last night was the most fun ive ever had.
no. like really. holyshit.

colleen and i are home from a walk and now i think she is passed out on my sofa. im waiting until the clock turns to 6am so i can legally drive her home and her mom wont know. arent we sneaky. turns out that night-walking is just like day-walking minus the light and other people. although we did encounter some drunks and cops drove by lots of times, but didnt seem to notice us.

the sky was getting lighter. what happened. i wish the sun would come up.

what else is there to say. um. today at work i had to iron sheets. and yknow, sheets are tricky. especially the bottom sheets with elastic sides - those are meant to be wrinkled! soaked up 90mins doing that and i always have to remember to put more change in the meter.

maybe i should go to bed soon. see, im watching the song remains the same which is being shown on bravo! and its really trippy. like jimmypage has glowing red eyes sometimes. other than that ive just been sitting in my room with paints and glue making bigger messes. nothing much has changed in a year i guess.

i work on thursday, and friday is pay-day. thats nice. my job is kinda weird because its in lunenburg which is a tourist town. that means there are spontaneous parades with marching bands and bath shoppes that have bubblemakers on the outside. plus theres tons of art [contemporary is what they call it] to look at. then we all feel inferior. but im retardedly good at making beds with hospital corners now.

tonight it rained and we saw this band called madhat play.

i will never get to sleep if my room looks the way it does. i will stay in this tiny room until nymphs clean the clutter from the floor and remove the stains. its too hard to look at. plus i painted [term used loosely] and made a hideous mess so im kindof avoiding that as well.

lets hear it for sentences. maybe im out of practice or something.

i might have made myself sick today. like with an ulcer or something. it wasnt pleasant. then we watched theroyaltenenbaums and suddenly all faith was restored. what a good story. i liked when she hid cigarettes on the roof. dont know why. maybe i should stop having nightmares every night [not that many people can die, right] and get insects out of my head. though perhaps i am leasing my cranium out to spiders. they are not my favourite tennants.

to be a rock & not to roll

deargod. it was too hysterical. we were driving around [noshit] and colleen had this short neonred wig &aviator; sunglasses and we like. blasted refused and circled around and she fucking belched. like. i wish the world could have seen it so theyall knew what a disgusting being colleen is. christ it was funny.

we also play cards and i drink coffee.

insert: what just happened! colleen bursts into myhouse with oatcakes illegally. ie: not supposed to drive after 12. ahem. also im sitting here looking nauseating. sorry she had to witness it. but these are damngood. like. have some.

anyway. seeing this guy tomorrow & not looking forward to it. hopefully these oatcakes have rat poison or a tranquilizer or something. yknow. cant stop listening to ledzeppelin. i wonder about stuff im painting. its not very good at all. and i keep have nightmares about people dying in car wrecks. maybe i will or something. i drive enough.

the moons magnet pulls our minds
in my room at night
it just didnt seem right
but alas we had no car to drive.
so the blonde and i
decided to try
our feet in the town to thrive.

we didnt get far
without missing my car
and wanting to drink ourselves messed.
so we dialed yet another
and then finally her mother
who arrived and was righteously blessed.

at last we thought
we would achieve for we fought
and fun would be thrown at our guts.
but you can never be sure
for behind every door
is a chainsmoker who has gone totally nuts.

oh no it can be
what-the-fuck can she see
theres a problem with driving at night?
so we were stuck to the ground
threw rocks that we found
and whined about not having the right.

- cherakee & i squashd in a bigchair in chapters, reading this rock book [trying to find flaminglips sutff] and hiding from things. ok so we made loud riot laughter and just drew more attention but..
- i got this job at the spinnaker inn. i clean hotel rooms which is good because its quiet and solitary and my boss is british. its like 3hrs a day so. i like it.
- today i sewed patches on my jeans. i keep buying cds and wasting time in my car with my friends. and i tried like painting again but i got more on my knees than the canvas. ohyeah. the funeral was yesterday and i did not go.

( pocketful of gold )

hey lady - you got the love i need
maybe more than enough.
oh darling... walk a while with me
you've got so much...

dear earth
now ive not slept all night &when; will i.
a girl i know was killed in a carcrash, her mothers in denial.
my parents are running around with no direction feeling helpless.
i tried to keep busy through the night; drawing my hand and reading.

( echoes since 4am )

theres this book on einstein that i found.
so i looked at it.
now im bugging min and looking out my window.
maybe i should take a shower and go for a walk.

what is a freakout?
when a large number of individuals gather and express themselves positively through music, dance, light patterns and electric sound. the participants, already emancipated from our emotional social slavery, dressed in their most inspired apparel, compile as a group whatever potential they posses for free expenses.

its all happening man!
come and watch the pretty lights.
all night rave til dawn. happenings, psychedelic
lighting effects featuring the who, the move & the pink floyd

2years ago i:
1. didnt leave my room
2. married picasso
3. went to newyork
4. sat on the grass [oops. i still]
5. didnt want to paint

1year ago i:
1. painted a thing called chlorine
2. tried to fix things
3. thoughti could make a book
4. listened to epics in 4/4timing
5. got an art award

yesterday i:
1. came home drunk at 6am
2. woke up at 3pm
3. had rice for dinner
4. went driving with cherakee tiffany &jake;
5. sat at the shipyards with candles and cards at night

today i:
1. went to grad practise
2. played with colleens hair
3. will go to the honours ceremony
4. am supposed to clean my room
5. listened to mycats heartbeat

songs i know wordsto without reading:
1. effervescing elephant - syd barrett
2. baba o'riley - the who
3. wishyou were here - pink floyd
4. no surprises - radiohead
5. veryape - nirvana

things $100 000 canbuy:
1. plane tickets
2. gum for colleen
3. syd barrett vinyl
4. well i want some garden gnomes
5. & tons of photobooth pictures

5favourite lately bands:
1. radiohead
2. pjharvey
3. pinkfloyd-ish
4. rolling stones
5. sigur ros &ledzeppelin;

5places to go:
1. berlin
2. london
3. sweden
4. cher takes me to seattle?
5. saturns rings