Sunday, January 20th, 2002
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10:41 pm
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i realized after talking to jessica tonight im sick of the "modwaste scene" and its whole batch of elitness. everyone is so critical of one another.
i told jessica i liked waking hours [ and i do. im "openminded" like that. i liked all the bands i saw today. even that girl band. ] and she said i was liking sin.
its almost as if you have to fit into some little standard to be liked by these people. all they honestly do is bitch bitch bitch or brag brag brag. i guess i shouldn't be talking since thats all im doing now, eh, doesn't matter.
when ever im at shows such as these i feel so.. intimidated? like with jen & brett and all their friends i feel so young and outcast-esque feeling.. or patronized for that matter, and im not much younger than them, yet i feel like im from another generation entirely.
and then when everyone bitches about waking hours or that one girl with a four letter name i shall not type here, its all like "yeah, shes not cool enough" or some lame shit like that. especially when she was bragging about knowing jen.. which is just odd in its own. i mean, shes a person, she goes to shows, shes mad cool.. move on. weird.
especially when i was upfront for sayanything and i was surrounded by freshman and 8th graders.. the boys to the side with the mod hair were so fucking snobish it wasn't even funny. its almost as if " oh she doesn't go to winward, shes wearing a hoodie, shes not girly, shes not worth talking to. " ESPECIALLY when im standing there just having a good time and just nodding my head or whatever to the music and these girls are standing there and then looking at me like im strange.. augh its all bullshit.
i think im just burnt out of these shows.. im just fucking sick of the elitism of them all i suppose. it ruins the atmosphere, its almost as if you have to be some outgoing beautiful girl or whatever to even be social at these things.
BLAH. bed time before i give my self a heartattack.
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6 eye wides | sleep
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6:23 pm
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i just got back from.. the modwaste show. fun, very fun.
the most entertaining thing is probably that the singer of charlotte tenesse & z or whatever fucking gallops.. we saw this right before i left when smile was starting.. she and max of sayanything were uh.. hooking up shall i say? quite odd. [ i thought he had better taste then a 15 yr old that struts themself? ]
also when jessica was bitching during the waking hours. fun stuff. all the kids that were there for sayanything were in 8th grade.. and from windward. creepy. but fun non the less..
and now i shall email those pictures of alex greenwald to jon to make him jealous :)
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3 eye wides | sleep
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Saturday, January 19th, 2002
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5:08 am
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i just realized why i love that movie so much [ crime & punishment in suburbia. ] not only is the quality of the actual film angles and etc awesome.. the entire soundtrack is made up of Black Francis [ the pixies ] and Modest Mouse songs.
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1 eye wide | sleep
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Friday, January 18th, 2002
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7:34 pm
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if any of you get the sundance channel.. at 3 am watch/record this movie.. its called crime and punishment in suburbia.. its good very good.. its been related to donnie darko and american beauty, if you like those.
if any of you watched dawsons creek [ i didn't ] the girl who plays abby morgan is in it... i saw her as tinka in all i wanna do.. snake in all i wanna do is also the second lead, opp. monia keena [ the girl who plays abby morgan. ]
its goooood.. WATCH IT. especially you kat.
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5 eye wides | sleep
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Thursday, January 17th, 2002
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5:50 am
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Wednesday, January 16th, 2002
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6:35 pm
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fuck this, im not going sunday. theres no point in going alone and then having to deal with myself for so many fucking hours, but also people whom im not too fond of, and people who arn't too fond of me.
ruins the whole mood anyway. maybe if steph would have went, but no.
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1 eye wide | sleep
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4:22 am
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i missed real world, that sucks.
i fell asleep EXACTLY at 10.
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2 eye wides | sleep
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Tuesday, January 15th, 2002
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6:30 am - burnt mixes are fun. [ i dont give a crap about the 1 song per band rule. ]
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1 Modest Mouse - Third Planet
2 death cab for cutie - bend to squares
3 Rilo Kiley - The Frug
4 ModestMouse-Talking shit about a pretty sunset
5 ModestMouse -trailer trash
6 Rilo Kiley -ScienceVs.Romance
7 death cab for cutie-sleep spent
8 Weakerthans - Watermark.mp3?2:38
9 Texas Is The Reason - Antique
10 ozma - iceland
11 appleseed Cast - Fishing the Sky
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3 eye wides | sleep
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Monday, January 14th, 2002
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7:10 pm
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i already know i did bad on my midterm, i mixed up non polar and polar covalent bonds which already is half the test, thank god she didn't make us do anything with polyatomic ions or quantum theory, and the shapes that go along with quantum theory.
Alex has a tendency to steal my tests. this is the second time. on the first one, i had finished it, put it on her desk, since i took it a class early, she had looked at it and already told me my grade [ A- ] but he felt the need to hijack a SOPHOMORE's test, while the JUNIOR he is had an extra day of class to study.
then today she put a test on my desk, i hadn't touched it since i was looking at my book for some quick last minute study time w/ David and he TOOK IT. he wasn't even taking the test that class but he TOOK IT. the saddest thing about it is even when he stole my test last class, he still managed to fail with all the answers written on it.
this is pathetic. my sister says to make sure im not being thought of as cheating [ well.. i did cheat today with marlee on one thing.. heh heh. ] but i dont fucking steal tests. and with marlee it was after we turned in our tests.
god damnit. on another note, donnie darko wont work on my computer.
Ooh.. daria marathon.
current music: death cab for cutie
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sleep
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5:19 am
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my procrastination is not going to get me anywhere.
im sitting here writing an essay to turn in today that was due on thursday.
new goal: do homework on time.
i have a chem midterm today. FUCK.
current music: modest mouse
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1 eye wide | sleep
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Saturday, January 5th, 2002
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10:12 pm
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tonight i realized what i really want to do.
thats to start a record label..
anyone with me on this idea?
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6 eye wides | sleep
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9:22 pm
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i guess we could say he talks too much.. because he does. but he was nice non the less. it was weird. he kept going on about how at LAX they kept feeling him up and excetera, a little too much information [ especially how he described it. ] but thats alright.
my brother promised me he'd teach me manual photography. i'm excited.
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sleep
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7:54 pm
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so i just went out to dinner with my family..
my cousins brought a little special guest, who flew in the night of rooney [ thats why she didn't show. ] so bluntly..
i just had dinner with the lead singer of CHAUNCEY.
more on this later.
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4 eye wides | sleep
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2:26 pm
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note to self: convince michelle to go to 3/1 DCFC show since am going to anniversary with her.. for the second time.
ps. note to self: WORK ON LAYOUT.
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1 eye wide | sleep
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Friday, January 4th, 2002
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5:11 pm
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last night was fun, thats forsure. steph liked it alot enough to say shes coming with me on the 20th [ now all we have to do is convince michelle [ rides! ]] . which will probably be nice as well. most likely with at least 3 awesome bands instead of just 1.
i semi got the feeling people were getting annoyed with me last night so.. i tryed to shut up.. never works. so if that was the case, im sorry.
i really should work on that layout, i wont be able to when school starts.. but yet again, im lazy as hell.
oh, and speaking of last night.. seeing Dani & Marlee was okay, they were cool, although seeing Zelda was pushing the limit.
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sleep
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Wednesday, January 2nd, 2002
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3:31 pm
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rooney tomorrow night. sucks, since me and steph have to go two hours early since my mom is going out and the only time she can drop us off is 5:30.
well, it should be a good show non-the-less.
blockbuster time.
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1 eye wide | sleep
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Saturday, December 29th, 2001
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5:09 pm
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Friday, December 28th, 2001
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1:26 pm
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happy birthday Jen :) [ rockerina. }
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sleep
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Thursday, December 27th, 2001
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8:41 am
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last night i had a weird dream that involved talks of a sayanything or rooney show.. & a lord of the rings bookthat involved kathleen and i think brett
creepy. feel special.
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sleep
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Wednesday, December 26th, 2001
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11:03 pm
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Ahh.. Michelles such a fucking bitch.
she made me a bad religion mixtape a while back and i just listened to it tonight.. but of course she puts on the song ' i love my computer' to mock me.
eheh.
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sleep
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