Monday, January 21st, 2002
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9:33 pm
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studying for geology exam tomorrow... not going to be hard. i have an A+ in there. nice, and a weighted grade too. that'll be a good boost on the GPA. too many people are online, but i'm only talking to muffin. ugh... to much information of xtals and plate techtonics in my mind... the 5 most abundant minerals... the 8 most abundant elements... yea i bet pam remembers those lol. god i'm bored. i'm in bored i wanna eat mode. ::sings:: dooooooooooooo yooooooooou wanna daaaaaaaaaance??? let me be your looo-oovah maaaan. no idon't want to dance sara lol. i'm in the mood for ice cream... some good ice cream... lol. well i'm off to help katie write her exam speech lol. i'll be peace
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(4 purges//binge)
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Sunday, January 20th, 2002
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10:50 pm - shit yes!! lol ima goth butch all rolled into one!!!
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8:16 pm - not that it REALLY matters... but i know sara ill flip lol...
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Friday, January 18th, 2002
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10:07 pm
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my brother is awake still... there are noises in my house that are pissing me off and terrifing me at the same time. cat is crying to be let in my room... the other is behind me snoring... i'm supposed to stay up till WHAT time? god i have to study and work on my portfolio for ceramics. ihave everything in order, so it's not like it will be hard. it sounds like people are breaking into my house... i let my mind run free too often... i'm so fucking tired of being alone. i'm tired of all the thoughts that plauge me so hauntingly. but i don't really care to share them all. i won't. they are my business anyway. what business does ANYONE have in my own head? i fel like i'm having to ward off people from breaking into my thoughts when there isn't really anyone. games... life is a game that i am determined to win.
im just trying to find something to do to waste time... if sleep is taking me over, why do i fight it when i complain about not enough?
current mood: bored
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(binge)
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7:38 pm
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i'm so eventful right now. my patience is worn thin, and everyone's annoyances are frustrating me. i haven't written by hand the real words i bear in months. i'm more alone here than i ever was before. no one has covered that piercing flesh wound i've captured from battle. i'm not looking for what love is. i'm not loking period. why produce a self hatered thorn whilst waiting for just the right moment? there aren't LIES behind my action or breathings. for now, i will continue to kindle the flame and justify my reasons. i enjoy the time to think alone. i can protect my treasons from strange indecencies. it's a hevean sent trial that brings my life forth to bear witness to all my actions. i don't fear love, i don't fear death. i don't really hide from the worst i shall suffer. in a time that grinds forever bending havoc, there aren't spaces to be filled with such unimportant qualities. third gazings, the listless won't fail. rcash and burn as i might, the justification i seek is within reach, and i feel her presence. someday soon, i won't have to kneel to one focus and will ride high within arms distance of never needing belief again.
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fair flowers we will pick, the tear away the petals like wings from a dove. younger minds will speak out. in time my own will be reached. patience is the essence of all life.
current mood: listless
current music: thoughts pushing boundaries
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(binge)
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Thursday, January 17th, 2002
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11:25 pm
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3:11 pm
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my body bends into perfection to fit yours...
impersonality is the incest of no sexuality
homlessness is only a state of mind
in essence, we aren;t who we think we are
(alobars 1-12-02)
in my world, i will be king and rule with reigning peace with feverish dreams that sweat fear away. you will sit by my side and be my queen. i will hold you safe from this mortal womb.
darness is like too many other things. complete terror from course of change, then swept over by swifter change.
current mood: blank
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(binge)
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Tuesday, January 15th, 2002
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9:06 pm - love you muffin!!
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luminustrance: fukah
LogicRiot: yo
luminustrance: what up muh muffin heeead
LogicRiot: just got back from eatting at Yanni's greek grill
luminustrance: YANNI??? did you listen to YANNI whgile you were there?
luminustrance: while*
LogicRiot: sure y not
luminustrance: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
luminustrance: NEVER EVER AGIN MY MUFFIN
LogicRiot: wha?
luminustrance: thats just utterly disgusting
LogicRiot: what?
luminustrance: yanni kt yanni
luminustrance: ew
luminustrance: ill say it again
luminustrance: this time with more conviction...
luminustrance: EEEEEEEEEW
luminustrance: nvm... i quit
LogicRiot: HAHAHAHAA
luminustrance: lol
luminustrance: theeeeeere you go
LogicRiot: i wuv you
luminustrance: i wuv you too muffin heeeeeeyid
LogicRiot: haha i have to hear that on mic
luminustrance: im the greatest genious ever
LogicRiot: i know you are
LogicRiot: atleast one of us is
luminustrance: lol yes and you my mufin ...
luminustrance: are my accomplise
LogicRiot: britt the next prez
luminustrance: LOL
luminustrance: the prez of the les community
luminustrance: i would kill everyone if i was prez of the usa
LogicRiot: ew
LogicRiot: that would be scawwy
luminustrance: lol
luminustrance: i know
luminustrance: id start with white trashy ppl
LogicRiot: HAHAHAHA
LogicRiot: nice
luminustrance: i know lol
LogicRiot: 1st ***** and her family
luminustrance: then id move on to more important things...
luminustrance: LOL
LogicRiot: HAHA
luminustrance: like rednecks and hicks ho are dumber than their sisters
luminustrance: then id kill the "make love" ppl
luminustrance: lol
luminustrance: like...
luminustrance: MY MOJM
luminustrance: mom...
LogicRiot: "make love" ? what?
luminustrance: ppl that think fucking is called MAKING LOVE
luminustrance: do you understand how fucking ANNOYING that is?
luminustrance: if i hear someone say that i simply WALK AWAY
LogicRiot: i wanna "make love" to jerrod
luminustrance: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
luminustrance: I HATE YOU
LogicRiot: im just kidding
luminustrance: i know i know
luminustrance: lol
luminustrance: hey guess what
luminustrance: ima have sex with FIVE PPL
luminustrance: and ill love 2
luminustrance: lol
luminustrance: damn the online testing
LogicRiot: HAHAHA
LogicRiot: Now pick three adjectives that best describe how you feel about yourself. (Adjectives are descriptive words like "smelly," "attractive," "boring," and "infectious.")
LogicRiot: help me out here
luminustrance: muffin-y
current mood: amused
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(binge)
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5:01 pm
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i want to be back on the potter's wheel right now. i found that i can escape and think through everything in my mind when i'm there. nothing can reach me. i am infinate.
current mood: drained
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(binge)
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4:52 pm
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Blueoblivionx: you need some kayla lovin
luminustrance: i know it
luminustrance: havent had non of that good stuff in a while
current mood: drained
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(binge)
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Monday, January 14th, 2002
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11:26 pm
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im through with this noncsence. get me out of here.
current mood: stressed
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(binge)
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4:37 pm
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there's something remarkable about the ways i can't see straight at times... but she always shines through...
i would be anywhere but here, if i could be with you now.
i need to hear your voice, your laugh.
i slept alone again, waking to find you not there
and felt foolish for letting the faint scent you left behind misguide me into thinking
i'd find you there
in sleep i fell. there has never been a sleep so droned and drug out
only to fill the night.
sleep is a sickness and catches me when i know i'm unaware.
slow at start, the overtakes all my straight forward vision.
(nothing to do in history class...)
i stayed after for ceramics again today. i wish i could stay in that room all night and just work. i'm tired of coming home to this bullshit. i'm ready to get away from all this. nick is yelling about some shit for his computor... his first one would have ben fine if he hadn't taken it apart... dumbass... peggy' yelling at him to shut up and to stay off her computor... my computor keeps freezing and i have to completely clear the hard drive and start over. fuck i hate technology. i want to go back and work on the potter's wheel. pegy won't set mine up because of the mess it makes, and lack of space? which is shit because we have plenty of space in the basement... and a sink for me to use down there... i'll have my own space when i move out.
I miss you already.
Hey....
Did I tell you today how very much in love I am with you?
How everytime I feel you with me I cannot imagine my life without you?
All my feelings for you get stronger everyday Britt. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me.
I love you so much.
when i'm alone or with anyone else, i get so depressed. i just don't know where to go from here. the better half of life isn't what i expected. i just want to cry and sleep away time.
current mood: exhausted
current music: everyone around me is yelling today
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(binge)
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Sunday, January 13th, 2002
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6:45 pm
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changed my sheets, and still no remote... on the good side however... I CHANGED MY SHEETS lol.
i remember waking up this morning with a soggy boob... my girlfriend likes to dream about angelina jolie when she sleeps laying on me... i love you tink.
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(1 purge//binge)
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5:23 pm
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god im so frustrated
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(binge)
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5:18 pm
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if they don't shut the fuck up soon, i swear to god i will kill them. i'm NOT eating dinner listening to it. i'n not staying up all night waiting for it to stop. i'm tired. i'm pissed off, and i'm really not lloking forward to school.
current mood: annoyed
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(binge)
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4:47 pm
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friday sara ame over and spent the night. i can't remember what we did earlier that day. oh well. the rest of the night isn't as much of a blur... hmm... we ended up talking her mom into letting her come back over sat night too. so me jessie and sara all go to deleware to get coffee... yes all the way to deleware just for coffee and a ciggarette. anyway, me and sara came back here and watched shreck and fell asleep watching meatballs. then this morning i was woken from my slumberous dreamland by my dumb ass brother (who still isn't cute my k i prooooooomise...) beating on my door and singing and yelling at the top of his lungs. needless to say i totally went off and almost bitchslapped the fucker. but instead i turned up my stereo quite loudly till he shut up. after a few more hours of sleep i got in the shower and layed down again with sara. that lasted till around 1:30 when we got food and then began to disassemble a tv. yes a tv. we got it all taken apart and i am finishing this dumb sculpture possibly tomorrow night.
i feel like taking a break from reality and just sleeping for a week straight. i'm so tired and stressed. i feel so cluttered and flustered and oh god ima faint. ::drops hankercheif:: ooo come saaaaave me my sarie?!?!?! my room is such a goddamn mess lol.
i feel really down today. well, not all day, just after sara left it got lonely and the house is empty now. all i hear are the silent mumbles of oher people i don't really know. i'm tired of all this. i'm just ready to move on and get out of here... stop worring about everything.
i never realized how much yelling and fighting goes on here. more than i paid attention to. it's really old. it needs to stop. i can make a promise right now that if i ever come back here, it won't be for extended stays.
ugh... my comp is failing me once again. keeps freezing. i'm just a little pissed at it. on peggy's comp. library things go back tomorrow... can't forget. hmwk tonight... fuck. math, ceramics, geology, history... dammit.
i need a ciggarette now...
current mood: pissed off
current music: plotting how to kill people in my mind...
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(2 purges//binge)
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Friday, January 11th, 2002
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4:45 pm
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 My word! Watch your mouth! ..Who do you think ya are, Sid Vicious?
Test made by
 morphina
Take the ' which dead rockstar ' are you, test, here!
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(binge)
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Tuesday, January 8th, 2002
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9:26 pm - I AM SO GOING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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On Mon, 7 Jan 2002, Porcy wrote:
> For those of you in or near Pittsburgh, Rasputina is apparantly playing a
> show at Club Laga on Feb 23rd... I've heard that tickets go on sale
> tomorrow, $10.
> Here's their website: http://www.clublaga.com
> I didn't see anything about the show on the website, but maybe I just
> missed it?
Heya. This is my show. Wow, I just asked TicketMaster to put it on sale
this afternoon. They work fast; I don't even have the info up on my web
site, yet. But, well, then, here is what I know so far:
*************************************************************************
Night Sky Productions presents:
ELYSIUM
an evening of
rapturous serenity
featuring
live bands:
RASPUTINA
(cello rock from NYC)
EGO LIKENESS
(trip hop from Baltimore)
SOMNA M. BULIST
(experimental harp with femme vox from central PA)
VEQUINOX
(world-ethereal from Pittsburgh)
with
DJ SCARY LADY SARAH
(from Chicago, the best-known gothic DJ in the U.S.)
*heavenly art displays
*divinely delicious delicacies
SAT. FEB. 23
CLUB LAGA
(3609 Forbes Ave., 4th Floor)
6-10pm
all ages
$10 in advance, $12 at the door
advance tickets available through TicketMaster
includes admission to Ceremony
(dancing at The Upstage on the 2nd Floor until 2am,
with DJs The Night Shift and guest DJ Scary Lady Sarah)
More info: www.night-sky.net
(412) 687-INFO
current mood: pissed off
current music: only the plotting in my brain.. i WILL go. oh yes..i will go
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9:23 pm
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StarvingForWerds: yeah so it's been 5 minutes
luminustrance: LOL
luminustrance: goooooood 5 mins
luminustrance: god you make me so proud lol
WishUponA9mm: I am NOT having a good day
luminustrance: im sorry
luminustrance: im having an 80s flash back day
WishUponA9mm: somebody stole my purse I stepped on and broke a plate, and I spilled bongwater behind my desk
luminustrance: im sorry. just one of those days
WishUponA9mm: tomorrow I find out wether or not I'm pregnant
luminustrance: goo
luminustrance: here, let me help... KARMAKARMAKARMAKARMA CHAMELEON!!!
luminustrance: YOU COME AND GOOOOOO YO UCOME AND GOO OOO OOOO
WishUponA9mm: Boy George kicks major ass
luminustrance: fo shizzle
luminustrance: .....just another manic moonday ooeoooo
luminustrance: i wish it was sunday
luminustrance: !!
luminustrance: bangles mmmm
luminustrance: billy idol... ooooie!
luminustrance: god the 80s were great lol
luminustrance: even though i sat in my diaper half the time, they were still great
luminustrance: dammit i still have hmwk to do
WishUponA9mm: I'm gonna smoke my hash and bitch at small beavers now
luminustrance: LMFAO
luminustrance: you tell them bitches whos boss
WishUponA9mm: exactly
luminustrance: and make em make you somehting nifty out of wood lol
WishUponA9mm: adios chicka keep it real
luminustrance: peace
LogicRiot: some kid was like hey look at this
LogicRiot: and he sent me that
LogicRiot: i was like WHOA
luminustrance: LOL
luminustrance: gooooood times
LogicRiot: but look at them
LogicRiot: they are perfect
LogicRiot: not to big
luminustrance: they are nioiiiiiice
LogicRiot: not to small
luminustrance: i know dude
luminustrance: ksljefkrsj
LogicRiot: prefectly round, and plump
luminustrance: i wann touch lol
LogicRiot: and perky
LogicRiot: LOL
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9:15 pm - WOOHOO!!!!!!!!
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 | sometimes perceived as an egomaniac, you bring joy to many remaining alt-rock fans. underneath your exterior lies the soul of a dreamer. your fashion tastes may run to the bizarre and your friends may occasionally want to throw things at you, but all in all, you're a pretty decent person. which pumpkin are you? |
current mood: excited
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