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| Monday, August 26th, 2002 |
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Well today is the first day of school...I'm super excited. Last night I tried to go to bed early, but it didn't really work out that way. Chris was being Chris...but he read me 2 bedtime stories from my favourite book....well, it was my favourite book when i was 5. Then he played with my hair to make me sleepy. Is he perfect or what? Then I had a dream that I put the moves on him and he got freaked out and wasn't my friend anymore. That sucked....but hey, it was only a dream. i'm still working my magic on him. ;-) |
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| Saturday, August 24th, 2002 |
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He's been staying here again...I'm glad...he's so funny. We fight and wrestle every night before bed...RAWR!!! Last night he came out of the bathroom after brushing his teeth with his hair in pigtails and with all of my bracelets and barettes stuck in his hair...he's so adorable. The best line of our hours and hours of conversation last night was him saying.... "It's pretty tough to get an erection in a nursing home." that it is chris......that it is........ |
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| Sunday, August 18th, 2002 |
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| Donnie Darko is one of the most disturbing movies I've seen in a while...I still feel all creepy....ugh!! | ||||||
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| Wednesday, August 14th, 2002 |
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ooohhh....too many cocktails tonight..... Why did I let Chris convince me to sing Whip It at karaoke?? because i was a drunk girl, that's why...a very very drunk girl...... ohhh...show me my bed please!! |
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| Monday, August 12th, 2002 |
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I love Queen... Freddie Mercury...awesome, awesome man...i hope all is well up in the sky Just thought I'd say that....Queen has been in my head all day...I truly adore that band. Chicago...now there's a band I don't like...but I hear an infomercial for a cd of theirs right now...so thought i'd mention them too... i'm lame. I want that B52's anthology...and I want it NOW!! my back hurts, i wish chris was here to rub it, but he's working.....damn!! goodnight everyone. |
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| Sunday, August 11th, 2002 |
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you call me every morning and every night.... you always want to hang out... you like to spend the night... you want me to go to your new farm... why don't you just tell me how you really feel about me? I won't tell Paul....I just need to know.... it's driving me crazy |
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| Friday, August 9th, 2002 |
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C.A.M. PRESENTS POLYPHONIC SPREE MERCURY @ JAZZ/214 E.6th SAT SEP 14 2002 * 9:00PM AGES 18 AND UP ONLY MINORS $3 SURCHG AT DOOR All tickets are $12.00 I am SO there!! |
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| Monday, August 5th, 2002 |
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bien: sleeping next to chris and hearing him talk in his sleep hearing that tommy is back in town getting out of work at 5pm on a saturday having plans for after work on that saturday rain being comfortable enough to sit at ihop with someone and not have to say a word to each other belinda and brian coming to town glen cheering me up sitting in the truck waiting for the rain to slow up...and chris opens the window, exhales his marijuana smoke as an offering to the rain gods...and then it slows down the pig face in yahoo picking chris up from work at dawn, watching the sunrise and listening to the new flaming lips cd as we drive down the highway G saying my postcard is on his fridge mal: my shoes getting swept away in the rain and lost forever paul disappointing me...again his 'hermit time' SHE'S always there giving my bracelet to Chris to give back to Paul getting the "Your boyfriend's been in an accident" call Chris moving to the farm shaking my arm to move the bracelet...then realising it's gone realising the relationship is pointless feeling as though i've lost a year of my life feeling as though if he would try just a bit harder, it would be perfect realising that he isn't trying at all |
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| Sunday, August 4th, 2002 |
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Today is Chris' birthday....he's the big 2-3! We woke up this morning...I turned to him and said happy birthday....he turned to me and said thank you, happy birthday to you too...dweeb! He left a bit ago to go to his sister's house, but I stayed here because Belinda should be coming into town soon. So anyway, Chris and I went out to celebrate his birthday last night. We ate some excellent mexican food, then went out for a few drinks, then caught the new Austin Powers movie...it was pretty funny. After that we went out for coffee then came home and he sang for me and we wrestled...then went outside and sprawled on the sidewalk...came back in and ate ice cream and watched tv. We went to bed at about 4. It was a good night, and I love him very much. I'm glad he's my friend. Nothing else has been going on....I haven't heard anything from Paul, surprise surprise...blah! Have a good day. kathy |
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| Tuesday, July 30th, 2002 |
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Lots of stuff has happened..... Saturday: Chris called me at work and said he was home. Went to pick him up at Village Inn and picked up his truck. Came home and watched TV...went driving around...went to "our" playground...smoked, talked, played...came home at 3 am, I fell asleep on his lap while he played with my hair and we were watching a special about Chechnia. He stayed with me that night, in my bed with me. It was really nice having him here, next to me. Sunday: We slept until about 1, he took me to work at 2.....he came to see me at work at 9...we went out for coffee, came home, watched TV, and went to bed. Actually, we wrestled first, then went to bed. Good again. Monday: We wake up at 11:30. I make breakfast. Chris says he's going to run an errand, then come and get me. We were going to go to his farm. He leaves...12:20, my phone rings. Me: Hello Woman: Is this Kathy? K: Yes. W: My name is Barbara, you don't know me. I live in the apartments by the YMCA. I'm just calling to tell you that your boyfriend has been in an accident. OK...now my mind is racing...I'm thinking....Paul doesn't have a car.....then I remember Chris.... M: Chris?!? W: Yes, he was on his way to your house. M: Is he Ok? W: He refused treatment, but I think he's OK. The police are with him now. You should get here soon. So she gives me the address...I call my mom and send her over there. She brings him home...I hug him and then hit him. Dork ran a stop sign, it was covered by limbs though so it wasn't visible. The accident was on the 29th...his insurance expired the 25th. He wasn't covered...his truck is totalled... poor guy. we went to the hospital, but he's ok. we went for drinks last night...he was puking all night...it just wasn't his day yesterday. but he slept with me again, and seemed alright this morning. Things will be ok with him. And he can stay here as long as he needs to, but I think he'll move to the farm anyway. I'm glad he's home, and I missed him so much.... Paul...well, i saw him last night for a bit...evidentally he was arrested on thursday...blah, i don't even want to talk about it now. |
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| Friday, July 26th, 2002 |
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I came home early from work last night, i just wasn't feeling well. So I pretty much slept from 6:30pm until 11pm, woke up for a while, and crashed back at 2...i feel a bit better today. I hope Chris comes home soon, I miss him so much. Going out with John and Christina tonight. He leaves on sunday for Houston, then back to Thailand. Damn I'll miss him.... maybe we'll go to 205 tonight...it'll be nice. I just have to survive work first...ugh!! k |
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| Thursday, July 25th, 2002 |
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I'm next to him in bed...we're both on our stomachs...we're both silent...we're both reading a book...he leans over and reads a page of my book, just to see what's going on...and at that moment I want to just scream as loud as I can...declare how much I love this man...how my heart swells when I think of him.... But I just turn the page when he's done, give him a quick smooch on the lips, and smile... I feel like the luckiest girl in the world sometimes. |
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| Tuesday, July 23rd, 2002 |
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ahh....finally, I'm better! Brenda has left that house...Paul is as happy as i am about it...ok, I'm probably the happiest about it, but he's a close second. He told me that he hates living with her, and if Kirin wasn't in the picture, it would have been a totally different story. He also told me that he hasn't had sex since the last time we did...and I believe him. I really hope all is well again. It felt good to sleep in his arms. I missed him so much...and he told me he missed me first...haha. good! I saw Amelie yesterday...oh my god was this film the best!!?!?!?! I adored it...absolutely adored it. I only had time to see the movie though, none of the extra features. I must buy it ASAP. I cried...it was wonderful...I cried when she first kissed Nino...and they were kissing each other in silly places on each other's faces...I cried because that's what Paul and I do, and when I saw the movie I hadn't worked things out with him yet, so I missed him... I'm such a girl. anywho, Austin was fun this weekend. I picked up Mary Catherine in San Antonio and Richard in San Marcos and we were on our way. Dan is a nice guy. Totally Brad. That's it for now...time for sleep! k |
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| Friday, July 19th, 2002 |
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so i just saw Storytelling, and I really liked it. Consuelo fucking ruled!!!! I love Selma Blair, but really just looked horrible in the movie...and Telly from KIDS plays a good guy with CP. All in all, a good movie...I like all of Solondz's films about the same. Good but not excellent...but not bad...just enjoyable. I do own Happiness, and I want Dollhouse, I'll probably end up buying this one too. Stuff with Paul is just...there. I haven't talked to him at all since that Monday night. He hasn't even tried to call me. I am extremely angry with him. I don't even want to bother with talking...but I miss him so much...and that makes me even madder. Hung out with Yvette and Amanda tonight...it's been years since the 3 of us had hung out. We had lots of fun. I wish I was as bold as they are, esp. Amanda. She's not afraid of anyone or anything, it seems. I should aim to be more like that. I'll probably be going to vegas in late august. Dan is giving Pris' car to me. I'm excited. So I'll prob. bus it over there, and drive the car back. Mom's going with me, but I need a boy too, I hope Chris is back by then... ok, enough crap for now... bye. k |
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| Tuesday, July 16th, 2002 |
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It was one hell of a night last night. I don't think I've fully grasped it yet...I called Paul at work last night to see if it was cool that I went over to his house. I had a bottle of whiskey and I wanted to hang out with him. Kathy: "Hey! What are you doing tonight?" Paul: " Well, I'll definitely be home." K: "Cool, can I come over?" P: " I'm not sure about that." K: "Why?!?!" P: "Well Brenda got locked out of her apartment...like by her landlord, for non-payment, so her and Kirin are staying with me." K: "OH." P: "I don't know for how long, we haven't discussed it yet. This weekend has been crazy." K: "Well, I guess I'll talk to you sometime. I have to go." P: "I'll call you soon." K: "I have to go now." *click* motherfucker...how fucking convenient is that? he just gets a new place..and she just happens to get kicked out of her place at the same time. I am so very pissed about this, and I don't know what to do. I don't have any options. I can't ask him to throw his daughter out on the street. But come on....this is the last straw....she wins, she fucking wins...I give up. |
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| Monday, July 15th, 2002 |
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It's raining like hell here...again. No break in site...now don't get me wrong, I love the rain...but this is just ridiculous. Flooding = bad. And the standing water makes a great place for lots of new mosquitos to hatch....and these babies are huge. I'm talking the size of your average midget...they are scary! I've been seeing a lot of Jaime lately. He's been going up to work and hanging with me...bringing me drinks and offering to buy me dinner and such. He wanted to go out for drinks after work last night, but I didn't go. He's a nice guy though, and I appreciate all he does for me...but you know...I love Paul. :) I'm so cheezy... Belinda's party is saturday...i can't wait. I miss her so much. It'll be rad seeing her again. That's about it for now, things are pretty quiet, and that's how i like them. til next time.... k |
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| Sunday, July 14th, 2002 |
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time for another recent good things/bad things list... good things.... john's coming next week playing truth or dare in the quote room my cat sleeping at my feet hanging out with richard working with ruby chatting with ad-rock my dad's birthday!! bad things... work! richard going back to san marcos missing chris... not spending enough time with paul ex girlfriends... |
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| Wednesday, July 10th, 2002 |
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So I wrote Paul a really nice letter last week...telling him how much I love him...congratulating him on his new home...blah blah blah....it was sweet...and I mailed it to him. Well....Big mistake....when I saw him yesterday, he said he got it and put it on his bar, but he didn't get to read it because it all of a sudden became MISSING....surprise surprise...Brenda was there...I'm sure she swiped it. That stupid woman....she is so pathetic and desperate...but fine..it doesn't matter....I will tell him what was in the letter...and he's sleeping with ME not her....and he's in love with me....not her... Anywho...I spent last night putting Contact paper inside of drawers and on shelves at Paul's....it was fun once I got the hang of it...I'm really not a DIY kinda girl...and Paul was giving too many instructions, so i just shooed him away and did it my own way...which wasn't conventional, but it worked, dammit! I got my Royal Tenenbaums dvd yesterday and watched it.....all of it....extra features and 2nd disc included....now i just have to watch it with commentary. I cried 3 times during that movie...it gets me every time. Wes Anderson is such a genius. Plus, I noticed while watching the 2nd disc....he has nice taste in shoes.... things like that are important! |
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| Tuesday, July 9th, 2002 |
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Helllllllo. It's oh...umm...Tuesday July 9th! I fixed my mouse on my PC at home, now I just have to get some internet access again, then I won't have to sit at these computers at school. Speaking of school, I'm starting again on August 26th. Aww yeah! I worked on putting together a zine type thing last night for the stuff that Paul and Chris want to put out. It was just a dummy...I didn't have any of their work, so I just filled it up with junk. Paul moved into the 2 bedroom upstairs...I helped a bit, but I didn't really seem needed...since Brenda was there every time I went. So I just quit going. I will drop off this dummy in his mailbox today, but I won't bother stopping and saying hello. I'm tired of his ex being around all the time. Fuck that. I got my Criterion Royal Tennenbaums in the mail today. Thank you, amazon.com! I can't wait to drown myself in that DVD tonight. That movie is just so beautiful it makes me want to cry. I miss Chris, but Richard is here, and that makes me happy. Richard and I hung out the other night...we got drunk and watched some surreal info-mercial hosted by...Ron Jeremy. That guy is really just gross...anyway, the commercial was about this pill thing that makes your penis 25%larger. and they say larger, not longer...which means it probably just swells up and makes you look like you have elephantitus or something. ick...After that info-mercial was the one for the Girls Gone Wild videos...yes, I was forced to watch that too...while listening to Richard tell me how much these girls turn him on...what a spaz! I guess that's it for now. I'm off today, thank goodness. Hmm...recent Cd purchases include Pavement's Terror Twighlight...is that spelled right?? Gorrilaz...Death Cab For Cutie...The Last Broadcast by the Doves... ooh ooh ooh...John is coming on the 19th...and he said he brought me something from Japan...it HAS to be hello kitty! I can't wait to see him. I love him so much. bye bye!! |
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| Friday, June 21st, 2002 |
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so it's been like...forever since i've updated this....i've been really busy lately, not to mention that my computer is totally on the blink... anywho, life is grand. well, pretty much. work sucks my ass, but i have a four day weekend coming up, woohoo! Paul is wonderful, he's been really really mushy lately, which is a nice change of pace. I try not to place too much importance on it, but the words "I love you" sure do make me feel nice. the heat is stifling, as paul said yesterday, it feels like i'm breathing toothpaste... I'm helping paul and chris put together this magazine of their work, it will be nice. ummm...i guess that's it. my life is boring, i know...but i'm alive, and i'm happy...and that's good. |
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LiveJournal for Kat.
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determined.
nerdy.
nervous.
groggy.
indifferent.
contemplative.
excited.
stressed.
content.
bored.
blah.
thankful.
cheerful.
amused.
okay.
happy.
lethargic.
chipper.