Wednesday, February 13th, 2002
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2:15 am - for those about to rock....
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We salute you, last night i hung out in the hot tub it was shoooo mellow. then my girl and some of her friends showed up and we went and did the coffee thing. I tripped on a chair fully sober and dead silent it set the mood for the evening. Everyone was accident prone last night, kevin hit his head on a road sign then aletha blew hot co-co all over the place. And before that ang did a belly flop on the cement.....yes very strange indeed.
current mood:  dirty
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Monday, February 11th, 2002
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11:19 am - hello.....long time
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Well it's been awhile..... here goes i broke up wiyh ang awhile ago so i was mr. single boring guy now we are datin agian....so im not single mr. boring guy.
The reason i choose to do such a thing was to try at having something steady and time consuming and benifical to bolth. Plus i seemed happier being with her soooooooo thats tht woop woop. Oh and im going to see muthafukin ozzy
current mood:  bored
current music: ozzy-beliver
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Saturday, February 9th, 2002
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8:46 pm - Hey Curt!!
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Post something
you haven't written anything in 2 months.
We all wanna know whats happening in your life.
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Tuesday, December 11th, 2001
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3:13 am - Dead at the gates of heaven
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-Lost in a forest of thoughts
shadows cast her figure
and me slouched in my pain
Her purity untouched by flame
my warming inferno
will assimilate
our bodies desire
-I wake in the forest of denial
with a vile taste of her
coating my throat and soul
i can't take your betrayal
dead at the gates of heaven
-Inside i tear apart
until that fate awaits us
i hold the mark of extinction
for the human race
-My book has betrayed my name...
has been written with blood
my people are a disgrace
they have burned my effigy with her
and stolen grace from her lips
They have taken the life from your eyes
and planted it in your womb
-the tower collapses
casting ivory stone upon them
for they have denied my magadline
and i am vengeance clothed in faith
this will come to pass
and all shall be just like me
dead at the gates of heaven
current mood:  accomplished
current music: DIN- constructing the flesh
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Friday, November 30th, 2001
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4:50 pm - And then there was two....
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Not a huge fan of the beatles but if i listed my favorite it would be Mr. Harrison. His down to earth guitar and outer world philosophy is something i can identify with. He never found it negative to be the behind the fame of his band mates. I am not a huge fan of being reconized or famous I would shudder to think what it would be like. Fans and groupies no real friends, it all seems to lead to chemical dependency and death. But all in all Mr. Harrison was a quiet inspiration to me and I'm sure lots of others may he rest in peace.
current mood:  calm
current music: while my guitar gently weeps-the beatles
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Thursday, November 22nd, 2001
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4:56 am - I am a tool for jesus...
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I in reference to the royal we...pop music and good ol hometown values its all a flu vacination for the deiviant. its pushed on us everyday and im not weak enough to let it pollute me. I sometimes get angry when i see a catholic church or any church for that matter. I think to myself "a great forest once stood tall and proud here, many years ago" Now we have a monument to a savior who died thousands of years ago probably when that forest was in its infancy. I f thier is a god wouldnt he see citys and churches as needless wouldnt you rather see a sprawling forest than a desolate waste land of humanity. I think i know my answer, jesus would not approve of microwaves and chemicals seeping into our blood stream. O r maybe he doesnt care anymore. Or maybe hes a closet sadist who enjoys our suffering.... so where do you stand.
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Wednesday, November 21st, 2001
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4:42 am - some things better left alone...
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Like an annoying festering pustule our western "civilization" Pushes another one through the hoops. I mean what does this generation have to hold...W.C.T. i like how everyone is clinging to this disaster like a cat in heat. I mean this is proving to be a very lucrative fall from grace. Sure thousands are dead and wall streets a mess but Hollywoods rolling in fields of green. And survivor and other cultural motifs are just pushing our young generation to materiel needs. Does anyone else notice how kids today are extremely lippy. It's a big cluster fuck of marketing and exploitation running through these children's heads. Brain washing them and hiding the true meanings of life life, breed, feed, die. Our western culture is so jaded and cold its devastating when you look at all. The filth thats pumped through our innocent veins. But everyones entitled to their opinions right?????
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Monday, November 19th, 2001
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1:21 am - we need new pornos....
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funny thing about being unemployed, the weekends don,t quite mean the same...exept you get to hang out with your workin buddies- les claypool.So i got into a fight with ang. i hate fighting im not good at it, i always resort to cutting down the person i care about. Well we decided that we should slow things down, i think thats a good idea we take things to seriously. Right now i have a cat on my lap. it's the only cat i have ever liked, they are evil little beings. except for this one...it,s named boots and has six toes. So off topic this weekend was informative and long with lots of working an stuff. Oh yea i be-friended some cowboys at crackers it was weird one of the dudes names was bubba(seriously) More bad news....it doesn't look good for two wonderful people i know im not naming names but one of them (the male) is being ever so stubborn. And i have this weird burn on my wrist i think its from oatmeal.....
current mood:  geeky
current music: variations on a cocktail dress-dillinger escape plan
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Thursday, November 15th, 2001
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4:28 am - this will be brief....
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I am a little aggravated today because of band politics. Im not kicked out of OBEY! but stevie is pissed off at me which is a shame he's fairly mellow....well exept when drunk. I want to play bingo every night now, i went last night and got hooked.....hmmm im not a very good gambler just ask the V.L.T'S .
current mood:  aggravated
current music: Mortis- the stargate
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Tuesday, November 13th, 2001
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2:47 am - perfection...
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So i don't know if im still in obey....i kinda forgot to tell them i was working this weekend and stuff. They were all pissed off at me oh well. So my weekend consisted of doing absolutly nothing but work. I saw my girlfriend finally last night it was our 5 month, i wish i could have done something special for her. Alas i am broke, and my hands feel like raw ground beef. Speaking of such things i am proud to say im not a horible cook anymore.
current mood: complacent
current music: bullet ride - in flames
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Friday, November 9th, 2001
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2:52 am - DIN- hordes of corpses...
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I have sour visions
and twisted thoughts
can i control what will happen?
or is it lost
dig, deeper and through the black earth
find the fallen armies.
return to power at the center of the circle
the eternal swarm
will encase the city
Hordes of corpses, haphazard and macabre
will penetrate the surface
at my command they will burn
is this what you want, i can do no more
only revive lost soldiers and recover time
i can't bring down the sun only set in motion
i can feel no emotion i can feel no sin
for it is a curse to control the armies of
the dead
hordes of corpses a funeral infestation
they will seek you out
and make you one
they will take you home
and he will rule again
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current mood:  artistic
current music: Abigor-Cryptopsy
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Thursday, November 8th, 2001
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2:24 am - Eletroconvulsiveshocktreatment....
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Weeeeelllll i got jolted to day a good ol dose of electric power....im seriously considering giving up my attempts to install anything electrical,that doesn't make sound. Anyway im not dead or injured but my heart was going 9000rpm and i feel strangely sleepy. Oh i must stop sleeping in so much it depresses me to no end. Only rock stars sleep till noon...them and some homeless people. So when i wake up late everyones got a head start on life but me.
current mood:  ditzy
current music: a single wolf howling in the middle of the night...
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Monday, November 5th, 2001
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3:58 am - that lump in the back of your throat...
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I feel like a homesick alien, I am rarley at home. And even if i was i don't reconize it. My room was painted and misplaced in my absence. And it seems to me thats my cue to leave, i dont really want to but. Anyway who made it so i can't have all the things i want, who made it so it's wrong to use. Take cigarettes, they make me calm...but they are going to kill me some day. I don't feel like writing much...im spilling out idle chatter that will some day implode my head. Oh high point EXHUMED is coming here tommorow they better show, ALL THE BLOOD AND GUTS. Low point my guitar is still in the shop, those fuckers at long n mcquade should eat a hot bullet of death. Another thing i am not going to edmonton with OBEY this weekend...fuck it i can't handle or afford touring right now, sometimes it's the band i love to hate.
current mood: working
current music: Hordes of corpses-DIN...
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Friday, November 2nd, 2001
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8:35 pm - YOU MUST OBEY THIS...
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You must obey this...work and more work...im pretty lost right now. im sitting at my girlfriends and about to go to work. I feel robotic and cold, i wish someone would snap me out of it...i feel high when im with her and it's an unsure kind of feeling. is it security or a false sense of reality. well im just an actor in this play of life and i never really know whats going on....
current mood:  weird
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Thursday, November 1st, 2001
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4:11 am - Loyal to the Y.
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I want prohbition to take effect so no one can escape. I want people to put down thier mugs of barley pop and look outside. I want kids to actually do some thing constructive on the weekends. But the other side of me wants to cover the world with napalm. I dont know why but people i've never met seem auful strange. It's my pastime to make up little lives for these people. what kind of car they drive, and how many kids they will have. I used to do this all the time now i do it to myself. Im actually looking ahead for once. Im sick and tierd of this job im at, i know im bieng laid off soon so i don't have to impress anyone. Its great and my new job is nothing spectacular but it's fun atmosphere makes me feel my age. Something interesting iv'e developed a twitch in my left eye hopefully it will go away......
current mood:  drunk
current music: my head buzzing from last night...
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Wednesday, October 31st, 2001
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4:01 pm - Wooooooooo
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just checking out some stuff like my emos ect....
current mood:  amused
current music: the sound of the office i work in...
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2:45 am - HALLOWEEN
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Yea my favorite holiday boo ya. Buck hooked me up with some pics for this mechanical history of my life? So now i will have a face for everyone i meet. Im going out trick or treating then getting blasted, Ill have to see how my evening will progress. What with all the evil in the air. I love halloween because you can taste the sin it's great. Another holiday that is anti-god should be necessary, a holiday in witch all the children are locked up in a roaming caravan and carted away from their mothers by the unseen of the night. I would call this holiday: Belials eve.....muhahahahah
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Monday, October 29th, 2001
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4:18 am - The weekend of my discontent....
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If one show would go as planed, i would bend jesus himself over and kiss his holy white ass(assuming jesus is white). So that said we need to find a decent venue that will stay open....i may take it on myself to find and finance said venue. Well my personal life is as usual laid back, but i need to fill the musical void in this city. I need to start a band to end all bands and make it fast and brutally heavy. Well im jamming with cody and grahme.....should be good enough they are totally into making it devastating.
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Saturday, October 27th, 2001
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2:20 am - The first for alot of things......
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Well last night was fun. Drank alcoholic beverages and got spiny at my very first goth type thing. It was all good fun, kevin was being cool until we left. He got all pissed off and was driving like a tool. So i tried to chill him didn't work, hopefully hes all good stuff now that hes sober....Oh yea i gotta play a show tonight im dressing up like ANTHRAX(not the band).
This new oysterhead album blows old primus out the door.
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