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this blood flow [22 Mar 2002|02:34am] do you understand the emotions that is running through my veins.. i don't think that anyone could but me... i screamed my voice out... and i have none now... i would go into full detail cause this is something only my few loved ones can know... cause this show is something i am keeping... keeping in my heart... cause it was beautiful!!! ok sorry no details not like anyone reads them all anyways.. but im dead... so im going to sleep i have to wake up early tomorrow... hehe ok love ya kiddies post comment

okkkkkkkkiiiie [21 Mar 2002|02:41pm] im about to faint.... i have like hmmmmm 4 hours till i get to see they most amazing band in the world... ok well one of them... i have to many favorite bands..... yea i about to pee my pants... gosh thursday thursday thursday.... how much do i love them... its been a while.... i can remember right before the full collapse came out.... no one knew them and i would talk about them as if people would know there music.... and no one did... that seems soo long ago... hehe ok well i got my pictures back and man oh man does art look funny with chris... hahahh good stuff... ok i have a headache... i need to shower hehehe... ok love you all hehe... 2 comments|post comment

[21 Mar 2002|12:41am] im soooo sleepy... ok so thrusday tomorrow!!! yey im soo excited... i can't wait!!! hehe so if i come home all happy you know why! Dawn 1 comment|post comment

[20 Mar 2002|03:44am] now im not... i think post comment

yep [20 Mar 2002|03:43am] im still up post comment

[20 Mar 2002|03:07am] is the passion all gone? or is it still newly wed? if all this heat is doing is making us stick to the bed then there is no life to revive. but if the hunger is still there, hidden somewhere inside covered up by the boredom we’ve been trying to hide then dig it up and devour and it will be more like a song and less like its math if you pull on my hair, and bite me like that and the truth is that i can’t hardly wait and i don’t care if we stay up too late don’t answer the phone don’t answer the phone and it will be more like a song and less like its math if you pull on my hair and bite me like that and the truth is that i can’t hardly wait it itches so bad that i can’t concentrate don’t answer the phone don’t answer the phone and it will be more like a song and less like its math if you pull on hair and bite me like that. i love this song!!!! 2 comments|post comment

[20 Mar 2002|03:02am] "i give myself three days to feel better or i swear i am driving off a fucking cliff because if i can’t make myself feel better then how can i expect anyone else to give a shit" 2 comments|post comment

hey hey hey [19 Mar 2002|12:20am] gosh i had a good day today... hehe yep thats right i said GOOD day... well today i was woken up by bray guy with his call.... he was sick... no good... we talked for a little while..... it was soo nice... we never talk on the phone... so its fun when we do.... then i went to netties... we hung out!!!! we went to cold stones and got some good ass ice cream... and took some pictures with it.... then we went to finger prints and looked around and stuff... then we went to costco.. we developed some flim... but we had an hour to kill so we went around and looked at all the cool ish they had.... we decided that we are buying everything for our house at costco.... hehe we are going to have the best place ever!!! ehehe then i went to work... umm that wasnt good but oh well... hehe ok that was my day... fun huh? no ok hehe Dawn 1 comment|post comment

hmm [18 Mar 2002|12:17am] i don't understand bad moods... i don't understand being mean... what i do understand is that i need sleep.... hehe like now!! post comment

[15 Mar 2002|03:33am] some one want to help me look for a job... ?? 2 comments|post comment

[15 Mar 2002|01:52am] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | my tears ] i don't think i have cried the way i have cried tonight in a long time... the last person who made me feel this much like shit was my ex and i hate him... why on this earth does my mom hate me sooo much... i honestly don't get it... i mean shit i don't think im that bad of a person... i know im not perfect... i mean i know that some things she says are right... but fuck not all of them... she makes me out to a stupid ass loser kid who is ruining her life.... holy moly.... i guess i can't ever be totally happy... i thought i would be but not anymore... so i have to move out... like i have money for that... but i am going to.. i will i swear i will... sooo i wish tonight never even happened... i want it all to end... all of her shit she talks and all of her mean looks.. and all of that crap needs to leave... or maybe i should.. one day just get the hell out... and not tell her where i am going and not come back... i don't think she would really mind that... ehh whatever... im going to let her hate me for being who i am... and doing what i like... sorry not doing drugs or drinking or sleeping around is a bad thing now days... i always thought that parents wanted there kids to act that way... guess im wrong... i guess i am not good enough to be a good kiddie... what ever... fuck it... i don't care what she thinks of me.... ok thats a lie... i do care... or i wouldn't be talking about this all.... soo yea oh well... my eyes are sooo red and dry from crying all night... i hate to cry.... i hate it soo much.... i like being happy... and not having worries but i guess thats not what i deserve... soo i cry... im sleepy... all the emotion is catching up with me... so i think i should go to bed now.. plus i don't want my mom to come and kick my butt for being up past good kids hours... ehhh sorry these post must be depressing... thanks to all who read them! it means alot Dawn 3 comments|post comment

[14 Mar 2002|01:12am] im sleepy.... and i dont know what to say... but that my mom and i are still not on good terms.. oh well like we will ever be.... soo i need all my real friends to support me cause i think that it will only get worse... soo real friends help! Dawn 6 comments|post comment

[13 Mar 2002|02:57am] ok so she is what she says i am... and i hate her right now... hate is a strong word and yes i would use it right now.... sooo i hate her right now... her and her witty comments about how much i suck... fuck it and fuck her.... fuck her... dam that feels good to say... 1 comment|post comment

[12 Mar 2002|12:02pm] [ mood | depressed ] ok now my mom is telling me she is going to call the people who call me the most on my cell and tell them not to call me ever again on my cell phone... ummm that makes me sooo mad.... its not the people who call me fault.... its not like they know.... its not there fault... its mine.... and i feel bad cause now my meanie of a mother is going to call two people who mean sooo much to me... and make them feel bad... wtf is wrong with her... she can be such a bitch..... it sucks that she is bringing our problems on to other people who have nothing to do with it..... fuck.... she makes me sooo mad.... and sad..... she hurts my feelings... like i know that its alot of money... but i will pay for it.... it might take me a month to get the money but i will pay her back and everything.... so its not like i am expecting her to pay and i not pay her back... and its not like im fucking doing something horrible... im sorry to those whom my mother may have called.... i told her not to i even yelled.. and i never do that.... please understand that you didn't do anything wrong..... my mother is just weird and takes things way out of hand Dawn 3 comments|post comment

fuccc [12 Mar 2002|11:43am] shit shit shit..... shhhhhhhhhiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiitttttttttttttttttttttttt i hate this right now.... post comment

dam [12 Mar 2002|08:18am] its soo early right now... and i just got woke up by my mom yelling at me... my cell phone bill is very high... and she is sooo pist off... i mean very very angery.. im scared cause if this bill is high then next month is going to be even worse.... sooo yea i don't think i will be haveing a cell phone in a little while... sooo i won't be talking to alot of people cause i never use my house phone {{maybe if i did then i wouldn't be having this problem}} eehhh another morning where i wake up crying..... so that means i will have to miss out on some shows i really wanted to go to... like finch and saves the day.... shit saves the day... how can i miss them THEM dam it.... dam it dam it dam it....i need to talk to some one but its sooo dam early no one is up yet.... dam it... 1 comment|post comment

[11 Mar 2002|02:50pm] hehe wow... that one is for my nettie... {{well ok and me}} 1 comment|post comment

[11 Mar 2002|02:36pm] wtf is up with livejournal.. its not letting me see my page.... eff this.. i hate it right now.... show me my dam page... ahhhh post comment

and here i am motionless [11 Mar 2002|01:35pm] this is going to be hard.. i am going to try to tell you all what happened at the past two dashboard shows but i am warning you i will get emotional.... ok so lets start with the chain show--- ok so we {{ we as in me and nettie }} got there sooo soooo sooo early... lets say around 3 ish... it was cool we where the first in line... i liked that... i was sooo excited... ok soo blah blah blah we waited for a while... then i saw him walk up to chain... omg i was like in shock... then he came out and like stood next to me and nettie and said "hey do you think it would be cold tonight?" and we where like "yes it will" and then he said "ok i need to get me a jacket then" hahah it was soo great... ok so the line got really long and we had to move into the smoking section of chain so there wasn't that many kids out side... well we got in finally and we {{ me nettie and kate }} got in the very front.. a little to the left... the legends of rodeo did good i guess... it was soo dam hot in there so they like got all sweaty... the one thing that made me sad is that be kweller didn't play... oh well and so the anniversary came up.. it was good... they played the same set as the other night... hehe after there set the bass player had a set list and asked who wanted it.. and i was like ooohhh me me me.. haha yea i got it... and soo then mr dashboard him self come up..... gosh this set was different then the other one at canes.... but it was still good.... it was shorter i think.. ok soo i was all emotional cause i just get that way... his music just hits me sooo hard... so me and kate where rocking out...the guitarist mike poured water all over us... well me ..that wasn't fun but i was like in a dream... in the front and staring at such a wonderful band... goodness... and there was this time in againg i go unnoticed where chrises guitar sounded band... and he like changed the words from "the television steals the conversation" to "and my guitar sounds like shit" hahaha it was clasic!!! after the set was done i wanted to wait for him and see if he would come out... but he didn't so i went to dennys with nettie hex scott clark mike bray marie and three other people i didn't know.. it was fun... well after that we just went home... ends up chris was in chain and bray got to meet and talk to him...soo i was jealous ok soo now on the the anaheim hob soo we didn't get there early... actually we got there right before it started... for legends we stood on the right side on the steps and some how me and nettie knew all the words to their songs.... and the lead singer looked at us and saw us singing and he smiled and kept staring for a while... haha it was funny he kept looking over cause we where singing.. he probably thinks we like where major fans! hahah its totally sugercult syndrome... well then finally ben kweller came on... omg i love that little kid... he is soo good... everyone seemed into him... hehe it was good... and so after ben me and nettie moved to the back... we sat with scott and clark for a little while then me and kate deanne and keiko went into the crowd we started in the back and some how got in the middle... and then when dash came on then we all pushed up to the very front... well almost front.. we where behind one person.. omg i was soo going crazy.. my emotions went all over the place... i was yelling screaming crying.. yes crying... not sobbing but little tears cause of his music... i get like that alot with his stuff.. it was sooo beautiful... and i love how kate knows all of dashboards little changes in his songs.. like on ender he says tenanisous ..... me and kate screamed it like we where in a hard core band... haha goodness.. i almost got a set list.. but some fat gril in over alls took it... oh well... hehe well after we waited out side for a while.... and i thought he wasn't going to come out.. but after everyone had left he did.. omg i thought i was going to cry.. i slowly walked up to him and took out my pick and asked him to sign it.. and asked if i could take one picture with him... he looked soo cute... he was very nice about it... and then art of tbc came up and like asked him for a hug... hahaha and then i told him i would take a picture for him and soo art asked chris if he could take a picture with him and he said yes... and so art put his arm around him.. haha and was like rubbing his shoulder... and chris started to laugh and art did too... omg it was soooo funny... i think i almost died... well after we where done with the whole meeting chris thing we started to walk away and i started to cry and nettie hugged me and it felt soo good to have such a good friend be there for me when i was in that mood of happy sadness of meeting the one who moves you sooooooooo much... and then i noticed that chris and his crew where walking behind us.. i tried to keep it cool... but oh well who cares... ok well i do... so that was the two shows kind not in to much detail but it tells the important stuff... what i didn't like about the shows where the rude comments inbetween the songs and ever during.. he doesn't deserve that... it cheep-ns his music and his talent... ahh i just want to punch them in the face... it makes me sad cause i love that band and i love the music he makes... and for someone to take that and make it less then what it is to me.. it hurts... really bad.... ahhh dam them all... ok well thats all for now.. i hope my picture looks ok with him... hehe ok so its brays birthday today.. soo yea everyone tell him happy birthday.. ok bye kiddies Dawn Nicole Nantes so kiss me hard cause this will be the last time that i let you 1 comment|post comment

[11 Mar 2002|02:04am] xihateMEANGIRLSx (2:02:20 AM): awww xihateMEANGIRLSx (2:02:26 AM): im out doll xihateMEANGIRLSx (2:02:26 AM): nite nite xihateMEANGIRLSx (2:02:29 AM): XOXO l xihateMEANGIRLSx (2:02:30 AM): <3 and Dawn said (2:02:36 AM): ok goodnight Auto response from xihateMEANGIRLSx (2:02:38 AM): dawn rocks how sweet... good friend he is! hehe post comment

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