Below are the 6 most recent journal entries recorded in Justin's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, March 6th, 2002
8:13 am	Ok, Kolin, I'm going to do it. Maybe not today, probably not tomorrow, but soon, and it'll be good. Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: Time to Move On by Tom Petty
Thursday, February 28th, 2002
2:08 am	Tarot were mixed tonight. I did it on her, of course. I'm a damned fool if a fool at all, no? The Sun and the 4 of Staves popped up, which was nice, but also Justice reversed and the 3 of Swords reversed. So what the hell does that mean? As for my significator: The Hnaged Man. Maybe this was a little positive. After all, both cards that pointed to future currents were positive. So how far into the future is that. All I want is her, right now at least. Everything else can fall by the wayside. Maybe she'd make me happy, if only for a little while. Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: Take My Hand by Dido
1:34 am	WHY? Why am I doing this to myself again? It's stupid. Christ, it's beyond stupid. But she's so charming, and she SMELLS so good. Her eyes have a somewhat almond shape to them, making them almost exotic. They're beautiful. And her hair. Long, like a traditional southern girl's might be. She's got a sweet, soft voice, and an air of concern that melts me with her compassion. She's everything that I want, or maybe I'm making her into the girl of my dreams, aren't I? Damn. I hate this. I'm setting myself up, too. It's a clusterfuck through and through. If I do succeed in this romantic endeavor, I might have a short happiness with this charming young woman. On the other hand, I'd be a fool to stay here for her, and I know that too well to do so. So I'll lose her even if I have her. Do I love and lose, or pine and lose...which would be less painful in the long run? Jess says pining is a waste of time. She's right, of course. Damned if I'll ever let her know that! And then there's my girl. We all know who she is. She's everything I want and nothing I want. Or maybe I've just never known exactly what it is that I want. I want the thinking to stop. God, why didn't I just go to UT in the first place? Current Mood: discontent Current Music: Take My Hand by Dido
Friday, February 22nd, 2002
4:40 pm	God, she's cute. Current Mood: discontent Current Music: Dido: Here With Me
12:20 am	Life is most definitely not like a god damn box of chocolates. Life is like diarrhea, you think you're ok and then all of the sudden there's shit all over the place. That is life. God, I'm sick of things. Current Mood: irate Current Music: Too Bad by Nickelback
Thursday, February 21st, 2002
2:33 am	I feel like throwing up. I hate that feeling. I should try eating on a regular basis. Anyway.... I feel way too depressed these days. I'm used to having negative, almost suicidal lines of thought, but not so much on a daily basis. I need concerta or prozac or something. I hate life. Current Mood: depressed Current Music: Tom Petty: You Don't Know How if Feels