how can you just walk away in the middle of a conversation that was really fucking important to me?!

WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO WRONG?!

Current Mood: angry

ahhh. so dumb. so much more i wanted to say. grr.

<3<3gym class<3<3

why does my life have to wear a helmet?

Current Mood: annoyed

ahhh can i just express my hatred for school, phones, busy signals, drama, girls, sluts, cutters, girls who rub their "perfect" relationships in my face, girls who fake bulimia, "hitler", drama queens, girls who look like boys, people who get into other people's business and anything/anyone associated with everything i just listed? can i?

NO I CANNOT BECAUSE THERE ARE NO WORDS TO EXPRESS IT!

ahahaha. today was just laame. i can't wait to go to sleep.

<3<3<3ker

Current Mood: amused

can this situation get a little MORE retarded, please?! really. tell one more random person that knows absolutely nothing about me to read my livejournal. because i like it.

anyways. i hung out with care tonite..always a fun time. i don't feel like such a freak when we hang out hahaha plus, tonite i was feeling really low. and now i'm not. thanks, care! <3

tomorrow-school. dread dread dread dread. i can't wait for friday. weekend.

ahhhh i heart life. sometimes. and now could be one of those times.

<3<3<3ker

Current Mood: content
Current Music: full house.

i decided that i'm done with being pathetic. i was pathetic last time, and look where that got me. A B S O L U T E L Y nowhere. it's my turn to be happy now..and for more than a day or two. we're through, and you could care less. well, if you don't care then i won't either. if this was all meaningless high school drama to you, then that's all it was to me. i know i'll never forget you, even if i try. don't worry though, you can erase me with some weed and the right girl. you've done it before. whatever, thanks for teaching me that 17 year old boys with raging hormones only care about getting some. i'll keep it in mind.

bye.

Current Mood: accomplished

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ERICA!!! <3<3<3<3

hey lush, have fun. it's the weekend.

Current Mood: aggravated

wow. my heart feels so heavy that i'm afraid it'll fall into my stomach and get digested. then again, that wouldn't be so bad..

Current Mood: crushed

I AM SO FREAKING HAPPY RIGHT NOW I CANNOT EVEN EXPLAIN IT AHHHHHHHH AHAHAHAH!!!

=DDDDDD

things are going to be okayyyyyyy they're turning out alrightttt and i am soooo happpyyyyy!!!

Current Mood: ecstatic
Current Music: coheed and cambria - a favor house atlantic

we're gonna make it.

Current Mood: determined
Current Music: longwave - tidal wave

i was just sitting here thinking. and i thought of the time that i hung out with sam, kait, and gb for a full weekend. haha, i remember when we were at the park sitting on the swings..

me: "wow i wanna slap her in the face."
gb: "she'd probably prefer the ass."

wow, that just shows how terrible we were. hahaha, but it was kind of funny. then we slept at sam's house and went to the beach with kait's mom and her sister. well, gb's mom said that HER sister would come pick us up, so kait's mom and sister left. then gb called this guy she liked who lived in canada and he said he'd come to the beach. so then sam and kait stayed on the beach and gb and i sat at the sign at the entrance for like 3 hours. a couple times we walked around a bit and got ice cream and stuff and we were harassed by the ugliest guys ever. can i just say that was one of THE BEST days of my life. i got to know gb so well and it was just really fun. i didn't know gb like at all at that point. and it really sucks because that was like the last time we ever hung out. lol, long story short, gb's sister didn't wanna come get us, we went to gb's aunt's house on a different beach, her sister came and was mad, i left my purse in canada, and ended up with the worst BLISTERING sunburn ever (even though i wore SPF 50!!) and everyone else looked like tan supermodels.

all in all, one of the best days of summer '02.

Current Mood: nostalgic

to me you are the light from a lightbulb that breaks sometimes, and the tender warmth inside is released into my life, and it smothers me in flames that lick and scortch my face, as the smoke reaches the sky, know i'm burning tonite, know i'll burn for you tonite..

Current Mood: dorky

how come you look so good when i can only see you for 15 seconds? =(

Current Mood: annoyed

haha i had a great weekend. saturday i went to matt's with christina. we got there and matt and john were gone?! ahh haha we hung out with his fam. his nephew danced for us. awwe. well the best part of the nite (by far) was SPOONING WITH CHRISTINA!! haha then maybe the second best part was stripping down in the laundry room while trying to block the door. very tricky hahaha. freddy vs. jason was a waste of my life and we didn't finish welcome to the dollhouse! tear tear.

sunday was a long day. i had a wonderful adventure with care. okay this is EXACTLY how it happened: care was trying to turn to get into another lane and the wheel locked up. we were just about to die when it turned the SLIGHTEST bit. we got down a side street and turned the car off. we looked under the hood of the car and found a loose part. all of a sudden, out of NOWHERE, this pack of wild bears tries to eat us. luckily, we had pretzels. we threw them to the bears, and eventually they went away. we were a little nervous after that, but we're brave gals so we tried not to let it get to us. we walked to the main road and stuck out our thumbs. we were then picked up by a trucker named bubba and his dog sparky. we told bubba what happened, and he got mad because we didn't save him any pretzels so he threw us out. so care and i trudged on into the blizzard. all of a sudden there was this sled with 5 dogs attached. we sat on the sled and said 'mush!' and we were on our way. we finally made it, thanks to our loyal team of dogs. and that's EXACTLY what happened. no lie. well. maybe not. i don't know, the details are kind of fuzzy.

today i hung out with my favorite person ever. i love you. times ten..thousand.

yea, and to follow a really fun weekend..school. shoot me in the foot.

<3<3<3ker

Current Mood: amused
Current Music: family guy

1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I lovable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. When and how did we first meet?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. What do you think my weakness is?
8. Do you think I'll get married?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do you know me?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger, weaker, or staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
20. Are you going to put this on your livejournal and see what I say about you?

Current Mood: restless

ugh. so much for tonite being a good nite.

how did i know i'd fucking spend this weekend all by myself?

god today sucked so fucking much. why did i leave? why did i even go over to your house? FUCK!!!! I FUCKING HATE ALL YOU PEOPLE.

Current Mood: bitchy

somebody tell me why this week's still dragging on.

i'm so mad at myself. i waited for that and when it finally came i was asleep. grrr. i really fucking hate myself sometimes.

i hope tomorrow's fun. i hope the people that said they'd go with me actually go with me. well. if they don't it'll still be fun. but i'll be disappointed.

i'm going to be in a good mood.

Current Mood: hopeful

Meaghan. I don't like you. You don't like me. WE DON'T LIKE EACH OTHER. We are not friends. Who the fuck cares?! Seriously. There's no rule that says we HAVE to like each other. But really, there's no need for the theatrics. There's no reason to dump ketchup on my lap or kick my seat incessantly. There's no reason to get people to gang up on me. It's not as if we've been friends for awhile. We haven't liked each other for a long time and you know it. Stop being such a drama queen and get over it.

Current Mood: annoyed

well. i'm sure all of you have wondered what it would be like if christine abadalio and i were one person. i'm sure all of you have ALSO wondered what it would be like to have a conversation with this sexy gal. well, good news! you no longer have to wonder.

i call her kerstine.

you: "hi kerstine! how are you?"
kerstine: "good AM i! you HOW ARE?"
you: "uhh..well i'm great. lovely weather we've been having, eh?"
kerstine: "HOT it is. AM sweating I!"
you: "ohh..well. okay. bye."
kerstine: "TOMORROW you see!"

i'm glad that i can answer the questions on everyone's minds.

Current Mood: accomplished

I FOUND MY ENGLISH NOTEBOOK!!!!

because i have nothing else to do at 1:22 am but celebrate. haha hey, it's 1:22 am..that's our time, isn't it?

Current Mood: accomplished