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[27 Nov 2002|01:19am] |
my bike is soo fun to ride.
john poverty shall join the blue bicycle brigade.
it started snowing in the northvale diner parking lot.
sam = best girl ever.
creskill ---> creskillyourself
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| and i'm throwing away the letters that i am writing you... cuz they would never do... |
[26 Nov 2002|01:03am] |
i am the proud owner of the best bike ever. i called up all the bike shops and asked if they were throwing any used bikes away, and i searched the paper, and i came up empty handed. i ended up going to a bike shop in closter and my mom bought me a used bike for an early birthday present.
here's the dilly... blue schwinn, automatic 2 speed, old skool, big scoopy handle bars, you brake by pedaling back. it's sooo beautiful. i also put a big wooden basket and pink streamers on it. all i need is a pirate flag, and i can officially die of happiness. i am giving my other bike to johnny, and together we shall be the blue bicycle brigade.
i asked the owner of the bike shop in westwood his advice about the municipal bike thing, and he said that it's a good idea, but if someone hurts him/herself, they would sue the town and assorted stuff. he suggested that i call the burough hall and maybe they'll distribute the bikes to someone who needs them. if that doesn't work, i was thinking of just playing ring-and-run and leaving bikes on people's porches. that would be rad.
if it doesn't snow tomorrow (its supposed to), i have no intentions of my feet ever touching the ground.
\m/
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[24 Nov 2002|08:07pm] |
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johnny and i need new used bikes. my bike is unfixable and is therefore very difficult to ride uphill. we wanna get simple 1-speed bikes that we can put big baskets and pirate flags and stuff on and start a crazy bike gang. if we can get bikes by this weekend i wanna have a bike dumpster diving team. we also wanna start up a municipal bike thingy, where we take donated bikes and fix em up and paint em yellow or something hideous and leave them at a certain spot for people to ride. we're gonna go to the bike shop tomorrow and talk to the owner about it and see if he has any bikes he wants to get rid of. he also have lots of zany plans invloving u-locks. that rambo 7" can be so inspiring. ahhhhhh....
also, there's this kid who works at the bike shop and he has a peach bike with a big wooden basket. it's the best bike ever. we wanna get him into the bike gang. his basket should be filled with daisies or puppies or something.
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[23 Nov 2002|06:26pm] |
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peanut butter on apples + septum ring = bad news
i found that the health food store in westood sells seitan, so the place is useful after all, though i still prefer going to dan's.
now i sit around and wait for denis to call. in the meantime, i can't stop playing adventure. i am such a nerd.
the long island show is cancelled, but the vd kids are still coming up, so pandemonium shall ensue. i wanna try for another dumpster party, but i'm kinda wary after no one showed up last time. also, i don't know if my mom will be around, and she's not a fan of dumpster food in the house. either way, i'm soo excited to see tampa john and we're gonna have some sort of jamboree. woooooooooooooo.
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[22 Nov 2002|10:43pm] |
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someone decided to pick the ugliest colors in the world and knit them into an argyle sweater. i am now the proud owner of that sweater. i went to the thrift shop today in search of leggings and legwarmers, and walked out with 2 sweaters and a pair of jeans. these jeans are soo rad. they fit me perfectly, and they're really long so i have ridiculous man-eating cuffs. werd.
i've spent the last 2 days trying to download text adventure games. back in the 80s when it wasn't cool to be a computer nerd yet, i was a big computer nerd and was really into the text adventure (or F.I.) games. all ya had to do then was pop in a big ol floppy disk. in order to get them yesterday and today, i had to copy a zip disk, download games, and download a TADS translator. and i encountered many problems along the way. geez. well, now i have one and it rocks. soon i will download another. then i will never leave my room.
denis = coming home tomorrow = happy dance = jackson 5
sometimes i enjoy being the only person who doesn't smoke pot. people are so ridiculous. :)
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[21 Nov 2002|04:38pm] |
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work today... not too bad at all. there was no burdens at all. i tried the new fried veggie thingy. it's amazing how someone can take something as healthy and wonderful as a vegetable and turn it into something so greasy and deep fried. but it was soo yummy. i'm obviously not one of the health vegans. also, the new girl talked to me again. she's so cute.... *drooooool*
so now i wait for string and niki to come around....
i think i will utilize this time by going to the bathroom.
i really want to work on my zine/book and write people letters, but i am a lazy piece of garbage.
\m/ <3 \m/ <3 \m/
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| this is why i enjoy conversing with tampajohn.... pandemonium |
[20 Nov 2002|05:00pm] |
FluxOfPnkIndns: i pee myself hourly
FluxOfPnkIndns: i wanna see u
FluxOfPnkIndns: so bad
FluxOfPnkIndns: i can taste it, and it tastes like soup
FluxOfPnkIndns: prob b/c i just ate soup, but thats not the point
FluxOfPnkIndns: b/c im moving into ur sock drawer
deathbox81: wooohooo!!
FluxOfPnkIndns: hehe
FluxOfPnkIndns: u go into ur drawer for a sick
FluxOfPnkIndns: ...sock...
FluxOfPnkIndns: and I'm like wearing every sock u have
FluxOfPnkIndns: it'd be so rad
FluxOfPnkIndns: then i'll write about bunnies...doing it....
FluxOfPnkIndns: and everyone will be like "wtf"
deathbox81: hahahaha thats awesome
FluxOfPnkIndns: and i'll prove that bunnies are all actually high life forms
FluxOfPnkIndns: and that if i gave them laser beams, they'd rule the world
deathbox81: yes!!!!!
deathbox81: i want a bunny with a laser beam
deathbox81: or lasers shoot out of their eyes
FluxOfPnkIndns: yes, that and my army of babies will be how i will take over the world
FluxOfPnkIndns: and razor sharp pinwheels
FluxOfPnkIndns: and cyanide popsicles
FluxOfPnkIndns: i was in the doctors office, and this girl had an UGLY baby
FluxOfPnkIndns: and im thinking "damn...thats an ugly baby"
FluxOfPnkIndns: and this other girl walks in and looks at the baby and was like "GIRL, YOUZ BABY IZ UGLY!"
FluxOfPnkIndns: and i totally fell over laughin
FluxOfPnkIndns: lol
deathbox81: HHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
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i ended up forcing myself to go out last night. i was at the diner, drinking my coffee, when lo and behold, colin and dasha walk in. we rocked the diner, hung out with cp and shane for a bit, and so on and so forth. ended up sleeping at colin's where we watched dudes. (made by the director of suburbia and decline of western civilization. not bad, the vandals and flea were in it as usual and jon cryer looks pretty hot as a punk.) woke up to colin making vegan pancakes (mmmmmmmm... yum). went frolicking in the woods and i managed not to injure myself. roamed around pv trying to find the kids. didn't work. went to guang yang. home. shower. ahh.
i feel somewhat better now. i'm still kinda awkward and not good at conversations, but i feel a lot more comfortable leaving my house now. and when all the kids come home this weekend, i should hopefully be back to normal.
i just changed my underwear. i should consider doing that more often.
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| i wish i was special... you're so fuckin special... but i'm a creep... |
[19 Nov 2002|05:15pm] |
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last night i spontaneously went into the city to hang out with joe. i saw this girl that i went to high school with at the bus stop. we haven't talked since the 8th grade. we ended up on the bus together, and we talked and i found out that she's been living in georgia for the past 2 years. so she told me about georgia and i told her about canada. we also did the typical class gossip over who's in jail, who's in porn, who has babies, etc. it was pretty interesting.
i met joe and we went to kate's to find out that they were closing soon. so we were there for a little bit, then i showed him where abc was and we sat in another diner. then he drove me home, which i feel pretty bad about cuz i live quite out of the way. i sense that at this point we are just friends, due to the hug goodbye and the awkwardness.
it's ok because i like him a lot, but we really don't have much in common.
i thought that if i hung out with joe last night, it would prove that i can be social, then i would feel inclined to leave the house more often and i could stop being anti-social, but instead i became increasingly paranoid. that's why i don't leave my house. due to genetics and past drug use, i go through phases where i become paranoid and anti-social and i get panic attacks up the wahzoo. i thought that because i have not gone through this since around new year's that i would be ok and not have to worry about it. but now i keep thinking that i'm going to die and i don't like leaving my house and i've been hallucintating. this isn't good at all. i need help.
i feel so antsy in my house, but i can't seem to get out. i wish i could just go to the diner or something.
somebody come over please.
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| oooooooOOOOoOOOOoooo VEGAN POLL ! |
[18 Nov 2002|04:47pm] |
the non-vegans can participate if you wish....
CANNIBALISM: YAY OR NAY??
(( assuming that the person being eaten willfully volunteered their flesh to be eaten))
i say yay.
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[18 Nov 2002|04:33pm] |
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last night we watched momento. we analyzed the bejesus out of it until we somewhat understood it. i woke up this morning still thinking about it. aww geez, now i want more tattoos.... if someone buys me a tattoo, i'll get yer name tattooed on my bum.
thanks to the sweet and lovely coffee, work was not such a burden today. except for that damn nickelback song. there's only so many times one can hear that song before he/she feels inclined to kill.
i'm starting to creep myself out. i've been talking to myself entirely too much lately, and it seems that when i'm tired i hallucinate. that can't possibly be good. someone get me out of my room.
my new favorite words are 'burden' and 'unpleasant'.
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[17 Nov 2002|01:47pm] |
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i finally set up my record player. the jackson 5 rules. i can't get my rambo 7" to work though, cuz its really light and even after throwing some change and a plastic fetus on it, it still doesn't like me.
friday night i slept at johnny's. words of wisdom: watching texas chainsaw massacre late at night at then walking about 3 miles = not very intelligent. we were paranoid nerds.
no!!!!! i just bought a really good pink floyd record and it keeps skipping!!!! nooooooo!
SO ON TO WORLD/INFERNO.....
rain is really a burden. driving was unpleasant.
however, we did listen to hayseed dixie.... a bluegrass ac/dc cover band. amazing.
at the show.. everything was going well. a lot of my kids were there. i bought a shirt. danced like a goon. then they played this one waltz where everyone's supposed to grab someone and dance. usually i always grab someone, but this time i didn't. i briefly danced with a girl from pratt whose name i don't remember, but i ended up dancing by myself, and i got really sad. it's just one of those songs where if anything magical was ever gonna happen, it would happen during that one song. and it rarely does. i know this is dumb, but i ended up getting really sad.
and the rest of the night i was an irritable asshole. i didn't realize that i was being an asshole at the time, but i definitely was and i apologize to my friends that had to endure it.
i am quite surprised that i didn't lose everything. not even any pins.
that david bilmas kid looks a lot like donnie darko.
in other news...
this morning my mom woke me up because the phone rang and she told me that my room smelled horrible. i was too asleep to tell her that the smell was probably coming from me.
john's drummer is coming up with him for the long island show, which is good, because i would really like to know what vd sounds like before i play with them. so now i get to go to the show and dance like a goon.
i can't wait for all the kids to come home from school.
i hurt.
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ohh yeah... world / inferno tomorrow!! i am excited. i am looking forward to seeing the kids.
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[15 Nov 2002|05:01pm] |
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yesterday string and niki picked me up from work and we finally went to veggie heaven. mmmmmmmmm yummm.....
then we went to amazing savings, which is truly amazing. i bought cheap imitation hungry hungry hippos called hungry hounds. boy am i excited. i also bought... i little kids drum kit that comes with all this stuff that doesn't really work that well but it fits into the snare for carrying. and also gloves (that i will cut the fingers off of) and i now have a watch. a giant watch. if it was any bigger i would be flava flav. i also bought teddy grahams pilliow cases that i will make into skirts. then i helped them move, and afterwards we watched romperstomper.
some interesting quotes of the night (which might not be exact):
"So it's kinda like home alone... except for the alone part" -- me
"the curtain store is the best store in the world." -- niki
i just came to the realization that i have tofutti in string's fridge.
i can't wait until we all get an apartment together. we will be the biggest nerds ever. no really. ever. my plan is to kidnap tampajohn and make him move in with us too.
work makes me smell yucky. and i pissed off the cooks because i was trying to explain the concept of a veggie fat cat.
i now have a patch on my pants. i'm punk rock again.
@}--'--,-----
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| "thou shalt not commit adulthood" |
[14 Nov 2002|12:37am] |
i went and saw jackass tonight. by myself. because i'm a nerd and i've been considerably anti-social lately. it was pretty good. movie theater food is sooooooooo expensive.
i saw monika's car in the seville parking lot but they weren't there so i wrote a note in mascara.
string and niki drove right past me as i was walking home, but they didn't see me.
i've decided that i like doing things by myself. but i like hanging out with my friends too.
"where were you
when i was in so much trouble with myself?
and do you still believe in me
like i believe?
i've been thinking good good things about you..."
--descendents
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[13 Nov 2002|06:07pm] |
went to the work meeting today. it wasn't as bad as i thought it was gonna be and jean and i talked and i'm not gonna do the late station for a while so i don't have to deal with lee being an asshole.
i went to music merchant and bought a jackson 5 record (they're so posi!!!), devo (Q: Are we not men? A: We are Devo!), and pink floyd (wish you were here). i have to set up my record player tonight, ed checked it out and its not broken, but the quality isn't gonna be too hot. i <3 records.
i bought vegnaise and fake chx nuggets yesterday... yum.
vegenaise makes me swoon.
its been determined that records > boys. i would much rather listen to the jackson 5 and dance like a nerd than make out with anyone. (except for maybe johnny depp in benny and joon)
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i feel much better today, thanks to everyone for being super supportive. you guys are awesome.
i actually changed my pants for the first time in over 2 months. (with the exception of work) niki gave me black cargos, so i'm rocking the additional pockets. hooray for that. i think i'm gonna patch em up. i haven't worn patchy pants in a while.
it is soooo rainy. i wanna go out, but i don't feel like being wet, and i'm in the midst of copying joe's descendants cd. i'm still jonzin for veggie heaven. mmmmm.
the povertys should all get married and have one big pajama party.
i am sooo excited about tampa john coming up here. that is going to fucking rock. i still gotta wait a few weeks though.
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[11 Nov 2002|07:14pm] |
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my boss likes making waitresses cry on a regular basis. today it was me. what a fucking prick. he pisses me off so much. i was already pretty busy, when he starts freaking out and yelling at me. i try to do my job, and he yells at me more. eventually i just broke down and started crying. then he tells me to go to the ladies room so i don't take up space. arrrrgggghhh. then he accuses me of lying. i tell him that i don't want to work with him anymore and he says good. he is such a fucking asshole. he is always telling me that i need to be more confident and that i am better at my job than i think, but every time i get stressed, he kicks me when i'm down (not literally). how does he expect me to have confidence when he fucking yells at me and makes me cry? arrrg. what the fuck. he has made all the waitresses cry at least once, and he makes my manager cry on a regular basis. he's so rockefeller. he does all this charity work and he kisses everyone's asses so everyone calls him 'the pied piper of westwood' then he goes and treats his workers like shit. and everyone just blows it off and goes "well that's just the way he is" but that's bullshit. just because he's mr popular and he owns the place doesn't mean that he can be a fucking prick. arrrrrrrrrrgggggg....
i need a hug.
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| "please consider me as an alternative to suicide" |
[10 Nov 2002|04:47pm] |
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i am so bored, but i can't go out because my hoodie is in the dryer. i decided that if i'm gonna patch it up, i should probably wash off the boogers and sludge first. i wanna go get some eats, cuz i just don't feel like cooking. mmmm veggie heaven would be sooo good right now.
i will never ever get sick of watching the princess bride. i am really surprised that i don't know all the words yet. that movie is soo good.
'well gee jess, what else is good?' you might ask. THE FLAMING LIPS. they are very good. they have a song about robots on their new album. hooray for robots. and 'she don't use jelly' is a rad song as well. yay for that.
someone come over here and we'll go to veggie heaven or guang yang or something.
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work actually wasn't that bad today. i still made pretty good money. i think i'm going to buy my plane ticket today. i gotta talk to tampajohn first and find out the airline with cheap fares from newark to tampa. also, i'm probably gonna need my mommy's credit card, and she's probably gonna freak out about me flying by myself. i'm really excited about the tour, but i'm really scared about the plane thing. i'm sure things will turn out ok. wooooooo
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