Mixing Zoloft with alcohol is not a good thing.

Neither is having a complete stranger walk in on you while you are in a Taco Bell bathroom.

Hah. So guess what? I thought I had a deadline for my education portfolio today. Well, I DID, but it got changed to the 14th instead. I worked 14 HOURS straight yesterday, no joke! The only exception was an hour dinner break and a couple 15 minute breaks. I stayed up till 4:30 in the morning and got up at 6:30 for school. GAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!! But the funny thing is I'm not tired at all, and I haven't been since I woke up. And at least I'm ahead of everyone else who did not get as far as me, and believe me, that's almost everyone. SUH-WEET! =)

I just officially killed my hair. I dyed it a second time, only this time I tried for more of a red, and my roots are bright orange! Not only that, but my hair looks more damaged than it was. AHHHHHH! I need to learn to stick with brown...it's what I'm good at.

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I dyed my hair and it looks bad. Maybe dying it again tomorrow. But I don't want to kill it, since I'm trying to grow it out. *sigh*

k, the end.

So...this weekend was interesting.

First off, I went to Aaron's for the weekend, and it was fun. We went to Fort Wayne. Sunday I went home (no school Mon, Tues, or Wed) and it snowed, and I ended up in a ditch. For $45 I got towed out.

Sooo...I get home and take my car in to get checked for a loud noise. Because I went in the ditch, I decide to have them check the tires as well. Turns out my muffler's broken and needs to be replaced, my tires are bald, my brakes are 80% worn, and the damage is $800! I didn't even get all four tires yet! Just two!

But hey, maybe going in a ditch was a good thing...otherwise I may have not known about my tires and breaks until too late...

On a good note, I had a nice time at home. My mom, sister and I went wedding shopping. It was grand.

I was just reminded recently as to why I wanted to be a teacher in the first place. Hard as some things may be, it's totally worth it to be there for the kids. When one tells me that I'm the only person there for him, I know I'm doing what I'm meant to do. Getting caught up in being evaluated and the lesson plans, important as they may be, is nowhere near as important as showing the kids love. Many of them don't get that anywhere else. Yesterday, I was crying over one of my students. They just mean so much to me, and sometimes student teaching makes me forget that. But I now know that I am where I am supposed to be. This may sound cheesy, but I mean all of it one hundred percent.

I feel groooooooooooss.

Milk and cereal...hahaHA...oh shea...

Tomorrow I get observed. Yipee do da.

I guess that means I should probably go to bed.

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So I had a headache and I took Excedrin. It made me alert (because of the caffiene), and I typed a lot of lesson plans, but I have one left, and now I CAN'T CONCENTRATE, I'm so JITTERY!! Ahhhh! I need to get this done, but I can't seem to make myself!!

I don't have caffiene that often. Maybe this is why I feel like I'm on drugs, hah.

I'm bored.

I listened to the new Bright Eyes today. It is amazing.

Tomorrow is homework day. Something I am not looking forward to.

Awww, Rainer Maria. Memories, memories.

Hmm, if I decide not to go into teaching, what could I possibly do??? That's been on my mind lately. I like psychology...but nothing comes to mind. Heh. I'm sure there's something I could do. Besides working at Walmart. Oh I hope I don't do something like that.

This song is making me think about my freshman year in college. Sad. I don't like that. I miss it in a way.

But then again, I don't.

I'm not tired at all. That's what sleeping till 1:00 does to you.

So...

I've been going through a lot lately. It's not something I would like to discuss on here, but I'll just say I wasn't headed in a good direction at all. In fact, I was headed in a very bad direction. Plus I'm just confused about a lot of things right now. I've never felt like I have no control in my life like I have in the past few days. But it's getting better. I talked to Aaron, and he made me think about a lot of things. I also talked to God, and I decided I wanted to give it up to Him. But then I had a really frightening nightmare last night. Every time I decide I want to be closer to God, that happens. Coincidence? I don't know. But either way, I'm not out of the woods yet, and I know this. It's not all going to go away, and it's a huge struggle for me. I know I will be judged though, so I don't even know why I'm posting this on here. Plus there are people who struggle way more than I do, so I feel stupid saying I even struggle. Blah.

Thank God it's almost the weekend.

Turns out Aaron's NOT allergic to them! He has a cold! MWAH!!! This means I get to keep them AND they are going to get as big as kittens! HAH!

One ate out of my hand today. Oh how cute.

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So...here I am, back from winter break. It was good times. I substitute taught kindergarten, fourth grade, and ld fifth grade. Definitely liked fourth the best.

I am student teaching now. This will become stressful, I know. I have some good ideas I hope to implement though. Plus I got to go shopping tonight and buy teacher organization stuff for my desk. =)

Aaron and I took engagement pictures over break. One is to go in my hometown paper as well as Aaron's. Which do you think is the better?

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I feel really crappy today for some reason. I'm not sure why. I hate that, when you feel bad for no reason, or at least a reason you can't pick out. Maybe it's all this stuff I need to do--prepare for my huge test after Christmas break, prepare for student teaching, prepare for the wedding, take a singing test in less than an hour (when people cringe when I sing). I have the feeling of impending doom. Something good happen to me so I can feel better.

Hey Christie, remember that Lucky Boy's Confusion song, Fred Astair? My roommate is listening to it right now, and it's really a strange feeling. At least it's not that I'm Gonna Steal Your Girlfriend song. Haha.

I don't care what any of you say, The Faint is by far the best of all the new wave/post punk bands. Not !!!, not Radio 4, but THE FAINT!