Monday, November 17th, 2003

Time: 7:09 am. Mood: tired.

i'm pretty much incapable of doing anything that i could be good for me. i don't understand how people form relationships and "go out with" people. i dont know..i guess i'm some kind of social retard. when i like someone i can barely talk to them. but of course with guys that i don't like that way, i'm completely free and i can hardly care less. i dont know, my friends say that they understand and do the same thing, but they have people they like who like them back, and nothing is relatable. i think i have to get over the whole process of thinking about everything and instead just do whatever..and be 'myself' even though i don't know completely who i am. i'm just tired of the relationships that i build up to be huge in my head, but in reality don't develop into anything at all. that's what happens to me all of the time. and it really doesn't help my almost non existant self-esteem. because each time something bad happens, my confidence gets worse and worse. i'm relying on getting out of here next year, so i can start over and hopefully make some kind of transition..where i actually grow up and can find a boyfriend...hahaha well that was blunt. yeah. p.s. i turend 18 on the tenth. nothing spectacular. for some reason, it's a bigger deal than 17. i guess because i can now buy cigarettes, porn, and vote. and the best part is getting to go to clubs? i'm not much of a big dancer, but i'm still looking forward to it. i have to go...

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Subject: Ohhh gotta see, gotta know right now.... Time: 5:14 pm. Mood: gloomy. Music: all different stuff.

Lately I feel like I don't have any time to do anything. I've been spending the past three weeks at newspaper layout. School, then singing, then a break, then newspaper, then home..then sleep. Nothing gets done anymore. And I've noticed how much of a perfectionist I am when I'm laying out pages-trying to make everything perfect and correct, yet when it comes to "important" things, I am a complete mess. I haven't started any of my college applications, I'm fucking up in school and the first marking period hasn't even ended. Even though this is the year that isn't really looked at, I was doing really well in the beginning and starting to care, and now that's obviously changing. Plus...there's millions of things that I'd like to do on my own. Every night I go to bed and come up with all of these things that I feel like I need to write down. And I tell myself that I shoudl really do it, but then the fact that I have school tomorrow morning and have to wake up at 6:23 comes to mind, and so I just decide that it would be better to try to fall asleep. I want to play my guitar and take the things that I write and form them into songs, but that can't happen if I never have the time to write nor the time to play. I also miss hanging out with my friends. I feel like it's been years! I'll get to go down town and hanging out with random people, but I miss Terri, Keeley, Kim, Kate, etc....I feel like I'm drifting from them. Not all the time...just once in a while..for instance, right now. There's so much I want to do...God, I can't even explain it. It was such a beautiful day yesterday. The perfect weather that requires a jacket. The colors were so pretty and I just wanted to go take a walk in the woods and smoke a cigarette by myself. Instead I chose to waste my time on the couch because I was so tired and had to go to newspaper later. I just feel like I'm never going to get out of the hole that I've placed myself in. I want the motivation to apply to college and do everything else, but it's not looking good.

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Subject: 'Til they see themsleves in telescopes, tell me, do you see yourself in me? Time: 9:08 pm. Mood: irritated. Music: Counting Crows.

Wow. The loneliness of this season...I guess that's the downside of it for me. Every year I go through the same thing. I just want somebody to keep me warm when I don't have a coat, or to keep me company when I'm in a lousy mood. Heh...that seems like such a simple request, but instead those things are so complicated and impossible at this time. I wonder when people get over the complications of being a teenager. Maybe I'll stop worrying and over-analyzing once I hit 20. That's a long way off though. I'm just a little sick of being alone. I don't expect to find some huge romance at North Hunterdon High School, but it'd be nice to, dare I say, cuddle with somebody once in a while. I miss that. I don't want drama or a big commitment, I'm just looking for someone who wants to talk about the different colors of the leaves. Do those kind of relationships exist? Whatever happened to watching a movie with a boy and kissing-really general, easy stuff like that. Maybe I'm living in some kind of fantasy world, but I thought those types of things existed.

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Subject: then i wake up to a morning that is warm and bright, oh ellie my love so sweet. Time: 6:57 pm. Mood: rejuvenated. Music: ray charles.

autumn inspires me to take walks again. sometimes i like to take the long way home..through the woods, all by myself, just thinking. and then i realize that everything that's a mess will somehow be okay. for some reason, this weather has enormous power over me. i feel refreshed, for a moment. and instead of the moment fading away like it usually does, it seems to stay for a little longer during the autumn time. on a side note. man, can ray charles sing.

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Subject: Everybody is such a stranger...that's the danger, of going my own way. Time: 12:54 am. Mood: bored.

Firsts. First best friend: Caitlyn Shneider?? In 2nd grade. First real memory of something: I don't know...there are so many. First car: I guess the jeep, even though I don't drive yet that will be the first one. First date: heh..matt trevor First real kiss: zane sweeny (haha what a dorky name) First break-up: haha matt First job: the phat pharm First screen name: linzzzyy...and it still is..heuuul! First self purchased album: ALanis Morisettes Jagged Little Pill First funeral: my nanny First pets: hahah i think it was 'whitey' my bunny rabbit First piercing/tattoo: ears when i was young...i forget how old...no tattoo yet..maybe on november 10th, 2003? First credit card: n/a First true love: closest to it was uh...j.l. First enemy: everyone i meet First big trip: new hampshire! woooooooohooo First musician you remember hearing in your house: i dunno Lasts. Last cigarette: tonite Last big car ride: um..boston Last kiss: dan Last good cry: not very good..but a brief one tonite in the movies..haha im such a sap. Last library book checked out: chronicle of a death foretold Last movie seen: matchstick men Last food consumed: salad Last crush: dave Last phone call: ter Last time showered: 3 o'cloccck in the afternoon Last shoes worn: my cons Last cd played: ghost world soundtrack Last item bought: certainly not a movie ticket..muahahaha. um...cigarettes? : / eek Last annoyance: my parents? Last disappointment: uh...no call from someone, but then i finally got one today..so. Last soda drank: coke Last time wanting to die: i dunno Last time scolded: I dunno. Last shirt worn: a blue t-shirt Last website visited: live journal

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Subject: the price of a memory is the memory of the sorrow it brings. Time: 9:37 pm. Mood: confused.

i wish i could see billy more...i miss him. and i wish i didn't have to do homework this year. i think i'm just o.d'ed with school. i've been going to north for the past 3 years, how much more is there to do...same homework, same tests. new classes, yeah..but the only ones that are interesting are the electives. fuck the system. everything is about system everywhere we go. how has it become accepted that your 'most important classes' are math, english, science, and history. where do the ones that don't have these titles come in? the ones with cool teachers who are interested in what they are teaching you and who care that you obtain the information that they're giving out and that you actually get into learning it. . . i'm so annoyed with people not getting the credit they deserve. my video teacher is amazing, and for some reason (maybe this is in my head) i believe that he, or video itself, isn't taken all that seriously. people sign up for the class thinking it will be an easy A, not to actually discuss movies and learn about filming and the beauty of everything behind it. i'm just rambling on here..but it's a shame that this class or others for that matter, aren't looked upon on the same level as the other mandatory classes. i don't have any motivation right now. this kind of attitude isn't supposed to kick in untill the 2nd marking period. shit. i have a lot of work for brit lit to do by friday, but i guess i'll just do it tomorrow. on another note...i took a walk home from clinton today. i had my friend drop me off there after being out in flemington with some people, and it turned out that no one was down there, surprisingly. only blake and some other scum's..muahaha. so i walked home...which i wasn't really in the mood for doing. for some reason, every time i walk home from clinton, all of these memories will pop into my head. i guess it's because i used to walk home all the time, since i was in the 6th grade, so if i don't do it in a while i think about how much i used to do it..and then of coure that brances off into other areas. but i was basically just thinking about my surronding neighbors. and the perfect, almost identical houses lined up right next to each other. evreything reminded me of a movie set. the kind of movie where it's freaky how similar it appears to be compared to real life. hell, the sunlight reminded me of a gigantic spotlight, and my strange old neighbors who were outside, acted as the perfect characters to be featured in the film. the outcasts. i sometimes think im a fucked up girl. haha. and that my mind compares real life to fantasy, and it's hard sometimes for me to tell the difference. i'm pretty out of touch with reality and i think its a shame to live like that. i cant understand that things that are going around me are real at times. i don't know what to think of it at all. i want to be able to accept whats happening, but sometimes it's so hard that i guess i find myself creating a better world in my head. does anybody else do this?

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Subject: silence Time: 4:19 pm. Mood: sad. Music: radiohead.

i'm sad that i have to go back to school tomorrow. earlier in the summer, i kind of wanted to..just because i was feeling bored with everything. and now the reality of it has hit me. school is so stressfull. everything about it. the work, the people, the boredom. i feel so trapped. i'm going to miss driving around with my friends and just listneing to music and making fun of other people in cars. going 100..1111100 on highways. doing ridiculus stuff at late hours of the night. i guess there's always the weekends. but they're so short. and then there's that lingering thought that school is only two days away..and so weeks and weeks go by, filled with non-stop suffering. this is probably exaggerated, but whatever. i cant deal with it.

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Subject: she says, 'you're changing.' we're always changing... Time: 12:15 am. Mood: apathetic.

you know that feeling? the kind thats not even completely lurking in your mind but you can feel it in your gut. where you're tired, but you don't feel like going to sleep. because sleep is boring. but everything is boring, and nothing can keep you happy or entertained, yet you still don't want to move onto the next day. it's like you're hanging on for something really amazing to happen and make you feel a little better, even though you aren't feeling sorry for yourself or anyone. it's just htis feeling that doesn't even cause much damage, but instead just floats around. thats how i feel.

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Subject: BEYONCEEEEEEEEEEEEE! Time: 8:28 am. Mood: sick.

Last car ride: last night at about 7 Last kiss: friday night Last good cry: maybe friday, i dont know Last library book checked out: light in august-william faulkner Last movie seen: rushmore..fell asleep Currently reading: light in august Last cuss word uttered: haha most likely, 'fuckin a' Last beverage drank: water Last food consumed: cap'n crunch Last crush: heh...this is weird typing it out, so i'm not going to. Last phone call: um....i called billy Last TV show watched: saved by the bell woot woot Last time showered: yesterday afternoon Last shoes worn: birks Last CD played: the who Last item bought: coffee Last downloaded: a bunch of them at the same time Last annoyance: my runny nose Last disappointment: me not going to work Last soda drank: one on friday Last thing written: a journal entry? Last key used: the question mark key Last words spoken: 'sorry' Last sleep: this mornings Last IM: 'aaahahahahaha' Last ice cream eaten: butter pecan Last time amused: yesterday Last time wanting to die: i dunno Last time hugged : billy, yesterday Last time resentful: meh Last chair sat in: the couch, if that counts Last lipstick used: i use chapstick Last underwear worn: um...striped victorias secret? Last time dancing: yesterday in the car Last poster looked at: my jewel one..heh Last web page visited: friendster or this 1 MINUTE AGO: sniffled 1 HOUR AGO: i woke up 1 DAY AGO: i met liz phair w/ jon and went to a pizarty 1 WEEK AGO: i was at fucking work. 1 YEAR AGO: i was probably on vacation, or yet again..at work. I HURT: in random places on my body..ahem. i have this annoying scratch on my arm that kind hurts and is ugly to look at. I LOVE: my friends I HATE: the way i analyze everything I FEAR: being alone I HOPE: that the above two things will change I HIDE: marco... I DRIVE: soon. a black jeep. I MISS: terri I LEARNED: a good amount this summer. I NEED: to relax and have fun....its only life after all I THINK: aboout the same things over and over again

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Subject: thats okay, i understand, this aint no never never land Time: 2:36 pm. Mood: sick. Music: 'if you're feeling sinister' belle & sebastian.

stolen from erin. AGE: 17...18 in november. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? nothing. i have 'angel in the centerfold' in my head, so its all good baby baby LAST THING YOU SAID? "bye." WHAT IS SITTING NEXT TO YOU RIGHT NOW? gogs, book, camera, cds, mouse, mousepad LAST THING YOU ATE? a donut WHO DO YOU WANT TO SPEND THE REST OF YOUR LIFE WITH? a nice man..or billy. hahahah. WHERE DO YOU WANT TO GO ON YOUR HONEYMOON? italy FIRST DAUGHTERS NAME? fuck. i have too many that i like. perhaps veyda. FIRST SONS NAME? ben. not benjamin, just ben...and then we'll call him benji. WHO DO YOU ADMIRE? i dont know. no one. WHO MAKES YOU HAPPY? my few friends. my brother at times. my cousins. HOW MANY BUDDIES ON YOUR LIST? 82 WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO? i dont know. i used to like to do a lot of different things, now it seems like all i really do is work, go out with my few friends, smoke cigarettes, load up on caffeine, go to sanctuary. i sometimes read books. and i listen to music..i like to download music too, but now my moms telling me i have to delete kazaa. thats upsetting. i also go on AIM. and i still enjoy singing, i always have. WHAT DID YOU DO YESTERDAY? haha. worked. went to shoprite to shop for the party. went to jons house and got ridiculusly drunk..like a fool. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO? billy. WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF? being alone. meaning...never finding anyone. i know, thats silly. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS OR GLASSES? gogs. EYE COLOUR? green HAIR COLOUR? blonde and some others mixed in HEIGHT? 5'7 WEIGHT? psht, i dont weigh myself. DO YOU LIKE YOURSELF? occasionally. but rarely. IF YOU COULD CHANGE ONE THING ABOUT YOURSELF WHAT WOULD IT BE? my self-confidence. SIBLINGS? travis, the older 'better' sibling. CAREER? now? haha. a counselor. in the future? rock journalist. reality? a homeless woman living on the streets of new york city. GOING TO UNIVERSITY? eh. i doubt ill be going anywhere. maybe. if im lucky. WHERE DO YOU SEE YOURSELF 10 YEARS DOWN THE ROAD? i cant tell. HAVE YOU EVER... LOVED SOMEBODY SO MUCH IT MADE YOU CRY? yes. but i was being stupid. DRANK ALCOHOL? yes SMOKED? yes TAKEN DRUGS? yes BROKEN THE LAW? yes BROKEN A BONE? no CHEATED ON A TEST? yes PLAYED TRUTH OR DARE? yes KISSED SOMEONE YOU DIDN'T KNOW? yes BEEN IN A PHYSICAL FIGHT? yeah RODE IN A POLICE CAR? hahahah uhh..yes. COME CLOSE TO DYING? yez BEEN IN A SAUNA? nah BEEN IN A HOT TUB? yeah. SWAM IN THE OCEAN? yaah, yaah. i love. SCARS? a few. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT? ABORTION: mixed. its hard to say unless youre in the situation. COUNTRY MUSIC: whos bed have your boots been under? -shania twain. SOAP OPERAS: nope. not a fan. unless its dawsons creek. : / AIRPLANES: ive never been on one. id like to give that a whirl. AMUSEMENT PARKS: fun. but very crowded. WHAT IS... YOUR GOOD LUCK CHARM: it used to be this perfume. it wasnt really for good luck, it just made me feel good in this weird way. but it ran out. meh. STUPIDIST THING YOU'VE EVER DONE: countless. DO YOU HAVE A LAVA LAMP? yes, but its all fucked up now because i was really bored once and decided to shake it up a lot and now it wont work. DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL? hahah no comment. PRIZED POSSESION: it used to be my guitar. um. now i really dont know. GOOD DRIVER? i doubt i will ever be. GOOD AT SPORTS? i pretedn like i am. haha. GOOD ACTOR/ACTRESS: yes DEEP SLEEPER? not really SHY? yeah, sometime syou cant tell, but i am. GOOD STORYTELLER? haha no! im terrible. HAVE YOU EVER HAD... STITCHES? nope. BLOODY NOSE? i think so. but only once. CANCER? nope SURGERY? no. HOSPITALISED? maybe, i dont remember. i dont think so. SOMEONE BESIDES YOUR FAMILY SAY THEY LOVE YOU? my friends. anybody more than a friend? no. DO YOU ENJOY PARKS? yes. project playground. <3 LIKE PICNICS? sure. LIKE SCHOOL? sometimes. COLLECT ANYTHING? found objects. LIKE TO SHOP? not really. sometimes, i guess. LIKE TO PARTY? yeah, but then i do and i screw myself over. so its mixed. GET IN TROUBLE A LOT? depends. EAT A LIVE HAMSTER FOR A MILLION DOLLARS? no, probably not GO TO A HANSON CONCERT IF YOU HAD A FREE TICKET? why not? GOT ANYTHING PIERCED? ears and eyebrow WHAT THREE THINGS WOULD YOU TAKE FROM YOUR ROOM IF YOU WERE STRANDED ON A DESERTED ISLAND? music, books, guitar WHAT IS YOUR LIFE MOTTO? "it's only life after all." thats not it, i just like that quote. i dont have a life motto. because life is a joke, really. that was fun. i like that survey.

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Time: 11:47 pm. Mood: thirsty.

T o s s me a cigarette I think theres one in my raincoat. We smoked the last one an hour ago. The Bridgewater Mall with Rachel and Jon. Holding the handicapped button to open the door for us when we could have easily pushed it open ourselves. Hydroplaning on 22. Taking 10 minutes to decide where we should go next. Spinningwheel. Coffee. "I'll have the grilled cheese number." "For you?" "An egg?" *Haha*. Waters with !lemon!. Cigarettes. Conversation. Summer. Tonight was one of those nights when I come home feeling okay. When I have the motivation to update this thing. One of those nights when I feel at ease..with myself and my life. . . even though sometimes it's hard to believe that I'm actually living it.

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Subject: i shake like a toothake Time: 11:06 pm. Mood: okay. Music: wilcoooooooooo.

tonite was nice. i went bowling w/ jimmy, mark, and dimitrios. i had a good time, i guess i'm just a little shy around them. they're hilarious, and i'd like to hang out w/ them more often. i like hanging out with all different kinds of people. it's refreshing. wilco makes the most beautiful music.

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Subject: i, i close my door at night, and she gets in alright... Time: 4:07 pm. Mood: lonely. Music: buffalo tom.

i want a boyfriend. i'm lonely. i want the whole cliched romance...everything...the first kiss, watching movies and falling asleep, being held, holding hands, talking about everything, all of it.

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Time: 12:08 pm. Mood: discontent. Music: 'the man in me' -dylan.

i think ive done this one before. sorry. Name = lindsay Piercings = eyebrow and ears Tattoos = when im 18 Height = 5'7 Shoe size = 9.5 or 10 Hair color = blonde and brown Length = medium length-long Siblings = brother travis...heuuuul LAST... Movie you rented = uhh....white oleander? Movie you bought = a life less ordinary..at a garage sale for only a buck. Song you listened to = 'a song for you' by ray charles Song that was stuck in your head = that fucking uncle kracker song...which i despise CD you bought = its been a while..i cant remember CD you listened to = most likely, counting crows..august and everything after Person you've called = billy Person that's called you = billy TV show you've watched = et on mtv Person you were thinking of = jon from friendly grounds..eek, this is getting pathetic. DO... You have a bf or gf = no You have a crush on someone = yeah You wish you could live somewhere else = yeah You think about suicide = yes Others find you attractive = i doubt it You want more piercings = yes! wOOt. You drink = sure You do drugs = sure You smoke = sure You like cleaning = no You like roller coasters = yes You write in cursive or print = Print and cursive...a combination between the two You carry a donor card = no FOR OR AGAINST... Long distance relationships = ive never had one...so i cant say, but im not really for them...because i think thatd be pretty painful Killing people = against Teenage smoking = personal decisions Premarital sex = im not a fan of people having one night stands..but if theyre in a serious relationship, or are in love, then i belive its fine. Driving drunk =against. Gay/lesbian relationship = for Soap operas = dont watcht hem. FAVOURITE... Food = icecream, seafood Song = mrs potters Thing to do = take a walk in the woods...go to diners in other towns, drive late at ngiht with a friend listening to awesome music, go on vacatoin in another state.. Thing to talk about = life Sports = pickle ball..hahaha Drinks = water, coffee, ....beer? shmirnoff? Clothes = pants and a teeshirt or tank top Movies = good will hunting, igby goes down, adaptation, my girl, home alone 1 and 2, now and then, vanilla sky, almost famous...raaaaaah Band/singer = counting crows New nerdy saying = ice HAVE YOU... Ever cried over a girl = yes Ever lied to someone = no way!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ever been in a fist fight = no NUMBER... Of times I have been in love? once Of times I have had my heart broken? i dunno...probably a few. one serious time. others..that dont really matter and werent extreme. so probably only once. Of hearts I have broken? 1 Of girls I have kissed? hahah....2? or 3? dont jump to conclusions. Of boys I have kissed? haha i dunno...i'd say a good amount. Of girls I've slept with? as in having sex...haha none, but ive slept over their houses in their beds. Of boys I've slept with? none, sexually...a couple as in sharing a bed. Of drugs taken illegally? 3 maybe? Of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends? 3. Of people I consider my enemies? ? Of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? 5 maybe Of scars on my body? 5? Of things in my past that I regret? the list goes on forever. FAVORITE... Disney movie = little mermaid.. Scent = balance by eddie bauer, or apricot fig..from sephora Nickname = cunt Guy name = colby or charlie Girl name = sofia, creagan, veyda Eye color = green Flower = hyacinth Piercing = i like a lot of different ones Actress = claire danes, winona ryder Actor = robin williams, nicolas cage, philip seymour hoffman, ethan hawke DO YOU THINK YOU ARE... Pretty = once in a blue moon Funny = occasionally Hot = no Friendly = eh Amusing = eh, not really Ugly = sometimes Loveable = i dont know....... Pessimistic = nah Optimistic = yes Caring = yeah, sometimes Sweet = yes Dorky = yes Spell your first name backwards: yasdnil The story behind your user name: i wanted to pick a crows song, so i used the rain king...w/ a couple of x's? im not a fan of using numbers. Are you straight?: yes...but i have my doubts sometimes..hahaha Where do you live?: NJ : / DESCRIBE YOUR... Wallet: its brown and it used to be my moms, so kind of 70's-esque Hairbrush: light purple Toothbrush: red Jewelry worn daily: watch, and other random stuff... style: whatever i like. room: filled with stuff on the walls...crowded Blanket: my sheet, a pink blanket and a quilt Coffee cup: whatever is clean Sunglasses: hahaha these huge ones i just got from nyc yesterday. theyre great. Shoes: birks or flip flops for the summer. Handbag: depends what mood im in. What you are wearing now: blue pajama pants and red pajama tshirt Hair: messy bun WHO or WHAT (was/is/are) ... In my mouth: cereal about 2 hours ago...and water. In my head : im listening to a song right now, so i guess that... Wishing: nothing at the moment..my life must be shit. After this: i should shower. Talking to: no one... Eating: nothing If you could get away with it and murder anyone, who and for what reason?: i would never want to murder anyone. Person you wish you could see right now: no one. Is next to you: random shit. Something you're looking forward to in this up coming month: a trip to boston and perhaps the beach .i also want to go ona camping trip. Something that you are deathly afraid of?: severe pain. and creepy old men. Do you like candles: yesm Do you like hot wax: yeah, its pretty sweet Do you like incense: nagchampa Do you like the taste of blood: no, but i dont hate it. Do you believe in love: yes, usually...but once in a while i dont. Do you believe in soul mates: i guess. Do you believe in love at first sight: not really. Do you believe in forgiveness: sure Do you believe in God: no What do you want done with your body when you die: i guess to be burried. who knows. Who is your worst enemy?: dont really know If you could have any animal for a pet: i want a kitten..but i dont want it to grwo into a cat..haha. What is the latest you've ever stayed up: 7? later? Ever been to Belgium?: nope Can you eat with chopsticks: not really, im pretty bad. What's your favorite coin?: who the fuck cares. What are 4 cities you wouldn't mind relocating to?: boston, san fran, boulder, and this one in oregon. ive never been to any of them. except boston. What are some of your favorite pig out foods?: icecream Whats something that you wish people would understand?: me What's something you wish you could understand better?: people Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time?: matt wilson, jj Something you want to make happen for tomorrow?: nothing..i have to work. shit sux.

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Time: 11:59 am. Mood: bored.

[ Dress ] blue pajama pants, red ripped up devils pajama shirt [ Mood ] bored and tired and full from eating too much cereal [ Make-up ] nah...maybe my eyes, but thats from last night [ Music ] none [ Taste ] golden crisps..yuck [ Hair ] in a messy bun [ Annoyance ] being bored [ Smell ] i dunno [ Thing I Ought To Be Doing ] not this [ Book ] at the moment 'ash wednesday' by ethan hawke [ Fingernail Color ] no nailpolish [ Refreshment ] water sitting diaganol from me [ Worry ] i dont know really, i dont have the energy to think [ Crush ] hahaha friendly grounds boy, yowzas. [ Favorite Celebrity ] ethan hawke? mmm. Last Person: [ You Touched ] billy [ You Talked to ] travis, my brother [ You Hugged ] billy [ You Instant messaged ] i dont remember...i'm no aim a lot, but i dont really talk on it too much. [ You Yelled At ] travis, but not in a mean way [ You Had A Crush On ] jon from friendly grounds..lol [ Who Broke Your Heart ] i cant mention that [ Kissed ] billy, on the cheek Favorite: [ Food ] it used to be spaghetti and meatballs..but not more meatballs for me...otherwise, almost all seafood..and of course icecream [ Color ] red [CD] god, theres too many [ Shoes ] my docs, or cons cuz theyre comfortable [ Candy ] um.....sour patch kids? [ Animal ] monkeys, kittens, or puppies [ TV Show ] my so-called life or six feet under [ Movie ] good will hunting [ Song ] 'mrs. potters lullaby' [ Vegetable ] tomatos..even though ppl claim its a fruit..psht! [ Fruit ] strawberries, peaches [ Cartoon ] please. Who do you want to: [ Kill ] no one..even though i say i do a lot [ Slap ] um....a bunch of assholes [ Tickle ] no one? my campers. haha. [ Talk To ] someone...im bored. [ Have Sex with ] eh. [ Kiss ] friendly grounds jon [ Be Like ] me, ig uess

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