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| 06:29pm 28/08/2002 |
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mood:  impressed music: OLP-Sell my soul
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Wow,Our Lady Peace is really amazing. I mean,I always new that..but i'm listening to "Gravity" right now and so far..I like pretty much all the songs that I've listened to. I didnt think I'd like their new stuff,but suprisingly I do. But,I'm sorta gettin tired of "Somewhere out there"..heh. So tomorrow..School. Kinda scary huh..yeah. |
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| mesomedayyyyy,mayb and I'll sayy why dont you go fuck yourself |
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| 11:20am 28/08/2002 |
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mood:  pissed off music: Reel big fish-All I want is more
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fuck man somebody tear my fuckin uterus out.OWWWWWWWWWW. it hurts to be a girl :( yeah so..let's see. My mom woke me up at like 7am,and I havent been able to fall back asleep. Becuz..my stomach hurts...becuz I have my . mother fucker. Anyways..where the hell is Joe? Would somebody be kind enough to answer me this. I want to talk to him. Tomorrow is my first day of f'n school. Ewww! I want ice cream. Mint chocolate chip.. *drool* I'm gonna sit around all day watching soap operas becuz I feel like ass and I dont wanna go out today. Hopefully I'll get some sleep. YEAH That would be nice. |
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| 03:04pm 27/08/2002 |
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mood:  determined music: The forrest gump theme =)
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So,school begins next Tuesday. We go in Thursday for our schedules,lockers,books etc etc..I'm looking forward to that. But fuck the rest. Man,it scares me. I'm not going to smoke as much at school anymore..that's for sure. I cant afford to. I need to straighten things out. Get a job,stay foccused on school...and still have fun. It's going to be hard,I know it is. But I'm gonna keep at it. I mean,I've been saying this for about 3 years now. Now is my last chance to do something about it I guess. I made oatmeal this morning for me & dad. heh..I'm gonna shower and wait until mom gets home..so I can fucking go out. |
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| 04:53pm 24/08/2002 |
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mood:  confused music: Prodigy-Diesel Power
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I miss Joe.
I havent spoken to him in a while. I want to know how he is,what's going on in his life. If he's happy and if all is well. I want to talk to him for hours..like we used to. Share stories and memories. Fears and joys. Does he still think of me? What happened. |
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| 05:18pm 23/08/2002 |
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mood: aggravated music: Staind-For you
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Fuck man,Jennifer is a fucking bitch. I was on fucking shrooms the other day and she kicked me out of her house. At like fucking 4 in the morning. What the fuck???? I thought she was my friend. A good friend..I guess not. She's a hypocrite. The worst,my god..She'll be so nice with you and lie in your fucking face. Ariane really likes Cameron and Jennifer lies to her about seeing Cameron. That's bullshit. I'm tired of it. Someone needs to make her get a clue fuck. School fucking starts soon. 8:30,Wednesday..to get my student ID n shit. I dont know what to expect..I'm tired..I havent slept normally in days. I need to take a shower..Fuck man. |
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| 04:17pm 21/08/2002 |
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mood:  okay music: Alanis Morissette-You owe me nothing
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Man..Leo is gone for the whole week. That fucking sucks. So,we've been having lots of fun..Sergio made chocolate..mustard chocolate at one point and had me eat it (I didnt know) it was sooo nasty!! It's 4:20. Umm Sunday night I fell alseep at about 5am on the top bunk,then some people showed up..then I fell asleep on the kitchen floor with Jen and Jeff was layin in the hallway from like 7:30 am t'ill like 11. I woke up and Cam wasnt back so I went to Jennis room and Marcel was passed out on the top bunk and the cracked out couple were on the futon. They spent the whole fucking day there. They even ordered food and we had no idea who they were. Then Monday nite I dont really remember...I fell alseep with Jeff on the futon. Then I woke up with Ariane asleep beside me. Anyways it was all good fun.. Tonite=mush with Christine,Anou n Gustavo :))) ahhhhhhh
cool shit! I mean,I hope it works out! Hey Jean Chretien isnt going to be runnin for prime minister anymore. My dads happy...thats all I know. Now i gotta go shower and gogogo! Ciaaaaoo |
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| 09:53am 18/08/2002 |
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mood:  awake music: Smashing Pumpkins-1979
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It's so fucking early and I'm awake :o geez!!!
Only becuz today is going to be a big day muahahahha >:)
partay at Jenni's. Chris is bringing her bong. We're gonna go to the Mont-Royal and probably then off to Jennifers. Woohoooo!!! Anyways ..that's it. I dont remember what I did yesterday or the day before..so I cant really wrote about it,which sucks. oh well =\ |
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| 11:36am 12/08/2002 |
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mood:  contemplative music: The Price is right on TV!
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Hmm,these days have been pretty dull. I wanna party!!! It sucks to be broke,lemme tell ya. Jell-O is back from Gaspesie!!! I'm gonna see her today,I'm ssooo excited :) Yay! Yesterday me and Nat hung out with Alex Polo,Alex and Guilio yesterday. And that nasty chick Ashley. Gross! Anyways..yeah hum that's it |
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| 02:45pm 07/08/2002 |
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mood:  crappy music: Incubus-11a.m
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Last nite was just really bad..I'm so tired.
Fuck man... |
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| 03:14am 06/08/2002 |
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mood:  amused music: The beatles-Strawberry fields forever
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pUppetpalj0e: they probably put makeup and crap on it or a celiene mask
LMFAO! that's definetly the highlite of my night geez |
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| 02:37am 06/08/2002 |
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we'd gather around all in a room fasten our belts engage in dialogue
we'd all slow down rest without guilt not lie without fear disagree sans judgement
we would stay and respond and expand and include and allow and forgive and
enjoy and evolve and discern and inquire and accept and admit and divulge and
open and reach out and speak up
This is utopia this is my utopia
This is my ideal my end in sight
Utopia this is my utopia
This is my nirvana
My ultimate
we'd open our arms we'd all jump in we'd all coast down into safety nets
we would share and listen and support and welcome be propelled by passion not
invest in outcomes we would breathe and be charmed and amused by difference
be gentle and make room for every emotion
we'd provide forums we'd all speak out we'd all be heard we'd all feel seen
we'd rise post-obstacle more defined more grateful we would heal be humbled
and be unstoppable we'd hold close and let go and know when to do which we'd
release and disarm and stand up and feel safe
this is utopia this is my utopia
this is my ideal my end in sight
utopia this is my utopia
this is my nirvana
my ultimate |
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| 02:30am 06/08/2002 |
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mood:  blah music: Alanis Morissette-Utopia
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Umm today sort of sucked.
The nite before,Sergio came and we hung out in the park until like 3 am and....then I only remember falling asleep. Then the fuckin alarm goes off at 7am. Then it goes off again at 12:00. So I was basically tired all day. Came home,hung out with Denise & Jess. Now i'm sitting here..nothing to do. Bahh..The nite is really beautiful..wind is nice. |
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| 03:53pm 04/08/2002 |
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mood:  lazy music: Anti-Flag-Drink Drank punk
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I dont even remember what went on last nite. I fell asleep fully clothed at like 2 and woke up at 5:45 and changed into my pjs and slept until 2:45pm. Damn! I'm still tired..and it's fuckin hot =\ Anyway I need to go get ready..yup. |
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| 11:33pm 03/08/2002 |
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mood:  high music: Richie Havens-Freedom (Live at Woodstock 69)
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I just got back,I'm beat..
It's so fucking hot,I spent the night with Anou,Polo,Kaster,Gustavo and Max. Nice seeing them! Tomorrow's the gay pride parade. I think we're going that'll be cool. Fo sheeze. I'm so fucking tired cuz I slept 2 hours in the past 24 hours. dang.. |
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| I dont know why I'm posting this useless information |
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| 04:45pm 03/08/2002 |
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mood:  tired music: Country Joe Mcdonald and the fish-Whoopie were all gonna die
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I'm so damn tired...but I can't fall asleep. What's the deal?
I need to take a shower...I smell. |
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| 02:40pm 03/08/2002 |
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mood: blah music: Deftones-Change
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Well,I'm back from California. I've been back for almost a week now..it was so great :) It's really nice being back home though..the last week there was when I started being home sick. You know,it's like you miss your friends..your family..but just your 'stuff' too namsayin. Like,your bed..your bathroom sink your phone..stuff. Anyway...last nite,Anou and I slept in some fuckin strangers place. We we're so drunk at Sergios. We left at like 3 in the morning and went to buy some pizza. Then we slept in Arianes neighboors house..and she fuckin woke us up at 9 am. Then we came here...we both feel like fucking crap..but it was great fun! So we dyed my hair again,and we're probably gonna go out later. Yup...that's about it. |
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| 07:29pm 18/06/2002 |
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mood:  giddy music: Incubus-Are you in
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Math exam was today. It went alright. I'm soo fucking glad it's over,for a while. I only have my english exam Thursday and well,piece of cake ;] I dont know what I'm doing tonite. I'm gonna meet Karine around 8:15,she stole a bottle of wine from her dad hahaha and we're gonna go meet Jennifer and Anouare. Hopefully Leo will be there :) So it's definite,we're leaving July 9th. Jess is is coming the 22nd,I'm coming back the 29th. I need to buy books,I want to read. |
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| 06:36pm 09/06/2002 |
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mood:  good music: Smash mouth-I'm a beleiver
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So,today I went to Walmart with Jess :) it's been a while..
I bought some beads and string..Jess bought shoes for her dad or some shit. We went out "tanning" it was much fun..we have discusting bodies and i'm going to be obese when im older,for sure. It was such a beautiful day today.
Anyway....California coming up. YES! I cant wait!!! School is out in 3 days. I'm glad its almost over..I'll miss it in a way but I'll see all those fuckers in 2 n a half months anyways. I need to shower. and I'm hungry ..rahhh. |
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| you make me feel uncalm and i think i like it |
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| 07:34pm 06/06/2002 |
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mood: okay music: 311-Uncalm
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Today was....meh. I want to see Leo. I hope he's alright...I havent seen him since last Saturday. I didnt feel well today..I had a really bad headache for must of the day and couldnt follow in class. At lunch,suprisingly I studied. Gasp! I want to speak with Joe..I feel like I should thank him. The other nite when we talked,it made alot of things that I thought made no sense,make sense. I can't wait until California...I'm going with Jess and we're staying with Kerry and Larry. It's going to be ssssssooo much fun. Ahh I must go pee :o |
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| 09:30pm 05/06/2002 |
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mood: cranky music: jimmies chicken shack-30 days
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A couple days ago I thought everything was coming together. Now nothing makes any sense. I thought I was falling for Leo....I really dont know anymore..do I still have feelings for Joe? Am I going to do well on my finals..hopefully. I just need a major break from school. I need to clear my mind. I need to stop worrying. And,Joe. I dont know..Leo..I dont know. piece of shit. |
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