| ...i'll undress you in the back of my dream... |
[18 Feb 2003|12:22am] |
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go away |
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oh jesus...
people are crazy...
speically LJ friends...
i love my spoony~:)~!
- portalas is soon,
maybe we shouldn't even go to school this week...
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| okay, which one is the commonly used phrase |
[06 Feb 2003|10:26pm] |
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which one is it |
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comment bitch |
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"play it by ear"
or
"play it by year"
PLEASE comment, I need to settle an argument.
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| ...ian loves pussy, period... |
[05 Feb 2003|01:32am] |
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Leonard Bernstein - Overture |
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don't listen to anything dani belvin says or types in her live journal cause she is crazy or at least for the time being. and i have never had liked the light saber maybe jamie though.. :p
crap its late. i love dani :)
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[01 Feb 2003|09:56am] |
wow, the space shuttle crashed...
quite crappy.
:(
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[31 Jan 2003|06:12pm] |
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bleh |
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Taking back sunday - Good enough |
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my head hurts. so much thinking. i feel like i'm in a movie.
i wish things could just...
i dunno
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| ...i never really thought straight... |
[31 Jan 2003|05:07pm] |
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sucky |
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Ben Folds Five - Best Imitation of Myself |
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i loathe breathing.
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| ...wow we finally feel the same... |
[29 Jan 2003|10:23pm] |
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Dashboard Confessionals - For Justin |
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i know how i'll die. i always knew i would.
not now or anything, but i'm just positive i know how.
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| ...you make me complete... |
[25 Jan 2003|11:31pm] |
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everclear |
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bah.!
i don't know why i'm even taking bass lessons. it's not like i'll ever be in a band or get big or anything. i can't sing and there are so many people already better at bass than I. bleh, but i guess it is something.
and being an FBI agent or whatever, yeah that's just stupid. i'm bad at paintball and bad at all my stupid shooter computer games. also, no point.
and back to the band thing, everythings already been done, whats the point there, and it's not like im creative enough to think of some new music stuff / style.
but yeah. all of this and more, all an economic burden and waste on my parents. i feel bad for taking their money and throwing it away. when almost everything ends up being a waste, i can't see how my rents would wanna do anything else for me.
and i guess now i realize, i am spoiled. not like really super spoiled but i am, spoiled. spoiled. uhg.
and it wouldn't all be that bad if i was actually going to amount to something in the end.
but for now, i'll fall into a rut and hopefully come to my senses before waste anymore money, dreams and time.
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| ...oh shit, a murderdeathkill... |
[23 Jan 2003|09:52pm] |
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offspring |
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yeah...
nothing really to say, that dealy up there just poped into my head.
i still wanna be a rockstar / racecar driver / fbi agent.
or something like that.
and i love my kitty witty. :) i will scan those pictues some day...
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[23 Jan 2003|06:38pm] |
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i think i'm gonna have an ulcer. nothing new there.
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| ...sound of a 44 at your door.. |
[21 Jan 2003|07:39pm] |
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i'm tired.
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| ...la la lemonade... |
[19 Jan 2003|09:33pm] |
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tbs |
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wa. so this weekend went pretty fast and is practically over with tomorrow completely planned. but tomorrow should be really great. there is rehearsal and all but i get to spend the rest of the day with my darling. :) whoo, we're going to the museum and stuff. yay. oh and by the way, here is el phone numberos.
eva's cell # -268-3949
eva's moms home - 265 - 0293
beccas house 266 1242
there you are babe. i'm getting off line and stuff. hopefully i can sleep lots tonight and not die tomorrow at rehearsal. i love you dani :). g'night all.
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[18 Jan 2003|08:28pm] |
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meh, or all of this is just a phase...
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| ...this'll be the last you see of me... |
[18 Jan 2003|07:18pm] |
yeah well we all fuck up. and i fucked up and have been for the last couple months. lots without knowing.
now might be hard but the days and months to come are going to be much harder. my life really isnt that bad, it was actully reall great, i just. fucked up big time. i'm a bad person. maybe knowing that will make me better.
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[18 Jan 2003|06:21pm] |
oh, good job, i love how we hurt each other so much, never talk and probably dont even know.
yeah, you too, have a good life.
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[18 Jan 2003|06:20pm] |
i think i'm gonna cry. oh wait.
i made my life into what it is. maybe i can change it before its too late.
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| ...last night... |
[12 Jan 2003|12:52am] |
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The Ataris - San Dimas High School Football Rules |
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i'm pretty sure i played it wrong from the beginning. the game of life. that's all it is. utterly depressing. i would have never known. i just want it to be over. my 50 cents has run out. time to play a different game. i just cant deal with it. anything. it was wonderful, everything really was, it's just. i can't see myself playing this game anymore.
i don't really mean anything by that except what i said.
fuck. FUCK!!!
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| ...my head hurts and i want us back... |
[12 Jan 2003|12:27am] |
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The Lawrence Arms - There's No Place Like A Strang |
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i hate myself. i'm sorry.
it's a love hate relationship with that gut feeling.
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| ...and my life flashed before my eyes... |
[12 Jan 2003|12:01am] |
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Alkaline Trio - stupid kid |
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i ask myself questions in my head.
i have many answers and many feelings.
but theres always that gut feeling.
always.
it's comforting. it really is. there's just so many things that...gash. i wish i could say or want to or just need to be heard or something. but then again, theres other stuff.
life's confusing. i'm trying to be tough.
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