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Monday, August 26th, 2002
9:41 am	4th day here.... life has been decent here so far, no problems yet except that i need to get a real job to get some actual money before i start apprenticing. the weather here is unbelievable, warm, no mosquitoes, just awesome. hung out with ben and crystal friday night. we went to ben's band practice, he is drumming for this kinda screamo sounding band called She's So Devestating. we got awesome burritos, and went to a bar called the park. it was fun. the burritos coming out the next day were not so fun. saturday i went to a motocross race up in greeley with some racers, like four or five of these guys live in the same house and they are so cool. the race was neat, i had never been to one before and there were some good spills there as well. after that, we went to jermaine's so i could meet him and see if we got along. i didn't know what to expect, if i would like them and if they would like me and so on, but we got there, and everyone was so nice, he was introducing me as the new roomate and we had just met a minute earlier. it is a good situation, i think i have four roomates, two of which work at guitar center, and it is cheap. a house in a nice neighborhood in denver, 300 bucks a month covers everything, food, water, phone, internet, power, etc.. i should be moving there by the beginning of september. lastnight we watched the new guy, and the sweetest thing. the first one was surprisingly kinda funny and rollins is in it, the second one was L-A-M-E. too much outrageous girl power for me to handle, it was really ridiculous and far-fetched. today i am drawing and writing a mission statement to hopefully get a job at a music store out here, and awaiting a reply from guy to see if i can use him as a reference, and trying to get ian lindley's email address, as i think he used to work at wax trax out here in denver so maybe he could help me out as well. let me know how all of you are doing. p.s.-Frog Brigade and MIRV are playing here on my birthday, maybe i will get to meet Les again! awesome, Les on my birthday, too good. too good. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, August 22nd, 2002
8:04 pm	road trippin' okay, here goes; i didn't leave home until roughly 1 in the afternoon monday, headed to augusta, in hopes of going through manchester to get to rt.2, ended up getting lost in disgusta (huh?), and went through belgrade to farmington. from there i headed west into new hampshire where i was appropriately listening to scissorfight very loud, and on into vermont. new hampshire=nice, vermont=can eat a big one. i didn't know i was in vermont for about 20 minutes, and went too far. then i got almost to new york off rt.4, and gassed up. get into new york and head south on rt.4, and get on 87, i think. upstate/central new york is great, nice roads and nice rest areas. slept at a rest stop in pattersonville, new york monday night. from there, drove west to erie, pennsylvania to get gas. from there, drove through cleveland, and i was taken back by lake erie, i thought it was a damn ocean it was so huge! then on to indiana and illinois where i slept at yet another rest stop, it was very hot and slimy. woke up and drove through iowa and nebraska, stopping a couple times for gas. iowa and nebraska can stuff it too, just flat, square, and windy. got to denver about 1 am wednesday morning. tried to find mike's apartment and knocked on the wrong door, called and got the machine. come to find out i was about 500 feet away from the beehive of apartment houses here in east denver, and slept in the parking lot, and i awoke and called again, this time getting them, and settled in and watched a movie and slept. then mike came back from teaching around noon, and we went to a skatepark and watched skaters. i guess saturday we go to a motocross race to watch mike's friends who are mxers and skaters that are on espn alot. nice guys. i meet jermaine saturday too, the dude whom i am gonna be living with, i guess it is a house and pretty cheap. hell, i am easy to get along with. i also gotta find ben & crystal soon, and await news from becky when she gets back from her jaunt as well. denver is nice so far, i have not seen much of it, but the weather is great, no mosquitos, and much to my surprise, we don't get much snow here. here is a list of my consumptions on the road; mileage in farmington-112,500, mileage in denver-114,667. gas-$90 packs of cigarettes(i know i know, you drive for three days alone)-4 energy drinks-7 coffees-4 tolls-around $20 phone cards-$10 bottled water-2 1/2 gallons milk-1 quart drygas-1 bottle oil-2 quarts that is what i paid for on the trip out. much thanks to my grandmother for giving me extra money to go out on and my aunt for the huge box of food, both of which proved to be very necessary. i also need opi's and adam's and barry's and corey's and ryan's email addresses, i have forgotten to save them. you are all missed so very much and i mean that. -a lover like no other (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, August 19th, 2002
9:29 pm	new york at a rest stop in pattersonville, new york, just west of albany. gonna try to call mike and get some rest. trip going well so far, will fill in details later. peace. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, August 17th, 2002
8:44 pm	hello seekers.... okay, friday night i went to sean's to hang out one last time. it was me, sean, seth, jason, steve, kaetii, jesse, mackenzie, joe and delilah. it went fine. we enjoyed spirits. um, joe left early for no announced reason, but we assumed it was because kaetii was playing with delilah's hair. 2 lessons learned from this; kaetii is like this when she parties and that's cool, it shows me how dumb it is when i get jealous over stupid shit like that as i saw no reason why joe should be upset, but i could see myself doing the same thing in the same situation, and that is just silly when i see someone else doing it. so, it went alright, i guess steve left early. sean and seth left kinda early to visit their sick grandma. thanks to all who had good times, and extra special thanks to kaetii for waking me up to say goodbye when she left, so i could see ya one last time. i'm sure it won't be the last for any of us. not at all. i awoke finally around 10, stumbled around and headed to the moose to bring ryan his show tape i made. i like the guys that i work with, but i see how much i am liked around there. any time anyone else has left there, a card or gift certificate or something was done for them, not for me (i have been there 3 1/2 years, and probably not for ryan. we are brothas from anotha mutha mi amigo. fuck them, i guess they figured we wouldn't like dope as a going away present. i then went to visit my grandmother in winslow. that was good. i am borrowing a us atlas from her to help me with the trip. she bought me a sandwich from big g's, and we watched movies all afternoon and a couple aunts and cousins came over. when i left i figured she would give me a couple bucks or a phone card for the trip, but she gave me a hundred dollar check. i told her she didn't have to but i was not gonna turn it away, and she didn't think i could make it out there on the hundred bucks i had to go out there on to begin with. big thanx to my grandma for helping me as much as she has (i lived with her for a couple years after my dad died). i will post once or twice more before i leave. peace. Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: 5 headed retard-"crap rap" (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, August 16th, 2002
1:05 pm	this day events of warped day; went to spiller's, met ryan at the moose in waterville, went to get josh at barnes and nobles, went to portland to get our checks. spiller runs out of gas just off the highway. we got some gas and i snapped a pic of spiller putting gas in his car on the side of the road for the sole purpose of humor later on. we then went to the office and i got my check as did ryan and i said my goodbyes to brett and chris and guy, it has been a fun ride and by far the best job i have ever had, but we must move on. all of us raided the free cd and record pile, and i got; austin power's goldmember soundtrack, the new morcheeba, the queen's golden jubilee 2002 live cd (brian may, phil collins, shirley bassey, bryan adams, tom jones, annie lennox, ozzy, elton john, clapton, steve winwood, and others), theory of a deadman, riddlin' kids, slum village, stay gold, songs from the penalty box 5, and the best part= "scratch" the movie on dvd!!!! i watched it just now and it is fucking nice, same director as "hype" and it is a documentary on the turntablist scene, i love it! then we cashed our checks and headed down, took the wrong exit but didn't make us too late. got through the gates around 12:30, and ryan and i were not on the list, so we had to pay, fuck! doublefuck to the fact i could not bring my 35mm in, i guess i needed a press pass for it, only dispoables allowed in there, you can take pix, but shitty ones only. good points; flogging molly, from autumn to ashes, finch, unearth, goldfinger, a little bit of thursday, seeing ama and miles and miles's sister brie and paul bouchard and randy and some other familar faces who's names ecscape me, and the ara booth where i got some good patches and pins and some good caps for spraypaints. bad points; bad setup, waay too crowded and too many ppl in a small area, very hot, exspensive food and water, shutting the freewater off because it was causing a big mudslinging circle, and teenybopper gapgirls with glittery abercrombie punkprincess shirts. the warped tour has seen it's better days, i am sure of that. gonna try to clean my car out today and go to town for a final hoo-rah at bishop's. should be fun, just think happy chris, and you will be. remember that people are assholes and there is nothing that can be done to change that besides shut them down. i might pierce picard's septum today, dunno though. drop some knowledge on me today. Current Mood: apathetic Current Music: morcheeba w/slick rick-"women lose weight" (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 14th, 2002
7:28 pm	events of today: eyestonia and merideth came over and we went to josh's and knocked on doors for about ten minutes until he answered the door, i think he was smokn' crack, the crackhead. we then went to l-town bullmoose where josh and ryan bought muzak, and i got to see amanda one more time, and corey, and rhiannon, and got hugs from all. we then went to see candice at work, but she had left, and then to brunswick bullmoose. we then went to (ack) strawberries and got tix for my sister and josh for warped tour. went to burger queen and went home. i wanted to go to the ocean but i have family here right now bbq-ing and waiting on me. next stop, warped tour. spiller, i will see you around 6:30a.m., then to meet in waterville and pick josh up at barnes and nobles, get our checks in portland, and head to beantown. i really am only stoked to see flogging molly and bosstones and avoid one thing. if any a y'all need a ride or suggestions on life, call me or email me. come efficient or stay deficient. (Comment on this)
7:19 pm	i dunno if i should find this funny or not, i hate the fucking band. Let The Body Hit The Floor - wookubus (2:37 PM PST 08/14/2002) Drowning Pool frontman Dave Williams was found dead on the bands tour bus this afternoon at a stop on this years Ozzfest tour. A posting on the bands official website regarding his death has been made available here, while a press release confirming the unfortunate passing was also sent out to various press. More information is expected as details are unearthed. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 13th, 2002
8:35 pm	mwahahahahaha! (Comment on this)
1:12 pm	what to do? cephallic carnage/december/kreator 9/24 at the bluebird theatre, or midtown/recover/taking back sunday the same day at tulagi? descisions descisions. oh and the plea for peace tour hits denver 9/30, that is donnas, international noise conspiracy, promise ring, lawrence arms, jimmy eat world, and common rider. cool. damn, go to pollstar and see all the cool shows there, and use it to find shows in your area as well, fantastic site. i have not taken a vacation ever and this feels wierd. as much as i like not going to work, i wish i was there right now. going through all my stuff, pix, etc., and missing people terribly already and i have not even left yet. i have met so many awesome peole because of my job, and now i have to leave it all. this sucks. hopefully i can find an equally sociable job out there besides piercing and tattooing, i am thinking doorman at a club or something, that would be fun. anybody else going to warped thursday should get ahold of me (445-4820) or josh or ryan and we should all carpool or convoy down there. i know spiller is going down, maybe miles and ama (not sure, i thought they were doing canada), i wonder if fitzy or chan or chicken or cody or paul "clark kent" bouchard are going. we should all go as a posse. is amanda panda going? that would be cool. and there is saturday too; burnt by the sun/nora/lickgoldensky at the edge in disgusta. hopefully josh can go to brunswick tomorrow and do me a solid and come get me so i can see candice before i leave. erm, just shaved my head again and decided to get rid of the chops as well, i almost left a moustache, but i hate them, it looked kinda funny though. drop me a line. Current Mood: amused Current Music: mike ness-"ballad of a lonely man" (Comment on this)
Monday, August 12th, 2002
12:00 pm	come october 8th, my life just may be complete.... Various Artists - Rise Above (2.13.61/Sanctuary) : 01 - "Rise Above" - (Chuck D. of Public Enemy, Henry Rollins) 02 - "Nervous Breakdown" - (Keith Morris of Black Flag, Circle Jerks) 03 - "Fix Me" - (Iggy Pop) 04 - "American Waste" - (Neil Fallon of Clutch) 05 - "I've Had It" - (Cedric Bixler Zavala of The Mars Volta) 06 - "I've Heard It Before" - (Jeff Moreira of Poison The Well) 07 - "Room 13" - (Corey Taylor of Slipknot) 08 - "Wasted" - (Exene Cervenka of X) 09 - "Jealous Again" - (Nick Oliveri of The Queens Of The Stone Age) 10 - "TV Party" - (Henry Rollins) 11 - "No Values" - (Hank Williams III) 12 - "Gimmie, Gimmie, Gimmie" - (Dean Ween of Ween) 13 - "Depression" - (Casey Chaos of Amen) 14 - "Six Pack" - (Mike Patton of Faith No More/Mr. Bungle/Tomahawk) 15 - "Police Story" (Ice-T) 16 - "Revenge" - (Tom Araya of Slayer) 17 - "Thirsty and Miserable" - (Lemmy Kilmister of Mot?rhead) 18 - "What I See" - (Chuck Dukowski of Black Flag, October Faction) 19 - "No More" - (Tim Armstrong and Lars Frederikson of Rancid) 20 - "Black Coffee" - (Henry Rollins) 21 - "Slip It In" - (Henry Rollins and Inger Lorre of The Nymphs) 22 - "Annihilate This Week" - (Henry Rollins and Kira Roessler of Black Flag) 23 - "My War" - (Henry Rollins) 24 - "Nervous Breakdown" (Live) - (Ryan Adams of Whiskeytown) a benefit cd for the west memphis three put together by rollins. i get m?y excited when i see this. oooooh. (Comment on this)
11:03 am	arrrggghhhhh! Your pirate name is: Dread Pirate Rackham Like the famous Dread Pirate Roberts, you have a keen head for how to make a profit. You have the good fortune of having a good name, since Rackham (pronounced RACKem, not rack-ham) is one of the coolest sounding surnames for a pirate. Arr! Not you? Try doing it again. gimme a pirate name (Comment on this)
Sunday, August 11th, 2002
9:59 pm	open hand to ALL my friends.... "don't ever fucking question that" -by atmosphere Don't ever fucking question that (6x) [Slug] Enough to hold you to the brightest of lights, to place you dangerously close to that sun, enough to acknowledge the flaws you can't ignore and recognize the cause of what's done is done, more than enough to put my name behind my ideals, and neglect my logic twice daily. enough to keep me looking for my lucy in the sky with gems, when I remember how you used to call me baby, enough to look in my mirror with detest for every tear you shed regardless of why you wept, enough to curse any man who can't appreciate the depth of the ocean I swam till I ran out of breath. I love you, don't ever fucking question that, that's why we'll probably never get along. if I was better at finding the right words to say, I wouldn't need to write these motherfucking songs. [Slug] I love you, I love you (faded) never, don't ever fucking question that, don't ever fucking question that. riding the public transit, I study the blank stares to answer my questions of how and why I got so many grey hairs. I take care of the nervous that runs through my extension cord, and I reflect on that reoccurring dream where we met the Lord. single file lines, to give her a pound one at a time but when i faced her- I attempted to embrace her, she looked so fine, I awoke from my sleep before her bodyguard had a chance to beat me to submission and I still walk with my religion. I watched the children scurry in circles around a two-way mirror, worrying about which side of the glass projects the reflection clearer. I hear the whispers of the wind trying to get me to grin, gassing' me up about the love that I plucked and I've been stuck within, for every eclipse that stares at me from the other side of a paper cup of espresso- I light a match beneath a kettle, and for ever set of lips that become attached and equipped with that program to seek success, i bleed my ethics out a slow drip. I used to know a man who met a woman, dont remember where, big beautiful eyes and light brown hair, she was from the burbs, he was from the south side of the city, this was back when Franklin avenue was still pretty. two different worlds apart, but the world is just a small town- we all know how people like to get down. here we go, aquarius, pisces, feel the flow of the fluid as I swim through it to free my soul. bush shoved the cane without the glove numbed the pain. the magic from up above what it does for the brain, make the love, paint the picture, write the song, the player met a virgin made a virgo named him sean. make the love, paint the picture, write the song, the player met a virgin made a virgo named him sean. make the love, paint the picture and write that song till the break of dawn. [Slug] I love you- don't ever fucking question that, that's why we'll probably never get along. if I was better at finding the right words to say, I wouldn't have to write these motherfucking songs.(2X) I love you (make the love, paint the picture, and write that song [in faded background]). I love you.. I love you.. (Comment on this)
4:52 pm	hrmmmm.... waiting for joe and delilah to get here and go swimming at lake st. george, marshall shores to be specific. i'm over it. fuck hating, it is just baggage i don't need. josh, sorry for crying on your shoulder. kaetii, sorry i was mad, i felt left out and uninvited. can't make all the pretty girls like me, eh? just don't hate me. smile. joe and delilah are here. talk later, leave a message. Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: lake trout live from tsongas arena in lowell (Comment on this)
3:40 pm	damnit.... jesus christ man, stop putting yourself through this. i am letting myself get way too upset over this. i shouldn't care. problem is, i do, i like to give people the benefit of the doubt. people show their true colors after awhile. i want everything to come up roses but it can't, that's life but i don't want it to go this way. i don't want to burn any bridges. fuckin' a i wish i was cool. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
12:55 pm	behold one of my favorit groups ever, the dandy warhols "not if you were the last junkie on earth" I never thought you'd be a junkie because heroin is so passe. But today, if you think that I don't know about depression and emotional pain, you're insane, or your a fool who hasn't paid attention to the words that I say. In a way, I can't help but feel responsible. I always knew that you were insane with your pain. But I never thought you'd be a junkie because heroin is so passe now a-day. You never thought you'd get addicted, just be cooler in an obvious way. I could say, shouldn't you have got a couple peircings and decided may-be that you were gay. In a way I can't help but feel responsible, I always knew that you were insane with your pain But I never thought you'd be a junkie because heroin is so passe hey. heroin is so passe hey. ===================================================================== "whipping tree" You've got me all tied up to the whipping tree. But, oh, my friend, I'm just glad to be in love again. My dear, it's queer. I know low and I know fear. If it's real, I feel I'm not man enough to handle it still, oh. ===================================================================== "minnesoter" Yeah, I could rock her Like a doctor If I found a way to get her off first I could own her, the crazy loner, If I found my way to Minnesoter. In a slumber, I'm sawing lumber I saw my baby dance a Latin number with her shirt off Man her skin's soft But in a mood she'd rather if I jerked off. If I found my way to Minnesoter Minesoter, Oh yeah. ===================================================================== "green" You opened the door, I let myself in. Between you and me, I only believe what I want to believe. I guess it's because I'm greener than green. Only because I'm green. (repeat 2x) I came up to your floor you were dressed just a little obscene. And it shut me down quite sexually like a pre-adolescent becuase I'm greener than green. Only because greener then green. Only because I'm green. ===================================================================== "boys better" Boys had better beware You could seem to color your hair. Or on a wig, you already spent all the dough to cover your rent. But not so cool man if you care, for all the other boys caught in your bleach job hair. And girls better beware. Boys, you better, you better. Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Boys said she had, like God's hands. A-men Boys had better beware You could seem a wasted affair And like a bitch you already spent All the dough you promised your friends But not so cool man if you care for all the other boys caught in your bleach job hair. And girls you better beware, Boy you better, you better. Oh man it's not fair to all the other boys caught in your bleach job hair And girls you better beware. Boys, you better, you better. ===================================================================== i love the dandy warhols so much right now. Current Mood: frustrated Current Music: dandy warhols-"hard on for jesus" (Comment on this)
11:35 am	heh heh heh heh............ Take Which 'fallen one' are you? Quiz by Xera (Comment on this)
11:23 am	recapping.... umm, so the past couple days; friday\ ali came in a couple times, that was nice. some dude from ruby tuesdays was hitting on her hard, and almost grabbed her boob! the look of astonishment on both our faces was a kodak moment indeed. then troz came in, and josh, and ryan. and amanda!! i was so happy to see her, and she called ali and convinced her to go to pool as well. so troz and i picked up sean and steve, and headed there. good there were no hostilities, i thank everyone for their company, and am not gonna harbor on here what let me down that evening, alot. i was sad when amanda and ali left, and it went downhill on a personal level from there. amanda, i am gonna miss you so much, you are the nicest and most sincere friend i have, you have shown me there are still some decent respectable girls left out there, and when you gals road trip, you are most definetely welcome. saturday\ work was normal, last day, no going away anything whatsoever, shannon stopped in when i got out and we shot the shit for awhile outside. tavis never called me, so he must have been busy, he better get ahold of me if he wants that septum done. went to seth's afterwards, and hung out for a bit, went out in my car at 1a.m, and dozed until around 5a.m. as i was soooo damn tired. got here and slept a couple hours, and yeah, that's about it. i have nothing to do all week besides warped tour thursday and burnt by the sun/nora saturday, please for the love of christ, get ahold of me!! i am bored as hell! Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: fucking rollins voicing a commercial for monster.com (Comment on this)
Friday, August 9th, 2002
10:39 am	hrmmmm.... work went fairly uneventful yesterday. got me and eyestone tix to the warped tour, one each, no plus ones, sorry. you all should still go, though. cleaned out my cd's at work. stepped outside around nine, and this dude with a backpack was all "what's it like to have a job?", and i'm all, "not that great, just another slave to the green paper", and he's all "i'm backpacking to hawaii, got any spare change or a joint you can toss my way, can i make you a bracelet?", and i'm all, "sorry dude, no cashflow, and i don't carry joints on me", and he's all "how are the cops around here? i gotta drink my bud and i'm carrying my gear" as he proceeds to pull a buweiser pounder from his backpack and drinks it in the parking lot. heh, that's waterville for ya. see all you important people tonight. peace Current Mood: blah Current Music: t-rex/life's a gas (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 7th, 2002
8:44 pm	whahahahahahaha! via amanda panda's online diary, i found my friend adam's online diary, and i had to cut and paste this, i hope he doesn't mind. i laughed out loud alone in front of the computer for a good ten minutes. adam rocks, i wish i knew him better. here it is; {2002-07-26 - 11:54 a.m. Sometimes I think about cats and it scares me. My cat is so fat that I think he hates me because I don't feed him enough. Once when my parents left they gave me an automatic cat feeder called the la beefstro. My cat ate all the food in three-gallon tank in the first two days! And when it was gone he just sat there and stared longingly at the bowl hoping for more to come out. I said no kitty! No more la beefstro, and gave him a regular dish, empty for the night. Then I got up n he middle of the night and caught Tigger eating the dog food after eating the other cats food, that sat on the chair. Where he wasn't allowed to go. Then he "meowed" for more food. adam} yeah, i hope you enjoyed that as much as i did. peace and chicken grease. Current Mood: giggly Current Music: tracy morgan on the t.v. in the background (4 Comments |Comment on this)
1:28 pm	hey guys josh and troz (and anybody else for that matter, it will probably be my last public appearance in h20-ville, besides being lazy at seth and sean's), pool friday night. i get out at 8. meet me at the store, crackas. call me. or something. (1 Comment |Comment on this)