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[04 Mar 2003|10:05am] |
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( not for the pure at heart )
I'm glad Amber called me. I needed to have some grown up talk.
You know that you are spending too much time with a child when you get excited that the letter of the day is your first initial.
In other topics...I find it hard to drink my cranberry juice without thinking about my ex-boyfriend. That is partly  sarahcarotte's fault.
I may straighten my hair and take some pics during Ryan's nap. Depending on how I feel...I'll either do that or just take a nap. If I DO take pictures I'll post them....don't you worry!
I had a dream last night that I was friends with Simon...that bitchy American Idol judge. He had me run some errands for him and I was wearing my good old jeans and a hooded sweatshirt...and then during the show I got dressed up. I had on a short skirt and thigh high red vinyl platform boots. HA!
Well I'm going to fill up my glass again....this will be my third big glass full of cranberry juice in one hour. MaryJane loves me and went out and got me cranberry juice and Vitamin C drops. Brian is sick too...so she professed her love for both of us and then commanded us to stay away from her.
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| Let's cuddle and watch Sports Center |
[04 Mar 2003|12:27am] |
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HOT DATE SCHEDULE:
Wednesday night....scarey movie night at Frankie's.
March 22nd I'm going with Frankie to a wedding....which means I have to go shopping. Yay for me! Frankie's never seen me in a skirt....not many post-CP friends have.
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So I finished the book A Child Called "It" today. It hurt to read it. Emotions running wild in my feeble little heart. I was glad to close the book and say I was done. So what do I do....I pick up The Virgin Suicides.
Well...I'm officially sick. Fever and everything. BLAH! I want a bed...but all I have is the couch. Granted...it's probably one of the best couches to have to sleep on...but it is a couch none the less.
I talked to Guy tonight. He has a very comforting voice...even when he's getting all uppity. Hearing his voice was a nice change to the day of feeling shitty...it lifted my spirits. I hope this feeling lasts as I get ready to go to bed. I've been plagued with bad dreams lately and I really don't like it. I just hope that this sense of calmness I've gotten from being able to say goodnight to Guy,and listen to him say the same, lasts through the night.
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| KEV-IN! |
[03 Mar 2003|10:15pm] |
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"Sex with out women is like a taco with out hot sauce...sure it can happen...but is it any good?" -Kevin
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[03 Mar 2003|08:58am] |
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Well I think it's pretty safe to say I'm getting sick....if I'm not there already. I'm congested and I have a sore throat. Not to mention some other icky stuff. All I want is orange juice...and yesterday was the first time in a LONG time I didn't pick any up on the way here, to Brian and MJ's. Moron. Me...not you.
And now...the weekend in review...
( Read more... )
And that brings us to today. Feeling icky and wanting nothing more but to curl into my bed and drink some OJ. I guess I'll just sit here and watch Sesame Street and drink my water.
Until next time...
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| If you want to destroy my sweater.... |
[02 Mar 2003|11:49pm] |
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I know you've seen the sweater before.
These are pictures from Guy's place on Thursday night...
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I promise to actually WRITE something tomorrow.
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| Ain't it funny... |
[02 Mar 2003|07:15pm] |
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YOUR STAR -The All American Rejects |
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It's funny how things, that are familar...even pain...can be oddly comforting.
Odd how one stabbing pain, that causes you to cry out and double over, can start a chain reaction of some pretty amusing memories.
Better when the pain reminds you to download a song. ("I'm gonna make you love me...YES I WILL...yes I will")
I never said I was normal.
More about the weekend later....
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| Oooo....pretty..... |
[01 Mar 2003|07:46pm] |
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| "Pretty Girl (The Way)" -Sugarcult |
[01 Mar 2003|04:48pm] |
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Pretty girl is suffering, while he confesses everything
Pretty soon she'll figure out what his intentions were about
That's what you get for falling again
You can never get 'em out of your head
It's the way
That he makes you feel
It's the way
That he kisses you
It's the way
That he makes you fall in love
She's beautiful as usual with bruises on her ego and
Her killer instinct tells her to beware of evil men
And that's what you get for falling again
You can never get 'em out of your head
And that's what you get for falling again
You can never get 'em out of your head
It's the way
That he makes you feel
It's the way
That he kisses you
It's the way
That he makes you fall in love
It's the way
That he makes you feel
It's the way
That he kisses you
It's the way
That he makes you fall in love
Love
Pretty girl, pretty girl
Pretty girl is suffering, while he confesses everything
Pretty soon she'll figure out
You can never get 'em out of your head
It's the way
That he makes you cry
It's the way
That he in your mind
It's the way
That he makes you fall in love
It's the way
That he makes you feel
It's the way
That he kisses you
It's the way
That he makes you fall in love
Love
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| you know the kind who buy everything in doubles. |
[28 Feb 2003|05:15pm] |
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Survey stolen from pianorocker
1. If you could be instantly fluent in one other language that you currently do not read or speak, which would it be?
French
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[28 Feb 2003|12:11pm] |
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My Goth name is LUCID NIGHTMARE.
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| it was live once |
[27 Feb 2003|10:37pm] |
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THE BOXER -Simon and Garfunkel |
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Okay....so I'm at Guy's apartment right now. In fact, he's actually typing this while I dictate.
"This isn't going to be as witty as your other ones."
"No."
I think Guy's beautiful. Yeah I do. I'm such a loser.
Okay...I couldn't take it anymore...now I have to type.
Yeah...soooo....
So Guy and I met at Old Navy...very exciting, eh?
We left my car there and then drove into the city together.
Gas station, hand(on hand) time, road rage...I don't have time to fit it all in.
I think we have food poisioning...it's not a good feeling. No...no it's not.
Uhh...BEFORE the food poinsioning I enjoyed myself...yeah...so did Guy...FRIENDS was a repeat.
Guy is a nudge...and that makes it interesting.
He scares people when he talks to them. But he has a beautiful smile...and just won't show it...silly man.
He is dying. Oh well.
And he is under the impression that I can't dance...unless a pole is involved.
Okay...this entry is REALLY fucked up...I guess it'd be better if you actually HEARD it...but you aren't cool enough to know who Guy really is...so BLAH! Oh..I'm in a rare mood. It must be the pig tails. He is so cute.
Okay....enough. Guy has to get better now. Cause I want to do...oh...nevermind...you can't know that. BYE!
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| If you could slit my throat,with my one last gasping breath I'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt |
[27 Feb 2003|01:08am] |
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You are now reading the journal of the most "fired up" girl on LJ!
I'm going to see Guy tomorrow!! In something like....18 hours! WOO!
Wow...we had a really good conversation tonight. We had some real life time. We are totally moving away from that silly "I need to impress this person" stage and moving right into "I'm a human and this is the way it works". Who knows...maybe we'll even brush our teeth together tomorrow! Ooo!! I'll be sure to let you all know.
I feel really comfortable with Guy and I'm very happy at the pace things are going. We had a bit of a ground breaking moment in our "relationship" tonight. But being so selfish...I'm going to keep it to myself...and treasure it in my heart. :D
SOOOOOO excited! *bounce bounce bounce*
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So I talked to Miss Becky today about the man she is in love with. I just really hope it all works out for her so that she doesn't get hurt. If he hurts her...he'll be sorry.
Also I need to mention my Frankie-love cause he picked out my subject line this evening. Taking Back Sunday......ofcourse.
OH!! I HAVE AN ADVERTISEMENT TO MAKE:
DOVE now makes Shampoo and Conditioner....GO BUY IT! My hair is SOOOO soft and it smells SOOOO good!!
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| You take your car to work...I'll take my board. |
[26 Feb 2003|12:05am] |
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"I swear the gnomes must come in my room at nite, move everything around... take my underpants, and go hide under the bed." -Frankie
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| Hello my little love chicken.... |
[25 Feb 2003|11:49pm] |
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Today was really good.
Ryan woke up at 6am and I went in changed him...gave him a bottle and rocked him back to sleep. He didn't wake up again until 10. Yay for sleep!
He and I had a really good time together. I love making him laugh. As CHEESY as it sounds...his laugh is one of my favorite sounds. My other favorite sounds being the train, the ocean and tap shoes.
Ryan has this little battery powered school bus. When you press your feet on both of the petals it goes all by itself. Well the thing can hold my fat ass...so I sit on it and chase Ryan all around the kitchen. He loves it.
We also dance. We dance A LOT in fact. Ryan and I have a song. TINY DANCER by Elton John. In fact I think I have a song with almost everyone that I'm good friends with. One day...maybe tomorrow...I'll post all about that.
I talked to Guy earlier tonight on the phone. I'm going to the city Thursday and I'll get to see him. We are both really excited. "Fired up" even. Yeah...I'm excited. I can't wait until I can hug him and talk to him AND look at those amazing eyes all at the same time.
Well, I'm off to watch WILL & GRACE. Goodnight LJ. Sleep well.
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| stolen from pianorocker |
[25 Feb 2003|09:03pm] |
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1 MINUTE AGO: watching something about the Jersey Devil
1 DAY AGO: at the mall
1 WEEK AGO: snowed in
1 YEAR AGO: in Texas...very very sick
I LOVE: Ryan, Orange Juice and Something Corporate
I HATE: uhh...I don't know...
I FEAR: escalators and that icky love stuff
I HOPE: that I don't get hit by a truck on the parkway tomorrow.
I FEEL: "so cheap..so used unfaithful"
I LISTEN: to really really good music...b/c I'm that cool.
I HIDE: my boobs.
I DRIVE: a car...a piece of shit car.
I PLAY: the radio.
I MISS: GUY and LA and Canada.
I LEARNED: that I'm super special
I KNOW: that I'm cute...right? RIGHT?!! right!!
I WAIT: for no one!!...no I wait if they are cute.
I NEED: brakes for my car and some tylenol
I THINK: that I'm am so finished with this...
And now...Guy's answers....
1 MINUTE AGO: eating nachos and jack cheese
1 DAY AGO: changing for gym
1 WEEK AGO: got me
1 YEAR AGO: traveling more
I LOVE: role models
I HATE: petty people
I FEAR: death
I HOPE: I wake up on time tomorrow
I FEEL: okay
I LISTEN: more than I talk
I HIDE: my smile
I DRIVE: jeep cherokee
I PLAY: not much anymore
I MISS: Girl
I LEARNED: “always keep learning” – Elie Weisel, freshman orientation
I KNOW: less than I think
I WAIT: in traffic
I NEED: a good walk with Girl
I THINK: too much
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[23 Feb 2003|08:24pm] |
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Guy is a sexy bitch.
He's also downloading Something Corporate songs. I'm a good street team member!!
Some more Guy info...
Last night we had a little lesson in "This is your fucked up life"...while trying to explain my life story he actually had to stop me and write it down. I little road map in who I am now. The last time I did that was during lunch my junior year in High School with Dustin and Amber. That, in fact, is when step-daddy started getting called "Satan".
Guy also referred to me as "Girl" earlier. I giggled. I liked it.
now for some lyrics...
Feel It Turn
by Great Big Sea
I had a dream I was moving forward
Floating gently to the sun
I’ve come to see my world rewarded
A new day has begun
A lost bird caught in mid migration
Far away to a foreign land
Offspring of a secret nation
A new day has begun
Chorus
I can see the earth below me
and I can
feel it turn
Fog lifts to reveal potential
For generations prophesized
Our growth to be exponential
Our promise finally realized
Chorus
Bridge
Feel it turn
Across the sky
The world it learns
So must I
Cut steel wired into water
Fixed link, circumnavigate
Old men see your sons and daughters
No longer, no longer hesitate
Chorus x2
***IN OTHER NEWS***
SCOTT called me again! Twice in two weeks! DAMN!
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