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LiveJournal for Cherry Faery.
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| Sunday, February 23rd, 2003 |
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| the dark side creeps over the flaming shadow of my face as i chew the tiniest fragments of my golden eternity. when it reaches the gauged hole i know that time will become irrelevant and the moon will suspend its nightly vocation. until that fateful moment of irrevrance cranberries and life size chess boards will have to suffice the bitter yearning of a better life... | ||||||||
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| Wednesday, February 19th, 2003 |
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**************************************** **************************************** some one said this to me... "you're cool because people try to buy your friendship; they invite you to crazy parties, buy you things, talk like they're on the same level as you. and i'm not because i sit alone in my room trying to cry... and i can't" isn't that sad??? |
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| Monday, February 17th, 2003 |
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late night visits to the er, bacardi gold and coke, kisses and giggles, used book stores with stolen cats, dirty south and boise idaho, late night savior, sneaking around, bubble tea, confusion confusion confusion... so starts a new beginning |
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| Friday, February 14th, 2003 |
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here i am sitting in my valentine's day getup and all i can wish is that i had somewhere to go... sucks when u can't be with the one you want to... but well i guess if they're special enough one can wait.... i've been missing everyone back home less and less as i get closer to people here and maybe just maybe i will forget about my hellish past with the right person.... ha... well hope you are all spending the night with someone hot, and well if ur not come to seattle for free blowjobs........ love you... peace |
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| ha.... life gets crazier everyday.... | ||||
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| Wednesday, February 12th, 2003 |
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| yumminess is sneaking around | ||||
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| Monday, February 10th, 2003 |
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| pain from beauty hurts more than being stuck in the hell of misguided religions... i have so many emotions running through my veins that i tear at them until my feelings leak into a little red stain on the chenille carpet i bought to feel at home... i listen to hardcore to be in misery's company but we all know that suffering is only intensified when you have a good audience... the good in my life is a spotlight on the bad and i live in a world of shadows, trying to avoid everything... love is not a two way street when this much confusion intoxicates... i want to drown my sorrows in the bottle or pipe or needle or sex... but here i am sober as a mormon... i pray to the deities that all of this suffering will bring the good to the forefront but my life has proven that this is the perpetual state i deserve. im not a fucking work in progress, im just another piece of shit floating around. lets avoid the self loathing conversation because that would bring the whiny bitch out of my otherwise morose thoughts. this is nothing, this "pain" i have. but i can't even deal with the little shit like oweing someone money or liking someone. or studying. i think that valentine's day is the day. the day to end all days. im tired of hurting myself and letting people hurt me. i want to go to sleep... | ||||||||
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| Monday, February 3rd, 2003 |
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i hate everyone... everyone who is forgetting about me... i don't want to be that girl that broke ur heart or that girl u used to hang out with. i don't want to be remebered as a mediochre part of ur existance. everyone who is trying to be mmy new friend. i don't want to be that girl that looks cool enough to have pick up guys with u or that girl that will accomodate her individuality just for u. i don't want to be the one who makes ur days just a little more interesting. i hate everyone. |
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| Tuesday, January 28th, 2003 |
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so i think im on the verge of breaking down and i seem to berushing towards the road to self destruction without a care in the world. I think i need a break... anyway pill coctails and cutting don't add up to me being any happier so i took some shrooms to chase away the blues. it was fun to ride the zip line and merry-go-round but the freemont troll kicked ass. its a giant concrete troll under a bridge with a real vw bug in his hand and a psycadelic eye... yummy oranges... met some sisters of perpetual indulgence with anneke... cool makeup and wedding bands... went to a metal-core show. saw napalm death and nile... interesting to say the least... and yet in the midst of all this fun im perpetually caught in my old depressed self. and i just keep wondering why the raindrops keep falling on my head... |
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| Monday, January 20th, 2003 |
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this was by far the most amazing weekend of my life and its all thanks to magic shrooms sent from a shaman in the sky. i ended up having a connection, my friend bought a shit load and needs to get rid of them. so i tripped balls with her on wens. night. we went to cafe messiah and saw our freind spin. it was cool, the coffee shop is like decked out like a cathedral with trippy artwirk and mix that with drum and bass with indian chant.... amazing.... then i tripped with anneke and curry... it was a girlie trip cause we chilled in my room. we thought it was a genie's bottle and we played with glittery tattoos and such. it was so weird but cool. last night i tripped with alex elilta and some guy... we went on a magical journey through the city. traveled on broadway and met some cool homeless people. played with leaves and nature. alex bought a coconut basket from a street guy and we went and bought tropical fruit. crazy crazy crazy.... it was so fucking fun... if anyone wants some let me know.... |
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LiveJournal for Cherry Faery.
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drained.
productive.
excited.
giddy.
crazy.
pissed off.
depressed.