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Saturday, February 22nd, 2003
4:43 am - Hate Versue Love
I think I have been officially axed by my mathematics tutor, Mrs Kwek. I have been having this feeling ever since she took over my class after the second intake. She likes to scribble illegible nasty-looking writings on my tutorials and she never complement me whenever I improve for a math test. On the contrary, she seen to like emphasizing on my mistakes and my downfall. Yesterday, she plainly down-righted ignored me when I asked her a question. I know I am not her best student nor did complete my tutorial yesterday but surely there no need for her to show such hostility isn't it.

I think I have a crush on someone again. (Stupid!)I am having one. I haven't felt that way since Sabrina left SRJC. I will always remember her, especially her smile, Oooh so sweet. Now this person is the reason why I haven't quit the Choir yet. I know this person is leaving SRJC soon and this is so sad, I wouldn't be able to see my crush again. *sigh* I am so silly these days. Falling for a year one student. I don't even know whether my crush is my kind of people. * sigh*

current mood: peaceful
current music: Xiao Ya Xuan - Zui Su Xi Di Mo Shen Ren

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Monday, February 10th, 2003
8:09 pm - Term 2, Week 6
The week started out just as hectic as ever.This Monday was my turn to sing the National and College anthem. After doing it once, I thought it wasn't such a bad idea after all. Maybe next time I will warm up my vocals so that I can project my voice even louder.

Mrs Kwek put on a mad rush by discussing two Integration tutorials in two hours. I panicked for awhile then. The reason why Mondays are so stressful is because of Mrs Kwek's Math tutorials. She expects us to finish one week's work is just one day.

Econs was another nightmare. I was so frightened that Miss Gan would ask us to hand in our Econs workbook; we haven't done anything about that yet. Also I have yet to hand in the GP essay to Mr Lyon. Just hope that I will have time to write it after I revised for Chemistry common test tomorrow.

current mood: rushed
current music: Mariah Carey - Through The Rain

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Friday, February 7th, 2003
5:44 pm
Boring... It's 15 minutes to six o clock and I am still in college - working on the NTU-JC challenge. It is so lame I have to stay back until ten to work on the project. What's worse , Nilesh, the tyrant is in charge. All he does is nothing. He just sits there and boss people around. What a irritating fellow!

current mood: irritated
current music: One True Voice - Sacred Trust

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Tuesday, February 4th, 2003
9:56 pm
I feel so sleepy today. Almost doze off during physics lecture. What a jam packed day I had! A whole series of lectures started at 7.45 in the morning and ended only at 6.15pm in the evening. My brain is saturated with informtion!

It's already ten at night and I still haven't completed any of my tutorials I setted out for myself. No choice. I have to read the newspaper every day in order to question the questions on the minitest. Otherwise, I will have to do additional news report.

current mood: sleepy

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1:59 pm
Just finished my 3 sets of pull up. Chilling out at the library, waiting for my next lecture to start at two.

current mood: satisfied

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Saturday, February 1st, 2003
8:42 pm
Ever though the New Year is here, I don't intend to play throughput the holidays. With economics and chemistry common tests drawing close soon, I better pull up my socks --- if I want to keep my 4 'A's.

I have got my results for the first common test. Badly done I must say. Really bad. I flunked both chemistry and mathematics. This is really terrible. Including last year's promotional examination, I failed a total of three consecutive math test! If only I could drop math. All because of that I got a warning from the principal that if I don't improve my grades by the March common test, I have to drop one of my 'A'---probably econs cos the other two are far more important for my future career choice.

My conscience had been asking me this question: Should you drop one subject since you seen to be struggling to cope with all 6? Honestly, I really want to but I believe the only reason for this kind of thinking is because a lot of my classmates have dropped one of their 'A'. Seeing them with so much free time really tempts me. Am I really suitable for 4 As? Even my cousin Kar Ken, from Raffles Institute, didn't study 4 subjects when he was in St. Andrew junior college, and he is much more clever than I am. *sigh* I am getting confused.

On a lighter tone, this year New year is more or less similar to every year New Year. Visiting at Hougang, then to Serangoon garden and a detour to the celebration market at Singapore river. Just like every year...

current mood: indifferent

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Saturday, January 25th, 2003
6:52 am
I am so forgetful these days. I logged onto the net with a journal entry, that I wanted to post, in mind. However in the process of waiting for the browser to load, I forgot all about it. Silly old me :-)

Back to the origin, I am worried about Ying Ying. She has been absent from college for 5 days. What's worse is that she hasn't been home for 5 days too! Nobody seem to know where she is, not Andrew, not even her boyfriend. I am worried. Where can a 16 year old run to?

I seriously hope she is not in some kind of danger. After all, she is my Peer Leader.

current mood: worried

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Thursday, January 23rd, 2003
7:21 pm
I am very proud of myself today.

I completed the entire cross country in 30 minutes and I did not even stop to rest.

current mood: accomplished

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Sunday, January 12th, 2003
4:06 pm - Powerful quote
Ability is nothing without opportunity - Napoleon Bonaparte


current mood: crappy

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Saturday, January 4th, 2003
5:23 pm - Orientation 2003 - Espirit de Crusade
Espirit de Crusade: that is this year's orientation motto and theme. It means rejuvenate of the spirit. Although orientation kind of fall short of its motto expectation but nevertheless, I can safely (and gladly too) conclude that this year's orientation as a success.

I was kind of worried that this year orientation activities will end up down the drain after what happened on the first day. The usual case. The talks bored the freshmen pants of them, they didn't like the college and they didn't know each other. I was so worried. A little anxious that I can't lift up their spirits and make them enjoy the orientation. My first impression of the Sirius family was they are SO DEAD. Really! They didn't show much enthusiasm.I just didn't know what to do. Honestly, I tried to fulfill my role as an OGL to the maximum. I made attempts to interact with my OG members which is actually not a easy task for an introvert like myself. I cheered with my OG- Sirius 3, made sure that when it comes to cheering, the OGLs would cheered the loudest. I never put myself before my OG members or that I am superior than them.

I think my hard work paid off during the second (and final) day. The games really broke the ice in my OG and I had established friendship with some of the Year 1 students. Some very memorable names like the dashing Melvard, great 'sucker' Mu Zhen, Andrew from St. Andrew (from Sirius 4 though), popular Serene always got called during Wacko, Peer Leaders Ying Ying and Shan Xing, the PL girls Gazel and Wan Wal, TKGS Hidaya from the Art faculty, fellow bedok area mate See Leng from Bedok South, Melvin from Duman Sec, newcomer Kelvin and S.G.S Joseph, the one and only Victorian in S3, Hansel, Li Yang the Bowen girl with the last alphabet name, Charlene the very cute Cedarean, Lawrence the blur face boy and well... the rest I can't remember.

Even though we didn't win the most outstanding family award but I am glad we came in second and that everybody had fun. I certainly did. My experience as an OGL is a very fruitful one. I have learnt some of the best things in life, like communication, teamwork, self-enjoyment from both the freshman and my fellow Sirius OGLs. Missing two days of lesson and losing my voice though are definitely worth the sacrifice. 'Cos being an OGL of Sirius 3 is priceless.

current mood: accomplished

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Wednesday, January 1st, 2003
5:26 pm - NTU- JC- ENV Challenge 2003
Local pre-university students will go in search of hi-tech solutions to environmental problems this school holiday. Working in teams of 15 ? 20, some 315 of them from 15 JCs, Jurong Institute and Outram Institute will create innovative applications that tackle particular environmental and resource use problems.

The students, participants of the NTU-JC-ENV Challenge 2003, began their vacation programme at a launch ceremony held at NTU on 18 November 2002. This year?s Challenge, themed ?Environmental InfoTech?, is co-organised with the Ministry of the Environment (ENV). The Guest-of-Honour at the launch, Mr Lim Swee Say, Minister for the Environment, delivered the opening address.

The students begin the Challenge with a four-day residential programme (18 to 21 November) at the NTU campus, where they will explore using IT as a tool for environmental management. They have proposed topics in such areas as Sustainable Environment, Water Resources Management and Waste Management.

During the November/December vacation, they will learn about sustainable development and explore ways in which technology and the IT revolution can help to provide creative solutions to environmental problems. For real-world understanding and enrichment, they will visit sites such as the Semakau Landfill, Tuas South Incineration Plant, Tuas Marine Transfer Station, Choa Chu Kang Waterworks and Ulu Pandan Water Reclamation Plant. NTU professors, ENV specialists and experts from the sponsoring companies will provide guidance to the participating teams.

At the end of the programme, they will report and exhibit their achievements and findings at the Challenge Finale, tentatively to be held on Saturday, 15 February 2003. Three awards will be presented the SUT Sakra Best Overall Performance Award, the Dayen Best Presentation Award and the PerkinElmer Best Innovation Award.

It is the fourth in a series of NTU-JC Challenges which are annual initiatives promoting the pursuit of and innovation in science and technology among JC/CI students.

current mood: busy

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Monday, December 30th, 2002
11:52 pm - Christmas On The Bay 2002
So tonight was the last show. Can't say that it is the best. Well at least, I felt that I didn't have the mood to perform. Vocal wise: it was bad. I went off- key twice and I didn't put in extra effort to project my voice. Performance wise: It was horrible. I couldn't bring myself to smile. I felt really sleepy and bored. A little disappointed cause nor of my friends came.

I am really such a horrible person am I? Starting of a journal entry on a bad foot. Before I started writing this, I meant to have an entry to mark the end of a beautiful Christmas. It wasn't a total sad experience. In fact, I do like caroling (I hope I can do it next year). I like the songs, the music and the wondrous atmosphere.

There will be lots of things that I will missed. The choral director, Miss Khor Ai Ming ( conductor of Gan Eng Seng, Monk's Hill and Queenstown), the gorgeous woman,Cheryl, other singers like Michael Hew and Jason (Holy Innocents). Miss watching them goof around. Miss their pretty faces.

current mood: drunk
current music: Kelly Rowland - Stole

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Friday, December 27th, 2002
2:32 pm - Christmas @ Esplanade
This is the very first time I ever went caroling, and it was so much fun. When I first heard the news,I couldn't wait for Christmas week to come. Picture this: Caroling to a live audience, with 249 others singers from various primary and secondary schools, church and polytechnic at the Esplanade. I was excited.

Rehearsals were very draggy though. We are the only junior college choir there, so no doubt, in terms of quality, the primary and secondary schools are not our match. However, everybody sound so alive and energetic when the actual performance began on Christmas Eve. The dancing, shaking and beautiful voices. Oh, what a wonderful Christmas

Sharon and Debra of CHIJ St. Nicholas' Girls School, I just have to mention them. They are simply amazing. They totally blew the heads of audience with their performance of "Who Would Imagine The King". It is fantastic. No doubt about that, I have to give them 2 thumbs up.

Hmmm... disappointing fact is just that I am performing to a crowd of strangers everyday. If only my friends and family can come and see me. See me, sparkling white, shining brightly on stage

current mood: indescribable
current music: Daniel Bedingfield - If You Are Not The One

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Monday, December 23rd, 2002
1:25 pm
Won't able to log onto the net for these few days. My internet account got suspended again.

current mood: frustrated

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Sunday, December 15th, 2002
2:31 pm - Monody
Angelina Johnson's Diary entry

How do I describe this piece of artistic writing? Fantastic? Great?No no. Saying it is fantastic is an understatement. It is much more than it. I guess only someone who had gone through the pain of losing a friend can understand the sorrow behind it. Only someone who had experienced that wrench before can deliver it so successful through literature.

current mood: sad
current music: Atomic Kitten - The Last Goodbye

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Saturday, December 14th, 2002
4:56 pm - Necromancer
The prophecy:

Born from the Dark,
Destined to fight for the light,
The Ghostly Seer will be the difference
Between victory and defeat.
Befriended by the most powerful Mage
Neither alone can conquer the Dark
Only in standing together will the Light finally reign

current mood: sleepy
current music: London Symphony Orchestra - The Quidditch Match

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Thursday, December 12th, 2002
2:29 pm
I am in a dilemma. Should I go to Elaine's birthday party or not? Sounds like a simple question? "Just go" any one will say. The problem is, I am probably going see the people who I don't want to see and the people who don't want to see me. *double sigh*

current mood: confused
current music: Jennifer Lopez - Jenny From The Block

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Monday, December 9th, 2002
8:09 pm - Heart

To be gold is to be good,
To be stone is to be nothing
To be glass is to be fragile
To be cold is to be cruel


current mood: artistic

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8:03 pm - Mirror

When there is fire then I am still cold
When I own your true love's face then you will not see me
To all things I give no more than I am given
In time I may have all things, and yet I can keep nothing


current mood: artistic

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Saturday, December 7th, 2002
11:34 pm - SAT Test: First Attempt
SAT sucks! It sucks big time. It is so difficult, so exhausting and so tricky. Things just got a lot worse when ya are having a terrible tummy ache, half way through the test. I cannot recall how many questions I left blank. A lot!

I do not need my gut feeling this time to tell me whether I need a second or even worst, third or fourth attempts! at the SAT. I have seen faces who I recognize as JC2. I wonder, ever since J1, how many times have they taken the test before? I heard of students who just could not score before 1200 and they just continue taking the test. Oh my Lord! I hope I do not become part of that league. At that rate, my family is going to go bankrupt. I admit I may not be bright but I don't think I am actually that stupid, am I?

current mood: uncomfortable
current music: Mariah Carey - Through The Rain

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