<=GLOBAL_HEAD GLOBAL_HEAD<= it is too late now..because..
please excuse my weird antics and constant blushing   
10:47pm 20/01/2004
 
music: the wrens / hopeless

Oh my, today I was not myself. Who was I then?

School was okay, then afterwards I dropped Kara off, then drove around in circles in the Riverfront parking lot with Ben Kweller on clearly for all to hear. There is nothing to do in Wilmington, and I sort of like that.

Then Bridget and I went to the game which we didn't get into because this motherfucker cop wouldn't let us in, so we stood out in the cold for half an hour waiting for JV to end (because then we could supposedly get in). But he never let us, so we made the five or so block trail of pure ice (CHUCK TAYLORS HAVE NO TRACTION), and my toes still hurt. Sons of bitches. Then I came home and did a little paint-by-numbering.

I failed my Lit essay mainly because I had too many things "awkwardly worded". I got it back and the corrections in pencil completely overlapped the essay itself in dark black ink.

Ohh yeah..for all who think I've given up on getting a new journal, you're wrong, suckas because here it is-   

[info]endthiscall Add it and such.		  
     

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i meant to post this four hours ago   
01:42am 18/01/2004
 
music: juliana theory

Today was my mom's birthday, my mom kicks ass so I thought it'd be better if I didn't go to the show, plus I wasn't really allowed to (even though my sister spent the whole day at her friend's house). We went to South St. in Philly, and ran into my cousin J.B. in this vintage clothing store, only we weren't sure if it was him, so we didn't say anything, but shuh, of course it was. But I like being there. I like watching people walking around and just living. It's a humbling feeling, and it makes me feel grateful.

As far as the show goes, I had a grand time, I hope everyone enjoyed it. I love Arbour Drive and B'Gosh (Dan is Kyle's cousin!). Let's tour. I don't love Pratisan and Control Freaks. We helped carry the guillotine/dummy off stage. I got the legs. Kthnx.

I thought we did pretty good, I was definitely a little shaky in the beginning then got more comfortable, but still don't do much..the Oasis approach to performing. James, Joe and Paul got the crowd going and people danced, major props to Jacob especially, and it was fun. Natti and Kyle came because they're awesome and so gosh darn cute. So did Emilyyyy, hoo-ah. Afterwards, zee band+Lauren, Alex, Mike, Kelly, Jill, Jon, Bridget, and Ashton (what happened to Ron?) went to Kahunaville, that was fun as well. Lauren, Bridg, Ash and I own ski-ball, and..that is all I can remember.

Tomorrow looks good. Whoo, what a pretty color.

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grand!   
01:27am 17/01/2004
  Show tonite, SICK.
My favorites were Arbour Drive (Ed, what was the name of the second song?) and B'Gosh. They're all really nice people too.
Can't think, will continue tomorrow.
First time in weeks I'll be able to sleep in!
Thanks everyone. <3		  
     

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it's for the best if all the flood gates around me are down   
10:54pm 14/01/2004
 
music: ben lee / no room to bleed
Okay, so I'm falling asleep and shivering while I type this out for you all. And it will probably turn out to be pretty bad because of said conditions. Sorry in advance, punks.

Yesterday was an adventure, and I get lost everywhere I drive.
Goodwill was the best though, Lauren and I owned those dresses and Joe got a Members Only jacket.

Today I called the people at Clairol to ask why they thought semipermanent meant permanent. I was instructed to look on the back of the box and it said in size two print that if you go darker than your natural color, it won't wash out. This sucks because I want my hair to be a little longer but I have to get it cut soon so it won't look more stupid than it does now. More bitching to come.

I want to lie in bed and listen to this song forever and ever. And not go into school tomorrow. Or ever again.

Edit: I had a number of bullies when I was younger, one of them was named Jen. She's eighteen now and I just found out that she has a two year old kid...so you mess with me, you pay the price.		  
     

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setopuiewtn48ttaq343ytja   
11:08pm 11/01/2004
 
music: division of laura leeeeeee
Oh snaps! Almost everyone came over Friday night, it was sick to the core. All I can remember at the moment is Joe dancing (with my dad! ew Joe, that's my DAD!), wrestling-like matches on the floor, a lot of Music Choice, and Lauren and I taking advantage of the swings on the outskirts of the shire. It was like eight degrees farenheit, but a hundred and ten degrees awesome. OHH Lauren straightened my hair too, word it up! Props, grrl! I love it tons and want it to be straight forever and ever and ever.
Then I passed out immediately after everyone was gone.

The rest of the weekend was recording. Paul, Joe, and I went in yesterday and they did their stuff, but I didn't quite finish mine..(FIVE times instead of four..don't anticipate note...FUUUCK WHY CAN'T I DO THIS?!), so I came in today again with Paul and James, I think it went a tad more smoothly. Then we had practice and I nearly fell asleep and Joseph wasn't present and there was homework to be done and such, so we ended like an hour and fifteen minutes early. There was almost an adventure on the way to my house. Almost.
I had about forty Algebra problems tonight and I didn't know how to do any of them. Awesome!

Okay, I love you boys and girls.
I'm going to go drown in my sheets.		  
     

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POINTLESS UPDATE YOU DON'T EVEN HAVE TO READ LIKE YEAH   
11:05pm 06/01/2004
 
mood: second day back and already a
music: breakdown! that's going down in the books!
I need to change.
And by change, I mean talk.
To people.
And not be so fucking quiet.

There.

And my horoscope ended with this:
Also, beautiful Venus forms a supportive sextile with dark Pluto, pulling us toward what we cannot see and do not understand.

owdeitj489-t9y?! Sounds great! Boy, what a sunny day.
However, it is totally true.

I'm sick of school. I just want it to end altogether.
I'm sick of life. I just want it to end altogether.


A hug would be nice though too.		  
     

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"it's like a squirrel and racoon, only the tail's different.."   
10:27pm 05/01/2004
 
music: the oranges band / my street
Monday proves to be the mentally challenged day in the Sankus household- we weren't by my sister's classroom down after school as I had thought we were, yes, I am that stupid, and my mom was unable to recall what a badger is earlier this evening.

First day back at school. SWELL.

problem: x2y2 + x3y2 - 2x2y2 + 3x3y + 4x3y2
solution: no.


NitRoGenMaTriXX: i think im going to drop out and become a milk boy		  
     

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like spinning plates   
01:09am 04/01/2004
 
music: yo la tengo / autumn sweater
The show tonight was grand. I really liked the bands, thegunpowderplot did wonderfully as usual, as did crownheartruin. I saw El Toro for the first time, whoa damn. They had a Radiohead element to them; the synthesizer is a beautiful thing. Oh yes.

Okay, there's more, but that's all you done gone get.

I don't ever want to go back to school, ever.

In other news, someody please inform me again what A Man For All Seasons is about. I read it five months ago and remember nothing.		  
     

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these streets will never take me anywhere but here   
05:02pm 02/01/2004
 
mood: ...
Good afternoon.

New Year's was grand, and afterwards was fun. We went to bed at five. Oi.
Yesterday was nothing, tonight I see my lovelies, tomorrow is the show, then it's God awful Sunday.

I've been feeling really pessimistic today. Which I guess is a shame to start off a new year, I think all I really need is a change of sorts. This doesn't mean I'm gonna go cut my hair, not that sort of change, but it'd be nice to be happy with myself for once. Or happy with anything, or in general. Or I can blame it all on the songs I've listened to in the last hour and a half or so. I was fine last night. So it doesn't take much. I don't know if any of this made sense..hopefully tonight will clear my mind and I can stop being all sappy and emo with the Weakerthans on a constant loop. But until then, pass the scissors, please.		  
     

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putting that smartarse cocky kelly clarkson in her place and rightfully so   
12:48am 02/01/2004
 
music: badly drawn boy
Kurt Nilson from Norway won World Idol (yeah, I watched it, fuck you).
I'm so happy I could just cry.		  
     

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i'll see you in the next life...   
11:51pm 30/12/2003
 
music: radiohead / karma police
It has been a very weird thirty-two hours or so (not quite two days). First off, my uncle visited last night....what the hell? What was even weirder was that people kept calling while he was there, including my cousin Mary who calls to talk to my mom only when she's been drinking. What a swell family.

At least tomorrow's New Year's Eve. I think my New Year's Resolution is to have an actual resolution. It'd be nice to have something to shoot for. If it doesn't shoot me first. Anyway, the second annual Riley New Year's Shindig is going down, should be grand. Then afterwards, Lauren and Alex are spending the night here. Lyk, awsum.

And I think next year will be better too, one way or another. At least my grandmother can't die again. Or Mary Ann. So my parents will be happier. I hope everyone's happier. Yeah...that'd be nice.		  
     

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GOOD MORNING!   
01:23am 28/12/2003
 
music: the cure / your house (live in paris)
It's one-thirty....ow.

I did nothing today, except be sick, but by God, I did it well. My muscles are sore, when the most activity I've done is walk from downstairs to upstairs and vice versa. Anyway. New Year's is like Wednesday or..yeah. I don't know. Whenever it is. I'm really looking forward to it. Well next year as a whole, that can wait, but the idea of a new SOMETHING is nice. And something as a mental sense, like the beginning of a new year sounds good in general, doesn't it? Well I thought it did..shut up.		  
     

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christmas (because it's so damn annoying when people put x-mas)   
12:32am 26/12/2003
  I'm way tired to type out all of today's wonderfulness, I hope everyone had a wonderful day too. May you dream of sugar plumbs and...that other one. <3  
     

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something!   
01:04am 23/12/2003
 
music: karma police, pianofied christopher o'riley stylie
I am at a loss for words...not quite sure why. Tonight was Alex's, it was a grand. My friends are awesome. You are all awesome. If you read this, you are awesome......thank you thank you thank you so very much. <3
(Oh yeah. Paul and Jon. You owe Lauren and I something. HA.)

Lots of stuff has been going down, I have a new journal but I don't like it (AGAIN), the variety show was good, I don't care how it went, it was just fun..I played with some nice gentlemen. Pat, Rocco, and I did an encore when all you suckaz left. Anyway, it was nice, and Shea makes quite a good Ashton Kutcher.

Tomorrow I watch over my flu-stricken sis while the folks are out. And now, Christopher O'Riley until drifting off to sleep. I can't get over the way he does these songs. Sigh. Done and done.


Paint-by-number tomorrow? Shuh, yes.		  
     

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"come back to me"   
11:01pm 16/12/2003
 
mood: gone
the amount of times i've watched somewhere in time as of friday..cannot be healthy.
tomorrow, it will be 1912.
because i can't live today anymore.		  
     

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romance!   
07:46pm 12/12/2003
 
music: coldplay / for you
I'm feeling a little more okay. Even though it is a Friday night and I'm about to hit up Blockbuster to rent some sappy lovesick movie. Like Somewhere in Time. And by like I mean definitely. It's kind of humbling to know that I'll be on the couch wrapped up in blankets instead of endlessly doing homework tonight.
I'll be pretty much stuck here. I think I'll make some soup.


On the other hand.
Tomorrow.
Time to get your dance on.
Or something.
Whatev.
Whee, look at all the columns.


In other news, THE WEEK IS FINALLY OVER.		  
     

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the truth and nothing but..   
03:42pm 05/12/2003
 
music: black rebel motocycle club / stop
SNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!

There was to be sledding, but it's more slushy now and rainy, so it might be moved to tomorrow. Everyone go. And I mean everyone. If you breathe, you're invited.

This week was weird, I know I was completely out of it/stupid especially the past few days. I haven't been getting any sleep. Awesome! My music teacher Joe taught me how to play "Creep" on piano yesterday. It was sick to the core. I didn't have to go to Guidance since we got out early today, which was good because watching paint dry is better than that class.


Jon White is a liar and needs to be taught a lesson or five.

when eye awoke: ok ok...
when eye awoke: it is...
when eye awoke: ::drum roll::
when eye awoke: oh Blink is on TV I gotta go...Bye!

haahahahahahahaha76cyxpsdryp 38ypwettu7erhosdfjk34896756wgtwosevenninedf5oddnumberevennumber.....
whatever.		  
     

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you threatened by this town, so lock your door   
11:27pm 30/11/2003
 
music: sebadoh / break free
Going back to school in general isn't bad, but going back on a day three is.

Greatest example of Thanksgiving in the Sankus household:
Kara: "Why didn't we use the candles with the angels?" Mom: "Those are for Christmas. Fool."

Band practices were cool, even with all that man-action thrown in. We're doing "New Year's Day" which means I've got the most badass part of the song. Oh and I made Kevin a mix because he can name no more than eight bands.

The show was fun, some very cool people were there, a lot of bands were good. Okay, I'm gonna go make a sandwich.

Someone suggest a cool username for my snazzy new journal to be, I can't think of anything.		  
     

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you'll never feel it at all   
02:00am 30/11/2003
 
music: thursday
being angry and upset over a deep layer of depression is the deadliest combination of emotions ever. it's just bad. even when you're passed all that, it's back to where you began. i can't tell if things are really bad as they fucking seem to be or i'm always upset over nothing. maybe i'm getting too emo for my own good. tonight tore me into pieces. there were parts of it that were so great, and parts of it that did the actual tearing...and i'm really shy and i hate that. i hate a lot of things right now. a lot of things hurt. but i'm brushing it all off. which i guess works for a while. where do you go from there? i hope things will change soon. i hope you'll change your mind.		  
     

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the best parts of lonely   
01:32am 29/11/2003
  the later it gets, the quieter it gets. the less there is to say, the less is said to me. the more i give up on capitalizing..

i can't sleep. i am so fucking tired of saying that.


wait for the year to drown.
spring forward, fall back down.
and try not to wonder where you are...		  
     
 
 
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