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[20 Mar 2002|09:52pm] [ mood | dull ] [ music | There Goes My Hero- Foo Fighters ] Titus is one bad ass show. whoOOp. ya know wut I've noticed lately? my life is like....dull. wut happens to me thats exciting? nothing. I have a boyfriend. nothing odd there. me and my friends are dumbasses. nothing exciting there. I make bad grades. My parents are lame. I go to church. I'm a freakin' loser cuz I'm boring as hell. geez. court's life is atleast halfway interesting. her boyfriend lives at her house and hes a complete fool. lol. her family is corrupt (well, her mom and herself are anyways). and stuff happens there and I always hear about it and I wish I was there. damn you. thats it, I've settled the matter. courtney, I'm moving in with you a.s.a.p. I'll sleep in your window seat. I'll make u use equal cups. and when I automatically wake up early on saturdays, you're getting up with me. I'll pierce every flap of skin on my body with your mom's permission. walk around butt ass naked in your house (except for sundays, I'll wear a thong....maybe) and dammit, you're gonna like it cuz I'm a DULL PLAIN JANE (not really cuz my name is nicole, hehe). and if you don't let me move in with you. . . I'll move in with anthony and we can just...yeah...hmmm....maybe thats a better idea. haha jk. ok, enough with boring ramblingness. its 10, I'm tired, so I'm goin to bed. OK...Peace Out (thats my impression of the guy off of Big Daddy...yeah...) oh yes, one last thing... No Doubts new song sucks my ass and I want to kill Gwen Stefani and the guys for GOING POP! YOU SUCK AND I HOPE YOU DIE....eventually that is....stupid sell out shit....ok, I'm done take a hit

[20 Mar 2002|05:35pm] [ mood | cynical ] [ music | BitterSweet Symphony- The Verve ] man, sarah michelle gellar is so fucking cool. me and my mom watched cruel intentions last nite and Katherine is the shit. such an evil, manipulative......bitchy.....slut. oh, I'd kill to be like her. I told my mom that, she said good luck. and ryan phillipe is hot as hell. aw man. ok, calm down nicole. anyways, the past few days have been pretty lame. mimi's coming over this weekend. I might tak her to school one day when she has spring break so she can 'see the school cuz she's 'moving' back' teachers are so dumb. haha. we might go to the newton vs eastside baseball games or something. theres an awesome show this friday but the odd are against me and I probably wont be able to go. oh well. I'm okay. I wanted to avoid kris anyways. becca called me last nite. we didnt talk long but she told me that seth broke up with her. which completely sucks :( damn him. DAMN THE MAN WHO MADE THE RULES THAT I HAVE TO FOLLOW! (haha michelle if ur reading this) well, I'm tired of writing for right now. sorry if its a disappointing entry. lata babes take a hit

[17 Mar 2002|05:23pm] [ mood | bouncy ] [ music | Graduate- Third Eye Blind ] AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAnukvynuiotbwybmtuioatyuioaetybt Craig just brought his Third Eye Blind CD for me to borrow. man, I've been wanting to listen to 3eb since...forever!!!!! thanks craig ;X. anwyays, I'm skipping church, again. youth is no fun anymore cuz mimi never goes, becca never goes and callie only goes if I see her in the morning and ask her to go. blah. everyone else just kinda...tolerates me. it should not have to be like that. damn the man, AOL is so dead right now. I SHOULD be reading Lord of the Flies buuuttttt.....I'm eating chips and cheese dip from Los Bravos. mmmmmm. -melts- my favorite. geez, wut a BORING weekend I have experienced. doctor....laziness.....renting movies....laying out....eating chips....not doing school work.....hmm....thats all normal tho. except for the doctor part. I need to get my 'punk ass' out of the house. (hah, 3eb reference, sorry guys) geez. I need a LIFE. well, I'm goin to attempt being a good daughter and do my school work or something. toodles 1 addict . take a hit

[17 Mar 2002|02:46pm] [ mood | jubilant ] [ music | Last Nite- The Strokes ] wow! It is SUCH a GORGEOUS day today. I laid out on the backporch and it was so.....great :). I'm not much darker but I'm not any lighter. lol. I love the way I feel after I've laid out. I take a shower and dry my hair and its all blonde and my skin is just a little darker and I feel like a big sexy. where's playboy when you need them?? haha. that was a joke. I'm watching Election. this movie is so funny. Reese Witherspoon is a slut in disguise. I wish I could be like that. wOOoooO another joke. man, I'm on a ROLL. anyways, today is St. Patricks Day but I dont really care so I shall not wear green. I was thinking of wearing black but then I decided that's a Valentine's Day color, so I opted for blue. I look pretty in blue and today I feel like looking pretty. sheesh, wut's wrong with me? well, I'm gonna go eat some food and watch the rest of Election. and maybe later I will read "Taylor Hanson's" journal. -cracks up-...yeah....lata guys take a hit

[16 Mar 2002|09:52pm] [ mood | silly ] [ music | Becoming Ja Rule and J Lo ] hah. my medicine is making me all....absent minded and ....weird. whoOOP. my mom and dad are SO SILLY. they grounded me for my report card but I can still talk on the phone and anthony can still come over whenever. so its not like I'm grounded at all. it's very silly. yes indeed. LOOK WUT I FOUND TODAY!!!! www.livejournal.com/community/must_be_pop check out the info and READ THE DISCLAIMER it cracked me up elizabeth is supposed to send me a pic of Eben and i want to put it in here but I dunno how so nevermind, I will kieep it to myself. heh heh wuts the point of Becoming? the people look nothing like the celebrities. geez. stupid MTV. wasnt I supposed to boycott it this last week? oh well, I'll do it next week. if I feel like it. um...yeah i forgot wut i was about to say so I'm gonna make like a fetus and head out. -cracks up. I made a funny take a hit

[16 Mar 2002|04:21pm] holly from road rules 10 is a bitch and full of shit. just felt like saying that. I LOVE STRAWBERRY COUGH DROPS damn you. PaRtY lIkE a RoCkStAr KiCk A lIl AsS.....yeah...I'm done take a hit

[16 Mar 2002|01:50pm] [ mood | lazy ] [ music | Saints and Sailors- DC ] man, I can't wait til Greg the Bunny premieres on FOX. looks like it will be a new favorite...liek TV Fun House. anyways, I went to the doctor this morning. I have strep and/or the flu. the dont have results. for all they know I could be slowing dying and rotting away. stupid doctors. the Osbournes are so FUCKING awesome. Ozzy is the coolest dad. he's so out of it and brain dead. I love him. and their animals go to boot camp. -cracks up- I LOVE IT. anwyays, anthony came over last nite and stuff. we rented Dude Where's My Car cuz he hadnt ever seen it and I felt like he was deprived. I luv it and I have seen it a million and 5 times so I didnt mind. yeah. I felt kinda bad cuz I wasnt very fun and exciting last nite cuz I was sick, but I dont think he minded much, which is cool. I have strawberry cough drops. very cool. yes yes indeed. ya know..there IS an advantage to being sick. you can sit around and watch movies all day, eating ice cream and being a big lazy bum...minus the yelling of parents to get you off your lazy ass. well, I'm done writing now. I want some ice cream, I'll check y'all lata! take a hit

[15 Mar 2002|04:54pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | Amber- 311 ] ok, today wasnt that bad of a day. anthony is supposed to come over tonite n stuff, which is ALWAYS good. and it's so beautiful outside and its just.....good. I've needed a good day like this for a while now. I still feel kinda sick, but I'm pretty sure I'll be okay. Dashboard Confessional tickets are on sale or something and I would LOVE to go to the concert. I <3 DC. wow. yeah. well, I'm going outside or something, why waste my time on my comp. on a day like this? I'm out like a fat kid in dodgeball. lata take a hit

[14 Mar 2002|07:21pm] I'm sick. I hurt. This sucks. Bye take a hit

[13 Mar 2002|07:36pm] [ mood | aggravated ] [ music | Holly Hox Forget Me Nots- Saves the Day ] ya know, lately, it seems like nothing I do is good enough for anyone, especially my parents. my grades suck, my attitude sucks, my choices suck. everything to them....sucks. and then, when I actually do my work, they critisize more and more. an excellent example of this is wut just happened 10 minutes ago. I had to type a paper about Nixon, right? I didnt write it cuz I had to study for Geometry and wut not so....my partner wrote the rough draft and gave it to me to type. I helped her look up info and all but she wrote it. anyways, so I had a copy of the final draft downstairs for mom or dad to read. well, dad got to it first and started to complain about how terrible it was becuase it only said 'negative' stuff about Nixon and didnt mention all the good things he did. so he got mad at me and told me I was gonna make a bad grade. I explained to him that I didnt write it, I was just making the final copy and he went on and on about stupid Democrats and shit like that. I told him I just wanted to get a good grade and then he had the nerve to say he hoped I got an F on it. Just because he's a stupid redneck ass that has to be right all the time. I'm not republican or democrat, personally, I could careless. it is a good paper and me and my partner will get a good grade on so help me God. but geez, is ANYTHING I do good enough for my fucking family? obviously not. this is the reason kids rebel. they get sick of trying to make their parents happy becuase they dont appreciate it anyways. here I am, doing my school work like they want and the asshole complains about it. well fuck you. I'm out. lata 2 addicts . take a hit

[12 Mar 2002|05:05pm] [ mood | busy ] [ music | Banned From the Backporch- Saves the Day ] I have to type a report about Nixon, I just felt like writing in here first. today was...different. when me and my parents got in that fight last nite, all they talked about was making a change and blah blah blah. so that's wut I did. I made a change. I did my homework. I studied for my tests. I took responsiblity. I was nicer to everyone. I paid more attention to anthony. I didnt pass notes. it was odd, but I feel pretty good. I'm still grounded until God knows when, but I don't feel like shit like I did yesterday. I prayed last nite....alot. and I prayed today, more than normal. and I even remembered the card I have on my bulletin board that says "put God in the center and everything will come together" and that's wut I need to do. I've drifted so far from God and church and all that stuff. no wonder everything has been crashing and burning right in front of me. well, I guess I'll go type that paper now. lata y'all 1 addict . take a hit

[11 Mar 2002|10:13pm] [ mood | melancholy ] [ music | Toxiscity (sp?)- System of a Down ] ok, so I talked to anthony and he's doing fine, which is always good. but geez, its just one thing after another. me and my parents just had the worst fight that I can ever remember having. and considering some fights from the past, thats just ugly. I felt like one of those sad, helpless girls you see on those Lifetime movies. and my eyes hurt so bad from crying and my throat stings from screaming. and this time, I didnt even start the fight. I hate being a teenager that isnt even remotely understood. I just hate being 15 all together. and I have a feeling it's just gonna get worse so I'm gonna hold on for dear life. I g2g to bed now, I need some sleep, maybe tomorrow will be better. take a hit

[11 Mar 2002|06:37pm] [ mood | worried ] [ music | The Vast Spoils of America- Saves the Day ] omgosh u guys. anthony has been in the emergency room since like.... noon today. he was in weight training and he screwed up a bunch of muscles in his back. no PE or anything like that for 3 weeks. and he has to take a bunch of pain relievers and muscle relaxers. well, thats wut his step dad said, anthonys not home yet. my poor baby. I hope he's ok. :( I'm all worried like a mom or something. I'm so lame. but I <3 him so I guess I'm not too lame. well y'all, I got homework and studying that I'm actually gonna do -gasp-. I know, hard to believe, eh? lata lata take a hit

[10 Mar 2002|09:52pm] [ mood | apathetic ] [ music | Again I Go Unnoticed- Dashboard Confessinal ] man. I feel....low. like my self esteem... is at an all time low. I dunno why but suddenly I feel so ugly and unworthy. all my friends are so beautiful and perfect with their perfect hair and tans and bodies. and I'm just here. short, pale...and ugly. leeann looks like katie holmes and is gorgeous. mimi is so happy and shiny and pretty. michelle is blonde and tan and pretty. courtney is just courtney, no explanation there. becca is tall and dark haired and dark skinned and she's gorgeous too. callie is blonde, tall, tan, a cheerleader, she's got it all. and I'm just like....the one they hang out with to look good beside. why am I thinking like this? because I feel like I'm gonna loose something to them? anthony maybe? I just feel so odd looking and feeling. Like there's something wrong with me. I don't dress all pretty to try to look good anymore and impress people and when I do, I don't look good at all. I need a change or a make over or something to stop these feelings. I need a good cry. Or some Midol. I dunno, I'm going to bed now, I just really needed to write this down somewhere cuz my mom obviously doesnt care. nite y'all. 3 addicts . take a hit

[10 Mar 2002|02:23pm] [ mood | sore ] [ music | that Sugar Ray song about the phone (I hate it) ] its sunday afternoon and its beautiful yet cold outside and I feel like shight on a stick. blah. I have a million cases of cokes in my garage that caused me to pull a muscle in my back after loading them off the freakin truck by myself. geez. and I couldnt sleep last nite cuz I spent the nite with mimi and she talks/snores/moves too much in her sleep. it drives me crazy. I'm skipping church today so I can sit around and be lazy. dad might let me drive around later today but I'll probably screw something up so maybe I should pass on that one. I wanted to go to MYF so that I'd have an excuse for anthony to come over but I'm not going anywhere and mom wont let him come over today. blah. watch, I'll get grounded for my report card this week until I can bring it up and I'm gonna wish that I went to church so he could have come over so we could have been alone together and damn. oh well. I'll be ok, it's not like I don't see him everyday. anyways, I watched Becoming Sum41 last nite and I have to say, I was extremely disappointed. the only kid that looked even moderately close to a band member was the guy that was Stevo. the guy that was Bizzy D pissed me off. geez, can't they get a HOT GUY to be the HOT GUY in the band? psshhhhh. I say we boycott MTV. stupid shight. comedy central all the way. I went to the mall yesterday and bought a Bill and Ted shirt for like...8 bucks. it was great. but it was boringish at the mall this week. oh well, I'm over it. I'm going to go watch Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back for like the 5th time. we were supposed to take it back today, but....I don't care. -insert evil laugh here- tata take a hit

[09 Mar 2002|09:22pm] [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | Don't Let Me Get Me- Pink ] hey guys! yesterday was one month for me and anthonoy. everyone jump up and down and clap cuz nicole has a functional relationship!!!! yay! you guys this is the happiest I've been since...forever. yeah. this has been a decent week, sorry about not making many entries. I'll make it up to ya. ;) well, mimi is hear and so I have to go! lata gatas! take a hit

[09 Mar 2002|09:22pm] [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | Don't Let Me Get Me- Pink ] hey guys! yesterday was one month for me and anthonoy. everyone jump up and down and clap cuz nicole has a functional relationship!!!! yay! you guys this is the happiest I've been since...forever. yeah. this has been a decent week, sorry about not making many entries. I'll make it up to ya. ;) well, mimi is hear and so I have to go! lata gatas! take a hit

[06 Mar 2002|09:35pm] I know this is sooo against wut I think but it was too funny to resist... BREEDLOVE83: you dont' understand BREEDLOVE83: i no what "the right" thing to do is BREEDLOVE83: but fuck society BREEDLOVE83: i mean shit weed isn't even a sin BREEDLOVE83: society won't legalize it because they can't make money off of it NiCis99x: but its not good for u BREEDLOVE83: neither is runnning down hill BREEDLOVE83: but people do it NiCis99x: lol NiCis99x: -cracks up- 2 addicts . take a hit

[04 Mar 2002|05:43pm] [ mood | bouncy ] [ music | Screamer- Good Charlotte ] well, surprisingly, it was a decent monday. besides the fact that I got poked in the eye with a COOKIE, DAMN YOU. but yeah. I had to stay after school for geometry and that kinda sucked but if I dont bring up my grade (75.4) then I'm grounded until Jesus returns. lol. I'm talking to aley (ally? allie? allley) and she said that court is trying to get us together this weekend which is AWESOME but I was already planning it. maybe friday, but then again I wanted to be with anthony on friday. I try to seperate my friends and boyfriend stuff. especially if I want to be ALONE with my boyfriend. wink wink, nudge nudge. yeah but something will work out, I mean, its only monday. sheesh. you people rush me. ramen noodles are so good. mayun. YOU GUYS! GUESS WUT! this friday will be one WHOLE ENTIRE MONTH for me and anthony. mayun, I hadn't had something last this long in......a while. I'm so happy. he's great. but anyways, I guess I'll go now and do something interesting like.....sleep...or read about ronald reagan (sadly, I'm not joking about that one) lata y'all. I just realized...Screamer is my fav song in the world and I have never written it in this journal for my 'music'....hm.... take a hit

[03 Mar 2002|12:13pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | Walk By- GC ] wut up hoes. I'm dead tired. I spent the nite at nana's last nite and me and my brother had to share the same bed. not only did he sretch across the whole top half but he kicked me numerous times in the nite. needless to say, I didn't sleep. and that doesn't even count my nana and pawpaw hacking up their lungs in the middle of the nite. oh well, that's wut u get for smoking. anyways, I think I'm going to go back to bed, in my bed, where no one kicks me. or maybe I'll take a shower. I dunno. but I'm going to go now n stuff. lata y'all. take a hit

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