Friday, January 4th, 2002
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10:21 pm
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I AM ALIGNED WITH THE ELEMENT EARTH
Element: Earth
Direction:North
Celtic Celebration: Yule (approx. Dec 21st)
Personality Traits: Responsibility, Stability,
Respectfulness
People who are aligned with earth tend to
be very stable people who are often considered other peoples "Rocks"
Find out what element you are aligned with
This test created by Celtic_Shamanes
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10:16 pm
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I've been having a great time in  debate. There are debates ranging from furrys to the morality of murder...
It's an active community so it takes up alot of space on the friends list but there are alot of interesting ideas there.
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9:43 pm
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Thursday, January 3rd, 2002
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7:31 pm
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I want so many things. I want a holodeck so that at least I can pretend that I am actually getting what I want.
I know that it is really stupid to want things. That doesn't make it easier to forsake them.
Of course some of the most important of the things that I want can't be simulated (even in the Star Trek universe).
Maybe I just need drugs. I'd love to do LSD again. I'd really love to do Ecstacy again. I don't know if I'll get the chance. I learned alot from my experiences with these chemicals. I'm now growing stagnant. I'm stuck in the way things are. I want to stimulate some new ideas on how things could be.
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Wednesday, January 2nd, 2002
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7:55 pm
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Tuesday, January 1st, 2002
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11:27 pm
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Well, I went and saw The lord of the Rings with highndry, kitters, magikgrrl. Well I was very excited to go with this group of people and I'm very glad that it actually worked out that we could go (thanks to the planning of highndry, and magikgrrl).
I'm a critic by nature and I could say alot about the movie given enough thought but I really think that any criticism on my part would be in a way disrespectful to the movie makers because I really believe that they did a truly fantastic job in the accomplishment of the impossible task of putting the story of the ring into a movie (wow, that's a fucked up long sentence). :)
There were definately omissions and in particular to me was the lack of tolkien's descriptive poetry. After the movie I tried to remember the Lay of Gil-Galad and recite it to the group. It got a bit mangled. Of all the poems in the trilogy though my favorite is Durin's Day ('course I had to cheat and look up the words...) :).
"The world was young, the mountains green,
No stain yet on the Moon was seen,
No words were laid on stream or stone
When Durin woke and walked alone.
He named the nameless hills and dells;
He drank from yet untasted wells;
He stooped and looked in Mirrormere,
And saw a crown of stars appear,
As gems upon a silver thread,
Above the shadow of his head.
The world was fair, the mountains tall,
In Elder Days before the fall
Of mighty kings in Nargothrond
And Gondolin, who now beyond
The Western Seas have passed away:
The world was fair in Durin's Day.
A king he was on carven throne
In many-pillared halls of stone
With golden roof and silver floor,
And runes of power upon the door.
The light of sun and star and moon
In shining lamps of crystal hewn
Undimmed by cloud or shade of night
There shone for ever fair and bright.
There hammer on the anvil smote,
There chisel clove, and graver wrote;
There forged was blade, and bound was hilt;
The delver mined, the mason built.
There beryl, pearl, and opal pale,
And metal wrought like fishes' mail,
Buckler and corslet, axe and sword,
And shining spears were laid in hoard.
Unwearied then were Durin's folk;
Beneath the mountains music woke:
The harpers harped, the minstrels sang,
And at the gates the trumpets rang.
The world is grey, the mountains old
The forge's fire is ashen-cold;
No harp is wrung, no hammer falls;
The darkness dwells in Durin's halls;
The shadow lies upon his tomb
In Moria, in Khazad-dum.
But still the sunken stars appear
In dark and windless Mirrormere;
There lies his crown in water deep,
Till Durin wakes again from sleep."
Well I'd say more but I don't think I should just in case someone reading may not have yet seen the movie and I'd hate to ruin it for anyone.
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Monday, December 31st, 2001
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10:46 pm
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So is there anything wrong with wanting to get kinky with the one you love? So is there any big deal? I mean, most things will clean up eventually :)
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10:22 pm
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I want them to put re-runs of the Bob Newhart show on. The actor that plays Howard Borden is on some game show so I just thought I'd mention it :)
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9:21 pm
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Motivation:
From Pink Floyd - Dark Side of the Moon - 3: Time
"Ticking away the moments that make up a dull day
You fritter and waste the hours in an offhand way.
Kicking around on a piece of ground in your home town
Waiting for someone or something to show you the way.
Tired of lying in the sunshine staying home to watch the rain.
You are young and life is long and there is time to kill today.
And then one day you find ten years have got behind you.
No one told you when to run, you missed the starting gun.
So you run and you run to catch up with the sun but it's sinking
Racing around to come up behind you again.
The sun is the same in a relative way but you're older,
Shorter of breath and one day closer to death.
Every year is getting shorter never seem to find the time.
Plans that either come to nought or half a page of scribbled lines
Hanging on in quiet desparation is the English way
The time is gone, the song is over,
Thought I'd something more to say."
Do it while you can. Think it while you can. Experience it while you can. If you wait it may be too late.
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6:10 am
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Well it's late. I'm at work. I'm tired. The only people left here are Jim and myself. I'm some kind of sucker I think. I ended up volunteering to stay late only because I felt that I needed to do so in order to get the job done. I'm pretty confident that the job's not gonna get done anyway. This database we're using doesn't seem to be working very well at all. I better not take any shit for the fact that things aren't gonna be done by the first business day of the new year. We're now told by our supervisor via phone that we should just get all the computers working on reports and leave at 7AM instead of 8. That's fine with me but I know that someone upstairs is gonna get pissed at the fact that things aren't done.
Shit flows downhill...
Oh well, there's a new year coming. This year's problems will be forgotten by then right?
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Sunday, December 30th, 2001
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10:21 pm
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Well, I'm at my friend's house waiting to go to work. It appears that nobody is on AIM which is suprising. Course it could be that I'm just not getting screen names right. I dread working all night tonight. Apparently C is drinking tonight and I'm missing it :( I hope she has a good night without me there for once :)
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Friday, December 28th, 2001
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10:09 pm
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So what the hell is happening in India / Pakistan? War it sounds like. What's in it for anybody involved is what I wonder. Does Hindu India intend to rule Muslim Pakistan through military might? I can only see war benefitting either country through population control. War certainly isn't the best way to go about this goal. It's another case of Bush's "war on terrorism" spreading to incite violence across the globe (India is claiming that the Pakistani government is supporting Muslim separtists from Kashmir in performing acts of terror within India and by Bush's rhetoric this is just cause for India to crush the government of Pakistan even if in the process many citizens are murdered on both sides of the border).
And what are we as an integral part of the world community going to do about this? Are we gonna stand back and watch it happen? No we won't is my bet. We have too much at stake in Pakistan right now. Our oil execs already have the pipelines drawn up.
Who knows... I certainly don't. But it's about time that we figure out that mass human slayings are not the solution. It's not a fucking game. Every choice that we make, every word that is uttered by our leadership, sets us on a path.
I don't know... Sometimes I think that we as a species are totally fucked. Sometimes I look at the possibilities and I know that there is an end to war but I also realize that to get there will require action by all human societies towards the greater goal of survival and balance. I don't know if that is possible (I'm putting down about a 10% chance that we won't destroy ourselves... )...
current mood: Resigned
current music: Bubbling Fishtank
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Thursday, December 27th, 2001
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7:05 pm
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My mind is really a blank. I've spent much of my day at work thinking about things. I'd think about them like I was posting them to my journal. Now that I'm at home I find that it is all gone. I can't say that is a bad thing as many of them were not pleasant items to deal with but I do really miss the opportunity to take some of the crappier parts of my life and send them off into the world to be acknowledged and overcome.
Now that I'm home I doubt that I'll be inspired by such troubling thoughts since I'll be immersed in world conflict (Civ 3).
current mood: Comfortably numb
current music: Babylonian military forces crushing all opposition.
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Wednesday, December 26th, 2001
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3:10 pm
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Tuesday, December 25th, 2001
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8:22 pm
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Woohoo!
Christmas is over and I came out of it with a new game (Civilization III). So now that the peace and joy of Christmas are past, I think I'm gonna spend some of my precious time directing a simulated global conflict. :)
current mood: Ambitious
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Sunday, December 23rd, 2001
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11:07 pm
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I had another great day working outside.
I transplanted some little cedar trees because they would have had to be destroyed otherwise and I didn't want to have to do that. So I'm planning out what my yard is gonna look like 10 -20 years down the road. I like it.
I replaced the GFCI for my hot tub but I haven't tested it yet, that'll be for tomorrow.
I scraped off all the moss and edged the front walk.
I trimmed a number of trees and bushes and planned out where my walk ways would have to be.
I found that we have a working fountain.
I listened to my owl.
It was good. As I worked I was really at peace. There were no real problems... all I had to think about were the trees, the plants, the chaos that lives outside my house... it is my task to put it into some kind of order. I know that order is impermanent but the task is one which I can give myself to as long as I live here... with the satisfaction coming from watching all those chaotic life forms come up from the ground in the spring... watching the birds come and hop, fly, and flutter around my yard living their simple lives... noting the presence of the moles, catching a glimpse of the squirrel... knowing that I live in a real world of nature... not just a construct of human society... the world is bigger than that which we create... yet we cover up reality with posters, and buildings, and overpasses... we pretend that the real world doesn't exist... out here I am reminded of the real world, and I absolutely love it.
Now that I think of it.... I know I'm full of shit... how can I say that one thing is real and one thing isn't... it's all real to the one who experiences it... I guess it's simply a matter of each choosing their own reality.
Oh well, another perfect thought down the tubes... I'll just have to try again tomorrow :)
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Saturday, December 22nd, 2001
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5:55 pm
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I'm feelin' pretty good right now.
I got a bit of work done outside.
I have a partially working hot tub. I bypassed the GFCI and am now getting some power to the peripherals. The pump seems to be working but no lights or blower.
I cleaned up the grounds a bit and carted away a small portion of many years buildup of debris.
I've seen many bald eagles today. I love living close to the wild. I love standing outside at night and hearing the owls talking. The stars are bright and have begun to recapture my attention.
Today has been productive...
I'm off to play a game of some sort... I think I'll play a game of Ages of Empires... :)
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8:49 am
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Friday, December 21st, 2001
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1:12 pm
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I didn't know there were plans to go Xmas shopping tonight. In fact I'm sure that it's never been mentioned. It turns out though that it was a plan, it's just that nobody bothered to tell me.
Apparently I gave the wrong answer on the phone when I said that I'd stay home and watch the baby 'cause I got hung up on.
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10:32 am
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Well, it seems that I've gotten the flu.
Rob will be very happy to know that in his absense from work I'm using his desk. I'll be sure to leave him a few germs for when he gets back because that just the kind of rotten bastard that I am.
I think that I'm not looking forward to a weekend of Christmas preparations. Christmas is gonna be made up of 3 different family get-togethers over 2 days. That's just way too much for me. I'm selfish or something but I just want to spend a couple days in bed so that I can feel good for the new year as opposed to just more tired.
current mood: unhappy
current music: work noises
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thoughtful