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(pierce me) euphoric boredem [19 Mar 2002|09:14pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | lauren telling me some story about ghosts.... ] it's incredible how when you're bored you feel like you know everything. you know how everything works, and you know everything you want. why don't we ever know these things when we actually feel motivated? perhaps it's because we are afraid. we are afraid that if we have to motivation we just might do all those things we dream about when we are feeling "lazy and bored". are we really that afraid of what we are capable of? are we that terrified that if we actually tried every once in a while we just might be happy? that if we put in just the slightest effort that we might get what we really want out of life? are we that terrified of our own achievements that we will waste our lives away with useless drabbble, tv screes, and computer moniters? what is it that keeps us indoors on gorgous days? are we that scared of our own self achievenemt? well i'm on the phone with lauren right now. she is turning into a pretty cool friend. (yes a cool friend, not a cool booty call!) so i'm going to get up out of here. peace out.

(pierce me) back in mrs. craig's room [19 Mar 2002|01:15pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | blink 182- what went wrong ] i'm chillin in mrs. craig's room again. she's got yet another meeting which means i get full computer privelages while she is gone. hooray for that! let's see... what's happened today... i got to school early because i had to catch a ride from nikki (thanks again nikki man) since my poor probe is STILL in the shop. barky got mad at me because my shirt has Dos XX all over it. i told him i just wanted to make sure the kids in mexico didn't get sick from drinking the water. they might as well be drinking good beer. well mrs. craig is back so i'm going to get up out of her. peace out.

(pierce me) i've fallen to blink 182 [18 Mar 2002|10:08pm] [ mood | lonely ] [ music | blink 182- what went wrong? ] ok, i know i don't usually support new stuff by blink 182 but jon introduced me to a secret track on their take off your pants and jacket cd and the lyrics are very good... especially when you don't really know what went wrong... i'm sick of always hearing all those sad songs on the radio all day it is there to remind an over sensitive guy that he's lost and alone i hate our favorite resturant our favorite movie our favorite show we would stay up all through the night we would laugh and get high and never answer the phone i can't forgive can't forget can't give in what went wrong cause you said this was right you fucked up my life i'm sick of always hearing sappy love songs on the radio this place it's fucking cursed in it's plauged and i can never escape when my heart it explodes i can't forgive can't forget can't give in what went wrong cause you said this was right you fucked up my life i'm kicking so fiercely at the world around me what went wrong? i'm kicking so fiercely at the world around me what went wrong? i'm kicking so fiercely at the world around me what went wrong? i'm kicking so fiercely at the world around me what went wrong? i'm kicking -blink 182- it's a great song, i highly recomend downloading it. it's not too easy to find though. jsut search for "what went wrong blink 182". well i don't have anything else to post about so peace out g-smack.

(2 dissaproving mothers | pierce me) hooray for sick days [18 Mar 2002|06:24pm] [ mood | content ] [ music | blink 182- stay together for the kids ] hooray for having an extended spring break. actually, today was nothing like my spring break because i didn't do anything and it was great. i slept for most of the day, and spent the rest of it watching cartoons. i really needed it too. i feel so much better now that i've gotten a chance to really rest. i'm actully keeping food in my stomach and my tempeture is down. horray for feeling better. today i joined a few communities. they are both pretty cool, one suggested by pfluger and the other by megan. thanks guys. i also did a little format changing to my journal. it is no longer a tribute to harley davidson. no no, now my journal is all about the most kick ass chick in the world who will soon be on my closet. woo hoo! on another good note rodney gets his truck today! hooray for turning 16. i know he's excited. hell i'm excited for him. well i'm gonna get up out of here. peace out yo.

(4 dissaproving mothers | pierce me) speing break comes to an end [17 Mar 2002|10:43pm] [ mood | sick ] [ music | hootie and the blowfish- goodbye ] well i'm enjoying my final hours of spring break. i might add an extra day to it though because i kinda feel like shit. well i guess i should tell you all about my trip. it was cool. today i slept... all damn day. i didn't wake up until 5 this afternoon. i just didn't feel good at all. i don't know if it was from drinking the water in mexico (or the tequila hehe) or if it was from being in the sun too much or what but my poor tummy can't handle food and my head is pounding. yesterday was pretty cool though. i had to get up at the butt crack of dawn to take the SAT. after that pfluger and i went and bought rodney a b-day present. then we went to blockbuster. hooray for QAF!!! then we went to rodney's house for a little birthday bash. we hung out there until i got a call from megan saying that laser quest was having some late night special thing, and you know me and my laser quest. i love that game. not as much as that fat creepy ass wipe guy. he was kinda disturbing. poor sean had to sit there and talk to him. after that pfluger and i went back to rodney's for a bit. we hung out and talked for a while until i got so tired i passed out on his couch until 5 this morning when pfluger woke me up. sorry about that guys. i didn't realize just how tired i really was until i laid down. i don't really have a lot to write about, but i've got this strange feeling that i need to get something off my chest... i just wish i knew what it was so i could write about it... dooby dooby doo.... i don't want to go to school tomarrow.... cold water feels good on sore throats... did you know that fever can lead to dilusion? i do... perhaps thats why i'm spacing out so badly... i never run fevers... it's a rare occurence for me... man i'm in a weird mood. i think it would just be best for me to go to bed. i doubt i will though. i never do. well peace love and afro grease to ya all.

(2 dissaproving mothers | pierce me) CANCUN BABY!!! [11 Mar 2002|01:50am] [ mood | giddy ] [ music | adema- giving into you ] IN APPROXIMATLY 6 HOURS I WILL BE IN CANCUN MEXICO BABY!!! I SEE IN MY FUTURE... BEACHES... BIKINIS.... BARS.... AW SHIT I AM EXCITED!!!! hooray for mexico. well to those i did not get to say goodby to, have a great spring break. i will bring you all back some sand. peace love and afro grease to you all.

(pierce me) if you were here... [03 Mar 2002|03:11pm] [ mood | crushed ] [ music | poe- if you were here ] if you were here i know that you would truely be amazed at what's become of what you made if you were here you would know how i treasured every day how every single word you spoke echos in me like a memory of hope when you were here you could not feel the value that i placed on every look that crossed your face when you were here i did not know just how i had embraced all that you hid behind your face could not hide from me cause it hid in me too now that i'm here i hear you and wonder if maybe you can hear yourself ringing in me know that your somewhere else cause i hear your strength music gentle and true singing inside me with the best parts of you now that i'm here i hope somewhere you hear them too now that i'm here i love you it's ok you can go now. -poe-

(2 dissaproving mothers | pierce me) viva las vegas! [18 Feb 2002|10:25pm] [ mood | annoyed ] [ music | pearl jam- jeremy ] woo hoo! just got back from the city of sin, aka las vegas. hooray for gambling, drinking, and legal prostituion!!! ya too bad i went with my mother, so all of the above was out for me. that's ok. i got to see a lot of cool stuff. i am glad to be home though. oh ya, hooray for getting to sleep in this week! thank you TAAS test! ya, so basically i'm just glad to be away from "THE MOTHER" aka, the raging bitch. we are not meant to be in confined spaces together for long periods of time. we were at each others throats the whole time. i still love her though. *winces at last comment* well, i don't really have anything else to write about so later.

(pierce me) the big 17 [13 Feb 2002|09:53pm] [ mood | anxious ] [ music | rasputina- transylvanian concubine ] well tomorrow i will be legally old enough to have sex with an 18 year old. woo hoo! other than that there are no big perks to truning 17. well outside the city limits i woun't have a curfew anymore which will be cool. today went by slow.... i think tomorrow will too, at school anyway. i tried to convince all my teachers to throw me a party tomorrow, but none of them were too thrilled about the idea. actually barky said if we were in the room instead of the library we could. damn you resaerch paper!!! *shakes fist in the air* nikki just stopped by. that was cool, i feel like i haven't seen her in forever. now i'm just chillin here with my microwave lasagna. yumm..... well i'm going to try and get some sleep. hopefully i will. nighty night.

(pierce me) nothing really [31 Jan 2002|11:19pm] [ mood | nostalgic ] [ music | pearl jam- last kiss ] i'm still not up to anything interesting but i kind of feel like posting... today was pretty normal. it is heather's birthday though. horray for mason jar! we had a lot of fun there. since heather found a bone in her chicken as the manager was walking by we got a lot of free food. that was awesome. plus i got to keep a spon! i guess it's funnier if you were there because there is a story behind it, but i don't feel like writing it. i also did my good deed for the year today. since my neighbor's husband is in the hospital i picked up her kids at the bus stop and watched them for a while. they have a trampoline so it was ok. on another note i start tanning tomorrow. woo hoo! i know i know it's not like my pastey ass to make any effort on my looks, but if i want to survive my cancun trip without third degree burns i figure i might as well get some sort of tan going. i'm going to san marcos this weekend for a tournament. that should be ok. we aren't leaving until saturday afternoon so i get my friday night this weekend. yay! i have no clue what i'm going to do but hey atleast i will be in town. i'm comtenplating cutting my hair before spring break.... i know i love long hair and everyone says "cut it" which is more insentive to keep it long, but it will be easier if it is shorter... we will see... i'm old... i'm going to be 17 in two weeks... crazy man. i will be a LEGAL adult in a year. fuck man... i'm old! ok well my eyelids are feeling pretty heavy so i'm going to hit the sheets. nighty night.

(pierce me) woo hoo [30 Jan 2002|10:52pm] ya daria is the best. i love that show!

(2 dissaproving mothers | pierce me) boring... [30 Jan 2002|10:37pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | no doubt- are you happy now? ] not a god damn thing has been going on lately and i'm getting bored. i need something interesting before i go get myself into trouble. every day i've come home and slept. woo hoo! actually i like sleep so i guess its ok. all the same i'm bored. eh. whatayagonnado? i'm going to san marcos this weekend for a tournament. hopefully i will be back in time for the super bowl. i dont leave until saturday afternoon which is nice. at least i get my friday night. well i'm off to bed. nighty night to all.

(1 dissaproving mother | pierce me) kitten eh? [29 Jan 2002|08:19pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | radiohead- fake plastic tree *highly recomended * ] Take the What animal best portrays your sexual appetite?? Quiz interesting.... ya learn something new every day...

(pierce me) so fresh and so clean [29 Jan 2002|12:00am] [ mood | blah ] [ music | outkast- so fresh and so clean ] ain't nobody dope as me i'm just so fresh and so clean... so fresh and so clean clean... ya i just took a GREAT shower. nice... long... i love long showers. i hate taking them in the morning becasuse i'm always so rushed. however they tend to wake me up so i usually bathe in the butt crack of dawn. tonight i REALLY REALLY REALLY needed a shower... it had been a few days and a practice which i sweated profusely at.... i was smelling pretty bad... but now i feel great. i still need to shave though... eh what tha hell... it's winter... on a cleaner note i've had some boring days lately. i enjoyed my one weekend of the month off from volleyball. it was nice. i got to meet ross.... he's a very cool guy... will be seeing him around because he likes hanging with the poor people. hehe... nothing really exciting has been happening in my neck of the woods lately so i'm just going to quite rambeling about nothing at all. later.

(1 dissaproving mother | pierce me) car... [27 Jan 2002|12:01pm] [ mood | awake ] [ music | kim ferron- nothing but you ] man i just saw the most AWESOME car! it was a 69 camero, yellow with black racing stripes. it looked just like that car on your website megan that is your dream car. it was really cool. i need to drive around in the rich neighborhoods more often. hehe.

(pierce me) instinct [23 Jan 2002|06:31pm] [ mood | pensive ] [ music | jewel- who will save your souls? ] today i was thinking about natural instincts. i have to wonder if we are all programmed the same way with these natural inhabitions... these feelings.... or if some of us are missing some of them. take the maternal instinct. most women are bron with this natural desire to procreate. their main goal is to create another life and protect it with their own at all costs. what about the women that don't feel that way? i know personally i have NO desire to join the league of mothers. is this just because i'm young? will the desire for parenthood grow with age? or will i always feel like having kids is the stupidest thing in the world? what about the marriage gene.... i know i have a smaller need for a husband than a child. is that just the way i was raised? i mean i just don't see the need for marriage. love is love. no piece of paper or man in bed sheets with a beard (otherwise known as Jesus) needs to be there to verify the fact that you are in love. why do some people need that so much? is it because they are afraid? afraid of ending up alone? do they need to prove to themselves and the rest of the world that they are in fact in love? perhaps i just don't agree with it because i don't like commitment... i don't like the idea of not having any options. we shouldn't be limited to who we love. it's not like we have much control over that anyway. you are who you are and you love who you love, and it can come in all shapes and sizes. where is it stated that you grow up, meet some one, fall hopelessly in love and then get married? i mean sure the bible says that, but that is just another book in my opinion. where is it said that a man and a woman half to spend the rest of their lives together? perhaps i just don't like the idea of boundaries. all those rules.... maybe i'll be singing a different tune when i'm blowing out thirty candles on my birthday cake with no one but my 20 cats... maybe i haven't developed the fear of dying alone yet... who knows.... but something tells me i'm never going to get married. i think i got the reverse genes... everything i strive for is opposite of the status quo.... who knows... fuck if i do... ok i'm done rambling for now. i just felt like rambling here so i can read this later...

(2 dissaproving mothers | pierce me) lately.... [22 Jan 2002|11:42pm] [ mood | amused ] [ music | nothing really ] haven't been up to much... haning around... sleeping.... i slept really REALLY hard last night. i didn't sleep long, but it was such a deep sleep i flet good when i woke up. i had a crazy dream too. definatly have to agree with mr.freud that you are everyone in your dream. well today was dull... nothing exciting. i did step up to another level of dorkdum though. today i bought... no don't say it! A COMPUTER GAME!!! man i am a nerd. i can't wait to load it. my mommy wants to do it though, she doesn't trust me. that's ok. well i don't really have anything to write about. just gonna keep looking forward to friday right pfluger? hehe. later.

(1 dissaproving mother | pierce me) funny.com [22 Jan 2002|12:28am] [ mood | bored and lonely ] [ music | eels- electro-shock blues ] i read this joke tonight... it amused me... a young couple get back from a date. as they reach the door for the good night kiss the young man is feeling a bit horny so he leans smoothly against the wall and says: "will you give me a blow job?" "of course not. we could get caught." "come on, no one is awake." "my parents are home." "please no one will see us." "no." "i love you..." "i love you to but no, not on my parents porch." just then the girls younger sister stumbles out the front door, half asleep and in her pj's. she says: "dad says to give him the blow job, or that i should give him the blow job, and if it's necessary HE will give the blow job, but for christ's sake stop leaning on the intercom." hehe... i'm bored... and lonely... jokes are good for a time like this....

(pierce me) BOREDOM [21 Jan 2002|10:46pm] [ mood | bored ] You are sexy, outgoing, and inwardly poetic, just like that uber-endowed, and massivley taltented guitarist Jimi Hendrix! you! Test made by morphina Take the ' which dead rockstar ' are you, test, here!

(1 dissaproving mother | pierce me) love [16 Jan 2002|01:15am] [ mood | crushed ] why is it that all adults think that just because they are older they know what love is and we don't? is it written somewhere that you aren't allowed to be in love until you are 18 years of age? is that i law i missed somewhere? well love doesn't change as you get older. the only thing that changes is the environment love is created in. as you get older your surroundings get more complicated. the mind matures, but the heart never changes. fucking adults....

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