years, wanting something that's the worst possible thing for me or and anyone. i've invested my time, and i can't do anything else about it. time to get over and move on, say a hello, anwser silly questions and then say a goodbye.. if it's a look or a hit, i won't let it take me back, i won't i can't do it again, it's too hard on me. those of you who know and i'm sure are well informed, i won't. never again. it's taken too long. it's goodbye forever. leave me, don't talk to me, i can't stand it... i dont want to go on about that anymore, i just want to get over it forever, seal it up and burn it down. i'm sorry i was just thinking about that and those today, i can't do it. i just can't. i know i shouldnt and i'm trying not too. i'm burning down the hope i had for that, i realise it's wrong, and i would be so tourtured by trying to go along with it. no. no no. ok. now that you think i'm crazy. i hope the boys i met at rainer will be there, i need something new for entertainement. i'm so sick of the flags.. take them off, i hate the stickers, like i hate jesus fish, i used to know boys who would take them off cars, it was great, he was a jew too, i miss him. haha i don' tknow what that has to do with anything, but i'm just going on and on tonight, i have alot on my mind. my dad. what the hell is wrong with him. where do i even start i haven't talked to him for what, 3 months, he hasn't called nor have i, i thought he actually realised how shitty of a parent he was the last time, i was out there, if only he'd seen me cry, mabye that would impact the bastard into realising, when i ask " how are things out there?" for the first words out of his mouth to be... " well, jason( your amazingly holy brother who is only 7, son of the second wife and i. who gets treated like royalty, even thought when i'm there for a week, i still have to put up with his tempertantrums.back to what i was saying, yes, i have hate towards my brother, i've never heard anything so painful but as true, as when your 3 year old half brother ( this was 4 years ago, tells you " daddy, doesn't love you, he loves me" but, hey it always seems true, what can i do, i guess i'm the girl, i'm not good enough. or i'm too smart for his crap. wait. what would that be, never calling me till you get bitched out by my mom.. how horrible of a parent are you, can you get any worse.. oh wait, this itsn't what i wanted to say. i'm sorry. i have some anger towards my father, my dad, doug. whatever i should call him. i guess it's not his fault they were divorced. oh wait, he was the one who was screwing around.. IT WAS.. AH HA HA.. ok sorry i'm just mad now, and i don't know why, i haven't gone off about this forever,but it's been bothering me and i don't want to bother anyone about it, but here i doubt anyone cares, i doubt alot of people read this actually, i kidna prefere it to be like that really.. well. ok the orginal statement " whats going on over there dad?" " well, jason, is joining tiger scouts..." OK WHEN YOU HAVEN'T TALKED TO SOMEONE IN 3 MONTHS IS THE FIRST THING YOU SAY ... HE'S JOINING TIGER SCOUTS, WHAT THE HELL IS THAT, A RIP OFF OF BOY SCOUTS.. SHIT, SORRY THAT PISSED ME OFF AND WHEN I THINK ABOUT IT, IT MAKES ME MADDER. so i'm going to stop. urgh, i'm on rampage, mabye it was the sex, drugs and booze, this weekend. hmm.. it could be 2 of the 3. ok. well i'm going to go before your pittying me for no reason, other than the horrid grammer and spelling, but oh well, now, i don't care i just hurt and i'm soo utterly tired.. ahhhh.. ok well i'm off to sleep. i'll try not to blow up again. love always. wendy. Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: the makeup. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, October 5th, 2001
11:27 pm	the first night of autumn, i believe. dear friend. i don't think anything could have been better tongiht. i best friend. to talk to , to smoke with and a pizza to eat. then put on the tristeza and just listened to and listened to, while my room, was completely darkened and stars glowed above, it was beautiful and it is now, i feel heavy and need to clean up a thing or two. i'm tired and sick, and feel so chill now. i could just.. i don't know. but, i have decided to have a smoke.make.out.party sometime, and only you can listen to is tristeza and trippy music, it makes it so much better. i'm out. to clean and lay. if only someone was hear to makeout with now... love. wendy. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
12:27 am	i believe it's autumn now. dear friend, today was the oddest day of my life forgetten friends show up and appear at random times, leavng me to fear for them and what there going to become again..she looks horrid, strung out, coked up.. possibly pregnant, what else can i say, i just don't know it scared me and i think they took her to get help. i hope so. that was one of the weirdest things of today. today was utterly odd. to say the least. homecoming parades. parking cars in dead ends and sneaking into d lot. ok who sneeks into d lot.. right. aw but he's so much fun. i do love my friends, there just fun, no more petty fight and backstabbing. ah. nice. haha ok so well i end up going home with jimi and austin after they have tennis, i love how austin is too "bling, bling" for me now that he's " black". i bet my biology teacher and he would get along well. today i counted and she brought up being black what. 11-12 times.. i love how she hates me, i've decided that's b/c i'm white and a jew. wait, that sounds horrid.. haha no but it's kinda funny i think.. anyways.. i'll just put my glasses on and draw and pretend she leaves me alone. even thought she doesn't. haha. my black glasses... i can just imagien" girl, are you trying to be black, with the hair, and the glasses.. get some fave paint, your too white... black power..". well she's funny at least, i think. hmm.. ok let me see.. aww. ok well anyways we had a great adventure today on park ave, jordan, jimi and i went to park, got music, and then ran into jordan's friend who said that a backstreet boy was in restoration hardware.. well being smartasses, we decided to go in and have some fun, we did he was thre we started to laugh had b/c f just everything we were talking loud, he odviously heard and it was funny.. so he was staring at us.. and so we werelike what could be do to make this better. so we deicded to start walking down park towards the "roar" or pep rally for wphs so we deicdied to drop the news he was in there and immedatly saw girls, running, in... RUNNING DOWN PARK. so we decided. omg, we have to follow and see what happens.it was excellent they ran up to him. and were amazed.. haha.. if only.. we had a camera. darn. *snap*. ok.. well. hmm.. what else. jordan, jimi and i decided that we may work at power house cafe, and my friend christine was supposed to work there this summer.aw i miss her so. i miss her talks and the "omg, i saw blank today" our walks to lunch and fling.. aw. good times. were goign to hang out once again, i'm taking her to her first show in nov sometime, hot water i think she'll have fun. i know she will, she'll meet everyone and love them just as much as i. hmm.. boys. let me see one i'm like eh, i think he's a tad flirty, but i'm just like eh, i've decided he looks like someone else i know, which is kinda eh to me.. so hmm the other one, i don' tthink i like him anymore, i really don't get to see him at all during the day, i wish i had a class or something with him. oh well. but i don't know. i find myself jealous at times, but mabye that's just b/c i think that's what i want now.. or the one thing i think i'm missing, a serious love.. someone i can talk to about everything, adn still makeout with at the same time... that's truely hard to find. but i have a feeling the Cursive show will do me good. if there's any show where there is something that willbe fun, it will be that show, one of my favorite bands. but at the same time, it's a closing.. and ending.. a final goodbye to something that's been dragging on for o'most two years. i don't want to get into it. but it's a goodbye and it will be hard, but it needs to be, and another door will be opened. and hopefully behind it willbe a boy in a sweater with messy sex hair. wow. that would be too good. i met boys, there going to cursive, they asked me if i was. it should be fun. ha to quote jimi " wendy, you look like the girl cursive writes songs about heartbreak about".. so i thik mabye, is that good or bad, i don't know but i'm looking foward to it. new times, and yet hard goodbyes. i won't cry. i won't. i'm moving on, i won't be jealous of he, or the ones at wp. it just never ends keep me away from M names always and forever. no. no no. goodbye and soil, and ashes...tears, lost hands. lost friends. broken hearts. thrown in boxes.kicked underbeds. while love is being made to others. standing there in fear of sound and pain. shish, i think it's time for me to look. to actually get over my fears and cares and put myself out there.. i have those to watch my back, i love them like i love kosher sex. ha. ok. sex as an adjective adn it's amazing.no more jealously, no more fear. open roads and open hands. cold days make me so content, my problems fade and sweaters are my friend, the cover up anything, you and coldness and sadness and feae and pain, i think i should stop now. but i wish it were sweater weather again, it was for 2 days.. wee. if only.. if only is all i can say.. hmm. i guess i don't have much more. i'm thinking i'm jealous and i dont want to type by whom, or why or from whom. it's pointless. but i'm not going to be. curisve will be fun. that's all that it matters.. and homecoming i hope it works out. DRUGS.SEX.AND ROCK AND ROLL.hopefullywill be my weekend. i'll try to keep this more updated, i know i'm horrid about that. ( horrid, and adore- those are my words.. ) i want to go lay down and sleep i'm tired and have a 7:30 ride to school... weee.. - love always, everything will be fine, it will all work out. wendy. Current Mood: complacent Current Music: tristeza. just picked it up from park... (Comment on this)
Monday, September 17th, 2001
8:49 pm	5 days and counting. school.. sleep.. alterations to my homecoming dress.. dentist.. sleep.. school.. friends.. lunch.. boys. flirt.. art club.. the faint.. home.. sleep.. lhp's homecoming game... pedro the lion.. flirting.. flirting.. flirting.. hopefully i'll get at homecoming date that night.. it would be too perfect.my favorite band .. and a new boy toy.. wowie.. too perfect. but i dont want to set up anythign in my head b/c if i can't go then... or not if i dont go.. not i will go... but.. if it doesn't go correct.. errr.. hahahah.. ok.. well then i'll say that and i hope he asks.. he's such a sweetie... but i'm not expecting anything. i won't make a big deal out of anything.. darkroom... oh yeh... haha.. ok.. well i'm out for now. wish me luck. love always wendy. Current Mood: anxious Current Music: i can't wait till friday night.. music----the faint. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 4th, 2001
11:39 pm	damn, i got kicked off it was a great entry and i dont feel like typing it, ihave to do a ton of bio work.. and study for a huge test.. boys.. boys.. boys.. boys.. i like the way they talk.. write pseudo poetry all day.. wear tight sweaters when it snows.. wear black shoes to the shows..... shows.. shows. downtown is getting bland... dont go to shows in thai-land.. from barbarella i'm not banned.. not when i know the fucking band..band.. band.. go to thrifko and buy clothes.... tight pants are always rolled.... wear tights shirts and vintage clothes.... guys with glasses and buttoned jackets... drink domestics and smokes.. smokes.. smokes... silly boys with silly jokes..jokes..jokes.. after one date we'll hit the hay, hay, hay...hay.' then have emo babies.. hahaha JOKE. JOKING. haha i think i'll leave it at that, i've been thinking about homecoming lately and everything and who i want to go with. but i've decided that boys with m names get me in trouble always M always, but what can i do about it.. M names and dark hair and glasses.. haha shish. it's the same boys every single time, i need to stay way. but, mabye i'll have one of those boys as my homecoming date.. i don't know what's going on yet.. haha.. i have a week to figure out what i want,and try to get it.. hehe.. i will.. and i know who i want.. and i know i shouldn't but i do.. haha something about stripes, should i say. /o-o/ THINGS THAT ARE SEX... coffee at midnight. boys in stripes= sex, new cd in plastic= sex. black frames= sex. black pens and sketch pads=sex. black vintage cars= sex. boys who drive them= sex. knee length skirts=sex scarves=sex. warn in flip flops=sex. new hair products= sex. new hair cuts= sex. hour long talks- sex. best friends-sex. people who know you so well they can finish your sentences- sex... makeout buddies-sex. clear lipgloss- sex... tater-tots at harold and maudes.- sex. messenger bags=sex. messy bed head - sex... haha.. i dont think there's anymore i can list now. i'm so utterly tired, an di have 2 huge test's tom inthe same class. and i've studied for neither, i'm such a slack ass.. oh well.. Current Music: undressed theme song.. the white stripes. stripes are SEX! (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, September 2nd, 2001
4:10 pm	wendy's no moral's weekend. dear friend, i'm slacking on journal enteries, i guess that's b/c there usually too long and i go into details that i don'tneed to go into. like now, i'm listening to radiohead, i wish i would have went to atlatna to see them, but mabye that was the one that was rained out? i forget. but i have alot to say. about wp, and boys, shish. i just need to stop sometimes. but this is what's bothering me so much lately.. is i was thinking.. about my past. well with guys. and the last 10 at least have all Been "M" NAMES... Mi, or Ma.. and all have had darker hair.. and some with glasses some without. It seems as if this is haunting me for more time to come. espically at winter park, all the boys i adores still with the "M" NAMES the senior, the one in bio, the ones i just see around campus, all have dark hair, and emo glasses. i don't know why it is. but it shoulnd't be. all would be better, i know i shouldn't like then, but i do and it's just bad. i went to the show on friday with kaye had a good time, to say the least, met the boys of the now defunct braid, they were amazing.met the boys of saves the day when they asked us for smokes, they are very adorable too. hmm. who will i take to hc. my friend matthew, is informing me of some boy.. haha i think he said he's a senior and had some "M" NAME.. but, it's not the senior who i adore already. mabye someday. we've become friends, i guess you could say inteh past few weeks,when we had thought each other hated teh other one. it was odd. but he's so sweet.. errr. i won't start. but last night i went to stone soup and saw my friends' band.. FRANCO. play, they are very very excellent. ha. someone said saves the day 4 years earlier, but they have more of a indieish emoish punkish sound, and are just the nicest guys ever. they want me to go with them to pilots vs. airplanes tonight at will's but i think i'm staying in. b/c i'm still sick what's this the second week of sickness. it's horrid.. but so i may just stay in and go to a movie or something tom, i don't know whose going to drive me or how i'll get anywhere, but mabye i can take a taxi to the mall, i've done it before... not a problemo. aw, the boys are so nice. last night i saw everyone, simone and thailia,and i met michelle, who i had kinda heard about but not known who she was. and this girl melanie who is so nice, she's friends with diana and alice, who i'm friends with. it's such a small world,at least between highland and winter park, i guess they go hand in hand. people from my spanish class, kids from my math class, it's all very intresting.. who knows. but it was so much fun. cute boys running shows, whatelse is better.. haha i'm sure someone will stumble apon this and be like wendy. and .... yeh.. or nah.. or whatever i wonder if it really matters, iwishi was driving. i wish i had a job. i'm applying at GAP this week. i know my political point's go down with that but whatever i'm not political. and i get clothes' cheaper that's all that matters right. hmm.. radiohead makes you wonder, and so does bright eyes, whatelse is out there.. i wonder about everything, the past the preset adn what's to come.. hopefully something good.. very very good soon. well i'm out for now your very sex friend. love, wendy. Current Mood: anxious Current Music: bright eyes... the feel good revoultion (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 28th, 2001
1:02 am	time is the only thing that will help, it's clihe' but it's very true. dear friend, i havne't been this happy in a while. I o'most forgot how to experience happiness and excitment espically when it's associated with schools, i look at everyone i left and i'm happy i'm gone. Yes, I do feel for those who hate it, and are going threw what I went through last year but this is has been going great. I just can't let my grades slack. Hopefully, i'll do well.. right now i'm watching rem on mtv's unplugged i'm really glad they brought that show back, it's good. i would love to have this and daria back. those were the days. aw. this weekend was fun went to my friend nik's b-day bash about 15 of us just chilled and watched the band play for a bit. i really do love these kids, i feel like i fit with them unlike those who i left but still love. it's weird, but i'm so much happier i hope it get's better, i'm meeting the girls which is hard b/c girls are so judgemental but there so sweet. ha i'll have a posse' next time i get into it. somegirls to go macking with. aw like old times. that's all i'm going to do on friday, get really fucked up smoke too much, drink too much go to a show i would have had a lot of fun at a year ago. hit on every boy that i want to. i dont have to worry about anything or any silly boy. i'm going to have a blast, then go to the last night bash at harold and maude's and hit on the boys there. there was this one gorgeous boy who i should have talked to and i was going to b/c i thought i looked very cute that night, everyone told me i did.. ha. in my very mod. thriftko chic red and white striped shirt with a faux tie on it. it's so rocking paired with a jean jacket and jeans. nice. well anyways i'm walking back and forth from the front of harold and maudes to the back every 5 minutes trying to keep talking to everyone that i had came with and met with there. between converstations of who will drink the most and what gauge and where to get my ears streched. i had went to unity earlier that day but the didn't have the 14 acrylic's i wanted, so i'm going to venus and mars where i saw them this week and i'm going to get them and have them strech them there. i dont really want to go any larger than a 10 gauge, so i'm going to keep 14's then mabye to a 12, but i'm not sure. well the boys are great lately, ah new ones.. i haven't felt this free in ages. i know i keep saying it but it's soooo great. i love this feeling. this boy at school well one in my grade, one in the senior class. oh he's so sex. both the boys have glasses which make them extra sex. sex is such a great adjective. i love messing with the english language.. but the senior boy, extra sex the one in my bio class, is sex. the one at harold and maude's is super de duper sex. haha and supposidly this boy i know at school keeps telling me some guy ( whom i have no clue who he is) " want's to do me" ... haha how do respond to that one.. with a laugh like this.. haha haha. that's how.i doubt i'm giving up that membership anytime soon.i assume you know what i mean. hahah harold and maude's is so great, hit on to get hit on, when eye contact is necessary. hahaha. god i sound so insane tonight.but i'm not i'm hyped up on cough medicine everything that i possibly could have taken today i'm sick and dying. haha. what a surprise when am i not sick. but this weekend. i'm planning on macking it if anyone ever reads this anyway. i doubt it. i just ramble on and on. but i guess that's how iam i think fast and speak faster, well if you going to be at either house of blues or harold and maudes this friday drop me a line. so we can see what's going on.. well toodles for now. love always wendy.. p.s. look into the boy or girl and make sure there not an infectoid.. my good friend didn't realise and errr. she may be an infectoid now. and i'll have to yell at both of them. love ya. Current Mood: flirty Current Music: gilligan's island - theme song.. (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 18th, 2001
2:00 am	this week dear friend, So much has happened and i really dont feel like getting into details, it's very long to be honest, mabye someday I'll look back on it, but I don't think I will, or want to be for that matter. Tonight was so long, I stayed home from my 5th day of school. well it was my first day sick, but I felt horrid, so I refused to go anywhere. Kaye, Jimi and Luke came over and we had a little pre-party. We were gonig to go to Sapphire but then Luke and Kaye had weed, alot of it for a matter so we smoked a few bowls in my back yard. smoked enough ciggaretes to keep 4 chain smoking social smokers to be very content, and enough beer to make me fall on my floor in laughter... haha it hurt so bad, but i couldn't stop.haha, then we decided to drink and smoke, and smoke somemore, we ended up at harold and maudes' boy, do i love that place. luke, kaye, jimi and i ate mad amuont of tater-tot's such a great munchie stoner food to say the least. then myke walked in, i thought he hated me to say the least, always gave me these horrid looks, and then tonight he was like aw, i thought you hated me, and everything.. but he's so nice, and kinda cute, something about boys in glasses, that are kinda short and stocky and wear stripes..mabye i'll see him tommarow.. haha i feel like a dork. it's always me and the short guys, and i'm not short, and then they get weird i dunno. my conor oberst look alike was there, and i want him i really do. so then i kinda like that other boy and harold and maudes' boys's there's two, for sure. we ran into monica whom i haven't seen for years. i think she dyed her hair, it looks so much darker, but i lke her hair alot. it suites her,but i don't realy know what that means, but i was at the grocery store adn this lady told me that, i guess it's a complent, but i don't know.. hmm. shish i like so many boys, there all cute and short, except this boy in my bio class, who i think was staring at me the other day i'm not sure, he looks intresting, he has the glasses and glasses, make boys cute. i want one, but i'm so picky, or somehting like that. mabye something will work out with one of the winter park ones, that would be nice, oh very nice... well i'llkeep you posted on that one.. i'm out for now i'll prob add more tommarow b/c this is very vague, i hate when i'm stoned, i always want some.. hahahaha. that's so not what i usually sound like.. well lates hun love. wendy. Current Mood: giddy Current Music: the white octave (Comment on this)