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Friday, September 14th, 2001
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5:13 pm - bye.....
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i decided from now on only people that are on my friend's list will be able to read my journal..so if you want on it..tell me i guess and i'll decide...that's all...
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| Tuesday, September 11th, 2001
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7:33 pm - pearl harbor in recreation.
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somebody has just reawoken a long in slumber infamous day in history.
i have never watched so much tv in my life.
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| Sunday, September 9th, 2001
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12:13 pm - it's that time again!
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every ... and i mean EVERY year at this time of the year things go wrong in every way for me. we'll just throw out a few of this years examples to prove my point.
-being groped by stinky drunk men
-brien being in jail
-grandma being sick
-the neverending fights with parents
-HAVING NO LICENSE WHEN I COULD BE DONE WITH DRIVING TIME AND TAKEN MY TEST BY NOW. BUT THE MORONS AT D&D; ARE EXACTLY THAT....MORONS.
-panda not knowing when to stop sleeping with people and not knowing when to stop hurting erik.
-nick going to college...well, i'll still see you, you're just long distance now.
-anybody want more?
current mood: bitchy
current music: saves the day- through being cool
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| Saturday, September 8th, 2001
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11:00 am - why the hell am i always the one to get their ass grabbed?
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well last night was good...for the most part. i didn't see the first band. hell. i don't even know who they were...but all the bands i did see rocked. seeing phylum was refreshing. i hadn't seen them in months it seems. breaking pangea...gah. orgasmic. strangers, even better with my nick. and i can't remember the other band names i saw. but they were good. the one band sounded exactly like saves the day, but they were still great.
and those were the bands....
i saw my spooky who i didn't think was going to be there :) thanks for going hon! umm, wendell was there, i chatted with him for a little bit. and nick .. the whole reason i went..::sigh::...erin (my internet buddy..aka nicks friend) was there, she's always fun to talk to. umm casey, kelly, matt, and kelly's boyfriend who's name i can never remember. crystal was there!!! yay! chewy of course, she's always there..such a scenester. i met a girl from yellow springs named rose. she was pretty cool....umm rosemary....and i think that was all i talked to. besides those random hot guys you see that compliment you on your sweater. :)
those were the people...
so i get up front to take pictures of nick and his band people and i'm all happy cause i had never seen nick play with them before and there's this ASSHOLE standing behind me who kept putting his hands on my arms and moving me around like i was supposed to be going crazy like him or something (drunk 30 year old guys. they're disgusting.) and then at one point in time he gave me the double handed ass grab with fingers up the butt and all. i felt dirty. impure even. still do. then he starts jumping around and i'm trying to take pictures but ya know..it's kinda hard when there's a drunk mans head and arms flailing around in your lens...then he touched my camera and i was like fuckin a don't touch me again you dirty piece of shit. then i took my camera to casey to hold cause i apparently wasn't going to get any pictures taken. i came back and the drunk guy (i guess his name was tommy) came up and grabbed my arms and started dancing with me for like 2 minutes...i couldn't get away..he kept grabbing me. ewwwwwy. it was something that i definitely want to forget soon.
that was the drunk guy....
me and erin took ryan, jamie, and matt with us and it was so cute. matt and jamie bonded :) they were all friends before the night ended. i felt good that i helped two people become friends :)
and that was about the whole night. nothing much else happened... cept some stuff i thought about on the way home. bleh.
current mood: depressed
current music: breaking pangea...mmmmmm...
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| Thursday, September 6th, 2001
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3:50 pm - why do moms have to be moms?
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i was supposed to go out with chris, chris, and panda tonight..but that's not happening because my mom is a mom and she said it's too early in the school year to be staying the night at people's houses on school nights and what not. damn the man...
erik...you know you can always call me. you don't always have to talk about things on the internet...and thanks for trusting me. it really means a lot.
schools been fun. matt, bryan, and sarah are great. i wish i saw bryan more, but we all have fun whenever we do see each other. i wish i saw brandon and panda more. that would make me super happy cause they always make me feel great whenever i'm around them but i don't see them as much as i want to. brandon came into my lab in the morning yesterday just to see me for 5 extra minutes. and panda was there so it was like an instant smile high all day. (or a warm fuzzy like erin says)
i guess i could have gone to my sisters volleyball game, but i thought i was going out with panda, then mom said no and they left. she could have at least waited on me and i could have went to lauren's game. bleh.
well i get to go to a show tomorrow. yay :) always a reason to smile. i'll be with erin and matt, i'll see nick, brandon, spooky (if you go?), justin and william maybe if they go...it might be to emo for them...bryan said he might go, panda might go? james and that crew maybeeee... so yeah, i get to see people!
welllllll...spaghetti sounds soooooo good. :)
current mood: hungry
current music: i'm getting ready to listen to this old new radicalz cd?
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| Tuesday, September 4th, 2001
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3:56 pm - i have the wierdest friends.
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beenhere2fewyrs: beenhere2fewyrs: lets take a vote who thinks stacy and erik love each other?
void00000s: me
beenhere2fewyrs: me too
dirtyemogirl: HAHAHAHAHA. WHAT???
beenhere2fewyrs: lol
dirtyemogirl: where did that come from?
beenhere2fewyrs: seany and i decided that you and erik should go out.
dirtyemogirl: haha. no.
dirtyemogirl: you know how weird that would be???
dirtyemogirl: emo girl going out with viking. no.
beenhere2fewyrs: exactly. we think it would be funny.
beenhere2fewyrs: and you guys are already really close. and you love him.
dirtyemogirl: 1) we are close and 2) love him as my friend!
beenhere2fewyrs: but you still love him
beenhere2fewyrs: and itd be funny!
dirtyemogirl: but i dont like him!
beenhere2fewyrs: sure you do.....
beenhere2fewyrs: you cant deny your feelings forver
dirtyemogirl: well anyways, i gotta go get skool supplies...woohoo. HAHA! WEIRDO!
beenhere2fewyrs: hehe im not a weirdo.
and you know you want erik
dirtyemogirl: whoah
dirtyemogirl: or not!
beenhere2fewyrs: have fun getting supplies.
dirtyemogirl: oh i will
beenhere2fewyrs: uh huh suuuuure.
dirtyemogirl: later masterbatorbeenhere2fewyrs: later erik lover
beenhere2fewyrs: awww looks who just got on....
dirtyemogirl: you are a freak.
dirtyemogirl: i'm leaving
beenhere2fewyrs: haha as are you.
dirtyemogirl: smoochies, byebye
beenhere2fewyrs: byebye
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| Sunday, September 2nd, 2001
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10:21 pm - bleh to the max.
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it's days like this where all that crappy stuff happened to you the night before and you find out your boyfriend got drunk on top of all that...that the only thing that cheers you up is a nacho lunchable and the calming reassurance that you are not on erik's "to kill" list... makes me smile just to think about it :::sigh::: well...all that and erik giving me the idea of inking "HATE EDGE" across my knuckles....innnnteressstttinnggg....
current mood: gloomy
current music: lots and lots of mellow david gray
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4:58 pm - it never....never...never ends.
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so i was cleaning my room yesterday talking to nick on the phone and then i heard someone walk into my house and go "hellllo?" guess who? it was jacky. out of the f'ing blue. i was in shock for about 5 seconds then was like "whoah, jacky's here." she helped me clean the rest of my room and we planned on going to the fair. but she failed to mention that we'd be picking up rob from work first then going to the fair. if i would have known we were picking up rob then hell no i wouldn't have gone. but yeah. i went. the fair never happened, they wanted to go find somewhere to go get messed up. i paged timmy to see what they were doing cause i wanted to get away from jacky and rob...but they wouldn't take me there...and i couldn't just come out and say "timmy come pick me up from jacky's, i don't want to be here." so i just sat in the back seat of the car wanting to cry for the longest time. we finally went back to jacky's...watched romeo and juliet and the first half hour of officespace until i fell asleep. i woke up at 5 in the morning to jacky and rob yelling at each other and crying and all kinds of shit. so yeah. i'm never going to hang out with jacky again unless shes by herself. when she's by herself. she's jacky. when she's with rob or anyone else...she's no longer jacky. weird shit.
on the flipside...
me and erin are going to nick's show next friday! (oh yeah, erin, nick's other band is playing in that show now....just so you know!) it's gonna be awesome. and panda wants me to go to a drag queen thing afterwards but it depends on how late me and erin can stay out i guess. but if it's anything like the drag queen shows in columbus i've been too.....it will rock.
i think that's all for now...
-no longer jacky-----
i've cried thinking of you
watching you sink inside bad habits
i thought of the good times i had without you
they could have been so much better
the truth is void without your smile
wishing you'd open your eyes and try
at least try to see the pain you've caused me
and even caused your mother
you're lost in a self satisfaction hell
the influences never did end
you let the people come and tear you up
they came in and chewed up your soul
took away the spirit from your brown eyes
swallowed your red hair whole
the more i make myself understand
is the moment i can't control my confusion
you let them in, you pushed me out
bleeding tears seems so worthless
i hushed my screams and silenced my why's
i asked for anothers advice
and still ended with closed eyes
zipped up my jacket and walked out the door
full intentions of seeing you
shut the gate looked at your house
turned around...walked right back out
i tried for 3 years to accept the new you
the new you that you kept secret
i was fooled by your new friends
accepted them as mine
as time went by things never changed
i couldn't keep up this demeaning lifestyle
i shut you out along with all others
let them back in when i found i needed them
but you stayed out, allowed to come back
needing your help i stayed away
you are no longer you
charming, beautiful, jacky
you are no longer you
stellar, mohican, jacky
you are no longer you....
you are no longer jacky...
current mood: depressed
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| Friday, August 31st, 2001
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3:53 pm - F.Y.I. YO!
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-first off...i want you all to know that you CAN talk during all 24 hours of your driving classes and still pass with AN F'ING 100!!! now onto my 8 driving hours with the instructor...oh lord...
-secondly, i love school. damn valley view for taking up so many wasted years of my life and dealing with so many people that i don't like. that's bull. but anyways. yay for school now! me and matt are already becoming really good friends, me and sarah too...and there's this chick robyn that's pretty cool too..and jamie. well yeah there's a lot of cool people. but i'll tell you this. you NEVER get away from the giggly cheerleader type girls...*shudder shudder*... i get to see panda and brandon every day :) thumbs up to that. ummm, we just built our pinhole camera today which was cool cause me and matt were partners and got everything done first so we got to mess around for about an hour until lunch. which brings me to another topic. lunch. lunch is kinda weird...i wish i had lunch with brandon and panda and all the other seniors i know...but no. so i hang with sarah, jamie, sarahs boyfriend, and matt mostly. in fact..i have every class with matt and sarah cept for math (cause they're in the dumb class :) but yeah. school's great. i never thought i'd say that....ever.
-sammi...make me a tie...now.
-erik, rant all you want buddy. there's no thing on livejournal that says you can't...hell..i do it all the time.
-panda, i'm officially stealing your van halen shirt for a while. you'll get it back...someday..muahahahaha.
-i see timmy tonight i think, first time since monday.i haven't even talked to him :(
that is all for now.
current mood: cheerful
current music: my brother playing his new ibanez
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| Thursday, August 30th, 2001
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6:23 pm - wooooooooooooo!!!!
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well, school's been awesome, i'll update more later...i gotta go study for my driving test...WISH ME LUCK! I NEVER WANT TO HAVE TO GO BACK TO THOSE F'ING CLASSES AGAIN!!!!!!
current mood: anxious
current music: jimmy eat worl- hear you me
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| Friday, August 24th, 2001
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4:49 pm - boo hoo boo hoo *sniff sniff*
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yeah erik, you should feel a lot better. i got screwed over royally. my computer froze and i lost the convo. you're ass is saved.
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10:41 am
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this is to all you people who have waited for the day when you can make fun of erik. this is to all you people who have waited for the day when erik can't do anything but say one word remarks. this poll is for you. if you would like to see(FINALL) erik when he is speechless, i am taking a poll. either comment and tell me that you want to see it or i.m. me. people. this is serious. i told him i wouldn't post it unless the majority of the people wanted to see it. i will not sit and watch this opportunity go by. that is all.
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| Thursday, August 23rd, 2001
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11:50 pm - the wonderful world of stacy and erik conversations...
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we have way too much to talk about...thank the lord for twisted sense of humour and knowing when to be serious.
erik: sooooo yeah, you're going to the movies with us, yes?
dirtyemogirl: no ride.....like i said earlier
erik: ahh. craptastic.
dirtyemogirl: yep
dirtyemogirl: as always
dirtyemogirl: boonie girl has no ride
dirtyemogirl: it's the story of my life really.
erik: heh, sorry. . .
erik: you could hitchhike
erik: all kinds of people would be giving you a ride
dirtyemogirl: hahahha....especially rapists!
erik: it's not rape. it's a mutual agreement.
one ride deserves another
dirtyemogirl: hahahahahaha...no.
erik: and I have pictures of you now!
dirtyemogirl: and why do you have pictures of me??
erik: Two words:
Intense masturbation
dirtyemogirl: i knew it.
dirtyemogirl: YOU JACK OFF TO EMO GIRLS!!!! I F'ING KNEW IT!
erik: Yeah, I have all the guys come over, too. Circle-jerk city.
dirtyemogirl: well for once in my life i can say i accomplished something. i am to good.
erik: "Once"? This is at least a bi-weekly ritual.
dirtyemogirl: damn, i'm better than i thought. can i watch sometime? you are using my pictures after all?
erik: Hey, if you watch, it's that much easier.
dirtyemogirl: i would join in, but i wouldn't want to ruin the mood
erik: The more, the merrier.
dirtyemogirl: so who all is in on these circle jerk city gatherings? i would like to know who is jerking off to my face.
erik: Who said it was a picture of your face?
dirtyemogirl: well....all the pictures i have of me do involve my face somewhat. let me rephrase the question then. so who all is in on these circle jerk city gatherings? i would like to know who is jerking off to my hot sun kissed body?
erik: Oh, it's quite the amalgamation of personalities.
erik: Me, the crew, the team, a priest, a minister and a rabbi, four soldiers and one buzzcut lesbian.
dirtyemogirl: what a variety. life couldn't get any better.
erik: Indeed.
Amanda's had a few cracks at that picture too.
erik: She was the one that gave it to me, albeit reluctantly.
dirtyemogirl: hahahahaha. you do realize all of this is being posted on the internet right?
erik: sonofabitch
erik: Livejournal?
dirtyemogirl: damn skippy
erik: the sad thing is , you were more vulgar than I was.
dirtyemogirl: i'm thinking it was pretty equal...we'll have to take a poll i guess
erik: hahaha. long as my screen name isn't there
erik: a bit of honesty, if I may?
dirtyemogirl: yeah, of course
erik: You pull guys in, get your attention and push them away. Intentional or not, you do. Now you finally got a guy that you want to be with and you're questioning it and thinking about other guys.
Self-defeating bullshit, that.
erik: That's all.
dirtyemogirl: but i still don't understand how i do that (pull guys in thing) i mean, if i have no intention of ever dating them and they know that, how am i pushing them away? if anything, i try not to make things weird. and with timmy. i like him a lot. i do. but there's the little things that are starting to bother me now. i..e. what he said about my friend and how he shruggs off important questions i ask him..stuff like that
dirtyemogirl: i don't know. maybe it's just cause i've never had a boyfriend that's actually cared about me like i want to be cared about. maybe cause i get dicked over by every single guy and i'm really cautious now and if i see one thing i don't like it messes my htinking of them up somehow
erik: But they don't know that, for one.
And how do you want to be cared about?
erik: What exactly is it you're looking for?
dirtyemogirl: i guess what most girls are? a guy who actually adores me like i do him, who can call me and tell me their problems even if they are involving me, who doesn't have to ask if i'm having a bad day and can just hug me and make it all better, who knows when i'm being sarcastic or joking around with them and doesnt take things too seriously. every emo thing you can think of i guess.
erik: Good luck. heh.
so a poll...who was more vulgar?
current mood: satisfied
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10:18 pm - boop boop be boop.
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driving classes went a lot faster tonight...maybe because me, hisham, and caleb couldn't stop laughing for a good half hour over nothing. while caroline (the "learned" impaired teacher) was helping people with their tests, hisham had to read aloud and skipped a good 3 pages and she never noticed. then i had to read "what to do in case of a crash" and read "what to do in case you hit a deer" instead and no one bothered to stop me until i was done and they all pointed and laughed. damn teens. but did you know it is illegal to take a deer carcass if you hit it and don't report it within 24 hours. people seriously go to jail over that. what weirdos.
victorias secret has some emo sweaters in their catalog. yay them.
i got some maryjanes, a black sweater with a couple of cherries on it, some metallic finger nail polish, a rancid patch (i lost my other one from 3 years ago so i had to replace the missing spot on my bag), and a seat belt belt which panda took from me. i need that back actually. my leapord print studded one broke in driving classes. it got caught on the chair and i fell over and broke my head in the middle of a movie...
i'll see that i get that from you monday night.
this song is exactly how i feel right now:
burried deep as you can dig inside yourself, and covered with a perfect shell, such a charming beautiful exterior. laced with brilliant smiles and shining eyes and perfect posture, but you're barely scraping by, but you're barely scraping by. well this is one time, this is one time that you can't fake it hard enough to please everyone or anyone at all, or anyone at all. and the grave that you refuse to leave, the refuge that you've built to flee the places that you have come to fear the most, is the place that you have come to fear the most. buried deep as you can dig inside yourself and hidden in the public eye, such a stellar monument to loneliness. laced with brilliant smiles and shining eyes, perfect makeup but you're barely scraping by, but you're barely scraping by. well this is one time, this is one time that you can't fake it hard enough to please everyone or anyone one at all, or anyone at all. and the grave that you refuse to leave, the refuge that you've built to flee. the places that you've come to fear the most, is the place that you have come to fear the most.
-dashboard confessional-
eh. i'll get out of this depressing phase sooner or later. but it's better to deal now than to lay it off aside and let it eat away at you. if i did that...pretty soon my soul along with heart would be gone...
current mood: depressed
current music: anything dashboard will do fine right now
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| Wednesday, August 22nd, 2001
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10:16 pm - when confustion sets in....
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here's what all has happened to me this year and how it is affecting the decisions and actions i make now.
my grandpa was sick. cancer throughout his body. i went to visit him every time i could when he was in the hospital. talked to him while i held back tears for hours. they finally said he wasn't going to make it so they let him go home for his final days. easter sunday we all went out to grandma's house because we knew it was going to be our last holiday with grandpa. the whole family was there...even my bastard uncle who wanted no part in taking care of grandpa. grandpa couldn't talk, couldn't move really. we're not sure if he could see, but we knew he could hear us. i left around 3:30 to go home and meet some friends for dinner. as soon as i walked in the door my dad called saying he had died right after we left. i was the last person to give my grandpa a hug and kiss. possibly the last one to tell him i loved him. and i still hate myself for leaving. always will. after that i didn't go out for a while, didn't talk to many people. became anti social basically. i still did schoolwork, but didn't willingly participate in any thing. then at the end of the school year i went to a show with panda, erik, william, and justin. i also actually met nick that night and he made me smile for the first time in a long time. i started needing brandon more as a friend than anything then. that's when my feelings for him started to fade because i needed him in a different way. he knew what i was going through because he was the only one of my friends to meet grandpa. so my love for him is in a different way now. summer kept going and i kept changing. i kept seeing people for who they were and not how i wanted to see them. i quit hanging out with jacky, mouse, rob, ben, jeremy, tony, jared, josh...all of them because all they did was depress me more. drinking and smoking pot everyday is not my thing. i put up with it too long for my own good just so i could see my best friend. it was stupid of me to think that i could befriend these people and accept their ways. because i couldn't. i couldn't go through having to babysit and prevent fights between them every night. especially mouse. now i've lost my best friend ever to jack daniels. what a way to go. i was depressed for the most part of the year from going through most of that. and my parents fighting a lot didn't help, nor did the verbal abuse i got everyday from my brother. i went to camp, came back to everything the same as it was before. poor and broken down. i went to the lake. came back to most things worse. i went on the mission trip. decided i needed to change...decided life needed to change. if those children could be that happy in such horrible conditions...then i needed to find a way to be happy in my conditions. i saw death. i saw tears. i saw what i was and didn't like any of it. me and pandas friendship started and still is getting rocky. i don't know what i did to make it this way. it just happened out of nowhere. perhaps it was somewhere in my time of trying to find my own self. i don't know. conflicts between friends started happening because of one persons actions and it still tears me up to hear them talk so harshly about each other. forgive and forget. things like that should not consume our lives. they shouldn't affect where we go, who we see, or what we do in our spare time. you cant live your life trying to go around other people. there's too many more important things to worry about at ages from 15-19
than manipulative situations like them. i want to be happy with myself. i want to be happy with my actions. i don't want to look back and say "look at all those things i did that hurt other people just for my self satisfaction." it's a horrible way to live. it's a horrible way of looking at it, but it was horrible to do in the first place.
i dont smoke, i don't drink, i don't fool around with guys, i don't have sex. for the simple fact that it all somehow ruins relationships and friendships with the important people. and i've seen the effects and i don't want to have those effects on people. anyways. that's how i'm feeling. that's what has happened. there's more but it's not okay with me to share on the internet where anybody could read it so if you want to know. ask.
current mood: indescribable
current music: the get up kids-better off without you?
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12:23 pm - i hate ohio.
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gah. i woke up at 9 this morning to thunder and rain..made me happy, i love rain. i fell back asleep and woke up at 11:30...sun...i hate ohio.
what is stacy doing tonight? none other than driving classes. ew.
john was supposed to call me and we were supposed to go to the mall with his cousin tim. well, just like always, john doesn't call, there is no mall.
i'm in a bitchy mood today. i don't want to clean. i don't want to do the dishes. i dont want to do laundry. maybe i'll go lay in my bed until classes tonight?
here's where i get to let some stuff out:
-don't cuss every other word you use. it annoys me. you sound like an ignorant moron who can't think of more intelligent words to express how they feel. i cuss. but not every other word. it's stupid and makes you look stupid.
-timmy just called so i'm not going to complain anymore.
current mood: bitchy
current music: soap operas...bleh
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| Tuesday, August 21st, 2001
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9:49 pm - i hate them i hate them i hate them i hate them.
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yeah. yet another horrible night of driving classes. at least i checked the schedule tonight instead of doing what i did last night and going and having to stay at a class i had already been too. damn the man. some day i'll write a song about how much i hate our normal teacher and how much mr fritz kicks so much ass.
i was sorta sad today for some reasons and i wrote some lyrics to a song i'll make sometime. well its only the first 5 lines but i like em so far:
we fought with unruly crushing voices
eyes crying with words trying
watched as the tears rolled down your chin
the demon dispersed throughout in the wind
and i lay broken with a twisting sigh
and that's all i got so far. i'll probably finish it tonight i'm guessing. well...yeah.
i'm still sick...
current mood: crappy
current music: me and a gun- tori amos
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2:38 pm - got my soul singing, got my soul singin, got my soul singin, got my soul singin
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the black crowes are harder than hell to get out of your head listening to them with your mom on the way home from the mall.
i think i made timmy mad last night cause i didn't page him. well there's a reason i didn't page him. i explained it to him though so i guess he's not mad. at least he shouldn't be.
things didn't go well sunday night. brought back all the memories i've been trying to block out of my head from dealing with all of jacky's, mouse's, and the rest of everyone elses drunk shit. but, i had to help that girl. i had no idea who she was and her friend asked me to help so i did. sometimes i wish i had no heart. nick, ryan, and jamie were there. so it was cool getting to watch nick. a lot more stuff happened...but bleh. don't really want to talk about it anymore.
things aren't going smoothly with timmy. they should be. nothings really wrong. but i keep getting this feeling that things aren't going like they should and stuff. i really want a hug from him right now. i'm not feeling the greatest right now.
i went shopping today with my mom. not thrifting. actually shopping! items purchased:
-1 pair of highwater grey slacks
-1 pair of grey and white pin striped pants
-1 maroon jacket
-1 tan shit
-4 pairs of underwear (lavendar, black, brown and yellow striped, and pink)
and hopefully tomorrow i get a pair of mary janes and i can order me a white studded belt. many props to erin for giving me that site.
current mood: drained
current music: hole-northern star
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| Saturday, August 18th, 2001
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4:01 pm - amber's almost gone.
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well...i'm over here at amber's helping her pack cause she's leaving tomorrow morning for arizona. i feel shitty cause i was so busy all summer and these past 2 weeks have been the only days i've got to spend with her. but hey, we're having fun with the little time we have left so rock. it's gonna be weird without her here. at least she has e-mail and stuff at haley's so we'll be able to keep in touch easier. i'm waiting on her friend matt to get here so we can go to my house and get him one of my kittens. so i'm off. later.
current mood: blah
current music: afi-morning star
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| Friday, August 17th, 2001
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12:38 pm - there's a mall and thrift store in miamisburg calling my name...
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yeah..me and erin are gonna go have fun today at the mall and good will. always a great time. then sunday we're going to a show together so it's gonna be funnn.
school starts sooooooooon. i want it to..but then i don't cause i'll never see timmy.i want us to work out. but i'm not sure if it will once school starts...kinda scary...
current mood: scared
current music: some rap song on mtv
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