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Happy 6 months to me!!! [09 Apr 2003|03:11pm] [ mood | loved ] [ music | 3 Doors Down - Kryptonite ] Yup you read it correctly, Natusha and I have spent 6 wonderful months together and i can't wait til our one year annirversary. I can't wait til she wakes up from her nap...she's so cute when she sleeps, seriously i could lay there and watch her sleep all day. I love you sweetie Yesterday i had my microteach project and overall it went pretty well and i get to find out how Sam and I did on the project tomorrow in class...from the way people responded it seemed that they liked it as well, only a few problems and i noticed them during the presentation...but whatever...its all done and over with forever..hopefully i don't have to do that ever again...but wait a minute i have to take Public Speaking next semester, which is gonna suck because i did that in my senior year of high school, so i guess it shouldn't be that much of a challenge to me...Natusha's taking that class as well and she's done it before in high school...so we should do alright in the class..hopefully. Ya so i also schuduled my classes today, and i have a FUCKIN 8 A.M class again...GRRRR i wish my psych professor would bump up the class times...jeeezzz why does it have to be this hard to be a psych major...acutally its not that bad, just a lot of reading about terms i've never heard of that give me a better understanding of the world around me, which i guess is cool. What else...oh ya...i applied for the part-time shift leader position if i didn't already say that before...and i've had a couple of people say i should get the job over some people...who will remain nameless, because if i got it i would be a "fair" shiftleader, which is what we need at my work, because there is a lot of bullshit that has been floating around every since a few of the cashiers started, which is pretty sad cuz it just shows how much of a life they don't have. So ya, i hope that i get the job as well because it would be a pay-raise and i need the money so i can save up for my trip next year. Well im gonna head out cuz i've probably done enough babbling and i'll save you from killin yourself of boredom....j/k...alright....cya til next time. Bye. John P.S. I love you Natusha, i have enjoyed all the time we have spent together and i can't wait til the future. post comment

Almost 6 months in and im loving it [05 Apr 2003|09:52am] [ mood | devious ] [ music | Linkin Park - Nobody's Listening ] Okay lets look at the date today...ummm...April 5th...thats like 4 days before my 6th month annirversiary with my lil' ray of sunshine Natusha Lynn. God she is hilarious...she's been trying to get me to tell her what i have planned for our 6th month...and im like "nothing...i wont' tell you"...but i finally gave in and "told" her i was gettin her a card...lol...i can't wait to see her on sunday...and i espically can't wait until the 9th...i hope she likes what i have planned for her...but im not gonna say anything on this journal until i get back and i update it like a week later like usual. Last night i worked 9 hours on my day off and now i can't wait to see my paycheck this upcoming week, it should be around the $200 range...meanin i'll have more to play with...maybe i can go buy more "cards" on my 6th month annierversay for Natusha...oh that would be funny shit...to get like 6 cards...all the same ones...well ne who...i'm gonna head out so Natusha can call me and she'll probably bug me about it again...so i'll cya around...Bye John P.S. I luv ya babe...even though i make you wait and guess of what my next move is, i only do it b/c i love you...MWAH!!!! 1 comment|post comment

Sad Day [28 Mar 2003|10:11pm] [ mood | blah ] [ music | Linkin Park - Breaking The Habit ] Well today i found that my Grandmother passed away today and i was very saddened by that and i hope that she is in a better place now and that she knows everyone loves her and misses her a lot. I love you Grammy, you were a great friend and an awesome Grandmother. R.I.P March 28th 2003. Okay i guess i'll move onto a happier topic...umm starting today is Spring Break Vacation for me and im just bummin around working on my project for my english class that i should have done months ago...but i'll do alright if i just stick to this all week long and plus i have to work and then go the funeral...umm tomorrow i have to work like 9 hours and hopefully that goes by quick. I'm missin my sweetie like crazy i wish she was right here so i could hug her to death and give kisses all over her face. I'll see her on tuesday when she comes up here for the funeral, im really glad that she's coming to this with me...cuz it means a lot to me as well as my family, b/c i consider her family and i think everyone else in my family has considered her family as well since on X-mas night she and her sister were recieving the most amount of gifts...all in all a good night. Well i think im gonna end this journal now...so i'll talk to you lil' kiddies later and i hope that everyone out there says there "i love you's" to the people you care the most about b/c you never know when they won't be there to hear you or see you...so just take the time to strengthen friendships instead of tearing them apart. Bye. John P.S. I love you so much Natusha and i just want you to know that you mean the world to me and that i wouldn't be who i am now without you, just stay the same and i'll be with you through thick and thin....MWAH!!! 2 comments|post comment

Australia Here I Come!!! [07 Mar 2003|11:26pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | Linkin Park - Somewhere I Belong ] Yup...Natusha, Josh and bunch of other college students are gonna have the chance to study in Australia for a semester and so that means no more fuckin cold weather for awhile, but for that to happen i have to work my little ass of and save up like 4000 dollars, but also keep in mind that the exchange rate is in my favor. Soooo...ne who...whats going on out there world...umm...well for me its just been college, workin all the time, and most importantly spendin time with my g/f Natusha, GOD I LOVE THAT GIRL TO DEATH!!! i can't wait to save up enough money to buy her an engagment ring so i can purpose to her. Our 5 month annierversay in coming up and i can't wait to spend it with her...every month at this time i look back on when we were first going out and how people were sayin that we wouldn't last or that someone had there two cents to put in and wanted to break us up...but did ne of that work....HELLZ NO!! and will it ever...HELLZ NO...so just to let all you girls out there...im takin for good and will never be swayed to someone else b/c i am PERFECTLY CONTENT with Natusha and all you fellaz starin at my girl...you can look, but you can't touch, b/c you'll get your feelins hurt so back up and find your own girl. Well im gonna head out for now since im getin really tired and i need to conserve all my energy to talk with my baby, MWAH LUV YA TUSHA! ******* ** ** ** ** * ******* ** ** * ***** ** ** * *** ******* ******* * ******* ** *** *** ******* ** ** ***** ** ** *** *** ** ***** *** ** ** *** ** ** ***** ****** ** ** *** ** ** ***** ****** ** ** ** *** ***** *** ****** *** ** ** ***** ** ** ** ** *** ****** ***** ** ** ** ** in case you can't read that it says: I heart U Natusha...well im gonna stop gabbin now. bye John P.S. Luv YA babe MWAH!! 1 comment|post comment

Happy Valentines Day! [14 Feb 2003|09:30am] [ mood | silly ] [ music | Face to Face - I Won't Lie Down (Kombat Mix) ] Well today i get to spend another lovely day with my wonderful girlfriend who is in class right now. I can't wait to give her all her gifts, i really hope she likes them. Natusha gave me my gifts last friday because she couldn't wait until today, and plus she figured that i would have bought that gift during the week ne ways...she got me a network adapter for the playstation 2 and the DVD RunTelDat with Martin Lawrence...its funny as hell...i might watch it again sometime soon. She also got me a huge card which was really sweet of her. She also has another gift to give me i guess, she hasn't let me open it yet...but i'll be patient since i've made her be patient for so long. What else is going on in my life...oh ya classes, well there going good, i got my geography exam back and scored a wonderful 69, but i'll try and study next time, because i only studied for like 10 minutes. I also had child psychology test yesterday...i think i did pretty well...considering she gave us the outline at like 10pm the night before. Ummm...my computer is being a numby nut because it doesn't want to work as much as it used to cuz it keeps on crashing everytime i load up more than 2 programs, which is starting to piss me off but i'll get over it...cuz its only a computer. How's the social life doing? Well its going good i guess, i sometimes don't like the amount of bullshit that goes on around here, none of it is about me, but there is one person who is a real thorn in my side...but ne who...hopefully that problem gets rid of itself. Well im off for now...cuz i've got nothing else to really talk about so i hope everyone out there has a wonderful day today and don't have too much sex...:P. Bye. John P.S. I Love You Natusha 1 comment|post comment

Hangin with my babe [04 Feb 2003|10:01pm] [ mood | horny ] [ music | Live - Dolphins Cry ] I love it when my baby girl natusha is here at the house with me...live just seems very complete and nothing in the world can go wrong...ahh...its such a wonderful feeling. I can't wait til the day i propose to her, i can't wait to see her face light up when i bend down on one knee and pop the question...but that day will come in due time, i don't want to rush things, but i know that everything between us will work out great. Ummm...i also can't wait this friday, because we get our own hotel room, thx to her mom...but the only downside is that my brother is going and that means, NO FUCKIN FOR ME!!! Thats alright i can go without one night...well maybe we can get my brother to leave for about an hour or two...or natusha and i will have to sneak off somewhere...hehe...god people must think we fuck like rabbits...thats alright...i think the same to...hehe. Ummm...what else is new in my life...oh ya...yesterday as natusha stated we've spent 4 wonderful months together...making this my longest and best relationship with any girl i've dated in person. Oh ya...i can't wait til valentines day...b/c that will be my first valentines day with someone...i still have some plannin out to do...but whatever the outcome...i know she'll love whatever i do. Well...im fuckin hungry so i'm gonna head downstairs before my stomach eats me alive...talk to you later...Bye John P.S. Luv Ya babe 5 comments|post comment

hey hey hey [04 Feb 2003|09:01pm] [ mood | mischievous ] [ music | " The First Night" - Monica ] Hey Kids, Its Natusha, John gurlie gurl or in other words his WOMAN! haha. Anyways yesterday was our four month anniversary and things are still kicking and let me tell you, the honeymoon hasn't ended! haha.. right John Fate? Right... anyways.. we have been super duper busy with school and just hanging out and etc. and next friday is Valentines Day and I can't wait to spend it with my baby. I have two huge test tomorrow and i hope I do good on them, other than that my tum tum tummy is hurting... :( I am sooooo excited for this Friday though, because me and John are going to Bangor for Stephanie's ( my sister) cheerleading State competition and me and John have a hotel room to ourselves, well I think we do at least unless his lil bro comes... oh well N to the A to the T to the U to the S to the H to the A is off like a used condom! bye bye chicky babies! Rock on my lil rock stars! post comment

Just chillin...finished movin the room around [29 Jan 2003|11:21pm] [ mood | loved ] [ music | Phil Collins - Do You Remember ] Ya well its been awhile since i've updated but i've good enough reason to...but im just to lazy to tell you...hehe. What's new in my world! Ummm last night natusha and i came up with an idea on how to move my room around and today we started and finished it...it took about 4 hours, but were done...well in my room atleast...i still have crap out in the other part of the room. THE ROOM LOOKS FUCKIN AWESOME!!! i just love it...and what's even better about it...is that natusha and i work on it together...i just love that girl down right to death...i think that she is the girl for me(what am i talkin about, i know she is). I can't imagine my life without her by my side. The other day my car didn't start because the starter moved to a place it shouldn't have and so now im gonna ask if my uncle can fix it. Natusha's noted in her diary that she's been moody and quite upset about problems that she's been having...and i just wish that i could help her and get her out her stage of depression, but i just don't know what to say because i have never been in that type of situation...but natusha if your reading this...if there is anything that ever need from me...just ask me and i will do it...no matter what the consueqences are. Just remember sunshine that i love you and i'll somehow remove your rain cloud forever. MWAH!! see you tonight sweetie. Well i've got nothing else to say...so im just gonna head to bed because im fuckin tired as four mutha fuckas. so BYE!!! John P.S. I Love You Natusha, if you need help...just ask, i'll do whatever i can. Good night babe. post comment

Just Chillin.... [24 Jan 2003|09:10am] [ mood | complacent ] [ music | Genesis - Physical Touch ] Whats up now in my life...not much as you could have guessed, just waiting for my classes to start and then hopefully start my english paper, which is a "how-to" paper and i think i'll write about "how to play a video game all weekend long"...sounds corny, thats just b/c im corny. I got my schedule for next week and i have to work 4-8:30 on super bowl sunday...what kind of BULLSHIT is that...thats alright tho...i'll just record it so i dont' miss those funny ass commericals. But while im at work Natusha will be sittin at my house watchin the game rootin for the Raiders...i think they will win also, it should be a good game, but then again there's always the commericals. Classes are going alright for me, its just an aweful lot of reading, thats what i get for being a Psych major. Oh ya speakin of school stuff, i got a letter in the mail the other day saying i was on the Thomas College Dean's List isn't that fuckin great...and i didn't even try that hard...hopefully i can keep up the good work. Even though Natusha's in class and i dropped her off at her class im still missing her loving smile. I really hope that we do end up spending the rest of our lifes together, i have never been this loved in a relationship and...also for the record this is my longest relationship in person, considering the longest one before was over the internet and that was for 8 months, but i know that i will definetnly beat while im with Natusha. OOOOO...now im gettin all giddy in the face...well im gonna go for now...i'll see you on the flip side(yes i just did say). Bye John P.S. Natusha, your my one and only luv ya babe. MWAH!!!! 1 comment|post comment

Where have you been? [20 Jan 2003|11:30am] [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | I'm bored...and hungry ] Well to be honest with you...right here...im just too lazy to update my journal. Here is some update in my life. Well remember the alchol incident i had here at the college...well i didn't get the 200 dollar fine because they said i had shown "responability for my actions" which is funny...but i'll manage...but ya that is great...no fine for me. Ummm...another string of good news...do you remember my speeding ticket and if i were not to have my phone trial..i would have lost it for 60 days since i haven't had my license for 2 years...GOD DAMN MAINE AND THERE TWO YEAR PROBATION SHIT!!!...well ne who, the lady on the phone said she wouldn't suspend my license because me workin and payin for my college was more important than losing my license. And finally my good luck string has been going strong since October 3rd which is the day i asked natusha out...great day... i love her so much...i can't imagine my life without her as my g/f, we're just so great together. Well right now im missin her now because she's in class and im not because the teacher canceled class today...FUCKIN GREAT!! WEll i don't know what else is up in my life...just chillin like usual b/c i've got noting else to report so im gonna leave ya be and head out...im fuckin hungry. Bye John P.S. I Love You Natusha! hope you have a great day post comment

YEAH!!! my computer isn't crashin every five seconds....well not yet atleast [08 Jan 2003|05:45pm] [ mood | lazy ] [ music | Rod Stewart - Maggie Mae ] Well if you've been wonderin why i haven't updated in like forever it's because my computer while runnin in XP decided to crash every 5 seconds due to some off the wall reason...so i'm fed up with fomratin my harddrive everyday so im gonna run Windows 98 on until i can fix the XP problem. UMmmmm...classes start back up on tuesday and thats the same day i have my phone trial, kinda fucked up but thats alright tho, hopefully i won't get my license taking away for 60 damn days...stupid ass probabtion law, ne who, all i have to do is give them a reason as to why my license shouldn't be takin away and i've already got a few and hopefully they work in my favor. Its been about a week since i've seen my lil' ray of sunshine and im gettin lonely without her by my side, thats alright tho...i've only got to wait until sunday and then i can go see her YEAH!!! i can't wait so i can give her a HUGE HUG!!! What else is going on in my life...ummm...oh ya...since i have no life and like to play games all day i am almost done with Mortal Kombat: Deadly Alliance, all i got to do is beat the game with a few more characters and i'll be done. Oh ya the other day i got food poisonin from my favorite fast food place BK...only b/c of a dumbass mistake i made on my part...heres the scoop...i get a #2 king size...thats a double whopper (with a lot of mayonesie) value meal...i eat the fries on the way home and put the burger in the MICROWAVE..theres my mistake....4 hours later...i eat the thing for supper before i go to work...feel alright...3 hours later...start feelin like shit and wish i didn't eat that burger...so i had to leave work cuz i probably would have hurled all over some person's food...thank goodness i had a nice shiftleader there night. But the next day i woke up at like noonish and kinda felt like shit still, but as of now im feelin MUCH better. So lesson learned lil' dudes and dudettes...don't leave mayonise out in the open for 4 hours and then eat it or you'll eat up regrettin it. Okay well i think i have rambled on enough...i'll try to update more often (sound fimilar?) Bye John P.S. i LoVe YoU nAtUsHa!....i'll cya sunday...MWAH!!! LOTS OF LUV FOR YA BABE 1 comment|post comment

4 days of light during the cold weather [03 Jan 2003|09:59pm] [ mood | loved ] [ music | Utada Hikaru - Simple and Clean ] Well right now im talkin to my babycakes Natusha, of who i miss like crazy and love and dearly, even tho she left today it feels like i haven't seen her for years on end. I can't wait til school starts back up so i can see her for long then 4 days straight. Well after a week of playin Kingdom Hearts i beat the game on wednesday, and i can't wait for the sequel, my next game is to complete as much of Mortal Kombat before i get sick of it. I get my muffler and tailpipe fixed hopefully on monday, so now my car won't be loud as fuck no more. HAPPY NEW YEARS!!! even tho im late again, hehe, thats alright...i hope everyone had a good new years eve...i know i did...played a game of truth or dare, minus the dare part...i was just so tipsy and didn't give a fuck as to what i said and just wanted someone to ask me personal questions...i said a few personally things...but thats alright, i still would have said it i was sober, hehe, i also got to ask her questions and got some nice answers. Okay well im gonna head out so i can talk to my girl...good night all, Bye John Fate P.S. HAPPY THREE MONTHS NATUSHA!!! I LOVE YOU SWEETIE ~~~MWAH~~~ 3 comments|post comment

I can't wait til tomorrow [30 Dec 2002|09:56pm] [ mood | crazy ] [ music | Tamia - So Into You ] Oh my god!...i cant' wait til i get out of work tomorrow...so i can see my hunny bunches of oats Natusha!! I think my plans for tommorroow night are to get drunk...or alittle tipsy...either way...fun is too be had at josh's...great time. Smirnov Ice here i come!!! OH ya...work is gonna be fun tomorrow...here's why...all the alcholics are gonna be out at buy stuff to drink for new years eve. I can't wait til im 21, i probably won't be drinkin much, but it will just be an age, where i can drink legally. Another age i can't wait til is 25, because then my insurance will drop drastically from some strange ass reason. Ummm work was alright...same old same old. What else is going on in my life?.. oh ya im still playin Kingdom hearts for the ps2, great game, if i didn't say it before. Im almost done, give me about a week or so. Well after this game im off the play mortal kombat: deadly alliance. Ummm...what else to say....think...think...think...ummm, well not much to say on my side. Good night, Bye John P.S. Natusha i love you sweetie...good night to you, and i'll be thinkin of you in my dreams. 1 comment|post comment

Anxious to see my ray of light... [28 Dec 2002|12:56am] [ mood | anxious ] [ music | Ja Rule - Mesmerize ] WEll its saturday and that means later on today i have to work...that sux b/c i've been cuddled in my bed playin games, Kingdom Hearts and Mortal Kombat: Deadly Alliance, i love both of those games, there my life as of now, when i beat those games, i'l have to move on to better things, hell i haven't played games in like forever, especially RPGS, im lovin this peace time to myself. However as of now im stuck in Kingdom Hearts and im too tired to think of a way to get unstuck and im friggin hungry to boot, but i'l wait til' i wake up to eat again. WEll natusha and I have made plans to see each other on new years night and the spend the following day together all by ourselves, YEAH!!! i cant' wait, it hasn't been a full week and im cravin for her beautiful self to be around me yet again. I Love You Natusha, i hope you have a wonderful, work-free weekend, i'll be thinkin of you at work like usual. Okay lets see, oh ya, i forgot to wish everyone a merry x-mas, well here i go, i hope everyone had a wonderful x-mas, i know i did, expecially the night before x-mas. Because i got to see my wonderful ray of light, NATUSHA!!! we exchanged gifts and we both loved we got each other for x-mas, i can't believe she got me the Linkin Park DVD, i was gonna pick that up soon, god its like she can read my next move or something, or maybe im just to die hard of a linkin park fan to be without one and she just wanted to pick me up a copy. Ne who, i hope that last sentence made some sense. Well on x-mas day i got Kingdom Hearts, Grand Theft Auto: Vice City, Mortal Kombat: Deadly Alliance, Socom: Navy Seal for the PS2 and Robotech: Battle Cry for the X-box, that game is alright, but nothing beats the PS2 in my eyes. Ummm i got some clothes which was needed. Ummm...a printer like natusha, someother stuff that i can't remember, but all in all good x-mas. Oh ya for my stockings im lookin at them in the morning and my mom dared to put fuckin condoms in my stockin!!! what the hell, stockins are for candy not CONDOMS!!!! Well i just thought it was funny b/c i just looked at it wonderin if they were candy, but they weren't so i just laughed at them. Okay well i think i've done enough rambelin for one journal entry, im off to take my tired ass to bed where i can get some rest so i can get some good game playin time before i have to go to work. Talk to later, Bye John P.S. I Hearts You Natusha, sweet dreams and i'll be dreamin of you babe. MWAH~~~MWAH~~~MWAH~~~MWAH~~~ 1 comment|post comment

Tribute to Natusha Lynn...my baby and lover...by John Fate [21 Dec 2002|11:07pm] [ mood | productive ] [ music | Jounrey - Open Arms ] I would just to dedicate this journal entry to my girlfriend of whom i adore and will cherish for the rest of my life. Here we go... When we first met, i declined your offer of cake, but no longer will I refuse anything you offer, because you have given me sunlight which will never turn to shade. As i think on the past i remember one day when i compliemented your walk and said it intrigued me. You sat there and blushed because it seemed like the first time a guy ever complimented you out in public. Well, i'll be there to give you whatever you need, just ask for it and it is yours. It is the least i can do, since you stole my heart and given it the tender care everyone who has feelings deserves. Just to let you know, your walk still to this day intrigues me and makes me feel lucky that i could ever have a girl like you. What is it about your walk that's so intriguing, well bluntly, its the cutenss of your walk and the way it just moves. It's those little things that make me fall in love with you everyday i see you, waking up with you by my side is like a double dose of heavenly light on my life: * Your lips when you pout or are just simply sitting around is a picture perfect moment that i could stare at forever and never get tired of. Too bad i can't bottle your lips up and hold them close to me, but i don't need to do that, because I know you'll be by my side forever. * Your touch is the softest i've ever felt and gives me reason to live on this planet, to feel your touch and love again. When we hold hands, it makes me feel like your my guardian angel guiding me through live. * Your eyes, are as Robert Palmer stated "simply irrestiable". I'll never shy away from your look, and if i do it's because its rather hard to look at an angel. I always feel as if im being watched by an angel who will help me whenever im in need. Its to you i will turn if i trouble lurks near me. No matter what anyone else says, I will love you for who you are, not for what you aren't, or what people say you should be. Stay true to yourself and i'll be truely in love with you forever. You have given meaning to my life, just when i thought life had nothing else to offer me. But there you were, sitting by my side minding your business. Thank you Natusha for being my girlfriend, thank you for being there when i needed you, and thank you for just being You. I will end with a qoute, since i have nothing wise to say as of now. "I loved you yesterday, I love you today, I shall love you tomorrow, and I will love you long after the last grain of sand has fallen through the hourglass of life." ~~ Neville Spadafore 2 comments|post comment

Whatever floats your boat [20 Dec 2002|08:07pm] [ mood | complacent ] [ music | P. Diddy - Trade It All ] OK this journal entry will be about whatever floats your boat...and thats about it... Hehe...well actually no i will update more than just that. Well my first sememster of college is over and done with and it went GREAT!!! First of all i met one of the greatest people in the whole wide world, and i hope that nothing ever comes between us. Which i don't think will happen because we both get along great and are each others bestest friends, we both have a level headed appoarch on life, and just love each other to death. I love Natusha down right to death...she's just so friggin cute! Umm...i can't wait to see Natusha on tuesday night...because we both get to open each others gifts after about a month of waiting. WEll my computer fucked up again, so i had to reformat the damn thing, thats alright tho, it needed to be cleaned ne who. OMG i missin my girl like crazy, it was hard as hell sleepin without her in my bed, and to thing i have to go a month like this...AHHHHH!!! Okay im gonna go and download some more music and shit so i can fill my harddrive up again with junk. Good night to all...bye John I love you sweetie...MWAH!!! 2 comments|post comment

Life is great with Natusha, Work is boring without her. [15 Dec 2002|05:07pm] [ mood | drained ] [ music | Lynard Skyard - Free Bird ] Well its been about a week or so since i've last updated this damn thing, i've been puttin it off long enough. Okay this week is the last week before our college vacation, YEAH!! whole month to myself, but what sux about it, is that i won't be able to see my little ray of sunshine for awhile, but she's gonna drive up on x-mas eve and we'll open gifts that night and she'll go back later that night. Finals are this week....OH NOOOOO!! and i haven't studied a wink...barely gotta ne sleep for the past week, on the part of some nights of BSE. I Love Natusha to death and i hope that we never seperate, i just can't imagine anyone else better than her. What else is going on in my life, ummm, not much...except that we're puttin up the x-mas tree and my fuckin feet are sore as fuck cuz i just got out of work. Well i'll updated sometime sooner. Bye John P.S. i love you sweetie *MWAH!* 1 comment|post comment

Dear Natusha Lynn, [09 Dec 2002|12:19am] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | all the frustration in my head ] I am extrememly sorry for what I have said today, and i seriously hope that this NEVER ever happens again, I have never ever felt like the whole world is against me or that no matter what i say nothing will be achieved. I am sorry for saying that "you talk with your fists." I fully understand with you have said to me, i just feel now that i should go and talk with Winston, just because that will make me feel better, i will no longer argue with him about pity shit, i hate arguing with people because no one leaves a better person, and as much as i've argued with everyone tonight, i understand that you might find that hard to believe. I don't know what else to say about this situation except for that I wish that everything that happened tonight never did and that i everything was the way it was before i decided to go on with something stupid. However, Natusha no matter what has happened tonight, that hasn't affected how i feel about you, i still love you with all my heart and i never want to argue with you ever again. :< John Good night all... 1 comment|post comment

X-mas shopping is Grrrrreat!!! [30 Nov 2002|07:47pm] [ mood | peaceful ] [ music | Oleander - Are You There? ] I love spendin money...especially for people that mean a lot to me...i told natusha that i got her gifts today and she was like..."what did you get?"...all i have to say is...baby your gonna have to wait til you open them. I went shoppin for like 3 1/2 hours, thats crazy...i wish i had more money to spend...and i hope that she likes the gifts that i got her. I can't wait to open her gifts that she got me to...grrr...i wish christmas would hurry the hell up. Well when i got home and was about finished wrapping gifts i get a call from Josh saying that Molly had gotten her car stuck in a snow bank. Here is the story...ok...molly and her friends are doing donuts in the Thomas college parkin lot for awhile when all of a suddne WHAMMM!!! out of nowhere comes a friggin snowbank...she puts on her breaks and slides right into the snow pile...so for two hours there out there trying to loosen the car up...then they somehow call up josh, who then calls me up while im wrappin natusha's gifts, so i stop what doing and head to the college to help them out, my first way of helpin them was to pull her out with jumper cables (hey we had no chains or anything like that) so after like 2 or 3 tries SNAP!! i go foward she stays still...so much for that idea...now i all are some broken jumper cables. Fuckin plowed snow is hard as hell, oh yeah...when josh called me, he said that there was something leakin from the car, and i said it was there anti-freeze. WEll long story short...they called up another friend and he started diggin away at the snow and we managed to free the car. YEAHH!!!! Well it has been a long night...and it is killin me to not say what i got Natusha for X-mas, hurry up x-mas...hehe...well good night all, Bye John P.S. Natusha i love you...and i'll always be there for you, no matter what. 1 comment|post comment

Turkey Day [28 Nov 2002|11:21pm] [ mood | calm ] [ music | Linkin Park - High Voltage (Remix) ] Well my day went pretty well, i got to talk with Natusha for about an 45 minutes...i miss her a lot and i can't wait to see her on sunday. Today, for our meal we had the typical stuff, BUT WE HAD NO PECAN PIE!!! I LOVE PECAN PIE! Umm...not much to say other than i got my "copy" of Battle Realms to work on my computer, i just had to do some of my "magic" on the file...Umm...oh ya one more week left before Dragon Ball Z Boudaki comes out for the PS2...YEAH!!!...i can't wait to play as my favorite DBZ characters in 3-D, its gonna be friggin SWWWAAEEET!!! Pretty quite night over here...everyone feel asleep at like 7ish, im hungry...actually i want some more sweets to satisfy my sweet tooth...wow...not much to add here...well i'll just end it here cuz im fresh out of ideas to talk to about...good night all...bye John I love you Natusha...you are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy when skies are gray plz don't take my sunshine away.. post comment

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