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12:31am 29/11/2002
 
mood: shity
music: My Ruin- Beautiful Flower
i made some lyrics from the pomes that i had, hopefully i can use them for the band.
im still unsure about the name of it.

Your thoughts of murder
Valiance was a region, your god is pleased
This world is full of terror
A prayer under pressure

(chorus)
The crows gather in a murder
Is this what you call God?
Faith has been lost
You still stuck on your cross

A corpus of a killers victim
Blood red scars still fresh
Media exploiting her death
Isn't she just she the Beauty Queen

(chorus)

Cowards talk behind our backs
Scared to confront us
To the people of the world
This is the Creation of our own corruption
 
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to Kat   
12:03am 29/11/2002
 
mood: thoughtful
!HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
!L0VE YOU!
 
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update   
07:06pm 27/11/2002
 
mood: shity
music: Cradle Of Filth- From The Cradle To Enslave
the Ill Nino Otep show isnt going to be coming to San Antonio.
my band is going to be playing at the white rabbit on dec 28.
i sold 100$ at the bake sale for school.
i got the new Kittie Safe EP.
the 29 is Kats birthday, i wanted to mail her money but my mom is being a bitch about it.
my cable is a dick which is pissing me off.
my toe is doing better from the surgery.
life sucks, life goes on...
 
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w00T   
08:16pm 24/11/2002
 
mood: creative
music: Orgy- Stiches
my hair is fucking kick ass
i love it!
when i get time to take a pic ill post it
but my bangs are back to red and the
spikes that i started doing are red too
so w000000T! you know your jealous
haha im in a good mood for a shity
time oh well why not make the most of it
my mom is going to the court thing and
bitch them out cause she found all this
law shit so they cant touch my grandpa now
so im hopeing that goes well
laters~*
 
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fuck   
09:52pm 22/11/2002
 
mood: sick
music: Jack Off Jill- American Made (Tweaker remix)
i havent seen so much shit in one week then i ever had before
i tried to get Mr David back today and i got some things he can
do to get back there but my mom didn't take me to the art place to
talk to him cause she is to busy with her damn job.... now i know where
i stand heh and then also today my aunt calls about my Grandpa
his new wife brain washed him into thinking that he needs to go
to a home and all this other shit WTF now she is takeing money from his
cards and other ways then she got a lawyer to get everything he owns
and Tuesday is the court date so i may not be at school cause my mom wants
me to go there but now my mom and my aunt are getting all the shit
she has done with facts so they can be stated at to the judge
so hm yea what else could go wrong?
 
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vibes   
08:51pm 21/11/2002
 
mood: blah
music: Kittie- Safe (KMFDM Remix)
im like getting this weird vibe from Kat and i dono if its good or bad
kind of crepy

i didn't go to art class for the second time in a row...
things havent been going well though it feels like i cant
move from this crap, well today was the art teachers ( from school) last day
it was sad my friend Crystal cried poor Mr David he will be greatly
missed... but i wont give up that easy!
today i went to the office and made them give us
student console meeting for tomorrow
so at the meeting im going to try and get Mr David back
over there some how... the school is fucking is poor as hell though they fried
the art teacher at art school???? what the hell?!!>?
things may get ugly and Crystal said she was going to be there
so that is cool cause she really miss's him and she should voice her thoughts
as a student about all of this like i will cause im the president
and tomorrow she said she is going to say she loves and i HAVE you give her a hug
lol that weirdO
 
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A Flaw From Grace   
08:06pm 20/11/2002
 
mood: crappy
music: VNV Nation- Epicentre
one of the pomes for school-

A Flaw From Grace

A sinners prayer, a saints desire
Drive the steak into my soul
The spell as be broken
Hear the death crying scream

Do you feel faith, or do you feel fear?
Hunted by the unknown mass
Cut my self on the thorns of the beautiful flower
Bleeding, releasing the source of life

The crows gather in a murder
Is this what you call God?
Faith has been lost
You still stuck on your cross
 
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what to do?   
06:37pm 20/11/2002
 
mood: aggravated
music: Garbage- As Heaven Is Wide
well no mrs L never said anything cause she knew i was just
waiting for her to
bitch....
mr James (the cool one from Scotland)
got fired yesterday
then today my art teacher got fried
because the school is to poor
to pay them im so sick of this shit
im almost to the point where i just want to take off and go somewhere
else better then that shit hole
i left early today cause i was sick
sick of the smell of the ass's there
i need to take action

i went to see about getting my nose pierced and its going to cost
me 55 dollars for everything.. i think that's way to much for a nose
and i need my mom there so yea i dono if that's going to happen anytime
soon >=\ oh well
 
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CORRUPTION AT ITS FINEST   
08:10pm 18/11/2002
 
mood: pissed off
music: Kittie-No Name
im fucking sick of this shit
the school has become a war zone
tomorrow im not taking shit from
ANY of the teachers, they were talking shit about
me behind my back and grr
i was in the next fucking room
fucking !!!COWARDS!!! cant even say it to my face
fucking ass's just wait
i swear one little thing and im going to let off on this shit



btw HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALICIA!!!!!
 
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sunday bloody sunday   
08:05pm 17/11/2002
 
mood: depressed
music: Moby (with MDFMK)- Sunday Bloody Sunday (Electric Hellfire Club Remix)
my fish Talena died today
she was the coolest fish i ever had
RIP Talena...>=~(
then if things couldn't get any worse
i just found out that my friend
Tony was in a car accident yesterday
and was sent to the hospital...
and i don't know the full story on this so im
in shock and sad at the same time, i hope
he is all right >=(
 
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hm   
07:13pm 17/11/2002
 
mood: impressed
music: Natalie Imbruglia- Impressed
this weekend sucked a ton of bouncing jelly beans
and now its over and back to hell we go... wo. oh.
i got my report card and here are the grades
math D*
english B-
biology B
history A+
art A+
journalism A+
german A+
home ec A
see everything is good besides damn math...fucking ass hole
and so yes he gave us work over the week that i havent done
yet though i need to *later*
all i did this weekend was watch movies
queen of the damned
whats his face 2
rollerball
star wars though im not into it but it has YODA
and i love that little green man heh
so yea work needs to be done and sadly it
doesnt to do it by its self so laters-
 
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i am so0o jealous!   
10:41pm 15/11/2002
 
mood: jealous
music: NIN- Closer



 
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fuck   
05:00pm 15/11/2002
 
mood: shocked
music: Dimmu Borgir- In Deaths' Embrace
well my mom told me that the doctor said she has
high blood pressoure and she is over wight (riiiiight)
so like sometime around the 24th? she is getting tested for things
i hope she doesnt have anything wrong with her >=[
 
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D0pe   
08:31pm 14/11/2002
 
mood: refreshed
music: Dope- Pig Society
polite to say that i drifted away and i never thought i'd care
along the way i've made mistakes but i made them over there
if i told you twice i'd beat it, what you never thought i'd beat
if i told you i survived in your pig society
you don't know what its like to be in me
you don't know what lies inside and you never want to see
locked away in a cage today so i'm doin' what i can
take these fuckin' chains off me and i'll show you what i am
you don't know what its like to be in me
you don't know what i've survived and you never would beleive
sick of politicians and politics and prisons lyin' and runnin' my life
you pathetic preacher and hypocritic leaders smilin'and wastin' my time
fuck you
survive the hate of this fuckin' place and i'll call you when i can
some snitch fucker died last night, do you think i give a damn
you don't know what its like to be in me
you don't know what its like inside and you never want to see
sick of politicians and politics and prisons lyin' and runnin' my life
you pathetic preacher and hypocritic leaders smilin'and wastin' my time
sick of you religions and full of shit opinions, tired of waiting to die
run me in i'll do it all again mother fucker i'm still alive
 
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la de la   
07:56pm 13/11/2002
 
mood: crappy
music: KMFDM- Light
i still feel shity heh and i know whats going to happen now
the whole hospital thing is about me going to the doctor tomorrow
so can take their pint of blood and i can have a cookie >= \
then i was talking to Kat since like forever and she said her friend
Eaven can help me out with a demo or something... which is cool
but like i have been saying i dont know if im going to stay with the
band or not cause were not going anywhere i thought we had everything
fine then boom two of them leave and we get two more that are good
people yet its not the same and i dont feel right.... maybe i dono what im
talking about maybe i will stay i dono nothing is a official or set in stone
my friend David from school is getting his tattoo today he left early from school
to get it done, i think its going to be some kind of clone i think i dono?
then i think Monday im going to Dr again cause my toe is going evil on me again
like it use to lol and i dled more punky jumpy music that i find weird yet i dono
if i like it cause i dono its like it just stays with you kind of weird eh? oh then would
ever think me the loser that knows nothing got to teach my math class today
well bitch i did >= ) i told the mr shit head off
" you have no clue what the fuck your doing sit you ass down" and lol he did
and so i got the marker and whoa it was is/of and %/100 every easy shit
so i told the kidOs what to do and they ALL got it i was prude of my self cause no
one knows what there doing there that's why i dont believe any one passed the 2nd
6 weeks oh well but i know for damn sure im not going to fault this 6 weeks
im gawd damn sure of that... my moms friend Megan is here and she like trys to
"help" me like im some psycho ick WHY MUST YOU TRY TO CHANGE ME?
and yes the chicken PICKED *lol* Coreys packer lol haha see i told you the chicken
doesn't like ya bwhahaha ah i need a life!
 
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yea   
09:37pm 12/11/2002
 
mood: uncomfortable
music: Depeche Mode- Waiting For The Night
well today was fine heh
my friend is going to the same art classes
as i am which a cool thing lol
i havent seen her in life since that one night at the rabbit
wow now that i think about i havent been there in a long time
>=\ that sucks
i was reading my horoscopes from SYDEY OMARR
the only astrological guide lady that i trust
and yea it was kind of sad cause the moon
is moving to my sign yet something bad is going to happen...

Nov 13 ( Pisces moon)
confer with a hospital administrator- you could have valuable products to offer or sell.
your direction and motivation will become crystal clear. you no longer will wander aimlessly. your marital status figures prominently. cancer is involved.

Nov 14 ( moon Pisces-Aries)
diversify; bring joy to those temporarily confined to home or hospital. people look to you for optimism,hope, and definite decisions on what to do while confined. a very usual Thursday, a day you wont soon forget.gemini plays a role.

see its not good cause something bad is going to happen,., the sad thing is that i can feel it comeing.?.
 
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whoa   
09:20pm 11/11/2002
 
mood: stressed
music: Le?ther Strip- Hate Me (Funker Vogt Remix)
today was a long werid day...
i met 2 people today one likes the Distillers
and is cool the other is a fucking psycho >=\
on and on and on about blah blah blah my gawd
the only thing thats stoping me is the damn screen heh
anyways i got done with my report and it sounds good too
*go me*
new pic-

im going to bed later
 
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ick   
01:51am 11/11/2002
 
mood: bouncy
music: Icon Of Coil- Former Self
im all sick my stomach hurts like a mofo
like something it going to tair out of it
then my head hurts to but not as bad
as when i woke up all
"where the hell am i"
ouchers but yea i got a new look heh
GREEN BABY lol i dono i thought it was cool to
go with some color for a change.... no this
doesn't mean im going to wear colors cause
i wear the all the colors mixed in ONE
so HA, then its fucking hot as hell in my
house i walked out side it was fair then inside
whoa is shity you walk in my house and start
sweating or something its that bad! then GOOD NEWS
i have made the evil/funky chicken face >=^ haha
yea i think i should sleep heh cause i have to finish my
report tomorrow laters-
 
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l0l   
11:54pm 09/11/2002
 
mood: drunk
music: X Marks The Pedwalk- I See You (Extended)
well like the show didnt happen cause of the space thing
though their was enough to have two bands play .. *i wont get mad*
and so i made the most of the night cause a lot of my old friends
were at the party so i went out and walked around and found this
band playing in there house so we all acted like little punkys and
jumped around till they saw us so we took off lol it was great
so despite the shit i still had fun.... i have a buzz hehe >; P

IXIIHereticIIXI: if i were a bunny i hop hop hop! hop hop hop!! !!
OoHELLASeXyoO: lol omg ur deff buzzed. thats how i get when im buzzed
IXIIHereticIIXI: LOL
IXIIHereticIIXI: WHY ARENT YOU HOPING!
OoHELLASeXyoO: lol
OoHELLASeXyoO: cuz im not a damn bunny
IXIIHereticIIXI: LMAO
 
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today...   
07:34am 05/11/2002
 
mood: anti-everything
music: The Distillers- City of Angels
today you get to vote...
for donkeys and elephants?
have fun...
 
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