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Well, it begins again. High School in chat. The SM RPers have formed a new little cult that combines Sailor Moon and Fushigi Yuugi. Under normal circumstances, this wouldn't effect me in the slightest, but as a lot of these people began frequenting my chat room, they have been coming in to see who's on, etc. Don't get me wrong-I LIKE these people. They have proved to be interesting and funny, but I'm not an RPer and I don't enjoy being made to feel mediocre because of it.
And the way they seem to turn on each other. It really is like high school. (And YES, I'm taking into consideration the ages of a lot of those involved.) But they just seem to latch onto each other so severly/closely then, when someone pisses off someone else, they turn on each other like a praying mantis turns on it's mate. They verbally attack each other in ways that are not only insulting to those involved, but offensive to those who happen to be in the same room. We all have to bear witness to the fallout of friendships, because someone made the dumbass mistake of not agreeing with the pack. That is why I call those involved 'sheep'. They just go about the way the leader of the pack does, with no thoughts of their own.
Lemmings are like that, too. They instinctively commit suicide as a whole, not unlike these groups. They all are around each other SO much, that they learn many things. Then one does the slightest thing to upset the group and he/she is exorcized. They all follow the loudest one, or the popluar one-which is usually the same person, until they are nothing. They dissipate into other areas and meet other people until one or two happen to find each other. After meeting, they realize that fun was had at one point and that they missed each other. Then they decide to go back to their old rooms or they create new ones, with new a RP to evolve, and the process starts over. Friendships begin anew and the egos return. All of us Non-Rpers are once again regarded as lower on the Chat Scale.
I notice, though, that those of us who DON'T RP (at least, often) seem to get along better. There is hardly any in-room fighting, unless we all are attacking an outsider who has decided to attack the integrity of the group, and we all seem to retain some personal integrity. We treat each other with trust and keep our secrets within the group. (Well, some of us Regs do....) We Regs just don't up and leave when we have a problem. We work it out, or we ignore each other until we feel that enough time has passed and the issue is no longer that, an issue. Things that once seemed important are either revealed to be as asinine as those NOT involved percieved them to be, or are completely forgotten.
Bah. What tripe. I guess I'm just too old and never meant to understand why the sheep act the way they do.
On second thought, perhaps they are they way they are because they don't WANT anyone to understand. They don't want anyone to get close because they are only comfortable with each other...
But why make others uncomfortable, when it almost seems like the place where the 'Others' feel at home and liked is the very place where the RPers like to congregate. Why pass judgement on people who really don't care about what anyone else does, who's only concern is debating the merit of 'Lord of the Rings' compared to 'Rawhead Rex'? Where idle conversation is welcome and intelligence is displayed rarely.
Fuck It. Fuck them. I'll be nice. But I'm no damn sheep.
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