Tiny, indivisible energy packets called quanta excite me.

current mood: contemplative
current music: He's never early, he's always late...

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Main objective in life at the moment:
Reconcile logic with intuition.

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Ever learn about Giordano Bruno in school?
Ofcourse not; not like they have time to introduce us to characters that are actually worth knowing about....

Sixteenth century philosopher,poet, self made astronomer of sorts, and former Dominican priest who left the order in sake of his beliefs about the universe as we know it.

In 1576, immediately after forsaking the church, he wandered round Europe as a traveling philosopher. His ideas were that if the seemingly uncountable stars of the universe were all suns, how many other worlds like Earth might be out there?
These notions of infinite other worlds out there did not sit well with a church that believed strongly that the Earth and mankind were unique among God's handiwork.

In 1593, after publishing a few books proclaiming his radical ideas, he was lured back to Rome by the promise of a new job, and turned over to the inquisition.
For eight years, Bruno remained in chains in Rome's Castel Sant'Angelo, to be ruthlessly interrogated.
Finally, after a trial by Jesuit Cardinal Robert Bellamarine, one of the churches so-called greatest intellectuals at the time, Bruno was then sentenced to death.
In all this, he was unrepentant to the end; said he: " I have nothing to recant, nor will I. In pronouncing my sentence, your fear is greater than mine in hearing it."

To make doubly sure he'd be true to his word and not recant, Jesuit and Dominican priests overseeing his trial clamped his jaw with an iron gag, pierced his tongue with an iron spike, and stuck another spike through his palate.
On Saturday, February Nineteenth, 1600, he was carted through Rome, then stripped his clothes where the priests burned him at the stake.

Viewed at the time as either a complete heretic or, at best, a misguided philosopher, Bruno left no indelible impact on astronomy or cosmology, save that his visionary notion of other worlds that is still considered a possibility by modern astronomers who seek out extraterrestrial life.

After all this, his chief piece of astronomical posterity is a crater on the moon, which was named after him.

So, for what cause would you allow yourself to spend years in prison, be stripped naked, gagged, tied to a stake, paraded through the streets of Rome with your jaw clamped shut, a spike piercing your tongue, and another through your palate? Thereafter your prospect to be burned alive? ....Perhaps for family,
your country,
or religion?
Or how about for an idea?

Courage just doesn`t come anymore like it did. We can say what we wish in this day and age, and believe exactly what we'd like.
Amazing to speculate on a time when we'd be roasted terrifically for the way the lot of us parade around in our fluxing hair colours and see through clothing.

My new Hero.

current mood: thoughtful

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I update only to say:
R.I.P Dee Dee Ramone

current mood: sullen.

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A lot of people are dying.
Bye.

current mood: what, you expected more?
current music: some shitty rap the japaneezer next to be is blaring.

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Another quote of the moment:

Miles: " I just love those '52 girls. Beehives are just awesome. SO Rock'N'Roll !!"

SHO' 'NUFF.

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If i took you off my 'friend's list' it's because i don`t have time/desire to read the sorts of things you write.

current mood: blank
current music: Just nod if you can hear me

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-I believe if you know how to do one thing well in your life; learn how to question.
-I don`t believe i will ever be too old for the smurfs.
-I have strange desires to staple stuffed animals to my walls.
-I am head over heels for a certain Bear named Miles, and i'm a corny, sick love puppy. yes i am.
-I hate car alarms.
-I hate people who feel the need to bump their shit music,
yet i will play mine as loud as i wish.
-I say i hate a lot of things, yet, respectively, i don`t believe i've
ever truly felt hate. Nor do i believe most people have either.
-I laugh at people who get offended easily.
-I really don`t understand people who feel the need to get violent,
But maybe if someone tried to physically hurt someone i loved, i would.
-I only feel estrogen in the presence of small furry things.
-Pride in one's country is the ultimate sign of weakness and embarrassing aimlessness.
-I don`t respect people who have bad grammar. Yes. I am a grammar nazi.
-? in fact...?I don`t respect most people.
-The only people who can compete for respect are those who have conviction; any will do.
-I don`t understand goth anymore.
-?and...?i don`t want to.
-Amazon.com wishlists are the most unbelievable thing to come out of the internet in awhile; no that is not a good thing when i say that.
-DOWN with body hair.
-I automatically distrust people who prefer dogs to cats; yet if you like one and not the other, i'll also distrust you.
-I want a ferret.
-...and an elephant.
-...and a snake.
-?...come to think...? I want one of every animal.
-I am deathly afraid of the ocean, yet i am keenly obsessed with it.
-I think underwear are pointless.
-I want to grab Miles' bum. NOW.
-I am fond of J-Rockers, but not the music so much.
-I am fond of deathrock, but not deathrockers so much.
-I think it would be cool if Oprah died, and think what you wanna think, i don`t mean that to be morbid or slimey.
it would honestly be intriguing.
-Also... i think it's high time madonna went too; or maybe Michael Jackson.


* Inspired by This.

current mood: awake
current music: None.

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Heh. This is the most ridiculous thing i've seen in LJLand in a long time;
ever since that Beautiful Freaks community. HAH.
The only thing worse than a 'goth'; a 'Christian Goth'!
I mean. It really makes no sense to me. All pre-packaged goths are people who crave togetherness,
All Christians are the same; a place to go to feel accepted.
So if you already had that in religion, why turn to 'goth'?
Actually, the more i think about it, the more it makes sense.
Two titles to hold that both grant their wearers a niche with fellow man.
They go hand & hand, don`t they?

current mood: amused
current music: If you think i am a nazi, well you get a gold star.

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I can`t believe these boots. You know which boots of which i speak.
...squared off toe; rectanglish kinda heel... I will lash out quite violently next time some blonde thunks by in them.
Nothing unnerves me more than watching all those hollywood morons go thumping off
in their stylish boots, whilst looking like they've shit their skivvies.

---Valid point of the day---
If you're going to wear heels, learn how to function in them.
Sometimes throughout the day, one might have to pump one's legs back and again in a
scissor like motion called walking. I don`t think these people remember to consider that
when they purchase such shoes. Argh...

P.s...In other news, today Miles and i noted that it's high time Oprah got raveled up
in a tasty little scandal; preferable a sexual one.
I can see it now:
"OPRAH CAUGHT DIDDLING LOCAL YOUNGSTERS."
Oh yeah, and about that asshole who is called Dr. Phil...
Well, we've not yet come up with something brutal enough for him.

current mood: amused
current music: FLA ? "Justify my love"

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You are the light of my life, Miles.
Thank you for being your amazing faggoty self!

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Smells are very important to us.
We hardly give enough credit to pheromones and things of that nature.
The other night i was walking along, i smelled something awfully familiar.
It's the strangest feeling; i could almost recall a certain instance or string of them from early in my life,
just based on this one smell.
Now... go ahead and ask me what exactly it was i smelt?
I've no idea, truly. Was it a plant, or a tree? or some common household thing excreting
from someone's house? i have no idea, i cannot recall... which leads me to believe i never knew;
... as when we are children we don`t bother to seek the information about these things.
Isn`t that amazing how much goes unnoticed around us?

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You wake up everyday and you fear life.
You wonder why your's has to be the way it is, and why you got stuck with it.
Soon years will pass by and melt into what seems like a dream,
and you'll still be sitting there wondering what went wrong.....
WHY??
Make the decision to live or die. Yeah... that might seem totally irrational an ultimatum...
but is it really?
What kind of life is it to live yours always wishing it was different?
It's amazing how things such as a financial situtation, or a lover can take ahold of us
and completely leave us without sight of what should be really important.
And above all else, usually nothing can have this effect on us like the past.
If you chose to LIVE, you chose to let go. Relinquish the grasp you have on a time, a situation,
or a moment in which you lost everything or could have done something to make it different ?for the better?.
It's so easy to let those moments dictate the rest of your life; to carry these times around with you is the burden of death,
or might as well be, anyways.

I post these things not because i've come to any higher level than everyone else,
but because sometimes you just have moments when you see what really matters,
? Some more often than others...? and by posting it, i might come back in a not so aware moment,
and perhaps awaken again.

current mood: awake
current music: Cinema Strange ? En Hiver

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ABOUT FUCKING TIME@! Feb. f)oi(st imma be a cosmetologist.


^{hey guess what.}



I heard ACE OF BASE today.

current mood: yeyah!
current music: I SAW THE SIGN AND IT OPENED UP MEH EYUHS

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_{- I MUST HAVE THIS POSTER -}

^{...AND THIS ONE TOO.}

current mood: OH YEYAH.
current music: tumbling down ¤ The venus in furs

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'wishlists', the internet vs. real life, mind games, plastic, christmas, web cams, clubs, bars,your social sect, your family, your friends, your lovelife, social grace, double meanings, pretense, your car, your cigarettes, your drugs and other obsessions; your entire world.

^{do you see the distinction?.....}


_{...i Don`t.}

current mood: contemplative

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"How was your christmas..?"
"How was your New year's?.."
"Season's Greetings!..."
"Happy holidays!..."


Oh, go to hell.
What do all these have in common? They're annoying as hell, unoriginal,
and getting really old. I really like how you all pretend like these things matter; Christmas and such.
You're shitting me and everyone else if you don`t think Christmas is a child's holiday, and New year's is for overworked lame asses teetering on the edge of an anxiety attack; hoping next year will be better than this year, since lord knows it really grabbed you by the balls; who still wish they had a holiday to take the pains of of reality away and give them just one more reason to get shitfaced.
Hey man. Why need a reason?
" Times of togetherness", oh BLAH.
Most people hate one or more individuals in their 'family', does it make sense you'd want to BE with them?? even for a day?
Go out and create your OWN holiday. Or better yet, take time to make ^everyday a reason to get shitfaced and celebrate.




That is all.

current mood: annoyed

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... But get insulted when they actually heed your words.
Hmm.
You know... there are certain things you just " don`t say " ....
<sub>Why is that?</sub>
We are brought up in the states and most other places,
to be hyper sensitive.
Some one gets what i call morbidly honest with you,
and most likely you take offense.
These social graces cause me great confusion.
For a society who places so much weight on not ' saying things behind our backs',
We sure don`t appreciate truth very much either.










_Btw-- i think your hair is lame/ugly/ [and, or] overrated.

current mood: discontent
current music: SGC ¤ Assassin Years

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I, Raven Chris/tine Shine am now a legally ordained Reverend.
Courtesy of United Life Churches.com. Heh heh heh.
I can now unite people in holy fucking matrimony and give
one helluva funeral service. ? Blood and guts and everything..i mean, what good
are those things after you die anyways...??

You know you all are jealous....



But seriously tho.... ^ That's pretty funny, huh?
Heh heh. i thought still think so. :D

current mood: amused
current music: Penis Flytrap ? Now

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.. For yet again you've filled my friend's pages with excitement
otherwise known as online tests and other pinfeather-ishness.
But you know what?
This thing is actually sort of fun.


Raven
(Old English)


~ meaning ~
Blackbird


~ motivation ~
Wanting to be successful in life


~ character ~
Has no fear


~ feelings ~
Relaxed at all times


~ intelligence ~
A person able to think logically


~ spiritual ~
Their inner strength overcomes obstacles


~ nature ~
Is always jovial


~ inherent ~
Noted for your serenity




Miles
(Greek/Latin)


~ meaning ~
Soldier


~ motivation ~
Has a conviction in life


~ character ~
Has empathy with others


~ feelings ~
A person who is loving and caring


~ intelligence ~
Is intelligent and wise


~ spiritual ~
Peaceful and calm


~ nature ~
Someone who is friendly and outgoing


~ inherent ~
Has artistic qualities

current mood: content
current music: Wolfshiem ¤ Heroin, she said...

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