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Wednesday, July 4th, 2001
11:05 pm	. . . blue hair x 2 Well, it has been a great fourth. Wish i were at home, but fun all the same. Just got back from the fireworks. Had a great day. So wonderful to have a day off. So relaxing. Chelseaed my hair and dyed it blue. I love it. It rocks. The chelsea is sweet. perfect this time. and so is the color. it is not like a bright blue. more like black, but when the light hits it you can definitely tell it is blue. going camping in the rockies this weekend. rock on. HAPPY 4TH OF JULY! Current Mood: jubilant Current Music: Social D (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 27th, 2001
11:18 pm	Just got in from seeing Ani D at Redrocks. . . I don't know what was more amazing. Ani or the environment. So incredibly powerful. Words cannot even describe the evening, so i will not begin to try. PS- Hi to all. . . it has been awhile. Current Mood: happy (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 31st, 2001
12:09 pm	i will survive. . . tomorrow = hell. if i survive. . . saturday = white water rafting in the rockies! Current Mood: crazy (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 30th, 2001
1:40 am	just spent six hours at the hospital with a rape victim. intense stuff. intense day. she is lucky though, she at least has a caring and supportive boyfriend to help her through this. hope i was helpful too and made it a little less painful. i am beat. Current Mood: drained (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 29th, 2001
1:06 am	i hate being short. . . even if i were in perfect shape, i would still look like a stumpy fire-hydrant. i hate public speaking. . . this is going to kill me. i just want someone to hold me. Current Mood: anxious (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, May 28th, 2001
4:54 am	goth bar = entertaining. "i'm sorry. . .you are so beautiful. may i ask your name?" met a new friend. . . always fun. Current Mood: sleepy (Comment on this)
Sunday, May 27th, 2001
1:26 am	a day in the park. . . went to six flags today. . . a little study break in this week from hell. had a great time - much needed release. crazy adventures per usual. i almost got kicked out of the park. then security asked katie if she was my mother. she almost socked him one. he was serious too! . . . do i look like a little kid? it was funny as hell - but at the same time, the whole situation kinda pissed me off. fuck six flags and its corporate comercialism. i am so glad i didn't pay to get in there. it was still super fun though. nothing like rolercosters and ice cream to get ones mind off of school. speaking of which...dreamt last night that i was taken hostage. . . definitely time for a vacation when you are dreaming about school stuff. Current Mood: exhausted (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 24th, 2001
11:58 pm	I am so happy. . . i just finished making myself a REAL lunch for tomorrow. With a real sandwich and everything! Or more like a rollwich. . . box lunch style. . . (JA you know what I'm talking about). First time all year. Yes, it is the last week of the year. . . but it is never too late to get into the swing of things. i feel so proud of my sandwich. it looks so good. i hope it doesn't taste like crap and i have to throw it away. . . i hope i can eat it. at least it brought me happiness tonight. Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: weezer (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 23rd, 2001
11:24 pm	alone in the universe. . . Last night i wrote this in part of my journal. . . I always thought i gave it everything i had. . . Maybe i was mistaken. Maybe i could have done more. i now know that it is true. i could have done more. but as they say- hindsight is 20/20. and so. . . life must go on. i think i am doing well. . . but then i realize i have a long way to go. i have to believe i deserve a second chance. that someday love will come my way again. is it possible? will i just fuck it up? or is one chance all i get? Current Mood: nauseated Current Music: weezer (1 Comment |Comment on this)
7:33 pm	help me X 2. . . danielle not so happy. doesn't want to do work. time to takes meds . . . (ie. blue freeze pop) Current Mood: grumpy Current Music: pumpkins. . .b sides (Comment on this)
Monday, May 21st, 2001
11:44 pm	help me. . . I am at the library and can't find anything i need. and i need this stuff for tomorrow! on top of that, these damn headphones aren't working. crap i tell you. i keep having to hit myself on the head. Nothing is going right. I am gonna be here all night. the background to the computer i am on is the guy from weezer, though, so that is one small yet redeeming bit of goodness. Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: Mike Ness (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 16th, 2001
2:11 pm	The Philosohpy of Ice Cream. . . There is this line in a Sarah McLachlan song that says, "Your love is better than ice cream." I was listening to it while going through police reports and started thinking about it. . . not possible. Ice cream is inherently better than love and always will be. Don't get me wrong. Love is awesome. It is just that ice cream is better. If i ever believed that love was better than ice cream, it must have been a self-imposed illusion. The answer is simple. It is like rock, paper, scissors. . . ice cream just beats love. Why? Well, because ice cream can heal a broken heart. When i was an RA and there was ever a problem on the floor. . . pints of B&J; all around! . . . and all was better. Love can be fleeting, but there will always be more ice cream! Ice cream can totally chang a mood or make your day. . . like when i was in the store the other day and discovered a solitary pint of from russia with buzz! Sure love brings good moods too, but it can also bring bad moods and heartache. Ice cream is a guaranteed good mood. Whoever got a bad mood from ice cream? Ice cream just rocks! funny story. . . The other day i almost got hit by a baseball. falling from the sky? no. it was at a rockies game. we were were sitting in left field right next to the waterfalls and geyser thing with all the "friendly" people drunk on cheep coors beer. well anyways, it was between innings and we were waiting for i think it was the last inning to begin. so the players are all warming up on the field and playing catch. all of a sudden, the left fielder decides to throw the ball to us. hard. Well of course miss space cadet oblivion is looking at, well, god knows what, and i don't even see the ball coming STRAIGHT AT ME. katie is sitting next to me going "danielle. . . danielle. . . danielle". Next thing you know. . .BAM. the ball hits my seat. it ricocheted off and some lady up front caught it. i was pissed. i could have caught it. i was lucky though. . . mere inches away from serious injury. what the hell was i looking at. . . i will never know. more crazy adventures? . . . tonight dana and i are going back out to raise some havoc. beat em at their own games. . . that's the plan. may recruit others. Current Mood: mischievous Current Music: bruisers (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 15th, 2001
11:46 pm	happiness is freeze pops. . . i love it when the mountains and clouds become indistinguishable. when it is no longer possible to discern where the different levels of mountains end and the first layer of clouds begin. . . it is almost magical and never fails to amaze me. . .i feel so lucky to have such a view every night as i drive home. . . last night the sky was the most amazing blue, a serene blue that is neither light nor dark, simply perfect, and the mountains and clouds were a navy blue, so beautiful yet so ominous. there is such a power in nature. . . and out here it seems so pure, so magnified. . . . . .i just ate a freeze pop! yea! first batch of the season. that means summer is officially upon us. i can't wait. . . so many adventures ahead! talked to an old friend tonight. sometimes when the future is uncertain, it feels good to reach back. i am consumed by happiness. things feel so good right now. i wish i could bottle this! "i do it for the joy it brings because i'm a joyful girl because the world owes me nothing and we owe each other the world" -ani Current Mood: jubilant Current Music: social distortion (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, May 14th, 2001
10:27 pm	Where is my pot of gold? When I got to the end of my dirty rainbow And I found that there was no pot of gold Well, I learned that I was empty and not quite as strong For I had robbed my heart and cheated my soul. -MN Today i saw a rainbow it wasn't perfect but it was so beautiful. i wanted to slide down it. Katie said i couldn't i feel like i could. Current Mood: optimistic Current Music: J Cash- I Walk the Line (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 10th, 2001
9:22 pm	Ride 'em Cowboy. . . Good times, free drinks, and cowboys galore. . . Well, had some crazy adventures last night. Went out with dana to the stampede, the bar with the mechanical bull. i have never seen such a place. a bar the size of a warehouse. four bars around the outside, and one in the center. completely encircling the center bar is a dance floor which looks like a track. people acutally dance around the track in circles. . . and everyone does the exact same dance! everything is all coordinated. even when slowdancing they circle around the "track" i couldn't believe it. . . and i had a lot of fun expressing that! tons of cowboy hats and mullets! so entertaining! the cowboys are not subtle about checking you out either. . . ha. basically i stuck out, well, like a punk in a country bar! but don't get me wrong. there was a fair share of normal guys. why where they there? who knows, why was i there? All i know is that it was definitely a good time, and definitely entertaining. It was crazy. So many people. And it got even crazier because the Avs game was on. so, as the evening progressed, i gave myself the sub-goal of convincing men to ride the bull for me. . . and i must say. . .i was quite successful! the crowning irony. . . dana and i rode off in a giant pickup driven by a cowboy! haha. i got such a kick out of it all. . . and they rode off into the sunset. . . Colorado in. Buffalo out. Sorry! Current Mood: naughty Current Music: ani d (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 8th, 2001
1:03 am	. . . sugar high. Okay...well, i wrote an entry earlier today, but it seems to have disappeared. So if anyone sees it floating around in cyber space, please tell it to come home. Right now I am attempting to ingest large quantities of candy so that I can wake up. I have a huge exam tomorrow and need to study. It is the first exam since coming to graduate school that I have truly felt freaked- out about. I am completely clueless on the subject (issues in measurement and psychometrics). The scary thing is that I cannot even b-s this stuff, as I am generally so good at doing! I wish I had started studying way earlier, but there was just too much else going on. . . . . . and you can wish in one hand, and crap in the other and see which gets filled first. -a little wisdom from grumpier old men. "Stress makes you stupid." - Mark. I am fucked. Current Mood: stressed Current Music: decendents (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 3rd, 2001
11:02 pm	bitter angst. . . people in love need to be blown up! shot to the head. . . okay, maybe that is an exaggeration, but i am getting sick of annoying lovey dovey shit. bitter much? maybe. jealous. . . not at all, i don't think. yeah there are definitely things i miss, A LOT! but i wouldn't say jealous. my roommate and her fiance are so happy and perfect it is sick. especially while i am trying to write two papers and do a project all in one night! other people too. blah. for all of those happy in love right now...more power to ya. . .but not me. "i sold my soul to the devil and then i stole it back!" irony or just fucked up. . . today they were opening our pool in the middle of a snow storm. . . got tickets to ani d. at red rocks! heard it is an amazing experience to see a show there. . . i am psyched. can't wait. Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: buddy holly (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 1st, 2001
12:31 am	blah. . . I need a hug! . . . only problem, my favorite huggers are half- way across the country. Note to self: Need to find Denver huggers. Current Mood: tired Current Music: smashing pumpkins-Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, April 29th, 2001
1:35 am	remember always, regret never. . . Spring is an intense season. Everything is somehow so much more vivid, so much more real. It always seems to symbolize a reawakening of emotion. It is hard to believe that it has been two years already. That intense spring. It is as if i can still feel it. Smell it even. The end of school was upon us. Finals time. Yet, i had to go home. My grandfather was so very sick. It hurt so much. While i was home, my cousin was killed in a horrific car accident. He was only 19. All of a sudden, he was gone. Still, we had to go back to Vermont. I dropped jackie off at the dorm. I drove around all night. . . because i couldn?t go home. Finally i drove to the bus station and waited. I knew that he would be in that night. Everything was so new. We hardly knew each other. Yet even at the time, i knew. . . all i needed were his arms around me and everything would somehow be okay. There was no explanation. It just felt right. I had found solace. I was now safe. it is funny how memories hit you. I always remember that spring - probably one of the most intense periods of my life thus far. Yet in this brief moment, came more than just a memory but a re-experience of emotion of such intensity that, for a brief instant in time, the present and the past became indistinguishable. . . I was there again. We miss you Patrick. . . . . . sometimes i long to go back to that time. To live with such intensity. Feeling so deeply that i still, at times, shudder thinking about it. So many beginnings . . . so many endings. . . so much life. Current Mood: pensive Current Music: cranberries (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 28th, 2001
1:32 am	I just have to add. . . that stressed guy in the last entry on my page looks like a fraigle on crack or something! Current Mood: amused (1 Comment |Comment on this)