ramirez13 - That depends on what you mean. In my opinion...quite often, yes. :) Oh, and why that particular place?

I'm bored. That's a dangerous place for me to be. And since it appears that you have all run out of questions, I shall open the anon confession booth.

Same rules:
Post anything you like.
Confess to whatever.
Say anything you want about me, but be aware I may provide redress. :) Also, I may want to know who you are via email. just saying. *grin*
Confession booth now open.
IP logging disabled.

Current Mood: bored

How much do you respect yourself?
How do you define respect?

Current Mood: thoughtful

So my character died in AIT. Right now, I need a new character concept. My orginal backup character was a Malkavian that I'm now playing in another Vampire game. Should I play her in AIT as well, or just develop a whole new character? Got any ideas for a character you want to share? It can just be the concept, not necessarily the clan.

Current Mood: curious

So I've seen these all over the place. I got mine from here: http://www.gothboffs.co.uk/trustflow/trustflow.pl

These are the results I got.

Closest 50 non-Friends for irana:

1: ultran, 2: thewonderfuller, 3: show_your_boobs, 4: deadparrot, 5: wiwiff, 6: kittenspeak, 7: lj_maintenance, 8: atlanta, 9: anagurls, 10: sacred9, 11: starving4you, 12: tekdoll, 13: elorie, 14: moonbird, 15: peepslayer, 16: poisongirl, 17: paidmembers, 18: cybersex, 19: flametodance, 20: news, 21: chamberatlanta, 22: chelona, 23: lesbian_erotica, 24: dilbert_feed, 25: mightywombat, 26: prettyladies, 27: orangecone, 28: hexgirl13, 29: aphrodesian, 30: beachsomewhere, 31: charleseb, 32: jathomas, 33: mightyafrodite, 34: dragoncon, 35: kellinator, 36: ocean_song, 37: tinkerboo, 38: creepycuisine, 39: tat2rob, 40: atlanta_eats, 41: hotcoffeems, 42: havsumbrandy, 43: sir_alf, 44: feygirl, 45: grinoliere, 46: shayara, 47: calnhobbes, 48: fermi, 49: show_your_pussy, 50: meemeedarling


It's funny, because a few of you were on my friends list at some point and vice versa. Some of these are communities I've never even visited *laugh* and some I have. Others of you I've seen on other friends pages. This is a trip. So, if you feel like it, add me and I'll add you back.

Current Mood: amused

Okay, so my baby has been in the discovery program for two years now. Fpr those of you who don't know what that is, it's a program run by Dekalb County Schools for gifted children. Well, at the end of the year, beginning of summer, they asked me to apply Taylor for a school called Kitridge. It's a magnet school, a school for high achievers. Taylor and I have been on tenderhooks all summer, waiting to hear from this school. Nothing.

So my friend Jay, he teaches for Dekalb, called me today to ask where Taylor was going to school. I thought it was odd, but I told him I had registered her at her old school because I hadn't heard from Kitridge. So he was like oh, and we went from there.

So around 7:30 pm we get this call from a chick on the Dekalb County school board. Taylor is in! This means my baby gets to learn German in fourth grade, gets to pursue whatever area she has specific interest in (science), doesn't have to wear a uniform, doesn't have to ask permission to go to the bathroom, nothing like that. Can we say psyched!!! I am sooooo happy about this I don't know what to do. We haven't told her yet, but I know she will be beside herself with joy since she's been asking me since school got out if she's going to Kitridge.

So...proud momma sharing about her smart kid. She is the best. If you haven't met her, you should!

BTW, of course I called J to fuss him out for knowing in advance and not telling me. Turns out he had figured that she would have gotten in (it's a school with a two year waiting list) and when he found out I hadn't heard back, he made some phone calls. I love this man...he so bloody rocks. I should tell him that at some point, even though I wanted to beat his butt for knowing and not telling me.

Gods...now all I need is a bunch of sales so I can take her out to celebrate!
http://cgi6.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewSellersOtherItems&include;=0&userid;=mythosvlp&sort;=4&rows;=25&since;=-1&rd;=1

Current Mood: ecstatic

There are a few people I am especially glad to be able to call friend. Every one of you on my friends list and my friends in real life know how important to me you are. I just wanted to take a few minutes to say a public thank you to those of you who have been there for me, especially when it is hard to ne there.

thewonderfuller Wow. Where to start? You are an amazing woman, strong in more ways than I could begin to verbalize. Thank you for helping me to see when I have not been considering the feelings of others and for believing in me. Thanks for being everything a friend should be.

reprobayt Thank you for everything. Thank you for making me take the time to define what a friend is to me...it made it clearer even than before who those friends are. Thanks for helping my clarify my thoughts.

wolfieboy Thanks for always making the effort to make me laugh, but mostly just for being you.

shadesong Thanks for being the one person I know has been through exactly what I have been through and for helping me deal with some of those things a bit more effectively.

karlita Thanks for listening yesterday while I tried to work through my feelings. It's not the easiest of jobs. And thanks for introducing me to Song.

There are a ton more, however, I must run. Just know that all of you are important to me.

Current Mood: at peace

I had a conversation with a friend this morning that made me think about some things. I realize that not everyone is comfortable with where I am emotionally, spiritually, mentally or otherwise. So in an effort to preserve the sanity of those of who who do care about me, but are uncomfortable with the things I write and what I am going through I thought I should provide you with the opportunity to tell me so. A lot of the things I write about, while cathartic for me, may not be so helpful for you. I don't want to hurt you while healing myself.

Poll #163435: For My Friends
Open to: all, results viewable to: none

Do you want to be removed from my friends list?

I will not be offended, or hurt. I will not stop liking you or start treating you differently in real life. I just don't want any of you to deal with more than you are prepared to deal with.

Current Mood: thoughtful

First off, let me say welcome to cscottd and dawnmuskovitz. The ride gets bumpy and uncomfortable...lemme know if you want off. {edit} This entry is a pubic entry for several reasons, one, because there are people who are new to my journal who don't know what I expect and two, this is a method of defining for those who have asked what friendship means to me.

I realized today that some of the people that I thought knew me the best, don't really know me at all. It's unsettling that the more honest I am, the more friends I seem to lose, especially when they are the ones I would have expected to stay.

It makes me indescribably sad to know that those I call friends would prefer just surface than depth. I told someone today that the more open I am, the more uncomfortable it makes people. It seems like those I call friend would prefer that I be anything but real and honest in what I am thinking and feeling.

I don't think I ask a lot from my friends, but maybe I do. Maybe what I expect is too much. But what I expect is what I give.

* I expect my friends to love me unconditionally, not as long as I do what they think is right.
* I expect them to care enough about me to tell me to my face what they think, whether it's pleasant or not. (Thanks reprobayt for always being the first to kick me in the teeth when I need it. I love you so much for this, especially when it seems like I can't stand you.)
* I expect them to let me make my own decisions, fall flat on my face and be there when I'm trying to pick myself up.
* I don't expect them to protect me, especially not from myself, because that's not their job. We learn from our mistakes.
* And I definitely don't expect my friends to judge me, because I damn sure as hell don't judge them.
* I also don't expect my friends to make decisions or reach conclusions about me without talking to me and getting all the information first.

You know what? Maybe I am expecting too much.

Current Mood: sad

Okay.
Anonymous Confession Booth.
Sexual, Spiritual, whatever.
Thoughts about me good bad or ugly.
Crush object confessions.
IP logging will be disabled.
Open right now.

Current Mood: bored

Webdesign
Web design is totally dependent on the client. if the client does not supply the designer with information, or hold up their end of the bargain, the designer cannot in fairness be held to blame.

Deposits
If you make a deposit on a web site, and the designer does work that exceeds the amount of the deposit you made, DO NOT EXPECT A REFUND OF THAT DEPOSIT! The designer has done the work...they deserve the pay.

Bottom line...if someone does work, made myriad changes, and does everything you ask them to, don't expect your money back.

Current Mood: pissed off

Meanderings on the topics of beauty, allure, gender, bisexuality, polyarmory, christianity, relationships, and spirituality. feel free to skip if you have no desire to read and comment.

( my mental journey )

Current Mood: thoughtful

Your Daily Horoscope for July 01, 2003

Dear N,
Expect to find yourself ministering to the needs of colleagues and family members today, N. People around you may need to draw upon your insight into human nature in order to understand both themselves and others, and your common sense could prove valuable to them. In the process of sharing your wisdom with others, you might also shed some light on emotional situations of your own. You could surprise yourself!

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Now I find this intresting in light of the fact that this morning my plan was to ask everyone to share their dreams. I've decided that this is the part of psychology that intrigues me the most...the workings of the subconscious mind.

So, tell me your dreams. Let me make the attempt to interpret them. And no...I am not a professional. Consider this an experiment. Feel free to post anon if you so desire.

Current Mood: curious

I have noticed that the more open I get with my life, with my feelings, the more people who are supposed to be friends in RL drop me off their friends list.

I wonder why that is?
Just dropping like flies...hmmm.
Anybody else?

Well, it's my journal, if you don't like what's in it, leave. But if I call you friend or you pretend to be one, do me the common courtesy of saying 'Hey gonna drop you. I'm uncomfortable with what you write or whatever'. Don't be all weaselly about it.

It does help to know who NOT to invite over though.

As for the rest of you, if you haven't left and have issues, I suggest you do so.

Those of you who want to stay:
SADDLE UP. LET'S RIDE!

Current Mood: amused

The mother of one of the children I care for at work became pregnant. "Jacob" was about six years old when his mom began showing, and a more severe case of sibling rivalry I have never seen.
He constantly pestered his mom about "mom, why can't you have an abortion?" and "will you really still love me when the baby comes?".
He began displaying infantile behaviors, messing his pants, wanting to be held and comforted all the time, crying at the slightest provocation. The poor kid was truly scared that the new baby was going to replace him in his parent's lives.
His mother tried many diffrent approaches with him before she hit on the one that worked.

She took a candleabra with four cups and put it on a table. She said "Jacob, I want you to understand why it is that your dad and I will always love you. You see, before I met your father there was just me, and I had all of my love."

She lit one candle and held it before Jacob. "Then, I met your dad. I loved him, and I gave him *all* of my love."

She lit the second candle with the one in her hand. "Now your dad had all of my love, and I still had all of my love left. Then, you were born, and I gave you all of my love."

Lighting the third candle from the one representing her, she said, "Now you had all of my love, and your dad had all of my love, and I *still* had all of my love. And now, there's going to be a new baby."

Lighting the last candle in the holder from the one representing her, she said, "I am going to give the new baby all of my love. But when I do, you will still have all of my love, and your dad will still have all of my love, and I will still have all of my love."

And he got it. That was the end of the infantile behaviors.


That's a pretty good defintion of being poly.

Current Mood: accomplished

Anonymous confessions. Entertain me.

Current Mood: bored

Couple of things...finally over the negative feelings the dream left this morning. But I need to get this off my chest.

People, I write in this thing for me. But I also write in it as a way to get to know you, keep in touch with you, let you get to know me, etc. I expect interaction. It kills me when I write a post like the one I wrote about my dream and very few people, if any, respond. I like the interaction. There. Now you know, and knowing is half the battle. :) On to lighter things.

As of yesterday, the winner in the what game to play poll was ask me anything. I think everyone may be asked out, at least all my regular readers. So, the rest of you, who haven't yet voted in the game poll", please do.

Current Mood: bored

Okay. So, I explained a week or so back about Fedex. Well, I still don't have all the money to pay them. I've paid a little over half, but still need some more. So, once again, I offer my web design services. Just so you can see I offer you examples.

My latest project, completed May 27,2003 (she still has some files to upload herself)
Shenlei Winkler, Kingmaker

My portfolio

So, if you know anyone who needs a site, or wants to revamp one, send em my way: webmistress@mylassensmuse.com

I'm bored.
No actually, my brain is tired. I've been working on my story all day. So please distract me. I'm going to allow anonymous posting for this post.

Tell me anything. Tell me your fantasies, tell me your dreams, tell me your secrets. They'll be safe, I won't know who you are. (they would be safe even if I did, but as most people don't respond well to that, then hey.) Got something you've been dying to talk about but just can't? You can now!!!

Amuse me. Attempt to shock me. Anything.

Current Mood: bored

Okay so not really, but she did get me thinking with her new icons...sooooooooooooooooo

( see what 'song got started?! )

hehehehehe

I suck.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY divalita!!!

You are Morpheus, from "The Matrix." You
have strong faith in yourself and those around
you. A true leader, you are relentless in your
persuit.


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The seductress. You're the child of the dark, a
baeutiful creation of ethereal power, and the
such...how ever, your dark side often over
takes what little good is in you. You may be
manipulitive, or possibly, a flat out
bitch...making yourself happy by using the
people around you. Making them think you have
some sort of caring for them, but don't forget,
this is just a stereotype. Enjoy your self
proclaimed hell.


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This is kinda long and I got some help to cut it...

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I didn't...try to lick my elbow that is. :)

Current Mood: nerdy

I am 45% Internet Addict

I could go either way. Deep into the madness of nights filled with coding CGI-Scripts and online role playing games, or I could become a normal user. Good luck!

Take the Internet Addict Test at fuali.com

Current Mood: confused

What is it about society today that makes people feel like they have the right and the authority to treat people any way they please? Why do people use the word friendship when they have absolutely no clue what it means, dictionary definition or otherwise?

I will never understand people who refuse to claim responsibility for their own actions, people who think it's okay to jerk others around by the nose until it suits them to notice that the other person is there.

The bad thing is, in many ways the people who are being asses are the ones that end up losing the most. Usually, the people they are jerking around are kind, sincere, giving people. People who only care about the ass's well being and subsequently deserve better and are only being threated that way because of what they are not...complete assholes.

But the people who are total assholes, these are the ones that the idiots defer to, spend time with, treat fairly decently. What the fuck kind of sense does that make?

Don't these fools realize they are jeopardizing the only true friendships they could have by dragging people around by the nose? By betraying the trust of the people who actually give a shit about them for the people who couldn't care a rat's ass if they lived or died?

Idiots. Blind fools.

Current Mood: pissed off
Current Music: Filter - Hey Man Nice Shot

Goddamnit...what I wouldn't do for $100 right now. Fuck...I'd settle for $50

Current Mood: grumpy
Current Music: Danzig - When Death Had No Name

Another day and crazy already. People making insisinuations, missing creepy stalkers (although I hope that one stays missing), attitudes flying and general craziness in the house.

Boy, things sure are hopping with AIT. In more ways than one.

Current Mood: listless

Stick Figure Death.com


I had forgotten just how funny these are. Great use of Flash too...gotta love it. Definately check out the Xiao Xiao section. Number 3 is great.

Current Mood: amused

Is this me or what?


What's Your Sexual MO? Find out @ She's Crafty

I like this one!

What Natural Disaster are you? Take the quiz!

On my way to florida tomorrow....

Current Mood: excited
Current Music: Leaving on a Jet Plane