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 You're Daphne. All you need to do is sit there and look pretty. That's why the rest of us hate you. Find Your Inner Cartoon Babe brought to you by Quizilla  You Are In Highlight Heaven!Indecisive, yet up for anything, you like to have your cake and eat it too. You might be seen with more than one guy a night, and that's the norm for you! No one is gonna hold this chica down - committment is SO not your style. Don't playa hate, appreciate! You go girl! What's *Your* Inner Hair Color? More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva  Your Guy is Prince Charming!The man for you is Prince Charming. You need a sensitive, romantic man who will understand and listen. You enter into relationships for love and need a committed man who will provide plenty of love and security. What Guy is Perfect for *You*? More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva  You Attract Normal Guys!Not that "normal" is a bad thing... you just prefer not to get your heart broken. You've probably dated enough losers in your life, learned from it, and become an ultra cool chick. And it's this togetherness that attracts the right kind of guy. Healthy guys aren't afraid of intimacy or commitment. They'll call you after a first date, but they won't want to move in after one week. Normal guys can solve their own problems - and will help you solve yours. To keep things blissful with your normal guy (or to get the right one), it's easy. Continue to be the super incredible chick that you are, no emotional baggage or issues. Normal, incredible guys love girls like you. What Kind of Guy Do *You* Attract? More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva  Your Sexual Energy is Purple!You're the master of self control - able to turn your sexuality on and off. You own your sexuality, and you revel in it... but only when the time is right. You are never caught off guard when it comes to sex. You're too deliberate for that. And when you are on fire, well... watch out! Since you are so in touch with your sex drive, you can ramp it up as much as you want. And for the right person, you'll push it to the limit! You tend to prescreen lovers methodically, and hardly ever end up with the wrong person. You've even been known to bring up sex in a matter-of-fact way to determine compatibility. As a result, you don't even know what bad sex is - you go into the bedroom knowing what to expect. Ready for a change? Try to make your sexual energy more spontaneous. Read some erotica, watch a dirty movie, have sex with someone your not 100% sure about. If may sound scary at first, but isn't sex supposed to be a little scary. Sarah Michelle Gellar and Julia Roberts are celebrities that share your purple energy. For a hot match, date those with blue, magenta, and white sexual energies. What Color is Your Sexual Energy? More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva  You Have a Nice Ass!Oooh, baby can you shake that booty? With an ass so fine, it's your duty. Give it a grab, give it a spank. You're the envy of every skank. What Ass Do *You* Have?? More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva   An unexpected bonus for just about every guy on the planet. He’s plowing you and you’re yelling for more. Talk dirty, talk cheap, scream his name, scream complete gibberish. No matter. You are the Mariah Carey of the bedroom and he loves every fucking syllable that spews from your luscious mouth. Maybe you’re the "Mary the Librarian" type by day. But by night, honey, watch out. The vocal chords let loose with everything your heart and mind have been thinking about all day long. What Cocktail Are You? More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva |
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| 12:19am 12/03/2003 | ||||
 Your Sexual Energy is Pink!You're sexy, in a romantic and feminine way. You make love gently and slowly - letting every feeling linger. Your greatest strength is your ability to be turned on for hours. You love bathing in your sensuality. You love feeling tingles throughout your body, your pulse racing. In many ways, being turned on is the hottest part of sex. You find lovers through rather traditional means. You're not afraid to ask out a stranger, or just to go with a friend's friend. You enjoy candlelight dinners and getting lattes in a quaint coffeehouse. To give your sex life a little more jazz, tap into turning on others. There's nothing hotter than both you and your lover being turned on for hours. Your sensuality is a gift - share it more. Gwen Stefani and Reese Witherspoon share your intense pink energy. Seek out those with red, green, and yellow sexual energies, as they are good potential matches. What Color is Your Sexual Energy? More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva Miami Which Real World house do you belong in? brought to you by Quizilla  Your Hottest Body Part is Your Breasts!You use those babies to get your way in the workplace and in relationships. You'll do anything to show them off from wearing push up bras to going very low cut. And while men don't look you in the eyes right away, you've always got the upper hand. Playboy should devote a special edition to you. Whether they're natural or enhanced, average or huge, they're your best friends. These friends never let you down. Celebs who work their breasts as hard as you do include: Carmen Electra, Jenny McCarthy, Tyra Banks, and of course, Pamela Anderson. Want to play up your breasts even more? Two words: push-up bra. Even though you've got it, it can't hurt to flaunt it more. Another boost? Tank tops and low cut tops with bras built in. What's Your Hottest Body Part?? More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva  You Are Hipster Panties!Modern, sleek, and comfy. Sexy, but not trashy! What's Kind of Panties Are *You*? More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva  You Are An Intense Kisser!Deep tounging, nibbling, and locking lips for hours are on your agenda. You've been known to wear lovers out with your kiss, before getting to anything else on the menu. And given that you kiss so well... imagine how you do everything else. What Your Kissing Style Says About You: When you want something you go for it, and you don't let go until it's yours. And when you feel, you feel intensely (surprised?). You have a dramatic streak, no doubt. If you're in a relationship, you don't take anything lightly. And neither should your lover. Your Personal Kissing Matches and Mismatches: Hook up with other Intense Kissers to have the experience of a life time. You'll both feel incredible things, both in your heart and down there! If you are looking for an even more sexual fun, find the nearest Carnal Kisser. You'll get kissed down there just right. Stay away from Manic Kissers at all costs. They spread it around a little too much to give you the passion you crave. And forget about Juicy Kissers as well - they seem a bit too superficial for you. How Do *You* Kiss? More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva  Sophisticated, classy, experienced and knowledgeable. All of these characteristics come in handy in whatever scene you find yourself in. Like, if a guy takes you out to dinner, he’d better take you to a nice restaurant. No middle-of-the-road place will do. You’re chic. You must be entertained in the manner to which you have grown accustomed. And woe unto he who “jus’ don’t get it!” Pinky in the air? You’d better believe it. And nose too, if Joe Frat Boy ever tries to make time with you. What Cocktail Are You? More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva  You Are An Navel PiercingCute, trendy, and in kick ass shape. You're usually the first one to offer up body shots. Everyone fantasizes about where your other piercings might be. You are a total tease and proud of your killer abs. What Piercing Are *You*? More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva  Your Inner Blonde is Britney Spears"Whee! I'm a virgin. Look at my butt crack!" If everyone were as dumb as you, you'd be able to pull that one off. But, you do get props for being one of the richest women around! Who's *Your* Inner Dumb Blonde? Click Here to Find Out! More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva  Which Sex and the City Vixen Best Matches Your Sex Style?  Which Clueless Chick are you? Find out! tlessdivas.net" target="new">  Which Britney are you? Find out!  Which Disney Princess are You?Find out!  Which Sarah Michelle Gellar are you? Find out!  Which Female Buffy Character are you? Find out!  Which Female Dawson's Creek Character Are You?Find out!  Which Angelina Jolie are you? Find out!  Which Rainbow Brite kid are you? By  Growing. You're a Cappicinno! What Kind of Coffee are You? brought to you by Quizilla |
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| 05:05pm 07/03/2003 | ||||
 You're...Roger Healey! Good old casanova Healey. All you need out of life is good wine, some soft music and an occasional Bass solo. Later in life you will feel the need to flee your home and move to new Mexico, where you will adopt orphans and carry on a life of peace and quiet with a gila monster and a small burro. What I Dream of Jeannie character are you? brought to you by Quizilla Creamy Vanilla!Slender,elegant & refined,you have a craving for the finer things in life. What Ice-Cream Flavour Are You? brought to you by Quizilla  You are Spring! You love to explore nature, and you love to see all things come to life. You are gentle and nurturing, definetly a kind and caring person. Which season are you? brought to you by Quizilla You're Ginger Ale - relaxed, refined, and completely mellow. What soft drink are you? brought to you by Quizilla  What in a cemetery are you? by FictionalVixen.  Congrats. You are Wind. What is your Element of Influence? brought to you by Quizilla  Bettie Boop Who 's Your Inner Sexy Cartoon Chick ? brought to you by Quizilla  orange. athletic. generous. joker. What's Your Inner Color? brought to you by Quizilla quiz by midgetfarm.com  Romantic Which Guy is Your Ideal Guy? brought to you by Quizilla You are a so-so mate, maybe you should brush up on your skills and not be so flirty with other people around your mate. What kind of boyfriend or girlfriend are you? brought to you by Quizilla Candle lit dinner, rose petals on the table, romantic music playing in the background. You crave it all- you want someone who can make you feel special. You strive to make your significant other feel special and loved, and you expect the same in return. You throw yourself into relationships, fall in love easily, and take a long time to get over someone. What kind of lover are you? brought to you by Quizilla  Audi TT What Exotic Car Are You? brought to you by Quizilla  You're the loving smile,the one that is entirely devoted to others,especially that one person.You really can't get them out of your head,but then,you don't really want to. What Kind of Smile are You? brought to you by Quizilla  See what Care Bear you are. Devon Aoki Which ridiculously attractive model are you? brought to you by Quizilla |
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 My Personal Fragrence is Sweet Temptation This sexy, enchanting, citrus body spray blends pineapple, peach, Brazilian orange, and lemon along with Egyptian jasmine, musk, and amber. This perfume is perfect for an exciting girl who wants to get noticed! What is your personal fragrence?  Biology - You are a sweet person who cares about all living creatures. What School Subject Are You brought to you by Quizilla  Supernatural Heart. The way you should be. What is the state of your heart? brought to you by Quizilla  You are the hindi wedding outfit! Which Moulin Rouge Satine costume are you? brought to you by Quizilla
What Type of Seducer are You? created by polite_society  You are a seductress! You use your beautiful body and hypnotizing eyes to reel in your prey, and go in for the kill after they have fallen in love with you. It is truely a fatal attraction that kills them. Perhaps, you sometimes fall in love yourself. Behold the power of woman! What Kind Of Evil Bitch Are You? brought to you by Quizilla |
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| 04:53pm 23/02/2003 | ||||
I suppose Valentines Day is a good place to start. Or rather the lack there of. I did not spend Valentines day with dante which was in a way my choice because the day before I decided to take a trip home because I was just overwhelmed with stress and didn't know what to do at that point. Friday I was going to drive back up here to spend a whole 4 hours with him at like 11 o'clock...after thinking about it for awhile I decided that there was really no point. The next day was my mom's birthday and we had a really nice celebration. My first time trying Crab Bisque Soup which for a person like me not liking seafood I enjoyed it alot! It ended up snowing really bad that weekend and Sat. night I had a really bad spell. My mom was out with her friends and my grandma called her to come home and we talked about things for awhile and decided that it is past the time that I need to go to the doctor. Sometimes I just get so frustrated for feeling some of the ways that I do but I just don't know how to stop it. So with this weekend alot of things arose not only with the doctor but also with family situations that I am not going to get into on here. Whenever I came back I had a whole lotta different feelings for a whole lotta people. That I think is when I discovered that my feelings for dante weren't as strong as they were before. He has changed alot...and it's not a desirable change. I guess it is better that we aren't together now because it was going to have to happen sooner or later. I am not as upset as I could be I guess but in the long run it was just a hassle. I agree we never really had a real relationship it was just kinda like...I don't really know what you could call it. Last night my roomie said something to me along the lines of... she thought there could have been someone else too... which really wouldn't surprise me. I don't know. I guess I have learned alot from this experiance with him. I have gotten experiance with a different person with different attitudes and ways of treating me. Not saying that I enjoyed it. But I know that I have learned something from it which at least I got something out of that relationship if you can even call it that. So now I have been talking alot with a few other people mainly Andrew and Justin and Melanie they told me some valuable things that I am going to think about. I think in the long run I will realize that this is a good move and that it was better to happen now. I am actually excited about what I have ahead of me as in opportunities and build with that. What is the point in worrying about it. What good is it? I am really trying to take Kristin's attitude in some of these aspects and how she views things. We'll see... Last night was quite an adventure though. We had our Lip Sync then after that we all went out. First we went to Phi Sig which this was my first time being there. It was sooo incredibly crowded it was unbelievable. We were seriously packed in there like sardines. It was crazy. Then we had to go through this big ordeal with getting our coats..ahh! Then after that we headed over to Sigma Chi. It was crowded over there too but not AS bad. It was alot of fun hangin with the girls last night. Just kinda felt carefree and we really did have alot of fun. But now tomorrow is Monday and the reality of the school week is setting in again and with that comes all the work that I have to do. I have alot to read and take notes on and I need to get back on the ball here. TilL NeXT TiME... |
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| 06:38pm 07/02/2003 | ||||
- Current Mood: Tired! - Current Music: None - Current Taste: Toast and Coke - Current Make-up: The usual...powder, blush, eye-liner, mascara, lipstick - Current Hair: Short and layered - Current Smell: my pink perfume from VS - Current thing I ought to be doing: Studying/Reading for my classes - Current Desktop Picture: Pittsburgh - Current Favorite Artist: Shania Twain - Current Favorite Group: Creed - Current Book: Harry Potter-- Book 4 - Current CD in CD Player: Well...at this current time my cd player is jammed..oops..hehe - Current tape in VCR: Bedknobs and Broomsticks - Current Color Of Toenails: pink - Current Refreshment: coke - Current Worry: How classes are going to go next week with my tests LAST PERSON... - You Touched: Dante - You Talked to: My roomie - You Hugged: Dante - You Instant messaged: Lacey - You Yelled At: My mom - You Kissed: Dante ;) yumm FAVORITE... - Foods: Lasagna - Drink: Coke, Down home punch ;) - Color: Blue, Pink - Album: Pretty Woman Sountrack - Shoes: Any pair of my boots - Candy: M & M's - Animal: Dogs and Bears - TV Show: Guiding Light, Sisters - Movie: Gone with the Wind, Pretty Woman, Meet Joe Black - Song: From this moment - Vegetable: Carrots - Fruit: Apples, Peaches - Cartoon: Scooby Doo ARE YOU... - Understanding: I'd like to think so - Open-minded: Sometimes...but there are some things that I just can't have an open mind about.. - Arrogant: sometimes - Insecure: yep - Interesting: haha...yea - Random: Definetely - Hungry: Yep..hehe - Friendly: yep - Smart: sometimes - Moody: my roomie likes to tell me that i am moody..hehe..i guess i am sometimes - Childish: sometimes - Independent: ya - Hard working: Depends - Organized: ummm...in some aspects - Healthy: umm...i have some wierd eating habits - Emotionally Stable: eh.. - Shy: yea - Difficult: I can be a very stubborn person..hehe - Attractive: who knows - Bored Easily: yea - Messy: Sometimes - Thirsty: yep - Responsible: yea - Obsessed: no - Angry: sometimes - Sad: Every once in awhile - Happy: Most of the time - Hyper: no - Trusting: yep! you can trust me with a secret - Talkative: Depends on the situation - Legal: yep :) WHO DO YOU WANT TO... - Kill: haha...well i could name a few people...haha right roomie? haha - Slap: ****** - Get Really Wasted With: My roomie..haha - Get High With: No one - Tickle: my honey;) - Look Like:! Me - Talk To Offline: my honey and my roomie - Talk To Online: melanie HAVE YOU EVER... - Been kissed? Yes - How many times: too many to count! hehe - Done Drugs? nope - Eaten an entire box of Oreos? nope - Been on stage? yes...gotta love those dance recitals! - Dumped Someone? Yes - Gotten in a car accident? nope - Watched "Punky Brewster"? nope - Been in love? yep FAVORITE... Shampoo? Herbal Essences Toothpaste? Crest...Regular Paste..that other stuff tastes funky Soap? Dove Type of soup? Chicken noodle Room in your house? My bedroom Instrument? Piano and Drums EITHER/OR... Coffee or hot chocolate? Coffee Big or little? big Lace or satin? lace New or old? old Neve Campbell or Jennifer Love Hewitt? neither Tom Cruise or Brad Pitt? YUMMMM Brad Pitt! Vogue or Cosmopolitan? Cosmo Jeans or cords? Jeans Sweater or sweatshirt? Sweater T-shirt or tank top? tank Skirt or dress? Skirt Wool or cotton? Cotton Rose or Lily? white rose Oldies or pop? pop Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? Boyfriend Do you have a best friend? yep IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU... - Cried? nope - Helped someone? Yes - Bought something? Yes. - Gotten sick? i had a bad cough earlier today - Gone to the movies? Nope - Gone out for dinner? yep - Said "I love you"? nope - Written a real letter? nope - Moved on? yep - Talked to an ex? nope - Missed an ex? hell no - Talked to someone you have a crush on? nope - Had a serious talk? yes - Missed someone? yes - Hugged someone? nope - Fought with your parents? nope - Fought with a friend? nope DO YOU... - Wear eye shadow? sometimes - Put on a "front"? sometimes - Kiss on the first date? depends...if i like em' hell ya! - Have a crush on someone? hehe.. yea - Eat with your mouth open? nope - If you got a tattoo, where would you get it, and what would it be? I wouldn't get a tatoo...i had a hard time getting my belly button pierced! - What color is your floor/carpet in your room? pink - What was the last CD you bought? Sleeping with the enemy soundtrack - How did you spend last summer? Working and in Michigan - When's the last time you showered? like 4 hours ago - Are you lonely? not right now - Are you happy? for the most part.. - Are you wearing pajamas? Nope - Are you talking to someone online? nope - What is your astrological sign? Aries - What are you listening to/watching right now? Unsolved Mysteries - What time is it? 7:03 pm |
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| 10:49pm 06/02/2003 | ||||
Came back to school in January and it was hard to say goodbye to everyone. Especially my grandparents. I really miss them alot and now that I am away I really appriciate everything that they do for me! There are just the best people that I know. It is great whenever I go home because I just love being around them and taking them places and going out to dinner with them and just learning and laughing with them. They are such a large part of my life and I just love them from the bottom of my heart! A few weeks ago my roomie and I took a trip to sugarcreek where they grew up and I just love being there...that entire atmosphere is just amazing because it's like...that's where I came from. My German heritage lies there and that's where they grew up and it is just a very large part of me and it means alot for me to go back there and remember things from when I was little. Lately I have been such an emotion basketcase...and it has been driving me insane. Things now....they are actually starting to all come together. I just feel like alot has been lifted off my shoulders. I have had to make some really drastic changes to better things but I think that everything so far has been the right choice. I think that all along I knew what I wanted but just didn't know how to go about getting what I want...rather....who I want. I left school in December leaving someone that I truely care about and being a dumbass and not really showing him my feelings...but I think that a part of me was still trapped in the past. Something that I had to overcome. Whenever I went home I put everything of austin and I away. All the emails..the papers the book..the pictures..but one thing remained. The ring. So I realized that if I wanted to make this work with dante and I, I would have to leave EVERYTHING behind. So I went to the piercing pagado and bought myself two new rings to replace the one. It was hard letting go but it needed to be done. After I made these changes I came back and told him all of my feelings and how much I really do care about him and only want to be with him. I told him everything and how I felt and I am glad that I did the things that I did. Can't hold on to the past forever and I now know that I am ready to start something new with dante and I know that this is what is meant to be happening because I have never been happier than when I am with him. I realized that last night. I saw him for the first time in about 2 months and I was freaking out before hand. It was horrible! I know that I was driving my roomie up a wall! (SORRY BUDDY) hehe. I know she wanted to like beat me over the head with a 2 by 4. hehe. Seeing him downstairs was great! I was just soo incredibly excited! So we went over to his apt. and just talked about things and talked how much we missed each other and I have never felt so comfortable around him. He noticed my rings and I think that is one big thing that proved to him that I want just him..and nobody else:) hehe. God I sound so cheesy! It just felt so incredible to be back in his arms and so protected! I am falling very hard for this boy...but I don't have a problem with that! hehe. For once in my life I feel like a real girlfriend and I feel like I am actually being cared about unlike before...sometimes I just want to kick myself in the ass for putting up with the shit that I put up with. Oh well. He's gone and I said goodbye for good and I couldn't feel better! :) I then told dante everything about V-Day weekend and how my roomie is having a boy over...hehe and how I ya know...didn't really want to interupt on their time. So he openly, without hesitation was like You can stay here! I guess that's what I was hoping for but the fact that he said it just made everything better. This is the first actual Valentines day that I am going to be spending/celebrating with someone. I can't wait!! I am really excited for next saturday because the four of us are going to go out and I think it is going to end up being a really nice evening! I couldn't ask for a better way to spend my time other than with my sweetie and my best friend in the whole world! I think we are going to have a blast! So Diane and I decided to take a trip to this new mall today! Oh lord what an adventure...although with us we always end up taking the longest, most complicated, route possible! We ended up going the wrong way and this trip should have taken us like 30 minutes...nope took us like 2 hours..haha. Oh well. We had to stop and ask for directions and finally we found the damn mall! First stop---Vicki's secret! hehe. I took like the whole damn store in the dressing room! I had so much shit! haha. I finally found something cute about 15 outfits later...hehe I hope he likes it..okay enough on that subject...haha! ANYWAY...haha So we both found cute things and left that store after spending loads of money! AHH! We got our cards then made our last stop in Kaufmann's to pick the boys up a pair of super cute boxers! hehe. Our shopping trip was overly successful now we faced the challenge of finding our way back to school! We made it back in good time and had a great dinner at Applebees. It was an awesome girls day out! It was so much fun! I just think it's so awesome how we are becoming such close friends and I just feel like we can talk about everything I think for once in my life I have found a true friend. I am just so lucky to have such a best friend! Love ya woomie! hehe. Thanks for everything! Remember--I am ALWAYS here for you! :) Now that I am losing my train of thought I think I am going to go and start to study for my child psych test that I have tomorrow!! Till NExt TimE..... :) |
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| 07:32pm 05/01/2003 | ||||
On the social aspect of things...it hasn't been that great. It is so amazing how things change. How things change in the aspect of friends and being back here. I mean I realize that it isn't ever going to be the same but I miss all of my friends from school. It's like...that is where my life is now. The only reasons why I come back here now is to see my family and a few select people. But my life really isn't here anymore. I can't tell you how wonderful New Years was spending it with Christina and Lindsay and a few other DZ's. These people are my good friends now and they are who I love being with. New Years was good. It could have been better for a few reasons...but if I think about that I will just make myself upset all over again. Christina and I drove up to school and we stayed at Victors. We went over to one of our sisters apt's for a party and it was fun. Christina and I had a couple wine cooler things. They were pretty good but I have to say that the 'Down home punch' was the best! Linds was right! Then we rang in the new year with a toast of Champagne and it was alot of fun. I was almost ready to cry at one point but molly and christina just hugged me and I felt okay after awhile. It was great to be there with my sisters although I wish my roomie was there too:( But I toasted her in my head:) hehe. It was really great seeing everyone. Definetely a good way to bring in the new year. Now only a couple weeks and I'll be back! Spending time with the people that I care about the most! THE STEELERS WON TODAY!!! YEH!!! I am so glad!! Now I can rub it in a few select people's faces! hehe. I knew they would win because the browns SUCK! hehe. Steelers winning made my day!! I hate to see everyone taking down Christmas decorations! It doesn't really even seem like Christmas happened...I don't know why but this Christmas was just wierd. Maybe because it was my first Christmas coming back home. I don't know. I have alot on my mind right now and I feel like all I have done lately is worry and wonder what the future will bring. I have decided that I am not going to take the field of psychology that I wanted to. I think that I am now leaning more towards the actualy medicine part of psychology and going to go the whole way. I think that psychiatry is the road that I want to take. I don't know why I decided this but it has been on my mind for awhile. It scares me alot that like everytime I turn on the t.v. there is something pertaining to war. I heard yesterday that they are deploying alot of people out to different places and it's just like now we are waiting to go to war. What will become of this country?? I keep thinking back to when Christina was talking about how she saw this psychic on TV that prediced last year the attacks of 911 and other things and she predicted that this year we would be at war and it would be on our own soil and that we would get through it but it would be a rough time for the US. I don't quite know what I think about that. I just worry sometimes for what is going to be happening a few months from now and what will happen if the people that I know and love are sent away... I guess worrying doesn't help...you just have to hope for the best and now...I am going to go and cuddle up with my puppy and watch a movie!! Till Next Time... |
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Tonight I also had a GREAT surprise!!! I was on the floor fixing up the plush animals and someone came up and tickled me from behind and I hear "There is my LITTLE!!!!"I was like LINDSAY!!!!!!!! yeh!!!! I was so excited whenever I turned around and my BIG was there!!! I was so happy to see a familiar face and let alone my Big Sister!!! :) Victor was along too and we talked for awhile while I straightened things up. I think he is leaving to go back to school tomorrow...I feel really bad for Linds because I know that she is going to be really upset and miss him horribly whenever he leaves! But we are going to get together as much as possible...tomorrow we are going out for dinner after I get off of work and we have decided to take a few trips up to school to see "our boys". :) I can't wait. I told her last night that I wanted to make a few trips up! She was excited because she doesn't have a car to go up anytime she wants and it'll be better for me to have someone come along! RoAD TriP! hehe. We are thinking about going up over new years because Victor said something about going into Cleveland. Should be a blast! Then I will have to be up there on the 3rd for Dante's birthday...ohhhh my....more presents to figure out!! AHHHHH! I am stuck on Christmas let alone his birthday! Although I have already gotten him one Christmas present and he is going to freak out when he sees it! hehe. I can't wait!!! It is just going to be a pain trying to find time when we can have out Christmas together because I am working alot and I am just hoping that maybe we can celebrate our Christmas together before Christmas and not have to wait till after!! Ahh! Speaking of Dante. I miss him terribly! Seeing Linds and Victor together tonight really made me think about him alot! I talked to him last night for awhile and he was going away today for army stuff but will be back tomorrow and he is supposed to call me. I guess earlier in the week he had a little accident and now he is like missing like a chunk or something out of his right ring finger. I couldn't believe it. Jeez......I go away and in an amount of 2 days he's already killing himself! What will I do with him??? hehe. I am still stumped on Christmas ideas...so if anybody has any brilliant ideas on what to get let me know! I already have a movie and a card...I need something else big though. I was thinking sweater or something but thats sooo typical...and original! I want to get him something really awesome and unique..but WHAT????? UG! I am just going to browse the mall tomorrow after work and see what I can figure out. I know that I will be dead tired but I need to get on the ball with my Christmas shopping! It is just coming so soon and I have to work like everday! I seriously live at that mall. I come home to eat...and sleep...thats about it! I hate sitting here and dwelling on this factor but I am seriously missing him alot! I just can't stop thinking about it! Thinking about how much I would love to be cuddled up next to him right now and kiss him goodnight before we go to bed. It is wierd now to look back and see how I thought things would be this year and how I thought this Christmas would be and who I would be spending it with. I NEVER thought that I would be in the position that I am in right now. I NEVER thought once that I would be with anyone else but Austin. Sometimes I wonder what happened...how did all of this come about so fast?? One second I am planning for the future with Austin then BOOM this other boy comes along that I can't stop thinking about from being with him one night? From talking with him one night? And now...my entire future...everything that I thought was going to happen isn't..yet I am the happiest I think I have ever been with my life. I know that he is older than me by three years...but in a way I don't think it matters. I think that I need someone this older because he has such a different outlook on things and he has also had very bad relationships and he is scared...so we are scared together and I think that that brings us closer. I love seeing and watching him open up to me each time we are together. I love learning about him and I just love everything about him. Am I falling in love with him? I often ask myself this question and I think I know what the answer is...but then I tell myself that it is too soon to realize. Even though he told me that he thinks he is falling in love with me. I just can't let myself think that yet until more time has passed. I am just so weary of my feelings and how to express them to him. One thing I need to work on is expressing how I feel and telling him how I truely feel so that he doesn't think I don't care about him--but rather...I care about him so much...it's unreal for the short amount of time that we have been together. I could sit and analyze this all night... So my little sister is off at the Christmas dance right now and I can't wait to hear how it is going for her!! She sent me an email telling me that he hair looked exacly like mine at prom and I think that is awesome!! I guess it just gives me a good feeling inside to know that there is this amazing girl out there who totally looks up to me and expects the best out of me. The only thing that I want to be for her is a positive role model. I love and care about her so much and it just kills me to hear about these friends of hers that treat her like shit and I just want to beat them down seriously! She does NOT deserve to be treated like that at all! I guess that's my overprotectiveness whenever it comes to her! But that's my job as Big Sis!! So WAtcH oUT! hehe! ;) So I haven't heard from my roomie in ages! I wanted to wish her a happy birthday and everything and she NEVER ANSWERS HER PHONE!!! GRRR! I am thinking that she fell off the face of the earth or something...hmmmm...? I WISH that she would get ahold of me to let me know what is going on and things like that..jeez...! So roomie if you are reading this CALL ME! NOW! HURRY! :) I am freezing! My grandpa doesn't believe in turning the heat up past 60 I swear! I am turning blue! "Layer up" he says...HA! I do and look like a big eskimo! jeez! My ears are starting to hurt too...guess that's what I get for not getting my allergy shots for two weeks! Oops! I know that this happens to me so why am I such a dumbass and think that I can wait??? I could kick myself for that sometimes! OK! I am now officially craving something sweet so I am going to go and scavenger around in the cookies! GINgerBreaD! yummmmm:) They won't last till the rest of the fam get here! muhahahaha! So gingerbread cookies here I come.... Till NeXT TiME~ |
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| 06:46pm 12/12/2002 | ||||
So I just tried calling my sweetie...no answer! Damn! He's at work! I am having major dante withdrawl! I mean jeez...I saw him yesterday and I am missing him like crazy! Normally right now I would probably be with him, snuggled up together watching a movie. I miss that so much!!! This break is seriously going to drive me insane! I just want to be with him right now so bad...the only thing that I thought about today was being with him and spending time with him. I am also trying to figure out what the hell I am going to get him for Christmas and ya know how many ideas I came up with?? ZERO! AHHH! Actually I have one idea..but thats more of an idea to be a joke/smart present. hehe. I am so sneaky! ;) But ya so I think I am going to go to the mall tonight and look around at some stuff and see if I can come up with anything. I just hate this feeling of missing that I have right now. I guess that spending Tuesday night with him really put things into perspective for me. Realizing the fact that I am really starting to fall for this boy. This part of me just wants to pack a small bag and start driving tonight and go and see him. I wish so much that I could do that. I have next Wed. and Thurs. off work next week so hopefully I'll be able to go up there for those days. I don't think I could stand waiting any longer! AHHHHH! It is seriously driving me insane! The only place I want to be right now is cuddled up right next to him! UG.. OHH! By the way Roomie if you read this: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! I hope it is great!! ;) How does it feel to be so..so... OLD?? hehe So I watched this movie last night called 'Life or something like it'. I thought it was going to be kinda dumb...but after watching it...it has a really good message! Basically there is this girl who only cares about working and then she gets a prediction that she is going to die...so she turns her whole life around and realizes that she has to start to appriciate the smaller things in life...and not always be concered with work and beauty and money and the perfect boyfriend. She realizes that life is not about that. She ends up falling in love with this normal guy that isn't some big star or anything super special and she takes a break with her job and learns that these material things...they really aren't that important at all. At the end of the movie she says how you should live your life to the fullest each day because you never know what the next day will bring. Don't waste your life away on material things and just being selfish...but learn to accept yourself for what you are and appriciate small things..like love. If you don't love yourself you will never be happy and you will never alow yourself to be loved because there will always be the fake you. I don't know...I guess it just makes you think...I think that some people...need to re-evaluate themselves and accept them for who they are and stop trying to change to be someone else. I don't know...I just don't understand it sometimes and this movie just like put things into perspective. Now that it is getting later I need to head to the mall and start my Christmas shopping:) yea! I can't wait! Then whenever I get back I am going to set up my small Christmas tree in my room! I love Christmas! It just puts me in a good mood thinking about it! Well I am off... |
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| 05:00pm 10/12/2002 | ||||
I know that one of the hardest things is going to be going from seeing dante everynight to seeing him whenever possibly...which might be once every two weeks or more if we are lucky! I am really going to miss him. I just love spending time with him and being with him. Last week things weren't exactly the greatest between us and I ended up getting really mad at him for a few reasons and it turns out that his reasons for doing things are the same reasons that I have and that basically we are both scared of things. He apologized for being a jerk about stuff and then Saturday was the cutest!! He took me out for dinner and then we went to Blockbuster to get movies. I wanted to get Ice Age..but he wouldn't! Hmph! But I will make him watch it sooner or later! ha! So we picked out two then he's like do you mind if we stop at my parents? I was like uhhh...no. I was a little bit nervous, but not really. His mom is super nice and then we get there and he hands me this like bouquete of flowers and I just melted to a puddle! I HAVE NEVER GOTTEN FLOWERS BEFORE! Hes like I am sorry for being such an asshole this week...OMG it was the sweetest thing in the world!!! So we left and went and watched our movies. But I think it was at that second whenever I realized what it is that I have in front of me. I am really lucky to have found him I think. He's such a sweetie and so cute about things. Although last night he told me that I was too good to be true because I am a Steelers fan! HAHA! He likes the Browns..BOO! haha. This is going to be interesting...I can see it now! haha. I could actually have fun with this factor. hehe. I don't know I am just overwhelmed with how things happened so fast I think. I mean...how everything fell into place...it was just like with the snap of your fingers and the timing too. I never saw myself like this. I never saw myself meeting this guy at a frat party and now...look where we are...things are really amazing how they work out! When you least expect them to. Over this amount of time that we have been dating I have just felt like this huge amount of stress has been lifted off my shoulders. Maybe because I don't have to worry...and I just feel so much more carefree. I don't know why exactly I have been trying to figure that out for sometime. Maybe it's him...maybe it's being here... maybe it's the fact of having influences from different people. I really don't know. Maybe I will never figure it out. But I do know that it is most definetely a good feeling. So my cousin showed me pictures of her from her dance and they are absolutely georgeous!! She looks so beautiful! I just wish that I could have been there to help her get ready and do her make-up and give her hair suggestions. But unfortunetly I can't do that. That's why I wish that things could be different because there are so many aspects of her life in which I wish I could be there for! I really miss her terribly and she is my other half. I can't wait to see her! Christmas will be great I know it now! Although it will be great it will also be a Christmas to remember. It is my grandma's last year playing and...it is going to be hard to see and deal with. There is this part of me that says NATALIE PLAY PIANO for her last time because she has wanted me to do this for a very long time...if I did it, I would try to keep it totally secret if I could. I don't know if I would have the nerve though to do it and I would have to practice my heart out. But I would do it for her. I just don't know what I am going to do about it yet...I think that I will ponder that situation more...but I think that I would regret it later if I don't do it! AHHHH! On that note... I am hungry and I need to get working on all of my things that I have to do tonight! AHH! Till Next time! |
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I miss the boys alot too. I have pictures of them up and look at them alot and think about them. I feel so lucky to be able to watch them grow up. The one night that we watched a movie Jeff sat in the chair with me and it was cute. They are both so cute and they can really make me laugh. I miss them too. Melanie most though because I feel like whenever she is away I am just not my full self. She is so important to me and I just wish I could see her more often than I am able to. In all of my low points she is there coaching me back up. I really do not know what I would do without her! I am so lucky to have a wonderful sis like her. I hope she knows that too! Lately...like tonight. Things have not been going well for me. I just right need help with things and I am also lucky to have such an awesome roomie that is here to listen. I don't know what I am going to do over Christmas break! It is going to be wierd. We are beginning to have like the same brain its awesome! haha. It is cool how we have learned so much about each other and can just be here to listen to each other when we are having dumb boy problems or whatever the case. Thanks roomie! :) I appriciate it more than you know! Thanks for a great friendship! So my dad and I are getting along quite well which is really exciting for me! I just hope that things continue to look up. I really need him. I thought before that I could go through my entire life without him. But I guess I just need him to love me and be my dad. I do miss him alot. I miss my mom too. I just keep thinking back to that night in the mountains when it was just me and him out there spotting...we were actually a father-daughter thing there. He really treated me like that. I love the mountains and being there with them because I really feel like I belong. I love going spotting and learning about the ways of the woods because thats what interests him and I want to share that same interest. I guess I need to pay attention to his things too. Things that he loves. I just hope that things stay the way that they are because I need that. I need to be loved by him and accepted. It is just a part of me. Now that I have written this long entry I am heading off to bed. Hopefully tomorrow will be better than today..... I can only hope...Goodnight |
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Yesterday was interesting. First of all I am sick of all the rumors that are going around about people and people. It is getting really annoying and it is soo childish! I mean come on let's grow up! So anyway last night I called him after meeting and I went over to his apt. We ended up watching Pearl Harbor and he was able to predict the entire movie! I was like WHAT? hehe. But we didnt really watch much because we did alot of talking. He is so cute though whenever he wants to kiss me because he always raises his chin or tickles me. hehe. I love kissing him. I love cuddling with him too. Just having his arm around me and just laying there with him is amazing. It just seems to be all too good. I am just afraid of losing what I have or pushing it away because I am not used to these things. I care about him so much and I just want to show him that I do. I am really upset though that I won't get to see him over break unless he comes down to visit me. I am really going to miss him! I am going to have to go like 6 days without seeing him. I mean we can talk on the phone yes but I am still going to miss him alot! I can't wait to see mel and the fam though! That is one thing that I am super excited for! I miss her so much! Then after the movie was over he got up and went to rewind it and everything and I asked him to come back and sit down. I asked him what he wanted to talk about and he said it'll wait till tomorrow. I wanted to know now and I was very stubborn about that! He finally sat down and he was like ya know he's like I was scared that you didn't like me as much as I like you and I told him that I do like him as much as he likes me. Then he asked me what we were...and I asked him what he wanted us to be. Obviously the outcome was we are DATING now! hehe. I am excited. So then I stood up and he gave me a big hug and we kissed some more. It was wonderful! I always come home and end up smelling like him and I love it! hehe. I can still smell him and its been a day. I am really sorry that I didn't get to see him tonight but I know that their meeting wasn't over till like 12:30. I can't believe they go that late and he has a 7:30 class. I really wanted to see him before I left:(. I will have to call tomorrow. I miss him already. I just want to talk to him and I REALLY can't wait to get my pictures developed! AHHH! hehe! But not that it is almost 3 I need to get to bed. I am all alone here in this room..:( no fun. I hate being alone. But oh well...Goodnight |
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