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Thursday, March 21st, 2002
12:41 pm
Today I am blaming the fact that I have cramps on some world-wide white male conspiracy despite the fact that she is dead this hurts.

I want to cry but I'm a girl well all dried up.

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Wednesday, March 20th, 2002
1:21 pm
Aileen is no more and I knew it before I heard.

Fuck.

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Tuesday, March 19th, 2002
10:49 am
Oh, bother. I just went and spilled an entire 10 dollar tin of tea between the air vent and the screen and now I can't even clean it up so BAH!!!!

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Saturday, March 16th, 2002
5:24 pm
When I say that I hate what this place does to my skin, it really means that I hate what this place does to me. Or what this place has me do to myself.

But I'm gaining a new appreciation for the ambivalence. Except I don't think that I can spell it.

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Thursday, March 7th, 2002
9:16 pm
Yayay!!!

Alii couldn't make me a baby so she made me a beautiful faere on a mushroom out of fimo clay. Now I have to name her.

My roomate was actually nice last night, and didn't walk thorugh a bunch. I think I'm healed of the plague.

Two classes tomorrow and then spring break!!!!!!

Pancho e-mailed me my grades because I asked him. I got an A- in Hum, an A in Spanish and a B+ in Chemistry. Go me!!!! I kicked major ass!!!!

Speaking of kicking major ass, we had the final for self-defense today. I approached him first, and kicked really really hard. I didn't fall. Yay. I was scared, but now I feel happy. Tomorrow they say I will feel sore, but I am happy now.

I'm going to make carmel corn later and watch er. Not going to study for the hum midterm because fuckit, really.

current mood: high

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2:34 pm
It was snowing five minutes ago. This is indeed odd.

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Wednesday, March 6th, 2002
7:48 pm
Fuck this shit. This is me going to bed at 7:47, and my damn roommate better not make 500 trips through my room like she does everyfucking night. Between 2 and 8 one morning, she woke me up no less than 8 fucking times. Grr. But I'm going to get good sleep and I'm not doing anything producitve until going to physics confrence tomorrow. Rar.

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4:47 pm
My body threatens bacterial espionage. Read: I am getting the plague. But I will be home soon enough and then my mumoo can bring me soup.

Today's lecture for Hum was wonderful. And I had a wonderful view.

And I did quite finely on the physics quiz. Yay. And Alii and I are going to the Vagina Monologues later.

But my self-defense final is tomorrow and I'm scared because Monica and I practised *(sp??)* yesterday and I don't quite have the beachball down, though I'm the master of the pelvic thrust.

In conclusion: Boo for mid-terms and sickness, yay for Ann Landers, tea with honey, interesting classes, and cunt shaped cookies.

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Monday, March 4th, 2002
9:57 pm
This is me going to bed before 10 for the 3rd day in a row.
Yay.

Of course this probably means I'm going to be flunking out. But that's okay because I will have gotten my beauty sleep. Or something like that.

Death to Spanish midterms, though, really. 2.5 hours of Spanishy goodness is a bit too much for me. Yes. The Axolotl represent the desires of the Romanitics to construct a barbarian in order to justify their subjugation of the "other".

Or maybe they're just lizards.

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Tuesday, February 26th, 2002
10:41 pm
Another form for you fine folks to fill.

When I have children I will.....

When I have children I won't....

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Friday, February 22nd, 2002
3:34 pm
I'm going to bed now, please nobody wake me up because I'm too the point where I'm so hungry I'm not hungry anymore and i'm so tired I don't know if ican sleep but i feel fucked up like the waking dead. rah.

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2:16 am
http://www.emory.edu/WOMENS_CENTER/lornefa98.html

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12:40 am
i <3 anxiety attacks because i can't breathe and i can't cry.

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Thursday, February 21st, 2002
11:10 pm
In spanish, "cicatrizar" means "to heal," and "cicatriz" means scar...but if you think of it another way cicatriz could also mean healing. So maybe it isnt' a mark of what's wrong, but instead of what's better.

And in that note, I twisted the shit out of my ankle in self-defense.

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Tuesday, February 19th, 2002
2:05 pm
"The nature of the universe is such that ends can never justify the means. On the contrary, the means always determine the end."

-- Aldous Huxley

There's this other quote in _The Fifth Sacred Thing_ by Starhawk that say something like that....something like the means determinining the end. Anyhow. I don't know what to think about that. I'll figure it out, though.

Off to edit the happy paper about the justification of imperialism and unjust power through religious propaganda. yay.

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12:14 am
Alii, Anna, Doug, Mike and I mock the evil pseudoguacamole from a tub. (Therefore) Alii and I go to safeway and buy avacados.

Come back and make real guacamole with baby limes.

Sometimes I think it's bad that I can't ever get away from school because school is home and the only difference between the place where I sleep and the place where I go to school is a blue bridge.

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Monday, February 18th, 2002
10:58 pm
Fuck Yeah. 100 pages of Tacitus up yo ass for Wednesday. Plus I finished my astrophysics problem set. Huzzah.

Now I must revise my essay for Hum.


Ahhhhh. Going crazy! Yea!!!

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1:22 pm
http://freepages.religions.rootsweb.com/~tomrue/lds/paganism.htm

Interesting...

Jen, have you heard of a professor at UNLV called Aliki Barnstone? She teaches English, and she edited this book of poetry called _Voices of Light: Spiritual and Visionary Poems by Women around the World from Ancient Sumeria to Now_. I am digging it muchly.

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Sunday, February 17th, 2002
2:55 pm
http://www.helpingmormons.org/occult_symbols.htm

The similarities between Mormonism and freemasonry are really quite astounding, especially considering all of the paganesque symbolism that they have.

It makes me feel creepy.

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12:22 am
The fact that I go to bed earlier on weekends than on weekdays only proves how absoultely inverted my life is.

Went to a fun barn dance, though. Now my feet hurt from dancing like a fool for hours. I wish I knew how to dance, for real.

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