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Friday, November 2nd, 2001
9:11 pm	i got my SAT scores back today.. i got a 1260. i went out with bradley today.. it was nice seein him again. john gabbard left for ohio today. pinky was at school today, she was getting her transcripts and stuff.. it was nice seein her again today too. im waiting to hear from skott.. he might be coming to town tomarrow.. so i kinda need to talk to him so i can tell him my plans and stuff.. if he doesnt call soon ill call him and yell at him.. my parents are goin out tonight... so im babysitting (ohboy) ummm.. yeah.. i think thats all... yep. bye. Current Mood: pleased Current Music: SyStEm Of A dOwN - ToXiCiTy (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, October 27th, 2001
10:13 am	good morning! i was supposed to go with john to watch the sun rise... didnt happen. but thats ok.. he really made me feel a lot better yesterday, hes a good boy. i heard from skott, he emailed me yesterday.. he said he'd call me sometime today or tomarrow, hopefully not while im at work, but you never know with him. scott (my cousin) came to town last night, and daniel and buescher came over, so the end of my day yesterday was a whole lot better than the middle of it.. i have to work today so im gonna go wash my shirt.. later patayters Current Mood: awake (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 25th, 2001
11:09 pm	i talked to robert today. hes getting married. he got sara pregnant, so theyre getting married november first. isnt the day just grand. Current Mood: cranky (Comment on this)
3:15 pm	i went out with john gabbard yesterday after school, we went to hilsboro street where we struck up a conversation with Mr Miller, who lives on the bench just outside of kinko's.. he had some very interesting stories to tell.. john and i got a lot of old stuff sorted out, and everything went well.. we had barbecued chicken pizza and apple juice together... just like old times. anyways.. im goin to work in like twenty minites, im just trying to kill time before hand.. ii got my report card today, i got all c's exept for my b in math, and my a in chorus. i went in and hung out with Mr dreisbach and Mr davenport today at lunch, i miss them.. i wish i was in their class again this year.. i really cant stand Mrs Smith.. shes so close minded and she will not be proven wrong, just yesterday she argued with us that the word "you" cannot be plural.. which it can be, so we looked it up in the dictionary, and sure enough "you" was plural.. but still she didnt budge.. i really dont like her.. i wanna go kick her. im gonna go get ready for work now.. see ya Current Mood: busy Current Music: prodigy - fat of the land (Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 23rd, 2001
10:40 pm	i just got home from work, so im not gonna talk much, i just wanted to mention that i have a c in paideia.. which really pisses me off, but then the fact that its a point away from a b pisses me off even more.. i have a b in alg3/trig.. but whatever.. my dad is packing up to leave for his vacation with my uncle, theyre going to see YES and THEY MIGHT BE GIANTS and some football game.. my cousin scotty is coming this weekend.. yeah.. thats pretty much it.. i talked to bradley today.. and i yelled at him a lil bit for not talkin to me in a week. but yeah.. thats the story of my day.. im tired.. goodnight Current Mood: blank Current Music: rush - bravado (Comment on this)
Sunday, October 21st, 2001
8:06 pm	im happy again.. it only took a month and a half.. Skott came to town yesterday and we met up at the fair.. i had a great time.. hes such a sweetheart.. i met his little brother tyler who's absolutely precious.. they're as much alike as jasmine and i are.. i dont know how old tyler is.. but im guessing hes around beverlys age.. or a little older.. judging by his size.. Skott has twin brothers too.. they're five.. he said hes gonna bring them here sometime to hang out with jasmine.. i hope he meant that. i got a job 8) its at smoothie king.. the greatest place on earth.. now i dont have to pay so much 8) and ive already got more than enough to pay buescher back for the TooL tickets.. so im sure hes happy.. problem is i only get payed once every two weeks.. so im gonna have to learn to make my money last.. which im not very good at.. anyways.. daddy made fajitas for dinner so im gonna go eat em up 8) Current Mood: happy Current Music: Yes - Harmonize (Comment on this)
Friday, October 12th, 2001
5:48 pm	hello everyone. its friday.. and therefore.. im happy. i had a pretty good day today.. today was homecoming.. so the whole school (including me) got covered in blue and orange paint.. Choral Ensemble sang the national anthem at the pep rally.. we did a really good job, i think.. i got several complements on it afterwards.. my cousin scott is supposed to come to town tonight.. im very exited.. i miss him soooo much.. i cant wait to see him.. i prolly wont be here when he gets here tho.. ill probly be out w/ kristina and company.. they're gonna come get me for a little while and get my mind off the SAT stuff that ive been studying in preparation for tomarrow. i talked to john for a little while today.. he seemed to be ina good mood.. but he dissapeared for the time being.. so... i talked to crick ~ excuse me.. i talked to RYAN today and he wanted me to drive him to charlotte tomarrow. too bad im busy.. im hungry too.. there is NOONE online.. but i guess noone else is so much of a loser on friday night that they are home alone on the computer.. but i like being a loser.. i get stuff done that way. anyways.. i need to get crackin on this SAT crap.. wish me luck.. blahblahblah.. later patayters! Current Mood: busy Current Music: Yes - leave it (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, October 11th, 2001
4:43 pm	so john and i decided what we're gonna do sunday.. im exited.. we're gonna have lots of fun. he's really cool.. and hes the kind of guy that can make you smile.. and does it completely subconsciously. so anyways.. my motivation came back.. it kinda came back suddenly last night.. kristina said something to me that really made me kinda wake up i guess.. but im back on track now.. and things are coming back together.. i guess it just takes a while sometimes for things to kick in.. i really think im almost over rob.. im really lonely now..and i still get really pissed off when i think about him.. but i also feel sorry for him.. and im also proud of myself for not taking his crap.. and so its gonna be ok.. anyways.. i need to run.. im gonna eat dinner @ memaws house 8) we're cookin tacos. Current Mood: awake Current Music: BOOM - the bloodhound gang/ vanilla ice (Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 10th, 2001
4:30 pm	ITS COOOOOOOLLLLLLLLLLLLDDDDDDDDDDD im ready for some snow. and some coffee.. and the fair. im talkin to john right now.. hes a really nice guy. we're gonna do something sunday.. we dont know what yet tho.. im really cold. im gonna get ready for church now.. byebye Current Mood: cold Current Music: mathew good band (Comment on this)
Monday, October 8th, 2001
4:48 pm	TooL ok so the TooL show last night rocked!! im soooooooo glad i got to go.. maynards voice was , of course, beautiful.. and the graphics were great.. and the schism people were crazy.. i met one of brents friends named john.. he was really cold and he had pretty brown eyes.. but i didnt talk to him very much because i was in one of my happy moods and my happy moods are kindov embarrassing sometimes.. and besides that i was listening to the pretty music.. they didnt play sober.. or aenima.. i was mad.. but i quickly got over it Current Mood: peaceful Current Music: TooL (Comment on this)
Friday, October 5th, 2001
9:34 pm	well.. i talked to greyson today.. i dont know what the deal is with our computers but they wont let us talk to each other.. but we fixed it.. he and i are going to the fair next week together which is cool.. i just got home and its like 9 30 and that really pisses me off.. i miss my 12 o clock curfew.. but since i dont have a boyfriend to drive me around anymore... im stuck at home at 9 o clock.. great fun... anyways.. i got home late.. cuz i got insanely lost... you'd think that if you can get somewhere from one way you could get to the same place by going the opposite direction.. but no.. thats not the way this stuff works in the real world. im lonely.. this sucks.. i hate fridays. Current Mood: frustrated Current Music: frank sinatra - witchcraft (Comment on this)
Thursday, September 27th, 2001
9:40 am	its thursday.. and i dont have any school 8) im quite happy. but i do have to work on a nenglish project about columbine.. but i think it will be pretty cool.. tonight im going out with bradley... i dont know where we're going yet.. he left it up to me.. and im incredibly undecicive..anyways.. i need to go drink my tea before it gets cold. Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: tori amos - hey jupiter (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 23rd, 2001
9:06 pm	well.. today i start rebuilding.. robert came home.. and so i finally talked to him.. so now i know he knows its over.. so that puts some finality on this mess. i talked to matt.. and he said something that really made me think.. matt: "i hope you dont belittle yourself in anyway into thinking hes worth your heart." and daniel made me feel alot better too.. as lost as i get sometimes.. its good to have a few landmarks to go by... and those two are the best of all.. i figure.. everyday the world falls apart.. always constantly.. forever.. only the best will put it back together.. so thats what im gonna do.. im gonna put myself back together.. and maybe if i do it right this time, the next time it wont fall so hard.. Current Mood: lonely Current Music: system of a down - spiders (Comment on this)
Saturday, September 22nd, 2001
8:42 pm	today was a good day.. im tired.. and im lonely.. but it was a very good day.. to those certain special people that made it a good day, i thank you with all my heart... i needed a good day really bad. 8) Current Mood: pleased Current Music: the ataris - last song i will ever write about a girl (Comment on this)
Friday, September 21st, 2001
4:06 pm	welll.. i finally heard from mike.. and he told me why he hasnt talked to me in forever.. i was right, its completely my fault.. i completely didnt give him a chance.. and i went paranoid.. (i gotta stop doin that) so i feel like a complete jerk right now.. but i wrote him back and hopefully we can get this stuff fixed.. i miss him. Current Mood: guilty (Comment on this)
Thursday, September 20th, 2001
3:57 pm	well.. i had a decent day.. all things considered.. i told the finale to my soap opera to like half the school.. as long as i stay busy and i dont think about him im alright.. otherwise i get really mad. i talked to mike's dad.. mike was at his moms house.. so i just asked if he'd ask mike to check his email, its quite obvious not that our schedules are gonna conflict for the rest of time. i talked to cricket too.. er.. ryan... he doesnt seem to be doing so great.. i wish there was something i could do but it seems like every time i try to talk to him or make him feel better he takes it the wrong way or he doesnt care and i just make it worse. tomarrow krissy and ryanne and maggie are spendin the night at my house .. we need a girly night.. im about to lose my mind.. im so pissed off.. and im so hurt and i feel like ive been kicked in the stomach.. and margaret doesnt feel all that great about not being with chris either.. so at the moment life pretty much sucks.. but it'll get better... just takes time... Current Mood: depressed (Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 19th, 2001
9:09 pm	lentskream: i hate him xomargaretdxo: hah silentskream: i hope robert dies in a huge fire xomargaretdxo: yeah silentskream: non on o.. listen xomargaretdxo:ok tell silentskream: when rob found out his mom was sending tickets and not money, he called and left a message on his moms work answering maschine that said "fuck you and fuck your ticket you stupid bitch" silentskream: i talked to will ( robs best friend) silentskream: who talked to him earlier this afternoon... silentskream: rob asked him to get a collection going around school for TWO bus tickets to raleigh.. xomargaretdxo: what a retard silentskream: one for him.... silentskream: and one for sara silentskream: so when i heard that i got curious.. xomargaretdxo: no way! silentskream: i asked will if hed DONE anything with sara... silentskream: and will said.. " tracy, im gonna be honest... he hasnt done anything.. with SARA... can you take that hint?" xomargaretdxo: what? xomargaretdxo: id hate him silentskream: so i asked who and when silentskream: answer: silentskream: TWO WEEKS AGO silentskream: with some ugly girl that goes to enloe xomargaretdxo: screw him. tell him to go to hell xomargaretdxo: tracy, boys are screwed up xomargaretdxo: i hate them silentskream: yeah.. silentskream: so i said are you gonna talk to Rob today? silentskream: and he said ill talk to him by tomarrow silentskream: and i said " can you make sure to tell him i said goodbye?" silentskream: and he said yeah xomargaretdxo: good for you Current Mood: enraged Current Music: silverchair - satin sheets (Comment on this)
3:24 pm	well... rumor has it that rob is gonna come home.. at least that was the story last night at around 8:30... he wont talk to me.. so that makes me feel great.. i dont know what to expect right now.. im not getting my hopes up that hes actually coming home until he is on the bus on his way here.. because until i know that, anything can change. i called mike yesterday.. but i didnt get to talk to him.. i talked to his dad for a little while.. but not too long cuz its long distance.. but his dad said he misses me and hes sure mike does too.. so ill probly call back in a couple days... i talked to crick... hes goin to charlotte and then he's off to cali again.. this time for good.. he didnt seem too happy .. i hope the west coast brightens his spirits a little.. margaret and cris are speaking to each other now.. they decided they could be friends.. so thats cool and i have an appointment in thirty minites.. so i need to run.. ttyl Current Mood: exhausted Current Music: passenger - DEFTONES (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 18th, 2001
3:38 pm	one more time well new york fell down.. so it only made sence i suppose that so would i... Robert disappeared sunday morning.. we finally figured out he was in georgia by mid afternoon.. he was at his ex girlfriends house.. the one he said he wasnt ever gonna speak to again.. but he promised me he would come home... and i, like the fool that i am, beleived him... he didnt come home.. and i dont think he will.i havent talked to him yet..i dont think he wants to talk to me.. so our song finally does ring completely true.. verse three, the only one that didnt fit goes something like this : autumn air reminds me of all the seasons of your love and what it was like, when we were together. the smell of fall is everywhere and now it seems i just dont care cuz now youve gone away. here i go.. im giving up.. again Current Mood: crappy Current Music: good charlotte - four seasons (Comment on this)
Monday, August 27th, 2001
8:40 pm	serious updating.. woahhhh its been a while... im out of summer school now ( did i even mention i was in summer school?) me and my boyfriend, Rob, are doin great ( have i mentioned him before?) yeah i guess its been a busy summer.. work was great.. but i turned in my two week notice a few days ago.. im a junior now.. im driving.. i wrecked comrade.. he was tore up.. but hes getting better.. im driving kristina marg and ryanne to school everyday now.. which is cool.. i like all of us bein together..anyways.. ima go throw some poems on the web page now.. TTYL!!! (1 Comment |Comment on this)