[	mood	|	contemplative	]
[	music	|	Lords of the Underground - Chief Rocka	]

dont forget to add my other journal ok?

reekoh

[	mood	|	cranky	]
[	music	|	Reekoh - Ritmo Casa.mp3	]

i'm having some problems with this one now that whitney has had access to this so I'm switching over to my other journal

if you would like to stay in the loops add me ;)

reekoh

just updated in there

[	mood	|	depressed	]
[	music	|	Andy C - Accelerated Culture @ Air	]

I'm gonna switch over to using my other livejournal now:

reekoh

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ADD ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[	mood	|	contemplative	]
[	music	|	Richard Humpty Vission - Big Floor Funk (Full Mix)	]

zEviLKat: Haha
Reekoh: so you think i should get rid of all 4?
zEviLKat: Yup
zEviLKat: All DRAMA
Reekoh: im shocked at the attention ya know?
zEviLKat: Get used to it
Reekoh: i get ignored and then all of a sudden I'm unignored
zEviLKat: You're bomb.com
Reekoh: HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH

[	mood	|	indescribable	]
[	music	|	The O.C. Season 1 Episode 24 [BT]	]

'Why does The O.C. rock so fucking hardcore?!?!?!?!?!?!

everytime i watch that show im mesmerized!!! I've seen every episode back to front at least 4 times now, including last night's newly downloaded episode.

Anyways, today, Luke left the show :( he was badass, but shoot, he slept with his ex girlfriend marissa's MOM, and then they got caught and now Marissa ran away and got back with Ryan. THEN AFTER they got caught they got caught with each other yet again, so marissa goes livid. then Caleb (the richest, oldest, most powerful man in Orange County), proposes to marissa's mom and she has the nerve to say yes, just as luke shows up to the restaurant to say goodbye to both marissa AND julie cooper (marissa's mom). So he goes in to a drunken binge and wraps his truck around a pole, and in the hospital he decides he's better off away from Marissa and Julie Cooper. So there goes Luke. It sad cuz Anna left the show a month ago, too, and she was my favorite girl on the show. Long story, but im hopelessly (and embarassingly) addicted to this retarded soap opera, its just so well done hahaha. somethign changes every time. All this happened in today's episode, imagine 24 episodes of this stuff?!?!??!?!!?!??!

Ok so what if im a loser?

Best.Show.Ever.

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GUESS WHO IS IN CHARGE OF THE SIDE ROOM AT ORGANIK 3 ?!?!?!/??

This is the start of something huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuge!!!!!!!!!!1

[	mood	|	chipper	]
[	music	|	The Cardigans - First Band on the Moon - 01 - Your New Cuckoo	]

I Want this so badly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Comes out June 7th!!!!!!!!



lol I found both of my Cardigans albums, i love these :) :) :) I'm so excited tomorrow is my big day!!!!!!!! big money, good job, here I come!!!

Damn, I really want that special edition Gameboy. I have a GBA but not a GBA SP!!!!

[	mood	|	creative	]
[	music	|	DJ Girlie - Welcome To My House	]

me and djapplejuice are sooooooooooooooo wasted we are talking to whitney, shayna, and melissa on the phone. those 3 girls have kept us entertained for hours HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

[	mood	|	anxious	]
[	music	|	Puff Daddy - Come With Me	]

really fucking bad. today is just one of those days. I woke up to a call from Whitney, which seems to eb the only bright spot in my day. My heart weighs about 500 pounds and I nearly called maren to see what she wanted. I'm glad I havent. Had to catch myself, cuz I instinctively just started dialing. That totally led to this emotionally internal rant that's still going on as I type. I felt "weak" for a second for nearly giving in. I refuse to do it. Not only am I smarter than that, but I'm past that. I'm above and beyond that. Slap me if I ever call her. all 51 of you on my friends list. 51 slaps for that.

my sentence structre seems to go down the pisshole when im emotional lol.

I'm gonna go to the park a few blocks away and shoot the ball around. I need something to distract me. My heart burns at the moment from the flooding memories of everything that has happened over the last 19 months.

[:::Edit:::] after 5 hours of hard basketball with people twice my size, i feel much much much much better. I just need to keep pushign at letting shit go. I'm smarter and better than that.

[	mood	|	contemplative	]
[	music	|	Wildchild - Hands Up	]

my thoughts go out to tanukisuit . Her mother died............

:(

[	mood	|	drunk	]
[	music	|	Wildchild - The Movement, Pt. 2	]

me and djapplejuice are major wasted. since i moved in ive partied more frequently and shit then i ever have. hahah i fucking LOVE IT

So i talked to whitney today. we talked on the phone for about 2 hours (i think) about "us" and what it is we were both expecting from each other so that there were no misunderstandings like when me and cassie half-dated. See, she knows I am diggin her and i dont often go out on a limb to go for girls. I told her that I was kinda breaking the mold being a little more aggressive in seeing her, and i finally got her opinion on things. She thinks they are going ok, and that she'd like to take her time with this and see what becomes of it. Thats fuckin dope dude. I'm major drunk tonite and even in drunk mode im having full appreciation for everything she had to say tonite. She's a total sweetheart and i like the fact that she admitted to me having "an effect" on her, and that I make her blush alot with my compliments. serious, though, she's asweetheart, how can I not let her know that she is? She trooped out an entire shwo last night while i played, even though she was so exhausted that I could see the red lines in her eyes. how much fuckin niceness can a dude expect to be shown? I'm still flattered that she came out, so i tried to make her night as painless as possible for her level of exhaustion.

Being drunk and typing right now is major tough. I'm drunk often i noticed.

anyways, yeah it's still really hard not to get my hopes up, especially after a conversation liek that, which kinda assured me that we were on the same page on shit. It makes me really relax and realize there's no rush to this shit, ya know? She's a sweetheart and like I told her, if she needs me for anything, I'm gonan be there to help her. She asked me to be patient with her through some of her sorting-out-of-shit. , but while she DID say that I DID Tell her that "I dunno if i can wait forever, but I can be as patient as I CAN be for you." ya know? I dont wanna make myself too available but I do want to help her sort through soem of her emotional stresses. It's just the geno in me that wants to help, is all. She's been totallys weet to me and i want to at least return the favor a little bit.

ok im getting more drunk and its becomign in reasingly tough to type so talk to yall later!!!!!!!!!!!!!


PS I got a job at the State capitol !!!!!!!!! for the department of corrections!!!!!!!!! it pays over $2,000 a month!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i cried when i found out i was hired. its the best thing to ever happen to me. To Malachi: *MUAH* to Whitney *MUAH*

[	mood	|	bouncy	]
[	music	|	Twista - overnight celebrity	]

Whitney is coming over. I'm nervous. Very nervous.

Mikey Rocks, Malachi Rocks, Whitney Rocks, Lindsay rocks (I still bid on you homie), Amber Yamura rocks, all the girls at my work that have been makign my ego big rock, Jeffro fuckin rocks, allykett rocks, martianmermaid rocks, katie rubin rocks, amandi rocks, kristina rocks, lucas ROCKS!, dave rocks, erik davis fuckin raocks HARDCORE, victor rocks, Ill Eaze one Rocks, nick tornetta fuckin pimps, and everybody else that is cool with me fuckin rocks.

Im in a good mood, life is good

all yall mutha fuckas have made me the most supported puerto rican ever.

without yall there's no reekoh............................

[	mood	|	amused	]
[	music	|	9th Wonder & Pete Rock - track 02	]

djapplejuice is looking for a girl. The dude is an awesome DJ, good friend, funny as hell, smart as hell (smarter than me), and wants a dope-ass music compatible chick to really chill with. He's 19 and he's my buddy, so girls, answer the call and msg my homeboy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hahaha btw Whitney is headed over haha

[	mood	|	awake	]
[	music	|	Future Primitive Sound - Tino Corp. - Tino's Beat (Faust & Shortee Remix)	]

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[	mood	|	contemplative	]
[	music	|	Twisted Individual - History of Drum and Bass CD4	]

The party this weekend was beyond great. I didnt expect to have so much fun at a GroundZero massive considering all the bullshit I had heard from this crew in the past. After talking to Jerri, I get the impression that I'll be asked to join forces with them soon. I'm not too sure if that would be wise for me, though. I'm already stretched a bit thin with all 6 of the crews I play for now. No tthat I don't love it, I just feel that my heart isn't fully in it sometimes.

Anyways, I saw many ex girlfriends and ex flings at this party, so we'll start w/ Megan. Total cutie. Horrible girlfriend. She was so seriously high-maintenance a long time back that I just gave up on her. She tried to get with me a few weeks ago, sayign she was gonna tone it down, but I ended up turning her away, only come to find out at the party that was seeing somebody else the whole time. Cassie was there, though she's not an ex, seeing her kinda made me shudder at first. Not cuz she's ugly, but because I was fighting drunkeness and my initial instinct was to be like "!$%^@&*#$%&^" but instead I did my best to be as humanely nice to her as possible. Shawna was there, it was her first party, and when i saw her I was actually pretty annoyed. See, we dated a few years back too and she was a total tease and then started seeing somebody else while I was still seeing her. It happened alot to me. Its cuz I used to be such a fucking pushover.

There were some great moments, like when I had to rescue Marissa from her drunk boyfriend and when I hung out with Mandi. Despite the fact that me and Mandi got followed whenever we switched rooms. Still, seeing her smile and checkin' out the pictures the next day defenitely brought a smile to my face that I kinda been keeping on ever since. As much as I like her, in my mind she's still tied to Jeff somehow. Plus, I'm Geno, I usually get ignored by the opposite sex anyhow. Still, this one was just too dope.........



She's just too hot. That girl looks about 300 times better than any girl I know. Too bad my clumsy ass looks ruined that one haha.

Anyways, I just been focusing on myself the last week or so. Trying not to let things get the best of me and that alone has taken lots of effort. But thankfully I'm here with Mike and I can just focus on the things I need to focus on. Being here eases that for me. I actually LIKE coming home and hanging out, that's a first for me in many years. I used to have to come home to the troubles of Maren, or my family. IT was like I never got a break, which is what led to em being so drastically stressed otu the last year. I just flat-out havent had a REASON to smile, ya know? Well, things are again changing, but instead of freaking out about shit, I've turned on overdrive and just pushed past the shit. I could have had a horrible night at HM3 with Cassie and Megan there, but I didnt let it bother me. My grandma passed away the other day and instead of going nuts and mourning, I'm celebrating what she accomplished. Maren came back and left yet again but instead of crying about it, I'm completely forcing myself to push beyond her and make shit happen for myself. I CANT keep being stuck on emotional trauma inside my own head. I AM THE ONE HOLDING MYSELF BACK. I have been the one holding myself back. Well, Ive been saying that my outlook on things has been changing, and it sure has. This time when Maren bounced on me a week or two ago after sayign she wanted to try again, I didnt even care. I have been hurt so many times by that situation that I just let it go. I cant keep letting people like her, people like cassie, people like megan, or people like shawna just continue to use me like that. Megan asked to "talk to me" after the party and I straight up told her if you ever see me again, please just dont talk to me, it'll be better that way. One-by-One suckas are gettin cut off. Not only girls but EVERYBODY WHO HAS ERRED ME IN SOME FASHION. It ends and I'm in control of this.

friends list cut down, been posting in friends only...........

My subconcious is a place where reality is but a visitor. My struggles are voiced within this journal. This is a diary of the suffering and the pain that is inflicted on me, by my own heart, and by the malicious intents of others that would use me, so that one day it can be looked upon as a reference that I survived all the wicked ambitions of those that would wish me harm.