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Thursday, May 15th, 2003
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5:45 am
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I can't sleep.
My sister has been her for a week and she has just left to go back to va.
I am really gonna miss her. I worry about her. I hope that she never lets
Maria and Daddy break her spirt. I hope that despite all the fights she has
with her good friends she never loses sight of the good things. I hope that
she never gets too jaded or to cynical, or to rightous. I hope that she achieves what she wants.
Some times i am so afraid that when i come back to va, i will find out that one of you has died. Some times i remeber random things, like a neighborhood i had to ride though to get to my ex boyfriends house, or a clock on the wall in a not so good friends house, or way some of my ex best friends eyebrows moved, and it makes me feel kinda sick inside
like was that last time i a was gonna see that.
I watched the second to last episode to Dawsons Creek yesterday and dork that i am it really hit home. It dealt with things like coming back home, and growing up, and wanting to be sixteen again becasue you have conviently forgotten all the bad, and romantasized all the good. And the possibliteis and the dreams felt so real, and exciting to have. It delt with not being afraid to do the things you dreamed of no matter how hard they seem.
Joey finally went on that trip to paris that she was talking about taking...which is great because i swear i as gonna kill a producer of that show if she didn't finally fucking go on that trip...
Anywho so after crying like the lil bitch that i am i took my sister and mother out for a day on the town...we went to The tattoo shop and look and look and look for the tattoo she wanted, made the appointment and at the last minute she changed her mind, then we drove to Omaha, and the clouds looked big and scarey and i paniced and almost got us killed. Then i stoped in the old market and went to the store Retro, which i new had a basement and we went downstairs, any my sister and mom werer telling me how paranoid i was when all of the sudden the sirens went off, and the girl came down stairs to tell us that there was a tornado warning. There were funnel clouds in the sky and it hailed, snowed and the rain was going in two different directions but none of the funnels ever touched down.
Ben my step dad might have mad a big mistake and really betrayed my mother but you can't say you doesnt't love her.
He went out looking for us during the tornado, and drove all the way up to the zoo (wich was like 15 blocks south of us) where he thought we were and it turned out that the funnel clouds were right over the zoo and threatening to touch down right on top of it. He got there right as the sirens started to go off too
I mean he practically risked his life for her so...
she has to give him some credit eh?
Anna, Becca, Kt, Jessica, and all the rest of you take care please. I really feel that i don't just want to be a dreamer all my life, i want my dreams to come true, and the next time i see you...even if i don't ever see you all again...i realy hope that all your dreams come true too. Take good care of your self. If we only really have one life don't waste it. Even if i do have a million lifetimes i don't ever want to waste another moment of them. I want Becca to get out and be so happy it makes people want to throw up cause they are jelous, i want Kt to find her true calling and love, I want anna to be the best ruler of the wind she can be, and i want Jessica to rock as many ladies worlds and minds as she can... :o) And i hope to be able to enjoy many great moments with you all, next time i see you all i will throw a big hug around your necks and probably never let go. Casue every time i see you all I feel at home :o)
Any who i didn't get to see the last episode of Dawsons Creek where someone dies, and Joey Marries some one...and even though i think it might ruin the show to watch it...i am gonna see if it is on the superstation and tape it.
I missed it only becasue i took my sister and mom to the theater over here that plays independent movies and the such and we watched Bend It like Beckham which was a pretty groovie movie
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| Monday, May 12th, 2003
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4:54 pm
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Dubya is town :o(
So um...you guys...ummm i don't think i wanna go to Cali NE more
I think i am gonna save up my money to go (ironically) to the place my dad moved away from so that he would never raise his family there....
The big NY
I miss the East Coast. This place is too repressed and prissy for me.
I like how nice everyone is but still....And i just don't think of Virginia as home anymore.
Pretty as it is...
I think i was gonna say somethign profound here but...uh...nope can't...also no freaking simpsons cause damn dubya is in town!
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| Sunday, May 11th, 2003
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6:05 pm
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5:08 pm - Ohhhhhhhhh this rocks!
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| Friday, May 9th, 2003
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10:35 am
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:o)
Hiya
I am so elated!
for no damn reason
I could be manic
but if i am i don't give a shit
hehehe i love you alll
lets do the funky wunky!
Perfectly sober that i am!
it is so bootifule outside
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| Wednesday, May 7th, 2003
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10:23 am
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so this is what i predict...and it's killing me
Dawson Dies...
Joey Marries Pacy
:o(
if this is true...
*sigh*
why?
*tears up tears up*
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| Tuesday, May 6th, 2003
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10:26 am
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| Monday, May 5th, 2003
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10:30 am
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"No Dawson I can't" walks away
Why must the producers always do this too me?
He goes in to the kiss and joey says
"No Dawson I can't"
Why? Why? Why?
Just shierk it off
Just shierk it off
Why must she torcher me like this.
Just kiss him damnit and enjoy it
I hate the producers of this damn show
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| Sunday, May 4th, 2003
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10:43 pm - For you fantastic writers
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Do you write dirty prose that glows?
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5:57 pm
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I lived I lived!
__________________
Why does some one in dawsons creep have to die?
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3:38 pm - shit shit shit shit shit!
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Tornado warning
O_o
What do i do?
What do i do?!
ack!
i am alll alone
with my catQ
Ack the sirens are going off!!?!?!?
what do i do ohhhhhhhhhhhh i am gonna go downstairs :o(
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I have been getting into herbalism lately and i talked to the Herbalist in my town and he told me that another good herbalist to check out is Susan Weed Becasue she deals with a lot of feminine problems. Like abortions and PMS and Menopsuse. She is pagan also and does the magick herb thing too.
But the Clinical herbalist around here is really good and i promised Jessica i would post his e-mail addy so just incase you all have any questions...there are herbs out there to sooth the effects of MS, Cancer, Aid in menstrual cycles, natural birth control...an allll sorts of groovie things...so here it is: spiritbear4@msn.com
His Name is Nicholas Schnell
Uh here is antoher Herbal Web site to check out HealingHerbs
Herbal Remidies
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4:52 am - If she had designed a pack of Tarot Cards i would own 10 copies of the deck
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4:38 am
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i got good and fantactically high right b4 i went to bed and i danced to the "around the fire" soundtrake that is nothing but jam bands, and Greatful Dead and Bob Marly. Oh i danced and danced, and it was so much fun, and then i went to bed all nice and sleepy and relaxed like, and then one of the many severe thunderstormes that we have out here came and woke me up. Man i didn't even fucking eat i just straight to bed! but the stupid storm had to go and wake me up and then i got hungry and had a slice and a half of cake! oh will never lose weight at this rate! but hey i printed up the application for extreme makeover. :o)
I hope Traveler boy had some place to stay tonight, that storm was bad :o(
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| Saturday, May 3rd, 2003
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3:45 pm - Gimmie Gimmie Gimmie (a mam after midnight)
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I went to the millon marijuana march today..which ended up being a march of two :oP
ReAct got raided on wensday :o(
Swat teams, and Fbi where all over the place is what i am told :o(
no more react :o(
I meet a traveler boy and his dog in glenwood where i work. He sticks out like a sore thumb in that town. I brought him and his dog some food, and i went out looking for him today to see if he needed a ride to the missourie border since he is trying to get back to arkansa...but i couldn't find him...i hope him and his dog aren't in jail and the pound again.
I think that like this thirty something year old cop named Eric likes me. He is sweet guy. Kinda like a big teddy bear, but he seems really conservative, is a little two old...and well hell i just don't want anybody.
I think i made a nice groovie friend.
although i never did get her name.
Today was such a beautiful day.. i drove around omaha, and now i am back here. Oh Venti i took pictures of clouds for you cause they look so pretty today
i just hope you can't see all the splatterd bug guts that are on my windsheild
I really hope some of you come visit me...there is so much here that i want to share with you all
and i miss you all like hell
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| Wednesday, April 30th, 2003
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6:06 pm
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ok so the first time i took the test i got this:
Level 2
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You have come to a place mute of all light, where the wind bellows as the sea does in a tempest. This is the realm where the lustful spend eternity. Here, sinners are blown around endlessly by the unforgiving winds of unquenchable desire as punishment for their transgressions. The infernal hurricane that never rests hurtles the spirits onward in its rapine, whirling them round, and smiting, it molests them. You have betrayed reason at the behest of your appetite for pleasure, and so here you are doomed to remain. Cleopatra and Helen of Troy are two that share in your fate.
but i lost that entry to the lj void
and when i took the damn test again i was in the seventh level..:o(
Man! The infernal hurricane that never rests hurtles the spirits onward in its rapine, whirling them round, and smiting, it molests them.
I dunno i kinda like the idea of being molested by the wind ^_-
well bye all!
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| Sunday, April 27th, 2003
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10:50 pm
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*tosses long shiny pretty hair from side to side*
I want some one to play with my hair... :o(
pleasssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
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6:08 pm
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Why can i not find just one nice phases of the moon buddy icon!
is it so hard do go lunar HUH iS IT!?!?!?!
i got pelvic bruises from riding bikes
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| Friday, April 25th, 2003
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7:58 pm - yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
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6:34 pm - the great whore of bablyon or the great horror of bablyon?
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so i am sitting here putting my customers names and addys on labels so that i can send them junk mail coupons for a mothers day sale...to come see me!
when my mom says to me "desi who is this little girl sitting at the front door?"
so i walk to the front door and there is this little maybe 2 1/2 year old girl sitting there with this tiny puppy that is white and has ropy hair and the little girl is just staring into the house and tearing up my moms flowers in her hands
so i say i don't know and leave it at that
a while later
i walked by the door and the little dog is just sitting at the door so i open the door and look out side and the little girl is sitting on the corner of the porch (a la blairwitch)
so i ask her what she is doing and she mumbles some two year old gibberish so i end up playing with this cute little bare foot child for like 30 minutes following her around my yard i and i never ever find out where she is from or who's child she is and this cute little dog is just bouncing around following us and then from next door i hear some one calling so the little girl just looks at me and won't go over there even though i keep telling her two. so i walk her over there holding the dog in my hand and lead the girl over to the house and
haahhaha
her super hot 25 year old daddy walks out
blond hair
blue eyes
soccer shorts
spiked frosted hair!
so i say hello and hand him this tiny dog in his hand and we talk...
i so cannot wait till that little girl comes to the front door again
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