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LiveJournal for Mimi The Faerie.
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| Monday, March 24th, 2003 |
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heya toby, I posted these here so you could see them w/o having to go into deadjournal. Isn't my lover breathtaking? That's his natural hair color too. *swoons* **************************************** Piccies from Sadies dinner, at my house. Courtney and Steve: together for 6 months Me and Alex: together for 1 1/2 months Emily Carter and Robin: together for 3 or 4 weeks. We had this mafia theme going on. Twas hilarious. Isn't Alex hot? hehehehe. I love being on 8 different medications! WHOOO.  left to right: back of alex's head, robin, courtney, me, side of emily c's head  same  left to right around the table: awkward angle of me, steve, emily carter, alex, courtney.  steve, alex, robin, courtney, another odd angle of me  ish Alex playing the piano with Robin! they're so talented *swoons* |
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| Saturday, March 22nd, 2003 |
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I want to marry Alex. I want to run off with him and chase the sunset until it disappears and fall asleep on the cool white sand with the sparkling ocean sipping at my toes, I want to wake up to his beautiful arms around me, his soft lips on mine, open my eyes and be met with his. I want to be married to Alex. I want to live in a little beach house and I want to fuck him and have children and live happily ever after. *shivers* Passion. Nights filled with passion, days filled with love. Writing prose underneath the beating yellow sun. When a break was warranted, we'd strip off our clothes and run into the blue abyss. Maybe get a boat. *note to self: remember sunscreen* I love him so unbelievably much. And the truth is, I haven't completely opened myself up to him yet. Just imagine how bombarded by love we two will be when completely uninhibited by anything. When we are just two souls intertwining. Nothing more, nothing less. He brought up the ideal family yesterday. GODDAMNIT. Why is he everything that I've ever wanted? Why can he fulfill my every wish? Why am I obsessed with him? What will I do when he leaves me... I don't know. Move on, find someone new. But he is the epitome of love. How am I to love another when none can compare to him. I try to find his faults. But he is perfect. For me. And it's not annoying. In his eyes, are the secrets I've always known, but have never told anyone. Watching him, I feel free. I don't quite understand why he loves me yet, but I hope to soon find out. I desperately wish it's not because of physical reasons. Amazing, how I feel we're going to fast and we've really only made out. Is that possible? Are my feelings justified? What has become of me? This girl who "fucked for fun" This girl who had boys wrapped around her fingers. This girl who was a slut. A cheating bitch. What has become of this girl? Is she gone for good? Or shall she resurface again and turn my world into hell? I don't know. I fear for Alex that this girl might come back up. Not the cheating bitchy girl, but the scared, frightened girl that ran away from Terrell. I'm afraid I will love Alex so much that I won't be able to handle my own emotions. And yet, I'm not afraid. If we break up, we break up. We move on, we find another one, possibly "the one" and we love them with every ounce of love that is left within our hearts.. And I'm actually not scared. I actually see a life without Alex. And this startles me. I feel like maybe, no, I'm just being a silly girl. A silly teenage girl that hasn't a clue about the world around her. The girl that will graduate from college and go out into the world by herself and think, "How could I ever think that Alex was my soul mate when the world is so full of even more beautiful things? What a foolish girl I was, to think that Alex was my all, that there was no life without him! Look at this world, look at these opportunities, none would be here had I married Alex. But I want to marry Alex. I want to fuck him and have beautiful children and I want my last name to be Grabski and I want to love him until we die. Foolish daydreams. What a way to to waste the day away. |
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| Wednesday, January 8th, 2003 |
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ive started posting back on my deadjournal www.deadjournal.com/~emifinan |
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| Monday, December 16th, 2002 |
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 What Kind of trendy fairy are you? brought to you by Quizilla i had a long entry but it didn't work. fucking computer. |
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What Kind of trendy fairy are you? brought to you by Quizilla i had a long entry but it didn't work. fucking computer. |
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| Saturday, December 14th, 2002 |
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 You Are Backdoor Barbie!You come complete with easy to remove velcro panties, a bottle of lube, and a home HIV test. Enema and butt plug sold separately. Not recommended for children under age 6. What Naughty Barbie Are *You*? More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva Madrigal Dinner been going well, I've had a full course meal both nights, (the servants bring us back the extra food, theres apples oranges and peanuts, wassail (hot apple cider with spices in it), rolls, gourmet salad, potatoes (they're mini ones) green beans, chicken (its SO good) and breaded pudding, which is orgasmic. I thought I was going to puke when I went onstage. I've been feeling off again lately. Last night I had a really nice talk with my dad. I love him, I can talk to him just about anything, I told him that I hadn't been enjoying choir lately, and that no matter how hard I try in school, I just can't break my bad habit of procrastination, how I was considering a career in makeup and hair styling. Life is all so confusing, he told me not to worry about what I'm going to do when I get older, most people don't even have it narrowed down to a specific field (i've narrowed it down to "art") Sometimes I think I come on too strong. Like I unintentionally try to seduce every guy that I see. It's really odd and disturbing. How I feel like I need a guy. I hate being single. I like having boyfriends. I'm still unsure of whether or not I'm ever going to cheat on someone again. I mean, it's not a conscious choice. It's not like I think cheating is ok. Its not like I've ever been "its ok to cheat on matt, its ok to cheat on drew" Its not a concsious effort, it just happens. And I'm not sure about whether or not its going to "happen" again and that disturbs me. I don't know. Maybe I'm insane. When I was younger I had myself convinced I was schizophrenic. It was odd. I'm going to florida during midwinter break ( in february) and I heard my mom planning the flight and she was saying that I was going to stop in D.C. both flights. If that happens, maybe I can plan it so I can see Toby. That would be awesome. Well my moms going to give me a massage (the only good thing she can do hehe) but I'll right again later friends. |
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| Thursday, December 12th, 2002 |
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 Which Gorgeous Rocky Horror Girl Are You? brought to you by Quizilla |
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| Tuesday, December 10th, 2002 |
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So after weeks of utter despair over the fact that I can't possibly fathom what rechid truth of life is depressing my soul, I'm happy again. Mostly because of Dayna and Ty. There is something about those two I love! Thankies for hanging out with me today you guyses! I think we should all go snowboarding. But none of us know how to snowboard. So for now I'll just continue to raptor stalk people and run into windows. hehe. Josh still likes me! Thats the last time I listen to Tami! That bitch! Toby was right. Tami is an awful person. She told me that Josh doesn't like me anymore" and so I was like, ok, I'm fine with that, I dont like him anyways (LIE) i know i know, im not quite over my pathological lying phase but I'm getting better! I only lie about myself, about how I feel and what I've done, I never lie to other people about things that could potentionally and quite possibly hurt them. But today I was talking to Allan and hes like "What the fuck, Josh still likes you, he talks about you all the time!" So I was like WEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. (thats the funniest flash cartoon) And one time I ran into a thug and I was like, yo motha fucka WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE Oh then I went and got slurpees with Erin and my Uncle (who is like a teenager) and me and Erin were like "Yeah we're running away" (sarcastically) and my Uncle was like, the other day I was thinking that I should've run away when I was 16, that would've been really cool. He's my favorite uncle, just because I can actually talk to him about my life, instead of summing myself up to be this great smart prude who loves attending quiet social gatherings and enjoys drinking hot chocolate by the fireplace everynight. But know, I can tell him everything. And he's really not good at being an adult, in fact he sucks as a father and as an Uncle, but hes still really cool. But I found this really unique survey in Toby's lj so here it is my friends. Reminds you of an ex-lover: the main one- corson auditorrium. and robitussen. the latest one- big fros Reminds you of an ex-friend: hmm, I dont really have any ex-friends Makes you cry: not knowing why I'm sad Makes you laugh: just about everything! Makes you smile: sweet memories, my kitten You never want to hear again: "Ahh, here it comes" (heard it TOO MANY TIMES) Sums up your teenage years: they are over yet You want to get married to: JESUS. haha. No, I wouldn't be able to handle marriage, I'd probably cheat too many times. You like to wake up to: my kitten You like out of your parents record collection: um.... A band your friend introduced you to: I mostly like music I find myself Makes you think of someone who died: organ donation, for Jefrrey who died when he was 16 because he couldn't get a heart. Reminds you of your first crush love: cant think back that far Reminds you of your now crush love: uniqueness Makes you think of sex: I have the mind of a boy who has just discovered his penis. (yes, I just discovered my 10 inch black cock and its amazing) Makes you think of being alone: my life Embarrassed to admit you like: christina aguilera Perks you up: push up bras (haha toby thats so cute) What do you love to sing: i cant sing [four beverages you drink frequently] 1. water 2. cherry coke 3. water 4. slurpees [five tv shows you liked when you were a little kid] 1. Mr. Dressup 2. shoes i cant remember 3. sesame street 4. whoa i just said shoes, i meant shows 5. we werent rich enough for cable, thats about all the shows we got. [four places to go in your area] 1. montys cafe 2. driving 3. bowling 4. ummm [five things to do when you're bored] 1. draw 2. drive around 3. go online 4. clean my room 5. read something [five things that never fail to cheer you up] 1. kittens 2. nice weather 3. cherry coke 4. chocolate (i get depressed after i eat it) 5. my nicholas [five things you can't live without] 1. my makeup 2. my music 3. performing 4. my friends 5. independence [about ten years ago *list three things*] 1. i was 6, and I thought I was sooo cool 2. I pretended to like barbies so that the other girls wouldn't think I was weird (oops, didn't work too well, LETS MAKE BARBIE HUMP THE DOG!, whats hump ITS WHEN YOU HAVE SEX) 3. i started becomming obsessed with sex [about four years ago *list three things*] 1. i was 12 and in 6th grade, and I still thought I was so cool (unfortunately that was the last time) 2. I played violin 3. I practically had an orgasm when the guy I liked asked me to "slow dance" with him, "OH MY GOD WE WERE SO CLOSE! WE WERE ONLY 2 FEET AWAY FROM EACH OTHER, OH MY GOD" [about one year ago *list three things*] 1. i was 15 and I thought life was depressing and I started getting therapy 2. I scared people (because I was being fake, i still scare people though) 3. All I wanted was someone to love me. [today...] 1. I dont think I'm cool. 2. I worry about the future too much 3. All I still want it for someone to love me [seven things you love] 1. kittens 2. music 3. acting 4. glitter 5. faeries 6. learning how to do new things 7. being a bad girl [seven things you dislike] 1. closed minded people 2. my mim 3. shots (get 4 everyweek though) 4. people who smell bad 5. getting caught 6. getting sick [seven thingson your desk] 1. stereo 2. sketchbooks 3. purse 4. water soluble colored pencils 5. stapler 6. a phone 7. pictures of tinkerbell. THAT WAS LOADS OF FUN |
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| Monday, December 9th, 2002 |
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The Great Archives determine you to have gone by the identity: Princess of The Cold Wastes Known in some parts of the world as: Succubus of The Beltane Feasts The Great Archives Record: One of ritual and pleasure - presiding over the gluttonous feasts of the wickedest night of the year. (i found that on a site listed in tobys lj) Sounds like me. I'm home sick. Strep throat, and sinus infection. I'm overjoyed. Wow I have so much to write but I'm going to be a lazy as and save it for...never. byebye. Oooh wait, before you go (hehe) I updated my gallery. go lookies http://elfwood.lysator.liu.se/loth/m/i/mimifinan/mimifinan.html |
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| Friday, December 6th, 2002 |
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paste this code in your livejournal, deadjournal, blog, site, etc, to tell the world.  take the virgin-whore dichotomy quiz. and go to mewing.net. where we're all studs. |
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| Sunday, December 1st, 2002 |
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today my dad asked me if I was ever gonna get back together with Matt. Twas odd. Wouldn't that be funny if I ended up getting back together with him and we got married? Marrying my first boyfriend, who would've thought? haha. that wont happen, I dont even like him. No sexual attraction whatsoever, and face it, as a teenager, that is most important. Where Did Your Soul Originate? brought to you by Quizilla SOOOOO TRUE. I have always been drawn to the ocean. |
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sometimes I get depressed. Because it seems like no matter how good my life is going, something is missing. And I don't know what the hell is missing. I mean. The only thing "missing" from my life is a boyfriend, but I can't believe that not having a boyfriend is making me depressed. If that were true, then that would be even more depressing, and Id be more depressed over the fact that I'm so lame which would be worse then how I'm feeling right now. It's amazing, you can have such a long history with someone. And then you turn around and it's like they've completely erased you from their memories. That's how it is with Terrell. I feel like he's trying to forget about me. Maybe I'm crazy. I probably am. But he erased all his deadjournal entries, and "started fresh" All of his previous entries were when we were going out, or during our breakup, and almost all of them had me mentioned in it. And then he erased them. Really makes me feel bad. Like he erased me from his past. We've been fighting a lot lately. I apologized to him the other day, told him that he means a lot to me as a friend, and that I want our friendship back. But I think its beyond control, and thats what hurts. I think I'm depressed because I get these visions of how things are supposed to be, and when reality doesn't live up to those visions, I get depressed. Or I perceive the past to be something that it wasn't, to be better than it really was, and then I compare my present with my past, and it just doesn't add up, and then I get depressed. I haven't gone to THE RAPIST (therapist) in months. When my mom tried to make an appointment, I told her that I would refuse to go, because it had turned into group counseling (my mom, therapist, and me) and they would gang up on me and just make fun of me and tell me how awful I was. Maybe thats not the way it was, but that's what I got out of it, and feeling empty is better than feeling like everyone hates you. The sad truth is that I really want a boyfriend. Maybe its not that I want a boyfriend, but I want to feel wanted. Here I am, supposed to be writing about what a wonderful birthday I had and now I'm on the verge of tears. That's life for you. Heres a long as survey that I'm about to take. Maybe it will help me find what I'm missing. It probably wont. 1. Name: emilee 2. Age: 16 3. Birthdate: november 30 4. Zodiac sign: sagg 5. Height: about 5'3 6. Weight: dont know, dont want to know 7. Hair color: strawberry blonde 8. Eye color: dark brown/olive 9. Male or female: female 10. Where were you born: detroit 11. Where do you live now: grosse pointe 12. Do you have glasses: yes 13. Do you have braces: no 14. Do you like your name: hmm 15. Who is your best friend(s) *sniffles* i dont have any friends 16. What is all of your friends names? well isn't that a cruel question. thats like asking you to count up how many friends you are. which translates into a popularity contest. which would then make you feel left out if you read your friends answer and they didn't include you. therefore, im not answering this question 17. Which one do you get along with the best? see above 18. Which one is the toughest? see above 19. Which one is the preppiest? these questions are so fucking stupid 20. Which one is the blondest? 21. Which one is the weird one? 22. Which on has an attitude problem? i remember taking these surveys a long time ago, and i had no friends so i answered "me" for each one. how conceited i must've looked. when really i just had no friends. 23. Which one is the funniest? 24. Which one is the dullest? 25. Which one is the loudest? 26. Which one is the shyest? 27. Which one is the most out-going? 28. Which one has the best smile? so you put one friend down for best smile. does that mean all your other friends have bad smiles? or smiles "not as good" "not as white" "not as straight" damn I need to stop thinking about these things. 29. Which one can you trust the most? only person i trust is myself, and my toilet 30. Which one can you trust the least? 31. Which one do you know the best? 32. Do you have a crush? crushes hurt. 33. If so, who? fuck you 34. Why do you like him/her? do you have anything better to do with your time then tear apart the self esteem of teenagers? honestly. 35. How long have you had a crush on him/her? 2 weeks, 4 days, 9 hours, 27 minutes, 3 seconds and .0001 milliseconds, oh wait make that 5 seconds and .2 milliseconds! (another failed attempt at sarcasm) 36. Were yall friends before you likied him/her? no 37. Do you have a gf/bf? no 38. If so, who? ... 39. Do you love him/her? no 40. How long have you been together? no 41. How did you 2 meet? we didn't 42. What would be your dream guy/girl? i dont know i dont care as long as he doesn't piss me off and makes me feel loved and makes me laugh and makes me smile 43. What is your dream date? sex on the beach (ooh um i thought it said favorite drink *wink wink*) ~favorites~ 44. Tv show- alias 45. Radio station- no radio for me 46. Color- black, pink, and silver 47. Animal- panda bear 48. State- new york 49. Country- england 50. Meat- chicken 51. Vegetable- mashed potatoes 52. Fruit- i love fruits 53. Boy band- spank me 54. Guy singer- die 55. Girl singer- this is not helping me get to know myself better 56. Girl band- 57. Place to hang- corners 58. Store- i dont care 59. Shoe brand- i dont care 60. Clothes brand- dont care 61. Cologne/perfume brand- candies 62. Actor- bruce willis? (just watched die hard) 63. Actress- too many 64. Computer game- sims 65. Cd: Good Charlotte and NFG and all the punk-o-rama cds!(not my answer, the person i stole it from's answer. wow i bet she's an avril fan) 66. Girl name(s)- abigail, aurora, fae, 67. Boy name(s)- tyler (previous person put it here, i kinda like it) ~dislikes~ 68. Tv show- um 69. Radio station- dunno 70. Color- yellow. for some reason i dont like it. 71. Animal- i love all animals 72. State- idahoe. my aunts lived there for 3 months, then moved back. just sounded like a horrible place 73. Country- i dont know 74. Meat- red meat 75. Vegetable- brussel sprouts 76. Fruit: love them all 77. Boy band-all of em 78. Guy singer- i dont know 79. Girl singer- kelly osborne. i dont like her at all 80. Girl band- dont know 81. Place to hang- would you hang out somewhere you didn't like? dumbass 82. Store- any place with jacked up prices 83. Shoe brand- payless. i liked them until there shoes started giving me back problems. 84. Clothes brand- abercrombie and fitch. haven't bought anything at that store, probably never will 85. Cologne/perfume brand- glow by j.lo not only do i hate her, but it smells like donkey shit with roses in it. 86. Actor- so many 87. Actress- so many 88. Computer game-??? 89. Cd- i dont know 90. Girl name(s)- typical, overused names 91. Boy name(s)- typical, overused names ~this or that~ 92. Cd or radio- cd 93. Waterbed or plain mattress- hmm plain. 94. Car or bike- car. 95. Shoes or sandles- shoes.. 96. Computer or tv- puter 97. E-mail or snail mail- email 98. Loud or quiet- depends 99. Comedy or horror- comedy, life would suck without laughter 100. Phone or internet- internet 101. Prep or none prep- why cant we get along? i hate anyone who wont give me a chance 102. Walk or run- walk 103. Sports or school- school. yes im a geek like that 104. Summer or winter- summer 105. Spring or fall- spring 107. Playstation 2 or dreamcast- no video games for me 108. Playstation or nitendo 64- POKEMON. haha (only video game i ever played) 109. Capture the flag or ghost in the graveyard- never played ghost in the graveyard 110. Money or love- i guess love is more important. that doesn't stop me from wishing that I fall in love with a billionare 111. Rap or rock- depends on my mood 112. Green or blue- green 113. Strawberrys or banannas- boootth! 114. Meat or salads- salads definitely 115. Halloween or christmas- SAMHAIN! 116. (for girls)freddy prinze jr. Or ryan phillippe- how about..... NO 117. (for guys) sarah michelle geller or jennifer love hewwitt- ... 118. Nsync or creed- neither 119. Spice girls or backstreet boys- neither 120. The moffatts or the beatles: who are the moffatts? 121. There's something about mary or american pie: never seen mary 122. Night at the roxbury or here on earth: never seen here on earth 123. Scream or i know what you did last summer: haven't seen either 124. Crest or colgate: crest 125. Peanut butter or jelly: peanut butter 126. Big red or winterfresh: winterfresh. 127. Skittles or m&m;'s: m+m's 128. Tootsie roll or peanuts: TOOTSIE ROLL 129. Pop or water: water is the only thing i drink 130. Tea or milk: tea 131. Ocean or lakes:how can you choose? 132. Horses or cows: Horses. 134. Cats or dogs: cats 135. Sisters or brothers: either, im an only child. dont care 136. Trailors or houses: hmm. probably house. 137. Smoking or drinking: hugs, not drugs. ~more friends~ 138. Who's the smartest: DIE ok sorry im erasing this section 155. Are you still having fun: DIE 156. What time is it: 7:15 pm ~mindgames~ 157. What comes to mind when you hear p.J's- i dont wear them 0.0 158. What comes to mind when you hear t-shirt: cute white one 159. What do you think when you hear water- YUMMY! 160. What are you thinking when you hear the name bob- plain name ~this or that.again~ 161. Black or white: Black 162. Red or white: Red. 163. Orange or purple: orange 164. Blue or green: you asked this fucking question already 165. Night or day: Night. 166. Light or dark: Dark. 167. T.V. Or movie: movie 168. Cd or radio: radio 169. Internet or phone: Internet. 170. Board games or computer games: board 171. Pen or pencil: pen 172. Pool or ocean: i am allergic to cholrine. you figure the answer out yourself. 173. Coke or pepsi: water 174. Mr. Pibb or orange soda: water 175. Tea or milk: water 176. Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate, chocolate, chocolate, chocolate 177. Dog or cat: cat. 178. Family or friends: friends. too bad i dont have any.. 179. Writing or typing: typing 180. Camping or staying in a hotel: never been camping. 181. Short or long term relationship: never had a long term relationship 182. Short or long term friendship: Long.... 183. Ice cream or cake: chocolate chip cookies 184. Car or suv: suv 185. Truck or van: truck.. 186. Mountains or the beach: beach 187. Tennis shoes or boots: t shoes 188. Boots or sandles: sandles 189. Shorts or jeans: jeans 190. T-shirts or sweatshirts: tshirts.. 191. Hotdogs or hamburgers: no red meat for me 192. Steak or chicken: chicken 193. Mcdonalds or burger king: never been to burger kind 194. Taco bell or kfc: depends 195. Papa john's or pizza hut: never had either 196. Checkers or arby's: wtf is checkers 197. Wal-mart or kmart: we dont have walmarts. . 198. School or job: JOB 199. Home or school: school.. 200. Church or home: ok. lets think about it. NOT EVERYONE IN THE FUCKING WORLD GOES TO CHURCH! HONESTLY, SHOW SOME COMPASSION TO YOUR FELLOW NON-CHRISTIANS 201. Enough questions yet? yes 202. What are you doing right now: wtf do you think im doing??? 203. Do you like french fries: i like making them 204. What key are you about to push: the erase one 205. What's your favorite letter in the alphabet: die 206. What's your favorite number: 7 or any multiple of 7 207. Do you like salad: I LIVE OFF SALAD.. 208. Do you like fish: yes 209. Do you like shrimp: yes 210. What's your favortie resturant: buca di beppos 211. Do you like mr. Pibb: never had it 212. Do you like school lunches: our school lunches rock 213. Do you change your underwear everyday: your supposed to change your underwear everyday? *sniff sniff* EWW. no im jk, yes i do. 214. Do you like coke: cherry coke if i feel like indulging myself 215. What time is it: 7:21 pm 216. Do you have clothes on right now: jeans and a superman t-shirt 217. Are you a druggie: hugs not drugs 218. Why do you drive on a parkway and park on a driveway: why are you a moron? 219. What's tomorrow: monday 220. Do you like purple monkies with green ears: do they go well with ketchup? 221. Have you seen toy story: Yes. 222. Have you seen toy story 2: Yes. 223. How many hairs do you have on your head: i dont know 224. Where did all the teletubies go: i shoved them up your FUCKING ASS 225. Where is walldo: WHERE IS YOUR MIND? 226. How many licks does it take to get to the center of a tootsie pop: i have a shirt that say sthat 228. Do you like candy: ^.^ yes 229. Do you like bacon bits: no 230. What do you put on your baked potatoes: butter 231. Are you bored yet: yes 232. Are you having fun cuz i sure am!!: DIE 233. Do you have socks on right now: yes, blue ones with froggies 234. What color are they: die 235. Do you think i'm crazy: DIE 236. Why is mr.Pibb called "mr. Pibb": why are you so fucking obsessed with mr. pibb? 237. Do you like anteaters who eat mice: die 238. Do you like cheese: yes 239. Is the color brown in the ranibow: no, its a color you get when you mix the opposite colors on the color wheel (complimentary colors) so im an art geek. die. 240. Who many sides does a circle have: THEY DONT HAVE FUCKING SIDES 241. Do you have any gum: can i shove it up your ass 242. How many seconds are in a year: i dont know 243. Why did the chicken cross the road: to beat your fucking ass 244. If a rooster layed an egg on a roof which side would it roll down: a rooster doesn't lay eggs 254. How do you spell bingo: B I N G O 255. What time is it: 7:24 pm 256. Do you pick your nose: no 257. Do you think this is to long: i think you should print it out and shove it up your ass 258. Who's your daddy: i dont know. im a one night stand baby. thanks for rubbing it in. 259. Do you think my tractor's sexy: if it is yours, then NO 260. Did i shave my back for this: you shave your back? 261. If jimmy cracks corn and no body cares why does he still do it: because HE WANTS TO 262. If a tree fell and no one was around would it make a sound: die 263. Who let the dogs out: die 264. Do you like green eggs and ham: die 265. Do you love me: I WILL EAT YOU 266. Is the grass really greener on the other side: always 267. Where is the other side: anywhere that you ARENT 268. What are you looking at: the back of my eyelids 269. Who stole the cookies from the cookie jar (it was you wasn't it): yes 270. Where is the center of the world: die 271. What would jesus do: why the religion questions? 272. Do you have an ickday: die 273. Will you marry me: no 274. Have you ever loved somebody so much it made you cry: no 275. Sorry miss jackson: OOOH i am for real, never meant to make yo daughter cry, i apologize a trillion times. 276. What's going down: UR MOM 277. Do you want fries with that: no.. 278. How many toes do you have: 11.. 279. Do you know anybody with 6 toes: no 280. Do you think toes are gross: yes 281. Are you wearing shoes right now: no 282. Do your feet stink: no 283. Why: I shower 284. Are we there yet: theres so many more quesions to go!!! 285. Where are we going anyways: to the end of this survey! 286. Which came first, the chicken or the egg: the chicken 287. How do i get there from here: die 288. Do you like pickles: no!!!! 289. Do you eat turkey on thanksgiving: never 290. Do you like yellow: not really 291. Do you like monkies: yes 292. Do you like turtles: i had a pet turtle once he was cute. his name was chomper 293. Are you getting sick of this survey yet: yes 294. Why or why not: ... 295. Are you using the computer right now: no i am not. 296. Are you listening to music: no 297. What station: IM NOT 298. Do you have aol or aol instant messanger: aim 299. What's your screen name: xunexpectedgirlx 300. What's your email address: emifinan@yahoo.com 301. What time is it: 7:29 ~what comes into your mind when you hear these names??~ (i deleted these) 401. What bothers you: lies 402. If you could live with one person for the rest of your live who would it be: not you 403. Do you like school: yes 404. What is your favorite piece of jewelry: my pentacle 405. Do you sing in the shower: yeh 406. What do you think about the person who sent it this to you: no 407. Why do people dream: dreams are amazing! 408. What's your dream: die 410. What does your dream house look like: HUGE 411. Any animal you dream about: no 412. Best coach: um....none 413. Is your mom a bitch? of course!!!!! 414. Has she ever written you a mean email? no. she's verbal about her meaness 415. Does your mom have email? yes 416. Are there such things as email trackers? yeup 417. Do you delete forwards? sometimes 418. Are you going to forward this? no 419. Has a guy ever been to forward with you? ? 420. Have you ever slapped a guy/girl? no 421. How hard? I DIDN"T. 422. Do you have a hard head? yes 423. What about a thinck skull? huh 424. Do altoids help bad breath? yummy 425. Ever kicked your dentist? no,i bit him though 426. Whose your favorite girl singer? YOU ASKED THIS FUCKING QUESTION ALREADY 427. What do you do with bananas? eat em 428. Favorite clothing brand? YOU ASKED ALREADY 429. Cutest undies: cant decide 433. Is your school poor? its grosse pointe. nothing is poor in grosse pointe 434. Ever come close to having sex but didnt? im not going there 435. With who? .... 436. Why didnt you: didn't want to be pregnant 437. Last time you saw the opposite sex in their underwear? too longa go 438. Who has the worst manners? you! 439. Ever written to dear abby? No 440. Do you know know anyone named abby? nope 441. Favortie state to visit? florida 442. Where do you want to get married? on a beach 443. Who are you going to marry? your mom 444. Are you always late or early? late 445. How many legs do you have? 2 446. Favorite seafood? dont know 447. Where were you born?? YOU FUCKING ASKED ALREADY> NOW YOU SHALL DIE 448. Know any scary true stories? no 449. What? ... 450. Favorite dessert? chocolate chip cookies 451. What time do you eat lunch? dont each lunch 452. What do you eat for lunch? read above 453. Who do you eat lunch with? depends 454. Do you have a secret fantasy? bondage baby 455. Is it dunk time? ? 456. How bout slam time? ? 457. What color lines are on you paper: blue 458. How long is your leg hair? long 459. Your feelings on old drivers? duno 460. How bout back seat drivers? DIE 461. Ever done the dirty bird? no 462. Ever even heard of the dirty bird? no 463. Are you the devils advocate? sometimes 464. Ever wish u were one of charlies angels? no 465. R u violent: potentially 466. Can your school aford paper? yeah 467. Do you have platnium teeth? nnnnoooooooo 468. Do you snort pixy stix? no 469. How bout salt? no 470. Does polar ice gum really change you? Mentally or physically? no 471. Ever tasted the rainbow? nope 472. How many licks does it take to get to the center of a tootsie pop? 1, 2, 3. 473. Ever counted? i have a keychain that you put the sucker into and it counts how many licks you take but i always bite them before i can finish 474. Ever lost count? no 475. How many flags do u c daily? one in every classroom at least 476. Ever read the fine print? yes ^^ 477. Do you concentrate? sometimes 478. Do you enjoy educational videos? depends, in world history, yes 479. Why are chalkboards called black boards? because they are black 480. What language do monkeys think in? monkey language 481. Do you have a nickname? yes 482. How did you get it? i dunno 483. What is it? die 484. R ur eyebrows a diffrent color from your hair? no 485. Ever shaved them off? no 486. Ever met a 2yr. Old millionaire? no 487. R u a dumb bitch? sometimes 488. Do you have a basketball charm? no 489. Ever made up a cheer? no 490. Ever made up a dance? yes 491. Ever pulled out your eyelashes? no 492. Longest youve gone without goin to the bathroom? my bladder is like a camel. 493. Longest youve gone wiht out a shower? loong time at camp 494. Darkest color jeans you own? um dark? 495. Anything u wear everyday? underwear, bra, socks, tennis shoes 496. Nerdiest friend you have? die 497. Do you have anything odd peirced? my penis 498. Tell me about it? ... 499. Best pick up line? ... 500. R u selfish? yes 501. R u a shellfish? ues 502. Do u like shellfish? no 503. Ever use someone? yes 504. Last time u did christmas kareoke? never 505. Do you get jiggy wiht it: all the time 506. Last party u had at burger king? never 507. Gotta wedgie? i have a perminant wedgie, its called a thong. DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE |
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| Thursday, November 28th, 2002 |
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Your pleasentness makes people feel mildly euphoric, but you usually have to be accompanied by other toxicities to actually entertain people in any manner. You are a regular kind and can actually help people to cope with their everyday gripes in life. Sometimes you are tiresome and give people headaches. Other times people have difficulty concentrating with you and you can keep them up all night. You can make peoples' ears ring and make children nervouse. Some people cant see clearly and get nauseated by you. Find Out If You Were A Drug, What You Would Be! quiz by ravenritings  Which Ultimate Beautiful Woman are You? brought to you by Quizilla happy thanksgiving everyone. i got my hair cut and colored yesterday. its a bit lighter, not by much. and about 3 inches shorter, maybe even 4 >.< Its ok, its "collar bone length" basically like half an inch below shoulderlength. Its ok, she feathered it like to my ears, but those layers blend in real well. I look like I'm 12. Oh well. Lots of people were like "You're turning...14 or 15 right?" NO. And all the seniors thought I was a freshman, and that was with my long hair. I don't know. Maybe I look more innocent than I thought. I think I need to play that up, it was working so well for me, you know, dressing like a lil girl always having a lollipop in my mouth. Unfortunately my rep sort of counteracts that innocence. OOH I just used a big word ^.^ Highlight of the week: Nick e-mailed me. It must have been like 2 months since I've talked to him. It's so good to hear from him. Sometimes before I fall asleep I just lie in my bed and cry thinking about him and how we can't be together. I mean, I'm over him, but not by choice. The great news is that he's going to be in Michigan over winter break, and his grandparents live in Grosse Pointe City I think (there are like 7 subdivisions of grosse pointe, woods, shores, farms, park, city, ect) And he will hopefully get to stop by, that is if he's visiting his grandparents. I know he also has family up north in Traverse City. I need to see him. I haven't seen him since July. I really should call him. I will, one of these days. How fantastic would it be if he stayed with us over New Years? We have an extra room, and I could coerce my parents into letting him stay with us. (yeah right) Yeah well I gotta go get myself all purrtied up. Happy thanksgiving! |
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| Tuesday, November 26th, 2002 |
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 Are you NASTY or NICE? Quiz made by Angela  Brought to you by Faytrial |
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| Saturday, November 23rd, 2002 |
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the only time i have gone out of my house this weekend is to go to Madrigal Dinner rehearsal. Nothing like a little time off. I completely cleaned my room, got my birthday plans all together, and sat my ass down in front of the computer and let my brain become a runny daze. I made Hello Dolly, I'm in chorus. I really didn't think I'd make it. I didn't make callbacks. That was the first time I hadn't made a callback list, that really hurt. Oh well. Then we got a lecture that said they only took 9 sopranos outside of the girls who didn't make the call back list, and they did the auditions on a point system, and everytime you sang a wrong note they took points off (That is bullshit, yes, singing matters in a musical, but stage presence and the ability to fake and pull things off counts for WAY more) and then Mr. Rogers said that many people who had parts last year don't have parts this year. I started crying (on the inside of course) And as I walked towards the cast list, I already had the tears welling up in my eyes, because I new that I wouldn't make it. But I did. And, ok so its Chorus, big deal. But there were only 9 slots and I got one of them, I think its a big accomplishment. The competition is getting better and better at North. It sucks. GRR. Voice lessons are doing nothing for me because I'm not completely comfortable in front of Emily yet. (yeah, my teachers name is Emily too) Deep down, I am really hurt that I didn't get a part, but I am not going to take this for granted, I bombed my audition and I have learned from doing that, because I should've gotten, at least a small part. Oh well, there is always next year. I want Josh. AHH it's driving me crazy! Leslie says he was really flirting with me on Friday after school, that made me really happy. I've tried playing innocent with Josh but I just can't do it! I have to embrace my dirtiness. From the sounds of it, Leslie talked him up to be really prude and innocent, but he sure doesn't act that way around me! I was debating whether or not I should go to the Notre Dame dance or not, and I asked him what he was doing that night, and it a really dirty way hes like "I'm going to the golfing range" and I'm like "Wait? Is that dirty" and he held his hands in front of his dick(like he was holding the club) and hes like "Translations, golfing range equals Emily's house" and it was sooo funny! Another funny thing was when Danielle was trying to take a picture of Fran and Scott, she was standing up and they were sitting down at her locker and they kept lowering there heads to avoid there picture. So I was like "No Dani, what you have to do is get down on your knees..." and Josh is like "Ooh you can get down on your knees for me anytime" and everyone bursts out laughing and all the guys high-five Josh. I was like NO i didn't mean it in a dirty way! AHH. And then I lie down in the middle of the hall way and I guess I looked really dirty and they all started laughing. It's funny, after Interlochen, 2 years ago, one of our cabin sayings (started I think by Toby) was THATS DIRTY and I say it all the time and now its like THE saying around Grosse Pointe. I'll be like "That's Dirty!" and someone will be like "Oh you just sounded like Sandra, thats what she says all the time" and I'm like SHIT i was the one who brought the fucking saying back to Grosse Pointe! Oh well. I have an essay to write, its due tuesday, and I should work on it today. But thats not going to happen. At rehearsal I put Dante's hair in braids, and I talked to him a lot. I really like talking to Dante. He's a really cool person. Ok well I've run out of things to say, toodles. |
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| Friday, November 22nd, 2002 |
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| Thursday, November 21st, 2002 |
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so i had this long entry and they deleted it. just another thing to add to my bitchy list of complaints. I just want to run away and never come back. In fact, I want to run away from myself. |
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| Wednesday, November 20th, 2002 |
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have i updated in a while? I dont think so, I've been so busy. I love having a busy life. I love actually having things to do. I had auditions for Hello Dolly on Monday (if I'm repeating any of this, I'm sorry I honestly don't remember what I've written) We had the choice of singing "Ribbons Down My Back" or "Hello Dolly" AND "I Put My Hand In" I decided to do Hello Dolly and I put My hand in (both are alto songs) just because I'm stupid like that. So I go into my audition, and I find myself singing Ribbons Down My Back, which I had never praciced, didn't know the notes or words too. But whatever, I faked it really well I think. The coldreading was fine, I always rely on my acting to pull it through. Today though, we had dance auditions. (Its a required part of the audition) And basically you get 100 people on stage and learn a little combination, and then go in groups of 4 and do it for the directors, and then they all bring you back onstage and call out your numbers if they want you to stay and see more. I got called back! I was really shocked, it made me remember how enjoyable dancing is. I think I did really well. I might not be the best dancer, but I didn't mess up and I tried to do good facial expressions. Anyways, Leslie told Josh that I like him (i told her to tell him, my philosophy is why keep something like that to yourself, you have nothing to lose by them knowing, I let the guy know that I like him, and if he doesn't do anything within a week, hes gone and I move on) Oh but I like Josh so much! Leslie said he got really enthusiastic and was like "Oh she's really cool, and shes so nice!"So I'm excited! I was happy today. I was my normal, flirtatious, allovereveryguyIsee normal self. And that's just the kind of person that I am, and I don't think there is anything wrong with that. I talked to Pete Kasprizicki today, I really thought he hated me. We had a really good talk, hes good kid. I like Jesse Serano too! I saw him today, for like the first time in ever! I was with him the day before I started going out with Drew and I was all like obsessing over Drew and he's like "Well if you guy fall through, you outta give me a chance" So today he came to my locker, twice actually. He's such a sweetheart. He's WAY different from any guy I've ever gone out with, he's black, EXTREMELY TALL, plays basketball. I don't know. Well see what happens. I have my heart set on Josh right now. Allan Fullerton, one of like my best guy friends, knows Josh pretty well and said I have a really good chance with him, and he's going to try to talk me up to him, and just say nice things about me. Me and Josh always flirt, I was talking about my canopy bed and how it was like 4 strip poles and hes like "ooh I wanna come see your bed!" AHH i like him so much! I'm getting all giddy! I love "being in love" (not technically, but for lack of a better phrase, being in love") Matt has been all over me lately. He's so cute. But another one of my philosophies is that guys are in your past for a REASON! I'm going to the Notre Dame dance with Tami on Friday, and I might see Scott! AHH! I'm trying to figure out what to say. I dont care if hes there though, there are so many hot guys there. We're all going to get drunk before. (hey, I never said that I wouldn't touch it again! I just said I wouldn't touch it for a while!) Terrell sometimes makes me feel stupid. So does my mom, my mom always makes me feel dumb. |
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| Sunday, November 17th, 2002 |
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woefulmatchgirl (6:47:14 PM): i hope it works out em xUnexpectedGirlx (6:48:27 PM): me too. i actually feel vulnerable for once in my life. maybe thats why i feel like somethigns off. ive never felt vulnerable in a relationship. i think he actually has the power to hurt me. as weird as that sounds, thats like, the best feeling ive ever had, the feeling of "josh can hurt me" xUnexpectedGirlx (6:49:04 PM): does that sound odd? or like is that actually normal? xUnexpectedGirlx (6:49:16 PM): or understandable? because it seems off in my mind woefulmatchgirl (6:49:42 PM): it is understandable woefulmatchgirl (6:49:43 PM): completely woefulmatchgirl (6:49:48 PM): someone to keep you on your toes woefulmatchgirl (6:49:55 PM): someone that you can't just totally play with woefulmatchgirl (6:49:58 PM): it's what you need xUnexpectedGirlx (6:50:14 PM): yeah, i think so too. Today was interesting. I dont know if I updated you with the fact that we want to downsize and buy a smaller house. However, George Fucking Bush messed up the economy and our house will only sell for 400,000 dollars, if we sold it now, and if we downsized, it would be to a 250,000 and then it would cost money to move and set everything up so we would be losing money. We've had this house for 10 years and have redone every single room in this house. So I am very upset, because I really want to move. I had been begging my mom to move for maybe 5,6 months, but the answer was always the same "no we are NOT moving" until one day, maybe a month ago my mom said "we are not moving anytime soon so you better stop asking before i get mad at you" Then I was begging her to go visit Toby, plane tickets were only 200 dollars, and her "we dont have enough money" was no excuse when she repeatedly would tell me how much money we had. Shes a fucking lier. We have no money. Then she told me she had been looking at houses. The fucking bitch did it behind my back. She told me that the houses we could afford were all crap. So today she took me out to prove to me what crappy houses they were. We stopped at 2 houses, all in Grosse Pointe, one on Hampton and one on Hollywood, the first one (on Hampton) was really small but really cute! My mom kept complaining "id have to sell my diningroom furniture, we wouldn't have a living room anymore" ect, and I was so annoying! The whole point to downsizing was TO BUY A SMALLER HOUSE AND GET RID OF UNECCESSARY THINGS! Then we just drove by the second house and shes like "well we dont have to look at it" And I'm like "um mom, that house is right next door to Stephanie! We have to look at it!" so we did, and it is the most perfect house I have ever seen. I fell inlove with it immediately, it has the perfect location (next door to my best friend, closer to school, within walking distance of all my friends houses and all the "hangout spots of grossepointe") Bascially 8 mile road (yes the one in the movie, i live 2 streets away from 8 mile) devides the rich people from the poor people. Now all of Grosse Pointe is rich (so rich that we renamed our 2 miles of 8 mile road "Vernier Road". but even still, there is a difference, right now I live on the rich rich part of 8 mile, and all my friends are on the less rich side of 8 mile, the side i want to live on) Anyways, it has a giant living room, dining room, and a very large family room, a small, but managable kitchen, a giant masterbedroom, and 2 other bedrooms (one bigger and one small, the bigger one would be my room and the smaller one the computer room or guestroom) A giant basement (we dont have a basement right now) The only downside is that there is only one shower in the whole house. But I think that it is fine. We explained to the realator that we couldn't afford to sell our house right now, but she said that she thinks the market will get better this spring. My parents said that if the market gets better this spring, and we can sell our house, and that house is still on the market, that they will consider buying it. I know that was just a polite way to let me down easier (the market wont go down and even if it does, our neighbors tried to sell there house (which they also redid everyroom) and they couldn't so it will take a long time to sell our house) but if for somereason everything works out, then I'm moving! I really hope we can move soon. Sorta odd since we just redid my room! hehe. I just want a small house. My parents dont want to move, they want to wait until I go to college and my dad retires so they can buy a cottage on a lake somewhere and live there the rest of there lives, but right now we cant afford our house. So we need an inbetweener. But they dont want a small house, because its like we'd have to give up everything they (well, my dad) has worked for, just for an inbetweener house. Me, I can live in a smaller house. My "new" room would be about a third of the size my room is now, and I'd have to give up a bunch of my new furniture, and maybe my altar (get a smaller one) but I don't care. It is absolutely ridiculous for 3 people using 2 bedrooms, to own a 5 bedroom house they cant afford! Oh well, hopefully things will work out. And if they don't, I'm going to college in 3 years anyways. |
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| Saturday, November 16th, 2002 |
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hey hey hey. well today was really busy. I had voice lessons, then piano lessons, and then I went and got my glasses. I like them, they're very emoish, more emoish than i remembered them being. Then again I have plaid pants on and a punkish teeshirt on so hey. lol. Erm, I had the shit scared out of me today. In my 5th hour, everyone was talking about people getting busted for smoking pot. See we have a big gym, and off to the sides are the locker rooms, above the locker rooms is the upper gym (where wrestling is) and next to that the swimming pool. Well I guess some guys snuck up to the upper gym to smoke a bowl (yeah, real smart, i know) After 5th hour, Julie came to my classroom with Melanie and were like "oh my god! Terrell and Pete and Chris Likomanov got caught smoking pot!" and me and Tami were like "well john definitely did too" (johns her boyfriend and he didn't show up to 5th hour and he is the pothead king , seriously thats his nickname, the king) and she was like crying. Then I found out that Terrell and Pete didn't get in trouble, but Chris and John and someother random people did, and John was already on probation so he went straight to Juv, and hes getting expelled for the rest of the year. fun stuff. poor tami. i have the WHOA i just blanked out. wait no i remembered. I have the biggest crush on josh. hes really unique and really confident but not cocky, and he plays guitar and hes really got a sense of uniqueness, and doesn't fit into any stereotypes just like me and I really hope he likes me. I have one of his guitar picks. hehe. today hes like "emily, i want to make sweet love to you" and i know he was almost saying that sarcastically but we're always dirty in front of each other so maybe something will happen. i hope so. im almost afraid of boys. after all this shit has happened. not afraid that boys will hurt me, but just really afraid to get close to boys, more for the fact that im scared that im going to hurt them and hurt my reputation even more. its really twisted. we were watching this video on ancient greece and there was a part about the city of Corinth, and how sex was the way of life there and prositutes were worshipped and favored in that society and they made the most money and had sex all the time and it made me feel much better about myself. i've always thought that i've had no past lives, because im just really stupid like that, but i think that if i have had a past life, i was definitely a prostitute in corinth. thinking about those prostitutes made me feel like i actually fit in someplace, and made me feel better about myself. how sad it that. i wish sex wasn't condemned in this society. i just wish aids and std's didn't exist so i wouldn't have to worry about shit like that. |
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LiveJournal for Mimi The Faerie.
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confused.
ecstatic.
curious.
groggy.
cheerful.