Thursday, March 7th, 2002
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10:17 pm - I'm back!
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Hey...well hum...WOW! Haven't updated this thing like in forever. About well 6 months because my last entry was when I first met Jason and that was 6 months ago but anyways. I'm a Senior now! That's really cool but I don't know if I am going to graduate this year or not...doing and trying my best to do it. Well that's about it. Just going to school and oh yeah. I am still going out with the guy I mentioned in my last entry. Everything seemed to be so perfect. We were so ready to just do our thing and live together but something happened and it screwed everything up. That really sucks because I am so confused about it and I don't know what to do or think. What should I do? Nothign I guess...can't do nothing but just think the worst and always tell myself...I KNEW IT!
current mood:  bored
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Monday, September 3rd, 2001
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7:22 pm
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Well lately I have felt kind of bad. I don't know what is wrong with me. I mean I should be happy because I have a new bf who I love with all my heart but besides that there is something that bothers me and I don't know what it is. Today I just found out something that now have me worried and I can't get it out of my mind of any reason. I HATE BEING LIKE THIS! Oh I have been really busy with school too. I like to go to school so I can keep my mind out of bad stuff. I have promised to a lot of people that I won't do anything bad so that means I won't do it but still it wouldn't be bad right?
current mood:  moody
current music: Not in the mood for music right now!
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Friday, August 10th, 2001
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7:36 pm
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Hey me again! So what's up? Here nothing much just got home because I went to OnCue to buy some CDs. I bought the new Stabbing Westward CD..it is awesome...I also bought another on that had bands that were doing a tribute to my role model MANSON! It is awesome also...but anyways these days I've been kind of happy well I haven't been depressed or anything like that because school started so I have my mind in other things. I have so much fun at school!
current mood:  okay
current music: Stabbing Westward
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Wednesday, August 8th, 2001
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7:53 pm - I'm back!
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Hi I'm back! Well today I got back to school..at least I'm not going to be sad or bored all the time! It was ok better than what I expected...I met this person online the other day that is sooo cool, nice and sweet! I'm going to talk to him tonight! I'm waiting for it...
current mood:  flirty
current music: None
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Wednesday, July 11th, 2001
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12:51 am
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Ok here I am again..talking to this think like if I'm crazy or something. I was having soo much fun a while ago making a 4-some with my friends...man it was great!!! hehe but anyways...I'm also happy because of this guy. Well I'm not completely happy because I haven't talked to him yet...I want to though. Hum so less then a month to go back to school huh? I'm soo glad I'm going back to school! MY last year thoguh....
current mood: uncomfortable
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Tuesday, July 10th, 2001
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1:45 am
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It's 1:44 am and I don't know what the fuck I'm doing up..I should be in bed with the guy of my dreams..oh damn..I'm in my dream now! hehe! I was just writing to my online friends and sending pic to them so they would know what I look like!
Uhm I'm about to fall asleep so I will write some more tomorrow...later
current mood:  sleepy
current music: This song by Train..I don't know the name of it...
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Tuesday, July 3rd, 2001
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12:14 am
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I feel like shit right now! I just broke up with my boyfriend again and this was it...no more WILLIAMS but if I hurt him..I'm sorry I didn't meant any harm but there is no turning back so I can't do nothing about it now. I came up to write on this thing because I don't have anyone to talk to. I feel alone and I do really need someone but what was the use of having a boyfriend if we can't be together? I need someone here besides me but I don't think that will happen any time soon but anyways..this is done and I can't do nothing about it but to let it go...
current mood: sad
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Sunday, July 1st, 2001
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11:20 pm - (sic)
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Hey again..I've kinda feel bad these past few days. I have the flu and I feel like shit and I've felt like confused lately because I don't know what are my feeling right now toward my this person..I mean yeah I'm sure what I feel but I don't know what to do because he's like a pretty good guy and I don't want to hurt him but anyways today I went to my sister's house because we went to pick something up. She's staying here a couple of day because Thursday we'll have to go to Atlanta for some business that we have to do. Uhm what else? Nope...nothing more..so I'll leave you all alone.
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Thursday, June 28th, 2001
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2:08 pm - Bored
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Ok uhm right now I don't have anything to do and I feel soo fucking tired! I went to bed at about 3 am this morning because I was talking with my boyfriend on the phone. Damn..I feel like something bothers me and I don't know what it is..well I think I know but I just want to get over that shit but I can't. I think should make up my mind and appreciate what I have right?
The other day I was watching The Craft..that movie is one of my favorites! I would love to be like Nancy haha and right now I'm about to go to watch another movie..I don't know which one but I'll see...
current mood: bored
current music: (sic)
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Friday, June 22nd, 2001
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10:52 pm - Back Again!!
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Yeah I know I haven't wrote anything in the past few weeks...its just that I was in my summer vacation! I was in Texas but I didn't wanted to stay anymore because it was soooo fucking hot and shit! I had so much fun..I went to this club (disco) and there were only goth/rave/skater people, it was pretty cool! Then I went to the beach and then to the movies...I went with my sister, my brother and my brother's girl...the movie was about this 2 guys that fucked girls and at the end they ended fucking themselves...ok what else? Oh yeah finally it happened!!! lol well nobody knows what I am talking about but anyways lol sorry I can't go to detail haha!!
Humm...so I am home right now with nothing to do..and probably this will continue till I get back to school. Well I'll wirte more things later ok..so BYE!
current mood: indescribable
current music: None
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Thursday, May 31st, 2001
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9:10 pm - Nooo!
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Humm..so family coming over tomorrow from Texas? Nooo!!! Damn they are going to get on my way and I know they are going to mess around with my room and shit. Hecks nah! And I have been very thoughtful lately..well just thinking that nothing really belongs to me, like I don't have anybody or anything. Well the only thing I have is the love I feel for my boyfriend and that's it! I guess that is the only thing that keeps me alive. I'm starting to feel depressed again...but not like I used to be..I mean this time I don't think about suicide because I have promised to soo many people that I will not do it again so I'm not doing it! This is for you!
Damn..it's only 9:07 and my boyfriend is still working and I don't have anything to do..I've checked all my mail so I guess I'm just gonna sit here and type whatever comes out. But now I don't know what to say ha so I'm gonna leave thing thing alone for a while!
current mood:  confused
current music: None
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Sunday, May 27th, 2001
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8:03 pm - 2 times..Damn
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Here I am again! I just finished watching a move for the 5th time..it's pretty good though! I was talking with my friend Tiff a while ago, she's such a nice person! Hey! lol I have been really excited about something that me and (you know who) have been talking aoubt! I just can't wait because...well it's gonna happen I think! But I mean come on I'm gonna spend 1 week without talking on the phone..HECKS NAH! But it's ok though because I will have more more time when I come beck..IF.. I come back!! haha...you all might be like what is he talking about right? But I know what I'm taking about..and my friends.
Does MTV don't have that much shows to air? Yeah I guess not because because once again they were showing the stupid retied vidoes...Damn they suck! Well I hate it because BSB, BS, and Nsuck are always at the top..yeah that's why! but anyways I won't be talking about this crap..
current mood: stressed
current music: None
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Saturday, May 26th, 2001
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8:27 pm
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Ok the stupid phone woke me up today at 7:00 am..I hate when they call my mom! That's why cell phones were created for! Weren't they?
I didn't do much today...Talked on the phone for a while before he went to work. I watched the TRL top 20 retired videos..I'm tired of seeing those stupid videos over and over again...yeah I'm talking about Britney Spears, Nsuck, and BSB....So yeah it sucks! ok so now my mom got her goofy music on...NOOOO!!!! ha!
Oh yeah I have to go to Texas in about 2 more weeks but I DON'T WANT TO GO!! HECKS NAH!!! Damn...and my mom got mad at me so...Yeah I'm gonna stay there a whole week without moaning!!! haha! Right...?
current mood: okay
current music: None
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Friday, May 25th, 2001
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9:43 pm - So Fucking Happy!
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I just finished talking on the phone with my baby! I'm sooo fucking happy becauae this always make me feel better!! I LOVE YOU BABY!!
current mood:  happy
current music: "Shape of My Heart" By BSB. My Baby wouldn't stop singing it
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5:07 pm - Hummm..?
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Finally I decided to make a live journal! Hope nobody gets bored by this or hope I won't! Humm...So what did I do today? Damn...I can't remember! Actually I haven't been out of the house today..I just woke up this morning at about 9:00 am...I went to bed kinda sad because I didn't talked with my baby...and that's what I'm doing right now..waiting!!
School is over now!! I hate it because now I'm gonna be bored as hell here! I want to go back to school. Yeah call me crazy but I do! I miss my friend already..HOMEWORK!! Haha!
You all are gonna know more about me as I add more things to this!
current mood: bored
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