Sunday, February 17th, 2002
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12:14 pm - ..So please be careful with me, I'm sensitive and I'd like to stay that way..
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Which Jewel song are you most like? Find out!
Friday me, marissa, carlo, and pete went to greystone at night!! it really wasn't as scary as i anticipated. during the day i freak out and i couldnt believe how calm i was at night. the only thing that made me nervous was the thought cops everywhere. but we didn't get caught so everything is good.
Yesterday I went to NY with my dad to visit my family. It was fun, in the car we listened to Saves the Day and Celine Dion LoL my dad always wants to pretend that he likes my music. hes all 'wow these guys are talented...' its still weird to look at the NYC skyline, with the absence of the Twin Towers, it just isn't the same.
ah i'm bored someone help
i'm hangin out with chris, dave, and kt later yaaay
current mood:  hungry
current music: Jewel - Sensitive
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Sunday, February 10th, 2002
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9:01 pm - The Magic's in the Makeup...
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What's Your Style? Find out @ She's Crafty
I got that quiz from KT's Lj :)
i love gwen, i think its awesome that she is always changing. its natural, you know...like me, for instance i've changed myself as many times as madonna for crying out loud. lol well maybe not, i finally found myself so i don't have to change. wait this isn't the point...the point is, is that No Doubt and Gwen are just going with the flow. right now we all know hip-hop is huge, so they just added some more beats to their music. and i think Rock Steady is awesome, its a great cd. people just aren't accepting it because it isn't 'old school, ska' No Doubt. their sound is diffrent now, but its still makes me jump around my room wearing red lipstick. lol...oops cat's outta the bag hehe
...i don't know why i just went on a tangent about No Doubt...everyone was beefing about it i had to set it straight jk
'I'm unique, just like everyone else'...thats a good quote, makes ya think...
makes me think about balony lol
"The makeup's all off, who am i?"
So Nickies party...everyone was livin it up...aka everyone (nic, as, chris, jess, & jeff) was ina fucking bad mood. it was incredibly boring, not even really worth mentioning. so why am i still typing...lalala
on friday we went to greystone again with carlo. it was so cool, i wasn't as nervous as last time. ok i was leave me alone. i believe in spirits and the paranormal. last year i did a whole report on it. in greystone i definatley could feel something in the air. friday was a really nice day it was almost 60 degrees.
i really wanted to go into the medical building, i heard there was medications still left there. i wanted to check them out. so we went into the building and it was signifigantly colder than the other buildings. there was still equipment, beds, various operating things in all of the rooms. in the operating rooms it was freezing, i could see my breath. when the tempeture drops it means there are spirits in there, they absorb the heat. it gave me the shivers. i have a strong respect for the dead and i really didn't want to disturb any of them. and that was exactly what we were doing. we found this other room that was filled with ward journals from the 60's-80's, and omg brain wave charts...that was majorly spooky.
i just don't understand how they can leave all of those buildings completely filled. i mean those are real people's lives that we were prying into. some of them might even still be alive. the whole place is just creepy, but so interesting. Girl Interrupted was one of my favorite movies, and that was exactly what it felt and looked like.
i was thinking if i ever change my mind about being a special education teacher i would want to work at a Phsyciatric hospital. thats the stuff i'm interested in. autism, multiple personality, schizophrenia, bipolar disorder. i could read about that stuff all day. its so facinating.
woa baby i haven't written that much ina while. la la la
_and i scream for the sunrise or a car to take me anywhere, just get me passed this dead and eternal snow_
current mood:  contemplative
current music: Bright Eyes - If Winter Ends
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Thursday, February 7th, 2002
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8:36 pm - Jessie Eat World
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Tuesday, February 5th, 2002
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10:04 pm - ..the only thing we need sometimes are chilly nights and warmer thighs..
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Shadylane71: i love you so much jess like i just feel words don't even compare to the way i feel
Shadylane71: you can't ever leave me i know your the one for me i have to marrie you i will never find anyone like you and i never had so much fun with a girl
*Oh well you got me under your spell...
And I dont think that im kidding around
dont think i can forget you now*
*Cause nothings like being held sometimes*
SAVES THE DAY
i love that boy...
current mood:  loved
current music: I Have Dreams - In Good Hands
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Sunday, February 3rd, 2002
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6:14 pm - 'Jagged pulp sliced in my veins...'
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this whole day has been sucha mess...well not really i always exagerate
i was gunna go to chris' house at around 6:30, and he just called saying his parents are closing the store at 8 and he wouldnt be home till 8:30 so i wouldn't be able to go over. ahhh im so mad i've been waiting to see him all day and now im all dressed up with no place to go i hate this. what a waste of make-up. im so frustrated
i started a new medication this week, wellbutrin...i think thats how you spell it. its an ADHD & anti-depressent in one pill. but i won't feel the effects for about 3 weeks, it has to build up. it better start soon cause im crying like a child, just cause i can't go out. i hate this
i'm in the middle of making asya cupcakes, they are cuter and well easier to handle. i got little Barbie cupcake paper thingys they are awesome
current mood:  moody
current music: At the Drive-in - One Armed Scissor
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4:03 pm - 'Make mistakes and I'll forgive you'
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Tomorrow we start our new semester & new classes, I'm excited
I have English with Nickie & Asya, just like last year! It should be really fun. And I have childcare with Laur!! That will be really awesome we can cut together hehe
Andddd tomorrow is Asya's birthday
Happy 17th Birthday As, I Love you!
I'm making her a cake mmm I just hope I dont eat it all before it gets to her. And its all chocolate lol I <3 chocolate
I love Asya, I feel really bad I haven't hung out with her like I used to. She is my best friend, I get too entangled with boys. Ah thats such a bad friend, I'll stop I havta hang out with my girlfriends. <333
On wednesday night me, nickie, & laur saw 'A Walk to Remember' ...don't even ask how they got me to see that movie. it was sooo corny, but it was fun to laugh and make fun of
Laur...'BabyBaby!!' LoL
It was weird on Friday I was at Chris' with Kyle, Dave K, Samir, Rob, Dave F, Jesse...and others but I was the only girl. and usually i love that, being surrounded by boys but on friday i hated it. believe me i've never had a prob hanging out with the boys, but i felt sooo awkward. i hardly even spoke, i wasn't upset or anything i just for once felt out of place. do you ever have those dreams where you are watching yourself? thats what friday felt like, it was as if i was watching myself in stead of being myself. and before i said or did anything i could see myself doing it and decided against it. i felt like the dumb girl in the corner that just braught everyone down if they noticed me. i didn't want anyone to feel sorry for me, i just didn't want to be there. i just wanted to be happy and comfortable. so sorry guys if i acted weird...
but chris was a sweetheart hehe like always, wanna hear sumthin cute?
the other day i had a craving for lucky charms the whole day i was like 'mmm lcuky charms, i wish i had some'
then i went to chris' house and he had a box of lucky charms just for me! :)
That was so sweet...or romantic as i would say lol
LoL I <3 Spongebob
Chris we haven't wantched spongebob in so long!!
current mood:  calm
current music: Further Seems Forever - Wearing Thin
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Saturday, February 2nd, 2002
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8:24 pm
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i'm at chris' right now
dave, marc, & jesse are here too
we don't know what to do
we didn't bring natalie to the movies, her grandma took her
i'm hungry!!
i want pizza mmmm
me and jesse were just talking about how when youre singin to a song and then someone turns the volume down but you are stll singing all loud its embarassing lol
current mood:  bored
current music: the boys playing tony hawk
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3:12 pm - <3 carebears <3
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 See what Care Bear you are.
the carebears were such a big part of my childhood...i loved them so much.
i still watch my care bear videos, especially when im sick. they are comforting in a way.
anyways i just got home, i went shopping with mommy
i made her take me to K-mart hehe
i got the coolest Spiderman shirt
im excited
me and chris are taking his little sister to the movies tonight
should be cute
current music: Saves the Day - At Your Funeral
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Friday, February 1st, 2002
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2:51 pm
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I <3 Hot Water Music ahhh
I should probably call Dave...
he was sapposed to come over after school and then we're going to Chris'
I'm sooo cold!! and too lazy to go get a sweatshirt
Just called...line is busy I hate that
I think nickie is mad at me...but then again when isn't she?
We had been on really good terms for a while now
I don't know what happened, everything I do is wrong
She just doesn't understand me, or she doesn't try
Last night I was at Chris' and I got in a really sad mood, for no particular reason. I hate that, so I sorta just wanted to be by myself. I went in the bathroom and locked the door
ahhh it just got Reallllly dark out this is scary it looks like theres gunna be a tornado or something omg this is weird...and now its getting lighter...ok anyways
so i was in the bathroom just crying feeling sorry for myself being pathetic and nickie just gets annoyed and leaves.
i would never leave my friends if they were upset, why does she do that?
i knew once i cried and sat there for a little i would be happy and cheery again. i just needed a few minutes to myself.
that was a pointless story ahhh dave where are u
ok i'm gunna go to chris' nowww
current mood:  anxious
current music: Hot Water Music - Where We Belong
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1:10 am - And I driaiaiank you Blood, feel it drippin down my throat
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hehe i took that pic right before Dave came over.
I gave him my pink sweatshirt that says 'Girls Rule...Boys Drool' on it
he looked so cute! lol i'm glad he likes it
current mood:  stressed
current music: Save the Day - As Your Ghost Takes Flight
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Sunday, January 27th, 2002
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9:45 pm - im addicted to f-ing quizzes
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9:22 pm
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i hate sundays
all i did today was clean my room and study
how interesting
i hate finals
im scared of my new semester
yikes...stripes
fruit striped gum!
lol
sorry bout that
i really should take a shower
its gunna be warm tomorrow!!
yesss
i want my hair to be straight
ah i just dont have the strength!
we only have a 3 day week!
yay thursday and friday off
i sorta wanted to go to randolph high with...well i dont know
lol i didnt figure that part out yet
i feel like ive drifted away from dave and samir
...and ryan
so i dunno
home movies tonite i can't wait
why can't i find something insightful to say?
maybe tomorrow
ooo i joined a new community
http://www.livejournal.com/community/bracelet_whore/
its awesome
actually im gunna go make some more pretty bracelets
current mood:  blank
current music: I Have Dreams - Thank you so much
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Monday, January 21st, 2002
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8:45 pm - Me & Chris
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Can you see the pic?? i hope so!
hehe
yep thats me and chris
aka the love of my life
youre the best!!
current mood:  bouncy
current music: The Juliana Theory - If I told you this was Killing Me...
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Wednesday, January 16th, 2002
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10:35 pm - Borderline...feels like I'm gunna lose my mind
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Borderline personality disorder-
is characterized by mood instability and poor self-image. People with this disorder are prone to constant mood swings and bouts of anger. Often, they will take their anger out on themselves, causing themselves injury. Suicidal threats and actions are not uncommon. They think in very black and white terms and often form intense, conflict-ridden relationships. They are quick to anger when their expectations are not met.
falling further in this motherfucking hole
current mood:  lonely
current music: Kittie - Whore
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Sunday, January 13th, 2002
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2:26 pm - The Brady Bunch!
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Which Brady Bunch kid are you most like?
hehe I really am still 5 years old...aka 16 eh same thing.
Best things in the world are cookies, pajamas, cartoons, and EMO hehe
i have lots to say...but i just don't feel like it.
i'm goin to Chris' now ttylllll
current mood:  nauseated
current music: At the Drive-in - Cosmonaut
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Monday, January 7th, 2002
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10:51 pm - 'When everybody loves you, you can never be lonely...' -CC
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Take the animal crackers test.
Awwww that was cute
everyone knows I Love animal crackers! mmm
at camp i lived on animal crackers, rememeber that? hehe
Nickie just came over for about 2 hours
we had girl talk hehe she even got me to watch 7th Heaven, do you believe it? yo i fckin HATE tv man that show was sooo corny
But then I made her watch Home Movies! (Cartoon Net) That is the best show ah I'm gunna go watch it again.
Ah Nickie I <3 you that girl talk was the best
Best Friends since 7th grade...damn man thats a while
Its weird to see how much we have changed and grown together...
I was just making fun of those pathetic 'best friends quotes' today in art class but I'm gunna put one in here anyways LOL
*Friendship is just a word but you give it meaning*
Nickie & Jessie BFFAE
LoL YES i know that was so corny but what are you gunna do about it?! Yea nigga thats what I thought Hit the road
current mood: hyper
current music: Counting Crows - Mr. Jones
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Sunday, January 6th, 2002
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8:22 pm - I MUST HAVE READ A THOUSAND FACES
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can you see the pic? i don't know how to do all this jazzy Live Journal stuff
Sadie thats sucha cute name! And I heart that doll! I want it!
Thats def. a my kinda doll
OoOo it started snowing yaaay
no school tomorrow pleaaase
i want to go make snow angels hehe
today me and nickie went to Greystone! (phsychiatric hospital)
we finally found a way in its really freaky...
we also met these guys that were doin the same thing but they were like experts on the place.
They braught us to the tunnels that connect all the abandoned buildings.
We found pictures, fingerprints, and info. on old patients. it was SpOoKy!
I took some pics and signs.
Thennn we all went to the diner
I am always in the morristown diner
hehe they waiters know us now its cute
This weekend was really fun I'm a happy girl La La La
OOO and tonite my Favorite show is on...Home Movies! I <3 cartoon network
I'm even more excited cause i can now tape all the episodes on my pretty lil white tv!
Ok im gunna go take a chill pill
in christopher's words:
'Peace out yo Wu-Tang style baby'
I Love you Chris!!
current mood:  giggly
current music: At the Drive In - Arc Arsenal
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7:19 pm - 'Hear my dreaming, you'll be drowning' -PJ Harvey
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current mood: bored
current music: PJ Harvey - Good Fortune
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Tuesday, January 1st, 2002
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5:39 pm - ..Happy New Year..
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New years turned out to be awesome...
Nickie had a party...
we invited all the biker boys from randolph
and of course only the coolest kids from morristown hehe
it was sooo much fun
it turned out so good for such a last minute party.
i'm sooo happy cause me and Ryan are talking again :)
that was probably the best part
i'm just so ah fckin happy xoxo
oh and i also saw Samir! i haven't seen him in sooo long I missed him!
right now i'm thinking on the brighter side of things so hopefully this will be an awesome year...
Which Rocky character are you?
hehe
current mood:  cheerful
current music: Fiona Apple - Fast As You Can
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Saturday, December 29th, 2001
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1:42 pm - Jessie in Wonderland hehe
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You're just a girl; you tend to get frustrated easily, you daydream quite a bit, and you try to avoid making trouble, though curiosity always gets the better of you. Even under tight circumstances, however, you put aside (some of) your fear and figure out what's the best thing to do. You want a better understanding of your world.
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I heart Alice in Wonderland...I think I'll go watch it now
You're Shirley Manson!
The Sexy Rock Diva
Shirly Manson is beautiful
current mood:  amused
current music: Dashboard - Screaming Infidelities
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