Below are the 13 most recent journal entries recorded in rexirae's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, January 23rd, 2002
8:56 am	I hate the phone Would it be perfectly acceptable to use the excuse "I can't come to the phone right now, I am listening to the Scorpions?" It would solve a lot of problems. Current Mood: working Current Music: Scorpions - Don't Believe Her (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 22nd, 2002
7:31 pm	new picture and cancelled black metal concerts Notice anything new? My baby gothigirl made it for me! Ahhh, 3 days off! It was good for the most part. I am so relaxed now, except for the fact that I had to answer so many goddamn calls today! Should've stayed home but duty calls. So, my brother and I were looking forward to the biggest concert of the month (even bigger than Slayer this Saturday!) MARDUK!!!! Pure Swedish black metal insanity!!! We we so ready for it and with the snow and cold weather, the atmosphere was perfect. We get to the Living Room and what happens, not many cars and a sign on the door.... no! Marduk cancelled!!!!! FUCKING FUCK! Get back to the house and try to find out what happened. Come to find out they aren't even in the country!!!! Wha? The tour started on the 11th and just now the Marduk web site is posting information? Oh well.... There is still Slayer and that should be fun. Not looking forward to Hatebreed but we'll just take it as it comes. Current Mood: complacent Current Music: some techno that gothigirl is playing (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, January 11th, 2002
1:45 pm	need to go home soon! Work is boring this morning. I can't wait to get home and relax, rent a couple of movies, maybe play more Xybots tonight (with my sturdier keyboard, I wrecked the space bar earlier this week.) I go through these phases where I don't play games and then get so wrapped up in playing them as much as possible. If you're into the old arcade games then check out the MAME emulator: http://www.classicgaming.com/mame32qa/. So far, I've been rediscovering games like Xybots, Arch Rivals, 10 yard fight, and Cyberball. OK, I am a geek....... Pictures to be up soon! I need a face to go with my name! Current Mood: working Current Music: Sepultura - Arise (Comment on this)
Thursday, January 10th, 2002
3:29 pm	just another night on call Pretty crappy night and morning. I was significantly less than great at Bowling last night. 130-122-121 on a 139 average. We took one game but lost total pins, by 14. We had a chance but I couldn't get marks to save my life! About 4 strikes and 6 spares and everything else open. The only that saved me was following up a spare witha strike. My teammates, Mike and roseanna did about the same. Mike saved us in the last game with a big 150. OK, that was the easy part. I get home so I can cuddle with my Sarah-baby and relax and not play video games. Get paged at quarter to 10. Not a problem, dial in and add 3 DNS entries for early morning. problem, internal modem on my piece of shit Compaq is dead. Sarah tried to fix it but it is hopeless, so now I keep getting pages about "when is it done" "did you get it done". So, off to 'da 'TECH I go, because this is a "high priority." Get there at 11:15, done by 11:30, gas up Sarah's car and get home by 12:15.... in my jams and Napalm Death longsleve no less! Now the shitty part. Comes to find out that my partner in crime, Mike, was told about this at 3:30!!! He said it would wait until tomorrow and the guy who needed the entries said, no problem. They email each other for a while and ICQ'd until about 7! So why did I get paged???? Because he needed it "right away" because he dropped the ball, and our wonderful ops center paged 5 people until I was stupid enough to say, OK! No, I take that back, I was the only one who did not know about this project. And then claimed that I was paged consistently from 8 to 10!!!!!!!! HUH?? The pager works in the alley and I was home for 50 minutes! So my boss has my back and is going to beat some heads today. I desparately need some sleep tonight. I will dream about smashed pagers and air-holed operators. Current Mood: irritated Current Music: Public Image Limited - This Is Not A Love Song (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 9th, 2002
9:15 pm	oh my god, another entry! Hey...ummmm... hey out there! Another entry after a wait of... let's see... 4 MONTHS!!!!????!?!? heeheehee... I procrastinate too much! Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: Madonna - Lucky Star (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 30th, 2001
10:42 pm	almost done Whew! Almost done with the packing! Sarah is 99% done and I don't really have a lot to do since my roomate still has the apartment for another month. I am going to finish next week with my stuff. Right now, the goal is to get as much stuff in the new place as possible, then sleep for 99 years. Oh, I got a cool CD yesterday that I won on eBay. It's called Punky Bruster and it was done in 94 by Devin Townsend. It rocks and is hilarious. I can't wait for the 11th, new Slayer!!!!!!!! So on the 11th I will pickup the new Slayer, Slipknot and System of a Down. I am going to kill my eardrums. Current Mood: exhausted Current Music: hum of the computer (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 28th, 2001
11:14 am	brain fry Whew! Didn't think I would ever add another entry here. My brain is totally fried right now. With the move into the new place, morale at work in the toilet, trying to get stuff packed, moving things into my name for the utilities, getting time off, dealing with vendors, looking at a never ending list of tasks at work, trying to find time to study for my certifications, phone calls, food, my group thing which got moved, smoking is bad for me, low esteem........ I am sooo glad that I have next week off!!!!! Current Mood: tired Current Music: Howard Stern clips (Comment on this)
Monday, June 18th, 2001
3:39 pm	jumped the gun Once again, I jumped the gun. It wasn't what I thought. I feel like such an asshole now. I must be getting paranoid, or I am already there. A trip to Newbury Comics will help tonight after my meeting. I get upset so buying a CD will help me out. Today just sucks. Current Mood: morose Current Music: some comedy from mp3.com (Comment on this)
3:28 pm	work sucks I have one of those days where I know I am not happy with my job. An interview is going on for a position that has been open here for about a year which will be similar to what I am doing now but of course, I am not asked about it but my partner is being asked about it and is interviewing her. My boss is an asshole. His boss is an asshole. The people in my department have turned their backs on me. I am alone in this building and it sucks. I think i value my job a lot and if I am doing well, I feel well and if I suck, then I feel like I suck. Why am I being treated like this? I shouldn't worry about it becuase I know i am out of here by October. I need to check out my new resume. I can't wait until I move out of Rhode Island to Boston. Getting a real job that is more interesting. I want to tell everyone off before i leave. My speech: "I was happy to be here but you all started treating me like shit so suck my cock. I believe in karma, this will bite you all in the ass later and I will be laughing from the sidelines. Fuck you." Bunch of fucking cunts. I hope they drown in their own vomit. Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: Motley Crue - Hooligan's Holiday (Comment on this)
Sunday, June 17th, 2001
6:46 pm	one other thing it was great to see my father and mother today. nothing special, but still, I am glad I got to see them. And I will be seeing my brother soon. My family is dear to me. I am one of the lucky ones to have this. Current Mood: thankful Current Music: more Judas Priest (Comment on this)
6:37 pm	why are things more complicated than they seem? I am starting to feel a ton of anger building up. Take responsibility for your actions. Don't blame other people because they are pissed at you. If you see danger ahead, then why draw yourself towards it? What do you expect? A fucking flowery parade at the end? That everything will work itself out? If you want to follow your heart, that's fine, but if you don't open up your mind and see what lies in your wake, then you can't blame anyone else but yourself. I see dangerous waters ahead and while I am not steering the ship, I am topside trying to yell a warning to the captain but I cannot speak. Current Mood: angry Current Music: Judas Priest (Comment on this)
10:53 am	motion I feel like a beacon in the fog for someone close to me. I am the voice of reason. I am the calm before the storm. I am honest. I am truthful. I am at ease. I see a friendship dying right before my eyes. I see one door closing and it is sad to see this happening. I know I am powerless to stop the atrophy of the situation. Something I leared a while ago helps me look at this a different way. I can't control what I don't have power over so I can only make my honest opinion known and stick to it. I hate to see a friendship die. You don't find a true friend that often in life. I am lucky to have found 4 and the love of my life. I almost lost that one love and gained it back and I don't want to lose it again. I know how much it hurts. Sometimes, you need to take a step back and see the big picture to see that one scene to see how it will affect the ending. Current Mood: thoughtful Current Music: Ocean Machine - Seventh Wave (Comment on this)
Friday, June 15th, 2001
2:15 pm	this is my first journal I am just writing this to put something up. More to come. (Comment on this)