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Monday, February 11th, 2002

Subject: Whoaaa Nelllllyyy Time: 1:36 pm. Mood: accomplished. Music: "Storm" - Blyss .

Ahh, Well, I haven't written in here for a while. Not a whole hell of a lot has been happening. I was sick for a week with bronchitis. That totally sucked. I haven't been in school since February 1st. Haha. Oh well. I went skiing/snowboarding this past weekend. That rocked. I love being up in Vermont or wherever there is snow. We got up there at like 12am on Friday night, and we started having snowball fights. Then as we were leaving last night, Jerry stole spoons and towels from the condo, and then Adam stole this sculpture thing. I can't believe that, we're a youth group stealing sh*t. I stole wood for the fire from peoples decks... That was quite the site, I fell on my ass like five-hundred times due to the ice. Oh well, it was funny. Hmm. I'm still single, unfortunately. Brian has a new job, I won't be seeing him a lot this summer, which sucks. Who else am I going to screw? lol.. Ahhh. Ryan L. is back in college, I miss that kid. But I never realized HOW horny guys can be, until I met him last year. Boy oh boy....Candice I haven't seen or spoken to since last week, along with Ashley, and the rest of the "crew"... Hmm.. Bryce, well, I won't even start with that shit. He's a jerkface. He loves this girl Michelle. Bleh. I'll just blow him off this whole summer when we're around each other. I'll see him St. Patrick's Day weekend, which, there I'll blow him off also. His friends are cool, so I'll probably talk to them while I'm there. We'll see what happens. People took me of their friends list, I'm quite unhappy about that. I'm sorry if I'm not able to write every single day. Things happen and I can't always write. So BLEH ON YOU.. I need more friends... I need a whole new layout actually. Gimme ideas for layouts. I'll accept anything. Haha. Except disgusting sh*t. My Mom lately hasn't been herself. The other day when I was at the doctors, she started crying because her boyfriend, well, ex-boyfriend broke up with her. He's seriously a scumbag. I hate him. He promised us so much, then hurt us. I think she's eventually getting over it, but hopefully soon. Prom is May 18th, 2002. It's a Saturday. I need to find a date... It's hard to find a date when you're ugly. Bleh. I don't know who the hell I want to ask quite yet, if I don't GET asked by anyone. Which, I don't think I will. Hmm... Oohhh! Kevie had knee surgery on Tuesday. He's okay now though, I think. I haven't spoken to him since Thursday. Friday was his 18th birthday. He's so adorable. I got 6 more months til' my 17th birthday! How weird is that?! lol.. Hmm.. Oh, my road test is this Friday (February 15th) at 3pm. I hope I pass this time. It'll boost up my confidence a bit. If I pass, then I can drive throughout vacation. Woowoo. Smithtown varsity wrestling beat Ward Melville. Suckers. Haha. We have the League 1 Championships at our high school this upcoming weekend. I can't wait to see this shit. I want Smithtown to kick ass, since we lost in football. March starts the varsity baseball season, which I'm manager of that team. I love it. Hehe. Well, Uhm.. I think that's enough. I just added my cousin to my f\ friends list. Haha... Hi Erika!!..mypetrobot... I miss ya... Tell your mom and Frida I said Hello, and send them my love. The family is still wacked out, and we'll contact you guys soon...Ooh.. and special shout out to my sister Anniesweetxpea I miss talking with you. E-mail me or something. And to everyone else out there, I'm sorry for not writing. I'll start to write daily. Thank you. Love Chand Nichole

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Subject: Woohoooooo Time: 2:21 pm. Mood: hyper. Music: Screaming Infidelities - Dashboard Confessional.

whats up all? i haven't been updating a lot lately but it's all good..i've had mid terms and then a english regents. i hate school, but i have tomorrow off.. last night i had youth group, and i asked adam if he would want to go to the dashboard confessional concert with me, so we have a huge group going, and we'll go in during the day just to hang out, since we can take the train in. it's going to be, anthony,adam,bobby,melinda,erin,allison and myself. i can't wait. it's going to be awesome man. and ryan is going!! woohoo. maybe i'll meet him there. but after youth group, we went to friendlys and in adams car we have in the back, myself, allison, owen and kerri on top of us, then we caused trouble there, these guys about 16-18 yrs old were telling us to be quiet so we started to become louder.. then when we were leaving it was myself,kerri and owen and anthony on top of us, and his feet were out my window, then we got to a light and adam kept stopping short and anthony was falling and getting hurt, so then when adam got out of the car to walk allison to the door, anthony who has his permit drove off and adam was running after the car it was so funny, then they started wrestling in the middle of the street.. then we went and we were at a red light and we got out of the car and did a chinese drill, we ran around the car, and got back in people looked at us like we had 4 heads it was man funny. then like a half house later adam drove me home.. its the best time i've had since i did something crazy.. haha.. well i'm outta here.. muaaaaaaaaaaah miss yas

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Subject: Ahhhh Time: 9:03 pm. Mood: naughty. Music: "Cry"- Mandy Moore .

Gawsh, I haven't had time to write lately. I'm sorry peoples!! Well, not a lot has been going on. I have half days this week, except Friday, I don't have school. Yay! I had my US History midterm today. It was mad easy. The tomorrow and Thursday I have my English Regents. I hate Regents but oh well. Help me for colleges I guess. Yea, soo.. updates.. hmm... Oh I failed my road test. Haha. Yea. the lady was a complete bitch though. She said I was speeding when I was doing 25 inthe 30. SOMEONE tell me HOW that is speeding? Whatevers. She didn't like me from the start. My next test is February 15th at 3pm. Hopefully I pass! Hmm.. What else..Nothing too exciting. My prom is on 4-20.. lol.. I need a date..La de dum.. Hmm.. Oooh!! Matt from New Orleans Real World is coming to my Youth group this Saturday! I can't wait. I'll have pictures and a whole journal entry about that Sunday morning I suppose... Hmm.. It's not like anyone reads this so I can write anything. lol. Real World is on tonight. Kyle and Chris are frickin' HOT!!! Too bad Chris is gay though. But he's hot. lol.. I need a boyfriend. I seriously do. I have found myself being alone ALOT.. I don't like it. I need a guy to cuddle up with and kiss. But I'm too ugly to get one. Why are guys so judge mental? They all go for looks. Even if they say they don't, they sooo do. Liars. Why do you guys suck? haha. My friend Chris' has this AWESOME quote in his info on AIM here it is: "Out of all the treasures in the world, there is nothing more precious than giving someone a piece of your heart." How sweet is that? I wish someone would give me a piece of their heart. Hmm, any guys from the Long Island area interested? Haha.. Well. I best be on my way now. Leave me comments!! I don't get many. Ooh.. and here is a little question for guys to answer: If we were kissing (just pretend you know me), where would you put your hands?

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Subject: lookin thru pixxxx Time: 2:47 pm. Mood: happy. Music: Let's Get Loud - J-Lo .

okie, enuff of uglie meeee.. i'mma done..

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Subject: School todaayyyyy Time: 9:34 pm. Mood: silly. Music: Wherever You Will Go - The Calling .

Well, I woke up at about 9:30 missing the bus, and I took a shower and got dressed and ready by 10, so I got to school about 10:15 and got to class a minute before the bell rang. Haha. Today was a pretty cool day. In lunch, I was walking with Dan, Brian, Jackie and this girl Andrea. We were walking from F tower to G Tower and I said "Hi" to everyone passing us, then when we were going to G Tower 3rd Floor, they dared me to fall and so I did. I fell and everyone came up to me "Oh my god!! Are you okay?" I'm like "You fool, I did it on purpose!" one girl was like "you're a bitch" I was like "Takes on to know one, PEACCEEEE" and ran off to English class. Then in English the teacher was making me do my work, and I was running laps around the hall ways and she said "What did you eat" i was like "Nothing, I drank about 3 jolts before school" and everyone laughed. I'm crazy, I know I am.. Then in drivers ed, Stacie was driving and we passed these 3 guys who were on someones front lawn, and when we got onto the main road, 2 out of the 3 guys were behind us beeping the horn, we freaked out and of course me, i was waving, then they turned around and i screamed at them and they beeped the horn. I'm a nut today yooo!! hehe, ok. i'm done talking. Latersss

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Subject: how can one go out and party with the past of this year? Time: 11:20 pm. Mood: sympathetic. Music: Hero- Mariah Carey .

hmm, well, i've been pondering this all night. i could easily be out right now, and i was going to go, but i gave my cousin the key to my grandparens house and stayed in. i can't go out on a night and party, and know that people are home hurting because they lost someone they loved in the WTC. i personally lost people in the WTC and i know i would not enjoy myself if i was out. yes i might go out and have fun, but it's not at a huge ass party where 85% of the world is celebrating at the same time i am. it sucks. i don't know, maybe i'm the only one who thinks this. i would have been talkin to ryan blueska about this, but he wasn't being serious, so i put my away message up and started writing. well, i'm going to end this since i bet no one cares. but before i go, i want to say one thing.. to captain doug oelschlager of st. james fire department who was on the line of duty on september 11th, 2001 on ladder 15 in FDNY, you'll always be me hero. i'll miss you deeply and i'll take pride in which i get onto hook and ladder in sjfd in august. you are my inspiration and you always will be. i'll never forget the times you freaked out my mother and i while driving. watch over us, and protect us. i love you and miss you. and as you never said "goodbye", i'll say what you said lata dougie. FDNY Ladder 15 and Eagle Hook & Ladder Company one, SJFD

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Subject: Ow Ow Ow you bitch! Time: 5:45 pm. Mood: giggly. Music: Sandstorm - Darude .

Sooo yea, last night Ashley came over for a bit, then we went over to Candices. Jazlyn and Steph (Folan) was there. Ashley brought her video camera to tape us doing wacked out crap. So, we went to the mall, and we didn't do much there, then we started walking over to Sportsplus, and Candice jumped me and we started fighting and I pushed her into the bush and she said "whore" I was like "bring it sista" and she came at me like a bull. So she jumped me again and she pushed me to the ground and I was like "ow ow ow you BITCH!!!" and she got up and ran because she knew I was pissed so I dashed after her, mind you Ashley is video taping all this, so I ran after her and caught her and jumped on her back. Ashley started laughing because usually we never run that fast, and we were in the middle of the parking lot fighting. Then we got to the corner, getting ready to cross the street to go to Sportsplus, and a car pulls out and Ashley and I heard this gun shooting. Several seconds later Candice was like "Holy shit that hurt." It was a paintball gun we heard and it hit Candice in the sholder. I wiped the paint off her sweatshirt. We then went into the building and washed our hands and cleaned up a bit because we looked horrible, then we went into the bowling alley area, and this 20 year old guy was looking at us, and then came over to get a ball below us, and he said "You girls look bored" and we said "yep very" and he said "if you need laughs, come to lane 25" and walked away.. We started laughing, then later on we started throwing jelly beans at Jazlyn and Ashley because they were down further, and it got out of hand but we had a blast.We sent Jazlyn over to that guy and asked which girl he was interested in, and it was Folan.. Later on she went over and got his number and crap. It was funny, we video taped the whole thing. Then we were outside, and we were waiting for our ride, and Candice and I started fighting and security guards came over and broke us up, so I was like "you slut, you slept with my boyfriend!" she said "well, he paid me!" and I bursted out laughing and she started laughing, and hte guards were like "Oh this is all a joke" i was like "Indeedy" and they left all pissy. It was quite a night. Good times, bad times, all ends up in funny moments. Well, I'm outtie. Love Always, Chand Nichole

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Subject: i'm SoOoO LoVeD Time: 4:38 pm. Mood: disappointed. Music: Family Affair - Mary J .

Well, on LJ I'm not loved, I'm not sure if anyone reads my entries. No one cares but anyways.. Yessums, so I was talking to Bryce earlier, lately we've been talkin' to each other for hours at a time. Something we did when we dated.. And he told me he loved me, and it felt sooooo awesome. To be loved is the greatest feeling. Here's a quote my friend Kevin has in his info on AIM.. "To love someone is something, To be loved by someone is something else, But to be loved by the one you love is, everything" In my case, that's true, but enough of me rambling on and on about pointless shit you guys don't care about. Hmms.. What should I do so more people add me to their Friend's lists and write me little comments? I might just delete my whole journal. It's pointless if you have a journal, and you ask quiestions and no one writes back, what's up with that?! Has..Blah. Anyway, I'm going to go do whatever. IM me.. xsuperstarx18x

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Subject: MaLLrATs Time: 8:53 pm.

You are passionate about what you want out of life, and some have even described you as coarse. But deep down inside you have a good heart and that's all that matters. Actually...all that really matters is that your boyfriend is Brodie! Take The "Which Kevin Smith Female Are You?" Quiz!!

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Subject: Beautiful Song Time: 3:45 pm. Mood: artistic. Music: To Where You Are - Josh Groban .

To Where You Are Josh Groban Who can say for certain Maybe your still here I feel you all around me Your memories so clear Deep in the stillness I can hear you speak Your still an inspiration Can it be That you are mine Forever love And you are watching over me from up above Fly me up to where you are Beyond the distanst star I wish upon tonight To see you smile If only for awhile to know your there A breath aways not far To where you are Are you gently sleeping Here inside my dream And isn't faith believeing All power can't be seen As my heart holds you Just one beat away I Cherish all you gave me Everyday Cause you are mine Forever love Watching me from up above And I beleive That angels breathe And that love will live on and never leave Fly me up to where you are Beyond the distant star I wish upon tonight To see you smile If only for awhile To know your there A breath aways not far To where you are I know your there A breath aways not far To where you are

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Subject: Christmas Time: 8:27 pm. Mood: envious. Music: All I Want For Christmas - Mariah Carey .

Well, it's Christmas eve. I bought all the gifts for my family and friends. Supposedly I'm getting everything I want. But there are 3 things I really want, that people can't BUY. My family to be all together and happy, My friends to be honest and truthful and to have the perfect guy come into my life. My family hasn't had a normal Christmas since 89'. My father was killed on May 20th, 1990 and none of us have had a joyful Christmas since then. Every holiday hasn't been fun at all. There have been some that I was happy that I was with family, but there were others where I just felt weird because I wasn't with my father. I just want one Christmas to be happy. Another thing, my friends aren't always honest and truthful to me. I hate liars. I want my friends to be honest with me, and if they can't do that, I won't waste the time on trying to make the friendship work if all they'll do it lie to me. I mean I love all my friends and would die for them, but if you're going to lie and crap, don't even try talking to me.... The last thing I want is a boyfriend. Sure, there are PLENTY of guys out in the world, but WHY CAN'T I FIND ONE?! I mean I still love Bryce, but he don't know if he loves me or not, and it hurts so much inside. My aunt told me this "Guys are like trains, if one leaves, theres always another one coming down the tracks..." This Christmas will not be the same. Since FireFighter Doug Oelschlager died on September 11th, 2001 we'll all be in a moping mood. Doug, I will miss you so much. Keep an eye on all of us fire fighters. You are truly my inspiration and hero. I love you! To everyone who is reading this, have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. God Bless. Leave me kisses! :) Love Always, Chand Nichole

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Subject: bein' a smartass Time: 11:05 pm. Mood: dorky. Music: Wild Horses - Rolling Stones .

HI RYAN!!! I LOVE YOU MAN!!!!

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