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Mindy's Journal ![]() Ladies and gentlemen, 5ilver returns tomorrow because I am sick of this damn livejournal. So this is going to be my last post on this livejournal for a while. Be sure to stop by 5ilver tomorrow around 12:00PM mountain time because I will be on cam live and having a club chat. So if you are not a member of the Yahoo club, go join and talk live with me!! The new design is not that great. Simple and clean and that's all there is too it. Oh. And Mindy has blonde hair now. Eek. Current mood: ![]() Current music: Stardust - "Music Sounds Better With You". ![]() What's up? Definitely in a better mood now. :P Markelle, Brent, and I went around town today and had a good time. Brent made me feel so much better, thank you! We went to McDonald's first and then chilled at my house for a while. Then I got my normal Chai Craving so we went to Borders and Brent bought me a Chai. <3<3!! Then we came home and left again and went to Wal-Mart. I went makeup shopping and we looking at shampoos and dye and Markelle was taking pictures of weird shit. Then we went and looked at girly underwear for the hell of it and the boxers. LOL don't ask. We just got bored. Then we came BACK home again and I took a picture of Markelle and warped the shit out of it and made her totally look goth. She will be posting it soon, watch for it. I am nervous about tomorrow but ::sigh::, maybe things will turn out ok. It's a surprise, shuish! ;) AND OH GOD I HAVE A SPECIAL REQUEST!! Does anyone know that song where the main verse goes "Ooo... la la" and I don't remember the rest of it. I heard it at cheer camp once, I think a guy is singing it, maybe not. If ANYONE knows what that song is, PLEASE TELL ME!! :D Current mood: ![]() Current music: Nothing. ![]() I was planning on going running this morning but since I am a lazy bitch, that didn't happen. I am going to do it later tonight if I can. Other than that, Markelle, Brent, and I are going to get some food and then watch a movie or something. This is my second call to Paypal and they are really starting to piss me off. "It could be the beginning of next week before we get back to you. My fucking GOD would people just correct this shit PLEASE?! I didn't go to sleep last night until really late. I laid down and then an hour later, got back up and just sat around. When I finally went back to bed, I couldn't fall asleep. I had so much on my mind and I was just seriously freaking out and crying and trying to trick myself into thinking I was tired. It didn't work. So I am really feeling groggy today. Nothing is going to get accomplished. Current mood: ![]() Current music: Nothing. ![]() My Lord I fucking hated today. Seriously. Me, Brent, Markelle, and Hannah all drove down to Denver in hopes of finding The Art Institute. One little wrong turn and we we so fucked. I FUCKING HATE ONE WAY STREETS AND DENVER IS NOTHING BUT THEM!! So after a while I just go SO pissed off we just left. And I apologize to you three because I was being such a bitch in the car. That just REALLY pissed me off. My parents are also pissing me off. A long time ago I told them I wanted a computer and that I was going to save up for it. They said "good for you, we're not going to help you so save it and get one." THAT IS WHAT I AM DOING and now suddenly they are telling me how big of a mistake I am making. My parents also do not understand this whole college issue. I thought my mom wanted me to go but lately I have been thinking twice. She wants me to work and so does my dad. I will work but my God, I am going to college too. I have been seriously planning on college my entire life and now it's like it's just not going to happen. If everything shoots downhill, I can always go to AIMS and then to UNC (even though I fucking DO NOT want to go there). I want to go all out and get the best degree I can. I mean, if you are going to go to college, take advantage of it! Take it ALL in. That is what I am trying to do but my parents really don't understand that. I don't want to get into the personal reasons of "why" here because this is something I am not going to put on the net but it really hurts me lately to sit in my room and wonder what the hell is going to happen. If I am going to be able to go or not. If I will be able to get my degree or not. So for the past two hours I have been sitting in my room bawling my eyes out, shaking, not knowing what the hell I am going to do next. Crying over the stupid little shitty things that happened today. Crying about how we got lost in Denver and how I didn't get to see the college. Crying because I have wanted to buy a computer and now when I am SO FUCKING CLOSE my parents are yelling at me telling me how large of a mistake I am about to make. Crying because I feel so fucking sorry for my dad and crying out of anger because my mom is a fucking alcoholic. I HATE CHANGE. And I feel even worse because when we got back I told everyone I was going to take a nap. Hannah left and Brent came back inside for a little bit. Then I just broke down, went in my bathroom, and just started crying. Then I walk out, staring at the floor, and ask him to leave. I don't want anyone to see me cry and it kills me if it is Brent. I am soooo sorry if I hurt your feelings, Brent. I didn't mean to. I just wanted to be alone so I could just lay in my bed and be depressed as usual. And I fucking hate it. Current mood: ![]() Current music: Nothing. ![]() Man, does Paypal blow. Someone was nice enough to send $40 my way through it. However, I had a girl buy a layout from me a month or so ago. Seems like she used a fake credit card so now my balance in there is a negative amount. And the $40 only made the negative amount deduct a tad. I was so fed up I called Paypal and told them to PLEASE just reverse the funds from the chick, give the money back to whoever's card it is, and just forget it. I don't want this shit coming out of my bank account. So now I can't get the $40 to get the computer and I can't get the funds to reverse (even though they are working on it right now). Damnit. More trouble than it is worth. In a little bit Brent, Hannah, and maybe Markelle and I are driving down to Denver. We're going to The Art Institute to pick up a catalog describing their classes. I just got back from Central and I picked up my transcripts including my grades, my ACT scores, crap like that. I did pretty damn good so I am a happy girl. :D It was sick though, when Markelle and I were walking out, some girl fell on the sidewalk and there was blood pouring down her face. Ugh, sorry I don't like looking at blood but I felt so bad for her. There was a teacher kneeling by her, holding her glasses and another girl with her arm around her. The girl was bawling. I just turned around to see what happened and there was blood everywhere. ::yacks:: Anyway, out of here to wait for Brent to get off work. I should go pull money out because I need gas. This is really pissing me off, I am never going to get this computer. :( I have to keep taking money out for gas and other crap. FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!%&$#(%& I wish I could just win the lotto. :*( Current mood: ![]() Current music: Nothing. ![]() I just got back from hanging out with Markelle, Brent, and Adrian over at Brent's house. It was fun times, we watched Dante's Peak. Good movie even though Brent didn't really feel up to watching it for the 95437th time. Sorry! :) I am still in shock about the getting laid off. Man, most people would hate it but I mean shit, this call center is closing, I would have had a few more weeks anyway, AND I still get paid. Nicccce. So I am a happy happy girl. Poor Brent though. The entire time we were at his house he kept saying how sad he was and how he didn't want to work anymore. Damn I don't blame him. Coming in at 4:30am has got to blow so bad. Hope you get laid off soon too Brent!! :x I cannnnnnot take this livejournal shit anymore. Damn, it never wants to update and it's slow and PLUH! 5ilver come back to me. :( I am almost done though. I just need to put the finishing touches on a few things and then it will be ready to open. We'll have a live chat when it opens and a live cam show and all of that wonderful stuff, even though I doubt anyone will show up. :/ But it's ok, we'll have fun. :) So keep watching here and on 5ilver, I will put the date up soon!! Very soon. I am hoping next week! I guess I should be going. I am going to see if I can find some stuff to sell on eBay to make my $40 to get my comp. My God I am sooooo close. Brent offered to give me $40 and then I would pay him back but I can't do it. You need that to pay off your vette, love. So I will do it! I MUST! I NEEEEED THAT COMPUTER!! And you will all be damn happy when I stop talking about it, won't you. ;) Aw crap, I have to go to Central tomorrow to get my transcripts. Blah. No sleeping in for me. Current mood: ![]() Current music: Nothing. ![]() YES!! I GOT LAID OFF!! WOOOOOO!! I get paid for my 40 hours for the next few weeks and I get to sit home and do NOTHING!!!!!! Do you hear me?! I GET TO BE LAZY AGAIN!!!!!!!!!! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!! In other news, I am kind of bummed. I am $40 short of getting my computer. Now what the hell is up with that? FORTY!! Damnit damnit damnit damnit. Current mood: ![]() Current music: Nothing. ![]() Whoa, I just got an email at work that says I have to attend a meeting. It was only sent to like 17 people. The last time they sent that email out, those people got laid off. YES!!!!! I hope that is what it is for!! Seriously, I have been wanting to get laid off forever now!! Oh the joy! Because I still get paid up until Feb. 26th!! Joy of joys! I guess I will find out for sure around 4:00PM. Current mood: ![]() Current music: Nothing. ![]() Well, I went to talk to the senior advisor at Aims today and we talked about what I need to do. Damn do I have to take a lot. I will be getting my Associate in Arts at Aims and then they will be transfering me to The Art Institute of Colorado (which I found out today is a private college) to finish up my two more years and get my Bachelor in Fine Arts. So I guess I really have a lot to do this week. I have to get ahold of a catalog from the Art Institute and see which classes I can just take at Aims. I really do not want to take Spanish one and two over again. BLAH! And tomorrow morning I need to go to Central and get my transcript. Then I will be registering for classes. Mhmm. Current mood: ![]() Current music: Basement Jaxx - Where's Your Head At. ![]() Here I am, sitting in the friggin' dark, waiting for 2:30 to roll around. I'll be off to the doctor to find out what the hell is wrong with me and then I will be coming back home and possibly going to Hannah's to see if I can help her with Adobe. I was watching an infomercial today (I love them) and I saw this workout plan where they guarantee you will be all lean and shit after 90 days. I was actually thinking about getting it. It wasn't pills you take or special foods or even a workout machine. It was just videos and stuff. You know what video actually works though? Seriously. Buns 'o' Steel. :) Hehe, I am not kidding. We were forced to do it once in cheerleading. My God I felt that burn. It is a really good tape. Anyway, I am going to get my shoes on, get out of this dark ass room, and go upstairs and just sit with my mom until I have to leave. Then later tonight it's off to AIMS I go. Wish me luck. Current mood: ![]() Current music: Nothing. ![]() |
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