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video games and green burritos [06 Jan 2002|04:34pm] [ mood | forgetful ] [ music | faith no more-easy/ugly in the morning ] i'm glad last night was one of those nights... i hope everyone had as good a time as me. 1 comment|post comment

[04 Jan 2002|01:40am] [ mood | sexA n 23 ] [ music | yo la tengo-our way to fall ] well i went to the artwalk tonight... it's pretty sad during the winter and summer breaks, not many artsy fartsy people around or something... i dunno, but i felt like going and my buddy rich from school said he was going to be there... amazing enough i ran into him right away at art one and i had probably only been there for like a mintue tops, so that was nice, having somebody to walk around the gallerys with... nothing much caught my eye tonight. :shrug: hopefully next month i'll be in one of the gallerys and have a better reason to be there... anyways did that, than stoped by the studio to shut my kiln off... did that went balh blah, talkie talkie and came home to the joy that is filling out applications and getting portfolios together and wondering where i am going to move to? Seattle, Oregon, Indiana, Ohio, Lousiana, Austin, Flordia? /me puts palms towards the sky... hmmm i wonder if it's to bed i be or to trying to clean up my letter of intent... probably watching fight club, since it's on... oh yeah oh yeah wooble <3 thom 4 comments|post comment

[03 Jan 2002|02:16pm] [ mood | 2 bucks ] [ music | one line drawing-crush on everyone ] do you ever think you did something, but you're not sure? i think i was giving whispers to the past last night, but i'm not sure... i so got nothing done today, i remember why i do things sometimes now though... it's not cool to remember the bad and forget the good. sometimes all there is left is memories. i think i am going to stop by the artwalk tonight, for at least a moment... hopefully get forms on their way and not waste a day tomorrow, like today. <3 thom post comment

[02 Jan 2002|12:00am] [ mood | determined ] [ music | saves the day-at your funeral ] my 2002 calender is cooler than yours! "spirit of the far east: the art of asia" i took my eyebrow ring out for the first time in 5 years today, it kinda weirded me out, so i put it right back in, but i didn't bother trying to get the ball in, cause those things are a pain to get in, in the first place. so anyways, i probably wasted today, put i got two bills paid on time somehow. ok so here's the plan. i'm not gonna call it a new years resolution, but this is like my plan. -continue to be a non-smoker -get my grad school applications done and in on time. -get into grad school, hopefully get a fellowship too. -sell artwork, sell functional ware ie plates n bowls of such nature. -move :) -get a job...(maybe) -start to pay off my credit cards -sex -try and be happy -graduate undergrad school at ASU in May. -get ride of possessions -grow my hair out as long as i can take it...(it's longer than it's been in a long while) -read 12 books -go to Seattle in Feb. i can't think of anymore at the moment. oh yeah and i ran out of patches today, so i'm now a non-smoker that's isn't on the patch, weird~~~ i remember how i use to feel when i was 15 now... it's kind of nice in a way... <3 tom 1 comment|post comment

[01 Jan 2002|02:20pm] [ mood | not horrible ] [ music | thursday-cross out the eyes ] it seems like most everyone i know IRL had a pretty good new years eve as i read on LJ. mine was different, but the same as past new years in a weird way... i couldn't really decide what i wanted to do, actually called an ex, just for i don't know, because i was sad and wanted to say happy new years eve i guess... than i decided to have my new years eve with Tabor as i have had many of the past new years eve... all i can say is he bought me a x-mas present i didn't know about, cause i hadn't seen him in awhile... it's a cool cookie monster bank, it rules! but ummm we sat around drinking most of the night and playing dreamcast games n shit... than somewhere during that night we ended up watching the festive shit on tv and saying how we're older than that person and shit that's not fair and this and that, than we started calling curses, cause we're cool like that... and so at midnight him and his glfd kissed and i kissed his dog mindy on the top of the head :) maybe that will help this new year? i've never kissed someone at midnight, i dunno... ok so like stuff -tHom post comment

[31 Dec 2001|03:27pm] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | white stripes-hotel yorba ] today I- -slept in way too late -felt a new kind of sick when i woke up -decided not to go to scottsdale -decided not to work in the studio -went to post office to mail amazon sale -internet stuff yeah lists are neat i suppose... i know of 3 things to go to tonight, i guess... i don't think i will go to any of them, although i probably would go to any of them... i think i'm going to see what a few people i know won't be at any of those get togethers are doing... maybe i will have an adventure... maybe it will take me elsewhere... i'm glad this year is ending, i've had enough of it. i can't believe i'm still sick, i thought i was over it yesterday pretty much... oh well... goodbye 2001 -tom 3 comments|post comment

i thought it was a good idea too [31 Dec 2001|02:05am] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | bright eyes-a perfect sonnet ] This year I in no particular order: -went to Seattle for two weeks -quit woodworkers source -worked for a famous artist -was in the 10th annual san angelo ceramic invitational -made a coffee table -was in a scottsdale gallery -was in some group exhibitions -got into the undergrad juried exhibition again -had a two person show at the step gallery, BFA Show, "Hypochodria?" -told one person i loved them -had my heart broken by the same person -gave up on love -kissed 5 people -destroyed my website -decided to go to graduate school -quit smoking after 7 years -quit drinking, started drinking, quit drinking, started drinking :| -read the audiobiography of malcom x -became president of the asu clay club -got my ears gauged to 4s -got my lip pierced -became 23 -became even more jaded than i ever thought i possibly could be -gained confidence in my abilities -learned how to shot slides -had sex after not having it for quite awhile -got weirder -grew up post comment

[31 Dec 2001|01:57am] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | bright eyes-it's cool, we can still be friends ] What came first, the music or the misery? People worry about kids playing with guns or watching violent videos afraid that some sort of culture of violence will take them over. Nobody worries about kids listening to thousands, literally thousands, of songs about heartbreak, rejection, pain, misery, and loss. Did I listen to pop music because I was miserable? Or was I miserable because I listened to pop music? 8 comments|post comment

[30 Dec 2001|12:32am] [ mood | incoherent ] [ music | the pixies-where is my mind? ] sometimes i feel like i am being really incoherent... i probably am. i'm still sick woohoo! i talked to the past this morning, that was uncomfortable, but there is nothing i can do about that anymore... than i went to get more medicine... i feel all loopy, S A came over and keep the sick boy company for a little bit... got to say where the magic happens, that's always funny, some white worm movie was on, it was funny, i sold a cd on amazon woohoo! 5 things i've sold on there :) maybe i will put more things up for sale on there soon? so i hope i get better soon... it'd be nice to go outside and do things :) oh yeah and i put together my slide portfolios i'm pretty much done with that now :) that's neat too ok :cough: :cough: -incoherent 3 comments|post comment

[29 Dec 2001|02:14am] [ mood | sick ] [ music | mindless self indulgence-played ] i'm still sick i still want people to tell me if they think i should take out my eyebrow ring or not? i want to go to disneyland before Jan. 6th... if I had a better car I probably woulda went tonight... but I do not, hopefully I'll get there though, we will see. I am tired of being sick, it has been long enough... I have a hard time getting things done when i'm sick and stuff... ummm yeah i tried to make more stuff at the studio today too, but me being sick, didn't get much done... i have a few things, hopefully next week i'll have some things done done, so stuff. <3 S A 3 comments|post comment

[27 Dec 2001|04:01pm] [ mood | blah ] [ music | the faint-worked up so sexual ] i am thinking about getting ride of the eyebrow ring... any thoughts about that? and i'm sick. :cough: :cough: <3 S A 8 comments|post comment

[26 Dec 2001|06:55pm] [ mood | sick ] i am getting sick...well i am sick, but its getting worse and i'm trying to make it better... i was going to put in a entry after i got home from the studio, but i took a bunch of medication to knock me out... i was going to put up a groundhog day wsihlist of something like that, i don't think that day fucks anything up for me and it's after all my stupid graduate school shit is due... i wish i felt like people knew me better or at least my parents, but whatever i can't help that. 3 comments|post comment

[26 Dec 2001|08:15am] [ mood | ill ] [ music | failure-enjoy the silence ] I am 74% evil. Wow! I'm almost pure evil! Sin is my way of life. If there is a hell I have packed my bags for the trip. Are you evil? find out at Hilowitz.com i do not believe the maker of this test is evil at all... that stuff isn't that bad? where was the ever KILLED someone, nowhere...it said have you ever thought about... like ok sure and where was the have you ever pissed in the Wendy's chilli? where was that shit...or have you ever shit in the Wendy's chilli, now that guys evil... and how about the retards, where were the retard questions? where was the making people cry and laughing questions... hmmmm hmmmm not that evil of a test in itself. anyways, on another note i woke up at 5:30am, i throat hurts, i don't know why except for i am probably sick... guess what i am doing today? any guesses, yep studio... ha i remembered cds! i will bring cds i remembered! that's neat. hmmm teapots n pitchers today i think.... or maybe actually make something i want to make like a BIG BIG BIG BIG TOILET! post comment

home is where you hang yourself [25 Dec 2001|05:39pm] [ mood | aggravated ] [ music | burn cholla-regret ] so i tried to pretend that it was another normal day... yeah it's not, even if you do nothing different, it's different...no control. but i will try and look on the bright side and say at least the studio was able to be gotten into. i swear there ain't shit for nobody at ASU. so i think i got there at 1:30pm, in my pretending... i'm bringing cds next time, christmas songs on the radio... NO. so pretending was pretty hard, since i started to feel like a dick for not being at home with my rents or whatever, so i was all oh i'm gonna get home and eat dinner with em... yeah ok they ate without me... early as fuck, what the hell is that about? i said i wouldn't be gone long and like whatever, whatever, so i'm not eating... cause it's ate... and guess who calls me... hi ex glfd you called me, hmmm called me on birfday/thanksgiving, call me on x-mas/day from hell, and she was in cali? left a message, if i find out she went to disneyland... i don't even wanna think about that. whatever, whatever, i just want to leave again now and whatever, i can't talk to anyone either, i'm too "joyful" right now... i really am trying to be ok today, but damn... 2 comments|post comment

[25 Dec 2001|11:56am] [ mood | bitchy ] [ music | me burping ] it got- from rents- -deodorant -3 packs gillette razors -joop -3 pair boxers -socks (i don't like socks?) -toolbox -tools -something to put ontop of my monitar? it's a stand or something i don't know i will keep the deodorant and razors from other people- -angel-card and some book for me to write in -jason-20 dolla in movie money -aunt-20 dolla -jhen-card -shawna-to be given, but it's actullay a late b-day present, late late one... so what have we learned? i smell bad and need to shave aparently? but here's my christmas joy...what do presents matter when you can't afford to pay your visa and mastercard bills and can't afford to pay your application fees to graduate school? so to all the happy people, i will say again, i hate holidays, fucking thanksgiving ruined my birthday and fucking christmas can suck my arsehole... i want the bbq now and liquor :) i'm going to pretend this isn't christmas and go to the studio and work and listen to heavy metal. here surprise me---the link works now, i think 10 comments|post comment

[24 Dec 2001|03:11pm] [ mood | sloppy ] [ music | pitchshifter-genius ] here's my day, oh boy! so i woke up an hour after i wanted to, but i think i planned that, cause it was still early for me, being 9am and all. so i'm all bout it, i gotta go to the photobition phoenix, they close at noon today, cause of stupidass christmas... so go there and run into jennifer, she's this girl from school n shit that use to help me fire the kilns off, well she works there in the back, but luckly she came out when i walked in, so that was cool and she looked at my slides and wanted to buy one of the vases i guess... so that was neat, she's a peach... so than i got ot school and say fuck paying today, i'll just walk across campus to the art building, well i get to my parking structure and the gates are open... hmmm so me being a smartie figure all the parking structure gates were open and drive to structure 3 by the art building, yep i was right, neato. so i say hi to rico and shit, he gets his vaction now, good for him, but he has keys and i don't, so that sucks, well i was all workie workie there today, i think i woulda stayed there forever, but i hate traffic and kind of leave according to when i able to beat traffic, but oh well, i guess i wokred there for 4 hours... i think i'm a little behind on my quota of 600 items, i think i'm at like 40... hmmm but it was 600 at 5 dollars and i have at least 10 at 25 so yeah it'll even out. but yeah i did that and made a mess and said fuck it i'm not cleaning up, i'll be the first person back here anyway, cause i'm the only one who gives a shit anyways. so i've decided and i guess i always knew, i want in to University of Washington! here's why, it was the only application i have a gotten that actually made me smile to look at it. so yes, i hope i go there and not one of the other places, but we'll see. so tomorrow is christmas...fuck christmas, fuck holidays, this isn't new, i hate them, i hate them all, places aren't open on holidays, no one can go out for the most part, holidays can suck an egg. ya know what else, i didn't buy anyone anything and i'm not getting anything. i don't count a book from one friend who lives in seattle as present(s) my parents didn't get me anything and i don't care, whatever...i just want to bbq like all the other good holidays, bbq and drink beer...that is all. i think i am going to try and sleep through tomorrow. if i'm a real dick, i will wake up before anyone else and go hide in the studio all day and be productive and not watch fucking tv and shit. hmmm yeah so whatelse, oh yeah i finally got something down on paper for my statement of purpose, finally actually getting the graduate school stuff done, i can not wait til after feb. 1st, than i'll be done with that, although a lot of the schools are jan. 15th... hmmm taco, hmmm beans, hmmm red rice, hmmm ghetto booty, hmmm casino, hmmm stuff post comment

[23 Dec 2001|05:40pm] [ mood | fibromyalgia ] [ music | flogging molly-selfish man ] last night sure was weird. i enjoyed it, if drinking was like that everytime, i would drink all the time. so i woke up at 5pm, that was neat. i slept in my clothes again. i think that is a new world record for me of days in a row sleeping in my clothes. i'm bored now i'm thinking about drinking again. I RULE! i'll probably do some stupid work and stuff though, since i didn't do anything for that yesterday. hmmm alright that was neat. 1 comment|post comment

[22 Dec 2001|05:50pm] [ mood | discontent ] [ music | bright eyes-It's cool, we can still be friends ] i guess i like to write on my arms with sharpie marker and drink; milk and pepsi one and water and screwdrivers all at the same time... i got a e-mail from shawna, saying she had a present for me...and i got a present from angel in the mail today. hmmm kinda funny how those two are the only two that got me presents. I got another form today...finally from University of Washington! fuck everywhere else, i wanna go there! that's where i want to be, i shouldn't be fooling myself at all, i want to move to Seattle! and i got a form from Indiana University, i think they are going to take me... they have money, ok so those are the places. plus those other 5 n stuff. i don't know anymore... 4 comments|post comment

[22 Dec 2001|01:27am] [ mood | lonely ] [ music | bright eyes-the calendar hung itself ] i don't know if i can handle my brain screaming at me anymore. i don't want to miss anymore. i don't want to feel anymore. i'm just so damn tired of it. i also can't help it either. i've tried everything i could think of and now its really coming out in my work. ugh no one desires to feel how i feel. ok i'm babbling. post comment

[21 Dec 2001|10:42pm] The Christmas Cock post comment

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